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The id will not stand
for a delay in gratification. It always feels the tension of the unfulfilled
urge.
Sigmund
Freud
Human aggression is instinctual. Humans have not evolved
any ritualized aggression-inhibiting mechanisms to ensure the survival of the
species. For this reason man is considered a very dangerous animal.
konrad lorenz
Can you hear me
now?
Verizon
Civilization slipped into its second dark age on an
unsurprising track of blood, but with a speed that could not have been foreseen
by even the most pessimistic futurist. It was as if it had been waiting to go.
On October 1, God was in His heaven, the stock market stood at 10,140, and most
of the planes were on time (except for those landing and taking off in Chicago,
and that was to be expected). Two weeks later the skies belonged to the birds
again and the stock market was a memory. By Halloween, every major city from New
York to Moscow stank to the empty heavens and the world as it had been was a
memory.
1
The event that came to be known as The
Pulse began at 3:03 p.m., eastern standard time, on the afternoon of October 1.
The term was a misnomer, of course, but within ten hours of the event, most of
the scientists capable of pointing this out were either dead or insane. The name
hardly mattered, in any case. What mattered was the effect.
At three o'clock
on that day, a young man of no particular importance to history came
walking—almost bouncing—east along Boylston Street in Boston. His name
was Clayton Riddell. There was an expression of undoubted contentment on his
face to go along with the spring in his step. From his left hand there swung the
handles of an artist's portfolio, the kind that closes and latches to make a
traveling case. Twined around the fingers of his right hand was the drawstring
of a brown plastic shopping bag with the words small treasures printed on
it for anyone who cared to read them.
Inside the bag,
swinging back and forth, was a small round object. A present, you might have
guessed, and you would have been right. You might further have guessed that this
Clayton Riddell was a young man seeking to commemorate some small (or perhaps
even not so small) victory with a small treasure, and you would have been
right again. The item inside the bag was a rather expensive glass paperweight
with a gray haze of dandelion fluff caught in its center. He had bought it on
his walk back from the Copley Square Hotel to the much humbler Atlantic Avenue
Inn where he was staying, frightened by the ninety-dollar pricetag on the paperweight's base, somehow even
more frightened by the realization that he could now afford such a
thing.
Handing his
credit card over to the clerk had taken almost physical courage. He doubted if
he could have done it if the paperweight had been for himself; he would have
muttered something about having changed his mind and scuttled out of the shop.
But it was for Sharon. Sharon liked such things, and she still liked him—I'm
pulling for you, baby, she'd said the day before he left for Boston.
Considering the shit they'd put each other through over the last year, that had
touched him. Now he wanted to touch her, if that was still possible. The
paperweight was a small thing (a small treasure), but he was sure she'd
love that delicate gray haze deep down in the middle of the glass, like a pocket
fog.
2
Clay's attention was attracted by the
tinkle of an ice cream truck. It was parked across from the Four Seasons Hotel
(which was even grander than the Copley Square) and next to the Boston Common,
which ran along Boylston for two or three blocks on this side of the street. The
words MISTER SOFTEE were printed in rainbow colors over a pair of dancing ice
cream cones. Three kids were clustered around the window, bookbags at their
feet, waiting to receive goodies. Behind them stood a woman in a pants suit with
a poodle on a leash and a couple of teenage girls in lowrider jeans with iPods
and earphones that were currently slung around their necks so they could murmur
together—earnestly, no giggles.
Clay stood
behind them, turning what had been a little group into a short line. He had
bought his estranged wife a present; he would stop at Comix Supreme on the way
home and buy his son the new issue of Spider-Man; he might as well treat
himself, as well. He was bursting to tell Sharon his news, but she'd be out of
reach until she got home, three forty-five or so. He thought he would hang
around the Inn at least until he talked to her, mostly pacing the confines of
his small room and looking at his latched-up portfolio. In the meantime, Mister
Softee made an acceptable diversion.
The guy in the
truck served the three kids at the window, two Dilly Bars and a monster chocolate-and-vanilla
swirl sof-serve cone for the big spender in the middle, who was apparently
paying for all of them. While he fumbled a rat's nest of dollar bills from the
pocket of his fashionably baggy jeans, the woman with the poodle and the power
suit dipped into her shoulder bag, came out with her cell phone—women in power
suits would no more leave home without their cell phones than without their AmEx
cards—and flipped it open. Behind them, in the park, a dog barked and someone
shouted. It did not sound to Clay like a happy shout, but when he looked over
his shoulder all he could see were a few strollers, a dog trotting with a
Frisbee in its mouth (weren't they supposed to be on leashes in there, he
wondered), acres of sunny green and inviting shade. It looked like a good place
for a man who had just sold his first graphic novel—and its sequel, both
for an amazing amount of money—to sit and eat a chocolate ice cream
cone.
When he looked
back, the three kids in the baggies were gone and the woman in the power suit
was ordering a sundae. One of the two girls behind her had a peppermint-colored
phone clipped to her hip, and the woman in the power suit had hers screwed into
her ear. Clay thought, as he almost always did on one level of his mind or
another when he saw a variation of this behavior, that he was watching an act
which would once have been considered almost insufferably rude—yes, even while
engaging in a small bit of commerce with a total stranger—becoming a part of
accepted everyday behavior.
Put it in
Dark Wanderer, sweetheart, Sharon said. The version of her he kept in
his mind spoke often and was bound to have her say. This was true of the
real-world Sharon as well, separation or no separation. Although not on his cell
phone. Clay didn't own one.
The
peppermint-colored phone played the opening notes of that Crazy Frog tune that
Johnny loved—was it called "Axel F"? Clay couldn't remember, perhaps because he
had blocked it out. The girl to whom the phone belonged snatched it off her hip
and said, "Beth?" She listened, smiled, then said to her companion, "It's Beth."
Now the other girl bent forward and they both listened, nearly identical pixie
haircuts (to Clay they looked almost like Saturday-morning cartoon characters,
the Powerpuff Girls, maybe) blowing together in the afternoon
breeze.
"Maddy?" said
the woman in the power suit at almost exactly the same time. Her poodle was now
sitting contemplatively at the end of its leash (the leash was red, and dusted
with glittery stuff), looking at the traffic on Boylston Street. Across the way,
at the Four Seasons, a doorman in a brown uniform—they always seemed to be brown
or blue—was waving, probably for a taxi. A Duck Boat crammed with tourists
sailed by, looking high and out of place on dry land, the driver bawling into
his loudhailer about something historic. The two girls listening to the
peppermint-colored phone looked at each other and smiled at something they were
hearing, but still did not giggle.
"Maddy? Can you
hear me? Can you—"
The woman in the
power suit raised the hand holding the leash and plugged a long-nailed finger
into her free ear. Clay winced, fearing for her eardrum. He imagined drawing
her: the dog on the leash, the power suit, the fashionably short hair . . . and
one small trickle of blood from around the finger in her ear. The Duck Boat just
exiting the frame and the doorman in the background, those things somehow
lending the sketch its verisimilitude. They would; it was just a thing you
knew.
"Maddy, you're
breaking up! I just wanted to tell you I got my hair done at that new . .
. my hair? . . . MY. . ."
The guy in the
Mister Softee truck bent down and held out a sundae cup. From it rose a white
Alp with chocolate and strawberry sauce coursing down its sides. His
beard-stubbly face was impassive. It said he'd seen it all before. Clay was sure
he had, most of it twice. In the park, someone screamed. Clay looked over his
shoulder again, telling himself that had to be a scream of joy. At three o'clock
in the afternoon, a sunny afternoon on the Boston Common, it pretty much had
to be a scream of joy. Right?
The woman said
something unintelligible to Maddy and flipped her cell phone closed with a
practiced flip of the wrist. She dropped it back into her purse, then just stood
there, as if she had forgotten what she was doing or maybe even where she
was.
"That's
four-fifty," said the Mister Softee guy, still patiently holding out the ice
cream sundae. Clay had time to think how fucking expensive everything was
in the city. Perhaps the woman in the power suit thought so, too—that, at least,
was his first surmise—because for a moment more she still did nothing, merely looked
at the cup with its mound of ice cream and sliding sauce as if she had never
seen such a thing before.
Then there came
another cry from the Common, not a human one this time but something between a
surprised yelp and a hurt yowl. Clay turned to look and saw the dog that had
been trotting with the Frisbee in its mouth. It was a good-sized brown dog,
maybe a Labrador, he didn't really know dogs, when he needed to draw one he got
a book and copied a picture. A man in a business suit was down on his knees
beside this one and had it in a necklock and appeared to be—surely I'm not
seeing what I think I'm seeing, Clay thought—chewing on its ear. Then the
dog howled again and tried to spurt away. The man in the business suit held it
firm, and yes, that was the dog's ear in the man's mouth, and as Clay continued
to watch, the man tore it off the side of the dog's head. This time the dog
uttered an almost human scream, and a number of ducks which had been floating on
a nearby pond took flight, squawking.
"Rast!"
someone cried from behind Clay. It sounded like vast. It might have
been rat or roast, but later experience made him lean toward
rast: not a word at all but merely an inarticulate sound of
aggression.
He turned back
toward the ice cream truck in time to see Power Suit Woman lunge through the
serving window in an effort to grab Mister Softee Guy. She managed to snag the
loose folds at the front of his white tunic, but his single startle-step
backward was enough to break her hold. Her high heels briefly left the sidewalk,
and he heard the rasp of cloth and the clink of buttons as the front of her
jacket ran first up the little jut of the serving window's counter and then back
down. The sundae tumbled from view. Clay saw a smear of ice cream and sauce on
Power Suit Woman's left wrist and forearm as her high heels clacked back to the
sidewalk. She staggered, knees bent. The closed-off, well-bred, out-in-public
look on her face—what Clay thought of as your basic on-the-street-no-face
look—had been replaced by a convulsive snarl that shrank her eyes to slits and
exposed both sets of teeth. Her upper lip had turned completely inside out,
revealing a pink velvet lining as intimate as a vulva. Her poodle ran into the
street, trailing its red leash with the hand-loop in the end. A black limo came
along and ran the poodle down before it got halfway across. Fluff at one moment;
guts at the next.
Poor damn
thing was probably yapping in doggy heaven before it knew it was
dead, Clay thought. He understood in some
clinical way he was in shock, but that in no way changed the depth of his
amazement. He stood there with his portfolio hanging from one hand and his brown
shopping bag hanging from the other and his mouth hanging open.
Somewhere—it
sounded like maybe around the corner on Newbury Street—something
exploded.
The two girls
had exactly the same haircut above their iPod headphones, but the one with the
peppermint-colored cell phone was blond and her friend was brunette; they were
Pixie Light and Pixie Dark. Now Pixie Light dropped her phone on the sidewalk,
where it shattered, and seized Power Suit Woman around the waist. Clay assumed
(so far as he was capable of assuming anything in those moments) that she meant
to restrain Power Suit Woman either from going after Mister Softee Guy again or
from running into the street after her dog. There was even a part of his mind
that applauded the girl's presence of mind. Her friend, Pixie Dark, was backing
away from the whole deal, small white hands clasped between her breasts, eyes
wide.
Clay dropped his
own items, one on each side, and stepped forward to help Pixie Light. On the
other side of the street—he saw this only in his peripheral vision—a car swerved
and bolted across the sidewalk in front of the Four Seasons, causing the doorman
to dart out of the way. There were screams from the hotel's forecourt. And
before Clay could begin helping Pixie Light with Power Suit Woman, Pixie Light
had darted her pretty little face forward with snakelike speed, bared her
undoubtedly strong young teeth, and battened on Power Suit Woman's neck. There
was an enormous jet of blood. The pixie-girl stuck her face in it, appeared to
bathe in it, perhaps even drank from it (Clay was almost sure she did), then
shook Power Suit Woman back and forth like a doll. The woman was taller and had
to outweigh the girl by at least forty pounds, but the girl shook her hard
enough to make the woman's head flop back and forth and send more blood flying.
At the same time the girl cocked her own blood-smeared face up to the bright
blue October sky and howled in what sounded like triumph.
She's mad,
Clay thought. Totally mad.
Pixie Dark cried
out, "Who are you? What's happening?"
At the sound of
her friend's voice, Pixie Light whipped her bloody head around. Blood dripped
from the short dagger-points of hair overhanging her forehead. Eyes like white
lamps peered from blood-dappled sockets.
Pixie Dark
looked at Clay, her eyes wide. "Who are you?" she repeated . . . and then: "Who
am I?"
Pixie Light
dropped Power Suit Woman, who collapsed to the sidewalk with her chewed-open
carotid artery still spurting, then leaped at the girl with whom she had been
chummily sharing a phone only a few moments before.
Clay didn't
think. If he had thought, Pixie Dark might have had her throat opened like the
woman in the power suit. He didn't even look. He simply reached down and to his
right, seized the top of the small treasures shopping bag, and swung it
at the back of Pixie Light's head as she leaped at her erstwhile friend with her
outstretched hands making claw-fish against the blue sky. If he
missed—
He didn't miss,
or even hit the girl a glancing blow. The glass paperweight inside the bag
struck the back of Pixie Light's head dead-on, making a muffled thunk.
Pixie Light dropped her hands, one bloodstained, one still clean, and fell
to the sidewalk at her friend's feet like a sack of mail.
"What the
hell?" Mister Softee Guy cried. His voice was improbably high. Maybe
shock had given him that high tenor.
"I don't know,"
Clay said. His heart was hammering. "Help me quick. This other one's bleeding to
death."
From behind
them, on Newbury Street, came the unmistakable hollow bang-and-jingle of a car
crash, followed by screams. The screams were followed by another explosion, this
one louder, concussive, hammering the day. Behind the Mister Softee truck,
another car swerved across three lanes of Boylston Street and into the courtyard
of the Four Seasons, mowing down a couple of pedestrians and then plowing into
the back of the previous car, which had finished with its nose crumpled into the
revolving doors. This second crash shoved the first car farther into the
revolving doors, bending them askew. Clay couldn't see if anyone was trapped in
there—clouds of steam were rising from the first car's breached radiator— but
the agonized shrieks from the shadows suggested bad things. Very
bad.
Mister Softee
Guy, blind on that side, was leaning out his serving window and staring at Clay.
"What's going on over there?"
"I don't know.
Couple of car wrecks. People hurt. Never mind. Help me, man." He knelt beside
Power Suit Woman in the blood and the shattered remnants of Pixie Light's pink
cell phone. Power Suit Woman's twitches had now become weak, indeed.
"Smoke from over
on Newbury," observed Mister Softee Guy, still not emerging from the relative
safety of his ice cream wagon. "Something blew up over there. I mean bigtime.
Maybe it's terrorists."
As soon as the
word was out of his mouth, Clay was sure he was right. "Help me."
"WHO AM I?"
Pixie Dark suddenly screamed.
Clay had
forgotten all about her. He looked up in time to see the girl smack herself in
the forehead with the heel of her hand, then turn around rapidly three times,
standing almost on the toes of her tennies to do it. The sight called up a
memory of some poem he'd read in a college lit class—Weave a circle round him
thrice. Coleridge, wasn't it? She staggered, then ran rapidly down the
sidewalk and directly into a lamppost. She made no attempt to avoid it or even
put up her hands. She struck it face-first, rebounded, staggered, then went at
it again.
"Stop that!"
Clay roared. He shot to his feet, started to run toward her, slipped in
Power Suit Woman's blood, almost fell, got going again, tripped on Pixie Light,
and almost fell again.
Pixie Dark
looked around at him. Her nose was broken and gushing blood down her lower face.
A vertical contusion was puffing up on her brow, rising like a thunderhead on a
summer day. One of her eyes had gone crooked in its socket. She opened her
mouth, exposing a ruin of what had probably been expensive orthodontic work, and
laughed at him. He never forgot it.
Then she ran
away down the sidewalk, screaming.
Behind him, a
motor started up and amplified bells began tinkling out the Sesame Street
theme. Clay turned and saw the Mister Softee truck pulling rapidly away from
the curb just as, from the top floor of the hotel across the way, a window
shattered in a bright spray of glass. A body hurtled out into the October day.
It fell to the sidewalk, where it more or less exploded. More screams from the forecourt.
Screams of horror; screams of pain.
"No!"
Clay yelled, running alongside the Mister Softee truck. "No, come
back and help
me! I need some help here, you sonofabitch!"
No answer from
Mister Softee Guy, who maybe couldn't hear over his amplified music. Clay could
remember the words from the days when he'd had no reason not to believe his
marriage wouldn't last forever. In those days Johnny watched Sesame Street
every day, sitting in his little blue chair with his sippy cup clutched in
his hands. Something about a sunny day, keepin' the clouds away.
A man in a
business suit came running out of the park, roaring wordless sounds at the top
of his lungs, his coattails flapping behind him. Clay recognized him by his
dogfur goatee. The man ran into Boylston Street. Cars swerved around him, barely
missing him. He ran on to the other side, still roaring and waving his hands at
the sky. He disappeared into the shadows beneath the canopy of the Four Seasons
forecourt and was lost to view, but he must have gotten up to more dickens
immediately, because a fresh volley of screams broke out over there.
Clay gave up his
chase of the Mister Softee truck and stood with one foot on the sidewalk and the
other planted in the gutter, watching as it swerved into the center lane of
Boylston Street, still tinkling. He was about to turn back to the unconscious
girl and dying woman when another Duck Boat appeared, this one not loafing but
roaring at top speed and yawing crazily from port to starboard. Some of the
passengers were tumbling back and forth and howling—pleading—for the
driver to stop. Others simply clung to the metal struts running up the open
sides of the ungainly thing as it made its way up Boylston Street against the
flow of traffic.
A man in a
sweatshirt grabbed the driver from behind, and Clay heard another of those
inarticulate cries through the Duck Boat's primitive amplification system as the
driver threw the guy off with a mighty backward shrug. Not "Rast!" this
time but something more guttural, something that sounded like "Gluh!"
Then the Duck Boat driver saw the Mister Softee truck—Clay was sure of
it—and changed course, aiming for it.
"Oh God
please no!" a woman sitting near the front of the tourist craft cried, and
as it closed in on the tinkling ice cream truck, which was approximately
one-sixth its size, Clay had a clear memory of watching the victory parade on TV
the year the Red Sox won the World Series. The team rode in a slow-moving
procession of these same Duck Boats, waving to the delirious multitudes as a
cold autumn drizzle fell.
"God please
no!" the woman shrieked again, and from beside Clay a man said, almost
mildly: "Jesus Christ."
The Duck Boat
hit the ice cream truck broadside and flipped it like a child's toy. It landed
on its side with its own amplification system still tinkling out the Sesame
Street theme music and went skidding back toward the Common, shooting up
friction-generated bursts of sparks. Two women who had been watching dashed to
get out of the way, holding hands, and just made it. The Mister Softee truck
bounced onto the sidewalk, went briefly airborne, then hit the wrought-iron
fence surrounding the park and came to rest. The music hiccuped twice, then
stopped.
The lunatic
driving the Duck Boat had, meanwhile, lost whatever marginal control he might
have had over his vehicle. It looped back across Boylston Street with its
freight of terrified, screaming passengers clinging to the open sides, mounted
the sidewalk across and about fifty yards down from the point where the Mister
Softee truck had tinkled its last, and ran into the low brick retaining wall
below the display window of a tony furniture shop called City lights. There was
a vast unmusical crash as the window shattered. The Duck Boat's wide rear end
{Harbor Mistress was written on it in pink script) rose perhaps five feet
in the air. Momentum wanted the great waddling thing to go end-over-end; mass
would not allow. It settled back to the sidewalk with its snout poked among the
scattered sofas and expensive living room chairs, but not before at least a
dozen people had gone shooting forward, out of the Duck Boat and out of sight.
Inside Citylights, a burglar alarm began to clang.
"Jesus Christ,"
said the mild voice from Clay's right elbow a second time. He turned that way
and saw a short man with thinning dark hair, a tiny dark mustache, and
gold-rimmed spectacles. "What's going on?"
"I don't know,"
Clay said. Talking was hard. Very. He found himself almost having to push words
out. He supposed it was shock. Across the street, people were running away, some
from the Four Seasons, some from the crashed Duck Boat. As he watched, a Duck
Boat run-awayer collided with a Four Seasons escapee and they both
went crashing to the sidewalk. There was time to wonder if he'd gone insane and
was hallucinating all this in a madhouse somewhere. Juniper Hill in Augusta,
maybe, between Thorazine shots. "The guy in the ice cream truck said maybe
terrorists."
"I don't see any
men with guns," said the short man with the mustache. "No guys with bombs
strapped to their backs, either."
Neither did
Clay, but he did see his little small treasures shopping bag and
his portfolio sitting on the sidewalk, and he saw that the blood from Power Suit
Woman's opened throat—ye gods, he thought, all that blood—had
almost reached the portfolio. All but a dozen or so of his drawings for Dark
Wanderer were in there, and it was the drawings his mind seized on. He
started back that way at a speed-walk, and the short man kept pace. When a
second burglar alarm (some kind of alarm, anyway) went off in the hotel,
joining its hoarse bray to the clang of the Citylights alarm, the little guy
jumped.
"It's the
hotel," Clay said.
"I know, it's
just that. . .oh my God." He'd seen Power Suit Woman, now lying in a lake
of the magic stuff that had been running all her bells and whistles—what? Four
minutes ago? Only two?
"She's dead,"
Clay told him. "At least I'm pretty sure she is. That girl . . ." He pointed at
Pixie Light. "She did it. With her teeth."
"You're
joking."
"I wish I
was."
From somewhere
up Boylston Street there was another explosion. Both men cringed. Clay realized
he could now smell smoke. He picked up his small treasures bag and his
portfolio and moved them both away from the spreading blood. "These are mine,"
he said, wondering why he felt the need to explain.
The little guy,
who was wearing a tweed suit—quite dapper, Clay thought—was still staring,
horrified, at the crumpled body of the woman who had stopped for a sundae and
lost first her dog and then her life. Behind them, three young men pelted past
on the sidewalk, laughing and hurrahing. Two had Red Sox caps turned around
backward. One was carrying a carton clutched against his chest. It had the word
panasonic printed in blue on the side. This one stepped in Power Suit
Woman's
spreading blood with his
right sneaker and left a fading one-foot trail behind him as he and his mates
ran on toward the east end of the Common and Chinatown beyond.
3
Clay dropped to one knee and used the hand
not clutching his portfolio (he was even more afraid of losing it after seeing
the sprinting kid with the panasonic carton) to pick up Pixie Light's
wrist. He got a pulse at once. It was slow but strong and regular. He felt great
relief. No matter what she'd done, she was just a kid. He didn't want to think
he had bludgeoned her to death with his wife's gift paperweight.
"Look out,
look out!" the little guy with the mustache almost sang. Clay had no time to
look out. Luckily, this call wasn't even close. The vehicle—one of those big
OPEC-friendly SUVs—veered off Boylston and into the park at least twenty yards
from where he knelt, taking a snarl of the wrought-iron fence in front of it and
coming to rest bumper-deep in the duck-pond.
The door opened
and a young man floundered out, yelling gibberish at the sky. He fell to his
knees in the water, scooped some of it into his mouth with both hands (Clay had
a passing thought of all the ducks that had happily shat in that pond over the
years), then struggled to his feet and waded to the far side. He disappeared
into a grove of trees, still waving his hands and bellowing his nonsense
sermon.
"We need to get
help for this girl," Clay said to the man with the mustache. "She's unconscious
but a long way from dead."
"What we need to
do is get off the street before we get run over," said the man with the
mustache, and as if to prove this point, a taxi collided with a stretch limo not
far from the wrecked Duck Boat. The limo had been going the wrong way but the
taxi got the worst of it; as Clay watched from where he still knelt on the
sidewalk, the taxi's driver flew through his suddenly glassless windshield and
landed in the street, holding up a bloody arm and screaming.
The man with the
mustache was right, of course. Such rationality as Clay could muster—only a
little managed to find its way through the blanket of shock that muffled his
thinking—suggested that by far the wisest course of action would be to get the
hell away from Boylston Street and under cover. If this was an act of terrorism,
it was like none he had ever seen or read about. What he—they—should do
was get down and stay down until the situation clarified. That would probably
entail finding a television. But he didn't want to leave this unconscious girl
lying on a street that had suddenly become a madhouse. Every instinct of his
mostly kind—and certainly civilized—heart cried out against it.
"You go on," he
told the little man with the mustache. He said it with immense reluctance. He
didn't know the little man from Adam, but at least he wasn't spouting gibberish
and throwing his hands in the air. Or going for Clay's throat with his teeth
bared. "Get inside somewhere. I'll. . ." He didn't know how to
finish.
"You'll what?"
the man with the mustache asked, then hunched his shoulders and winced as
something else exploded. That one came from directly behind the hotel, it
sounded like, and now black smoke began to rise over there, staining the blue
sky before it got high enough for the wind to pull away.
"I'll call a
cop," Clay said, suddenly inspired. "She's got a cell phone." He cocked his
thumb at Power Suit Woman, now lying dead in a pool of her own blood. "She was
using it before . . . you know, just before the shit. . ."
He trailed off, replaying exactly what
had happened just before the shit hit the fan. He found his eyes
wandering from the dead woman to the unconscious girl and then on to the shards
of the unconscious girl's peppermint-colored cell phone.
Warbling sirens
of two distinctly different pitches rose in the air. Clay supposed one pitch
belonged to police cars, the other to fire trucks. He supposed you could tell
the difference if you lived in this city, but he didn't, he lived in Kent Pond,
Maine, and he wished with all his heart that he were there right
now.
What happened
just before the shit hit the fan was that Power Suit Woman had called her friend
Maddy to tell her she'd gotten her hair done, and one of Pixie Light's friends
had called her. Pixie Dark had listened in to this latter call. After
that all three of them had gone crazy.
You're not
thinking—
From behind
them, to the east, came the biggest explosion yet: a terrific shotgun-blast of
sound. Clay leaped to his feet. He and the little man in the tweed suit looked
wildly at each other, then toward Chinatown and Boston's North End. They
couldn't see what had exploded, but now a much larger, darker plume of smoke was
rising above the buildings on that horizon.
While they were
looking at it, a Boston PD radio-car and a hook-and-ladder fire truck pulled up
in front of the Four Seasons across the street. Clay glanced that way in time to
see a second jumper set sail from the top story of the hotel, followed by
another pair from the roof. To Clay it looked as if the two coming from the roof
were actually brawling with each other on the way down.
"Jesus Mary
and Joseph NO!" a woman screamed, her voice breaking. "Oh
NO, no MORE,
no MORE!"
The first of the
suicidal trio hit the rear of the police car, splattering the trunk with hair
and gore, shattering the back window. The other two hit the hook and ladder as
firemen dressed in bright yellow coats scattered like improbable
birds.
"NO!" the
woman shrieked. "No MORE! No MORE! Dear GOD, no MORE!"
But here came a
woman from the fifth or sixth floor, tumbling like a crazy acrobat, striking a
policeman who was peering up and surely killing him even as she killed
herself.
From the north
there came another of those great roaring explosions—the sound of the devil
firing a shotgun in hell—and once again Clay looked at the little man, who was
looking anxiously back up at him. More smoke was rising in the sky, and in spite
of the brisk breeze, the blue over there was almost blotted out.
"They're using
planes again," the little man said. "The dirty bastards are using planes
again."
As if to
underline the idea, a third monstrous explosion came rolling to them from the
city's northeast.
"But. . . that's
Logan over there." Clay was once again finding it hard to talk, and even harder
to think. All he really seemed to have in his mind was some sort of half-baked joke: Did
you hear the one about the [insert your favorite
ethnic group here} terrorists who decided to bring America to its knees by
blowing up the airport?
"So?" the little
man asked, almost truculently.
"So why not the
Hancock Building? Or the Pru?"
The little man's
shoulders slumped. "I don't know. I only know I want to get off this
street."
As if to
emphasize his point, half a dozen more young people sprinted past them. Boston
was a city of young people, Clay had noticed—all those colleges. These
six, three men and three women, were running lootless, at least, and they most
assuredly weren't laughing. As they ran, one of the young men pulled out his
cell phone and stuck it to his ear.
Clay glanced
across the street and saw that a second black-and-white unit had pulled up
behind the first. No need to use Power Suit Woman's cell phone after all (which
was good, since he'd decided he really didn't want to do that). He could just
walk across the street and talk to them except he wasn't sure that he dared to
cross Boylston Street just now. Even if he did, would they come over here
to look at one unconscious girl when they had God knew how many casualties
over there? And as he watched, the firemen began piling back on board
their hook-and-ladder unit; it looked like they were heading someplace else.
Over to Logan Airport, quite likely, or—
"Oh my
God-Jesus, watch out for this one," said the little man with the mustache,
speaking in a low, tight voice. He was looking west along Boylston, back toward
downtown, in the direction Clay had been coming from when his major object in
life had been reaching Sharon on the phone. He'd even known how he was going to
start: Good news, hon—no matter how it comes out
between us, there'll always be shoes for the kid. In his head it
had sounded light and
funny—like the old days.
There was
nothing funny about this. Coming toward them—not running but walking in long,
flat-footed strides—was a man of about fifty, wearing suit pants and the remains
of a shirt and tie. The pants were gray. It was impossible to tell what color
the shirt and tie had been, because both were now shredded and stained with
blood. In his right hand the man held what looked like a butcher knife with an
eighteen-inch blade. Clay actually believed he had seen this knife, in the
window of a shop called Soul Kitchen, on his walk back from his meeting at the
Copley Square Hotel. The row of knives in the window (SWEDISH STEEL! the
little engraved card in front of them proclaimed) had shone in the cunning glow
of hidden downlighters, but this blade had done a good deal of work since its
liberation—or a bad deal of it—and was now dull with blood.
The man in the
tattered shirt swung the knife as he closed in on them with his flat-footed
strides, the blade cutting short up-and-down arcs in the air. He broke the
pattern only once, to slash at himself. A fresh rill of blood ran through a new
rip in his tattered shirt. The remains of his tie flapped. And as he closed the
distance he hectored them like a backwoods preacher speaking in tongues at the
moment of some divine godhead revelation.
"Eyelab!"
he cried. "Eeelah-eyelah-a-babbalah naz! A-babbalah why?
A-bunnaloo coy? Kazzalah! Kazzalah-CAN! Fie! SHY-fie!" And now he
brought the knife back to his right hip and then beyond it, and Clay, whose
visual sense was overdeveloped, at once saw the sweeping stroke that would
follow. The gutting stroke, made even as he continued his nuthouse march to
nowhere through the October afternoon in those flat-footed declamatory
strides.
"Look out!"
the little guy with the mustache screamed, but he wasn't looking out,
not the little guy with the mustache; the little guy with the mustache, the
first normal person with whom Clay Riddell had spoken since this
craziness began—who had, in fact, spoken to him, which had probably taken
some courage, under the circumstances—was frozen in place, his eyes bigger than
ever behind the lenses of his gold-rimmed spectacles. And was the crazy guy
going for him because of the two men, the one with the mustache was smaller and
looked like easier prey? If so, maybe Mr. Speaking-in-Tongues wasn't
completely crazy, and suddenly Clay was mad as well as scared, mad
the way he might have been if he'd looked through a schoolyard fence and seen a
bully getting ready to tune up on a smaller, younger kid.
"LOOK OUT!"
the little man with the mustache almost wailed, still not moving as his
death swept toward him, death liberated from a shop called Soul Kitchen where
Diner's Club and Visa were no doubt accepted, along with Your Personal Check If
Accompanied By Bank Card.
Clay didn't
think. He simply picked up his portfolio again by its double handle and stuck it
between the oncoming knife and his new acquaintance in the tweed suit. The blade
went all the way through with a hollow thuck, but the tip stopped four
inches short of the little man's belly. The little man finally came to his
senses and cringed aside, toward the Common, shrieking for help at the top of
his lungs.
The man in the
shredded shirt and tie—he was getting a bit jowly in the cheek and heavy in the
neck, as if his personal equation of good meals and good exercise had stopped
balancing about two years ago—abruptly ceased his nonsense peroration. His face
took on a look of vacuous perplexity that stopped short of surprise, let alone
amazement.
What Clay felt
was a species of dismal outrage. That blade had gone through all of his Dark
Wanderer pictures (to him they were always pictures, never drawings or
illustrations), and it seemed to him that the thuck sound might as well
have been the blade penetrating a special chamber of his heart. That was stupid
when he had repros of everything, including the four color splash-pages, but it
didn't change how he felt. The madman's blade had skewered Sorcerer John (named
after his own son, of course), the Wizard Flak, Frank and the Posse Boys, Sleepy
Gene, Poison Sally, Lily Astolet, Blue Witch, and of course Ray Damon, the Dark
Wanderer himself. His own fantastic creatures, living in the cave of his
imagination and poised to set him free from the drudgery of teaching art in a
dozen rural Maine schools, driving thousands of miles a month and practically
living out of his car.
He could swear
he had heard them moan when the madman's Swedish blade pierced them where they
slept in their innocency.
Furious, not
caring about the blade (at least for the moment), he drove the man in the
shredded shirt rapidly backward, using the portfolio as a kind of shield,
growing angrier as it bent into a wide V-shape around the
knife-blade.
"Blet!"
the lunatic hollered, and tried to pull his blade back. It was caught too
firmly for him to do so. "Blet ky-yam doe-ram kazzalah
a-babbalah!"
"I'll a-babbalah
your a-kazzalah, you fuck!" Clay shouted, and planted his left foot
behind the lunatic's backpedaling legs. It would occur to him later that the body knows how to fight
when it has to. That it's a secret the body keeps, just as it does the secrets
of how to run or jump a creek or throw a fuck or—quite likely—die when there's
no other choice. That under conditions of extreme stress it simply takes over
and does what needs doing while the brain stands off to one side, unable to do
anything but whistle and tap its foot and look up at the sky. Or contemplate the
sound a knife makes going through the portfolio your wife gave you for your
twenty-eighth birthday, for that matter.
The lunatic
tripped over Clay's foot just as Clay's wise body meant him to do and fell to
the sidewalk on his back. Clay stood over him, panting, with the portfolio still
held in both hands like a shield bent in battle. The butcher knife still stuck
out of it, handle from one side, blade from the other.
The lunatic
tried to get up. Clay's new friend scurried forward and kicked him in the neck,
quite hard. The little fellow was weeping loudly, the tears gushing down his
cheeks and fogging the lenses of his spectacles. The lunatic fell back on the
sidewalk with his tongue sticking out of his mouth. Around it he made
choking sounds that sounded to Clay like his former speaking-in-tongues
babble.
"He tried to
kill us!" the little man wept. "He tried to kill us!"
"Yes, yes," Clay
said. He was aware that he had once said yes, yes to Johnny in exactly
the same way back when they'd still called him Johnny-Gee and he'd come to them
up the front walk with his scraped shins or elbows, wailing I got
BLOOD!
The man on the
sidewalk (who had plenty of blood) was on his elbows, trying to get up again.
Clay did the honors this time, kicking one of the guy's elbows out from under
him and putting him back down on the pavement. This kicking seemed like a
stopgap solution at best, and a messy one. Clay grabbed the handle of the knife,
winced at the slimy feel of half-jellied blood on the handle—it was like rubbing
a palm through cold bacon-grease—and pulled. The knife came a little bit, then
either stopped or his hand slipped. He fancied he heard his characters murmuring
unhappily from the darkness of the portfolio, and he made a painful noise
himself. He couldn't help it. And he couldn't help wondering what he meant to do
with the knife if he got it out. Stab the lunatic to death with it? He thought he could have done that in
the heat of the moment, but probably not now.
"What's wrong?"
the little man asked in a watery voice. Clay, even in his own distress, couldn't
help being touched by the concern he heard there. "Did he get you? You had him
blocked out for a few seconds and I couldn't see. Did he get you? Are you
cut?"
"No," Clay said.
"I'm all r—"
There was
another gigantic explosion from the north, almost surely from Logan Airport on
the other side of Boston Harbor. Both of them hunched their shoulders and
winced.
The lunatic took
the opportunity to sit up and was scrambling to his feet when the little man in
the tweed suit administered a clumsy but effective sideways kick, planting a
shoe squarely in the middle of the lunatic's shredded tie and knocking him back
down. The lunatic roared and snatched at the little man's foot. He would have
pulled the little guy over, then perhaps into a crushing embrace, had Clay not
seized his new acquaintance by the shoulder and pulled him away.
"He's got my
shoe!" the little man yelped. Behind them, two more cars crashed. There were
more screams, more alarms. Car alarms, fire alarms, hearty clanging burglar
alarms. Sirens whooped in the distance. "Bastard got my
sh—"
Suddenly a
policeman was there. One of the responders from across the street, Clay assumed,
and as the policeman dropped to one blue knee beside the babbling lunatic, Clay
felt something very much like love for the cop. That he'd take the time to come
over here! That he'd even noticed!
"You want to be
careful of him," the little man said nervously. "He's—"
"I know what he
is," the cop replied, and Clay saw the cop had his service automatic in his
hand. He had no idea if the cop had drawn it after kneeling or if he'd had it
out the whole time. Clay had been too busy being grateful to notice.
The cop looked
at the lunatic. Leaned close to the lunatic. Almost seemed to offer
himself to the lunatic. "Hey, buddy, how ya doin?" he murmured. "I mean,
what the haps?"
The lunatic
lunged at the cop and put his hands on the cop's throat. The instant he did
this, the cop slipped the muzzle of his gun into the hollow of the lunatic's temple and pulled the
trigger. A great spray of blood leaped through the graying hair on the opposite
side of the lunatic's head and he fell back to the sidewalk, throwing both arms
out melodramatically: Look, Ma, I'm
dead.
Clay looked at
the little man with the mustache and the little man with the mustache looked at
him. Then they looked back at the cop, who had holstered his weapon and was
taking a leather case from the breast pocket of his uniform shirt. Clay was glad
to see that the hand he used to do this was shaking a little. He was now
frightened of the cop, but would have been more frightened still if the cop's
hands had been steady. And what had just happened was no isolated case. The
gunshot seemed to have done something to Clay's hearing, cleared a circuit in it
or something. Now he could hear other gunshots, isolated cracks punctuating the
escalating cacophony of the day.
The cop took a
card—Clay thought it was a business card—from the slim leather case, then put
the case back in his breast pocket. He held the card between the first two
fingers of his left hand while his right hand once more dropped to the butt of
his service weapon. Near his highly polished shoes, blood from the lunatic's
shattered head was pooling on the sidewalk. Close by, Power Suit Woman lay in
another pool of blood, which was now starting to congeal and turn a darker shade
of red.
"What's your
name, sir?" the cop asked Clay.
"Clayton
Riddell."
"Can you tell me
who the president is?"
Clay told
him.
"Sir, can you
tell me today's date?"
"It's the first
of October. Do you know what's—"
The cop looked
at the little man with the mustache. "Your name?"
"I'm Thomas
McCourt, 140 Salem Street, Maiden. I—"
"Can you name
the man who ran against the president in the last election?"
Tom McCourt did
so.
"Who is Brad
Pitt married to?"
McCourt threw up
his hands. "How should I know? Some movie star, I think."
"Okay." The cop handed
Clay the card he'd been holding between his fingers. "I'm Officer Ulrich
Ashland. This is my card. You may be called on to testify about what just
happened here, gentlemen. What happened was you needed assistance, I rendered
it, I was attacked, I responded."
"You wanted to
kill him," Clay said.
"Yes, sir, we're
putting as many of them out of their misery as fast as we can," Officer Ashland
agreed. "And if you tell any court or board of inquiry that I said that, I'll
deny it. But it has to be done. These people are popping up everywhere. Some
only commit suicide. Many others attack." He hesitated, then added: "So far as
we can tell, all the others attack." As if to underline this, there was
another gunshot from across the street, a pause, then three more, in rapid
succession, from the shadowed forecourt of the Four Seasons Hotel, which was now
a tangle of broken glass, broken bodies, crashed vehicles, and spilled blood.
"It's like the fucking Night of the Living Dead." Officer Ulrich Ashland
started back toward Boylston Street with his hand still on the butt of his gun.
"Except these people aren't dead. Unless we help them, that is."
"Rick!" It was a
cop on the other side of the street, calling urgently. "Rick, we gotta go to
Logan! All units! Get over here!"
Officer Ashland
checked for traffic, but there was none. Except for the wrecks, Boylston Street
was momentarily deserted. From the surrounding area, however, came the sound of
more explosions and automotive crashes. The smell of smoke was getting stronger.
He started across the street, got halfway, then turned back. "Get inside
somewhere," he said. "Get under cover. You've been lucky once. You may not be
lucky again."
"Officer
Ashland," Clay said. "Your guys don't use cell phones, do you?"
Ashland regarded
him from the center of Boylston Street—not, in Clay's opinion, a safe place to
be. He was thinking of the rogue Duck Boat. "No, sir," he said. "We have radios
in our cars. And these." He patted the radio in his belt, hung opposite his
holster. Clay, a comic-book fiend since he could read, thought briefly of
Batman's marvelous utility belt.
"Don't use
them," Clay said. "Tell the others. Don't use the cell
phones."
"Why do you say
that?"
"Because they
were." He pointed to the dead woman and the unconscious girl. "Just before
they went crazy. And I'll bet you anything that the guy with the
knife—"
"Rick!"
the cop on the other side shouted again. "Hurry the fuck
up!"
"Get under cover," Officer Ashland
repeated, and trotted to the Four Seasons side of the street. Clay wished he
could have repeated the thing about the cell phones, but on the whole he was
just glad to see the cop out of harm's way. Not that he believed anyone in
Boston really was, not this afternoon.
4
"What are you doing?" Clay asked Tom
McCourt. "Don't touch him, he might be, I don't know, contagious."
"I'm not going
to touch him," Tom said, "but I need my shoe."
The shoe, lying
near the splayed fingers of the lunatic's left hand, was at least away from the
exit-spray of blood. Tom hooked his fingers delicately into the back and pulled
it to him. Then he sat down on the curb of Boylston Street—right where the
Mister Softee truck had been parked in what now seemed to Clay like another
lifetime—and slipped his foot into it. "The laces are broken," he said. "That
damn nutball broke the laces." And he started crying again.
"Do the best you
can," Clay said. He began working the butcher knife out of the portfolio. It had
been slammed through with tremendous force, and he found he had to wiggle it up
and down to free it. It came out reluctantly, in a series of jerks, and with
ugly scraping sounds that made him want to cringe. He kept wondering who inside
had gotten the worst of it. That was stupid, nothing but shock-think, but he
couldn't help it. "Can't you tie it down close to the bottom?"
"Yeah, I think
s—"
Clay had been
hearing a mechanical mosquito whine that now grew to an approaching drone. Tom
craned up from his place on the curb. Clay turned around. The little caravan of
BPD cars pulling away from the Four Seasons halted in front of Citylights and
the crashed Duck Boat with their gumballs flashing. Cops leaned out the windows
as a private plane—something midsize, maybe a Cessna or the kind they called a
Twin Bonanza, Clay didn't really know planes—came cruising slowly over the
buildings between Boston Harbor and the Boston Common, dropping fast. The plane
banked drunkenly over the park, its lower wing almost brushing the top of one
autumn-bright tree, then settled into the canyon of Charles Street, as if the
pilot had decided that was a runway. Then, less than twenty feet above the
ground, it tilted left and the wing on that side struck the façade of a gray
stone building, maybe a bank, on the corner of Charles and Beacon. Any sense
that the plane was moving slowly, almost gliding, departed in that instant. It
spun around on the caught wing as savagely as a tetherball nearing the end of
its rope, slammed into the redbrick building standing next to the bank, and
disappeared in bright petals of red-orange fire. The shockwave hammered across
the park. Ducks took wing before it.
Clay looked down
and saw he was holding the butcher knife in his hand. He had pulled it free
while he and Tom McCourt were watching the plane crash. He wiped it first one
way and then the other on the front of his shirt, taking pains not to cut
himself (now his hands were shaking). Then he slipped it—very
carefully—into his belt, all the way down to the handle. As he did this, one of
his early comic-book efforts occurred to him . . . a bit of juvenilia,
actually.
"Joxer the
Pirate stands here at your service, my pretty one," he murmured.
"What?" Tom
asked. He was now beside Clay, staring at the boiling inferno of the airplane on
the far side of Boston Common. Only the tail stuck out of the fire. On it Clay
could read the number LN6409B. Above it was what looked like some sports
team's logo.
Then that was
gone, too.
He could feel
the first waves of heat begin to pump gently against his face.
"Nothing," he
told the little man in the tweed suit. "Leave us boogie."
"Huh?"
"Let's get out
of here."
"Oh.
Okay."
Clay started to
walk along the southern side of the Common, in the direction he'd been heading at three
o'clock, eighteen minutes and an eternity ago. Tom McCourt hurried to keep up.
He really was a very short man. "Tell me," he said, "do you often talk
nonsense?"
"Sure," Clay
said. "Just ask my wife."
5
"Where are we going?" Tom asked. "I was
headed for the T." He pointed to a green-painted kiosk about a block ahead. A
small crowd of people were milling there. "Now I'm not sure being underground is
such a hot idea."
"Me, either,"
Clay said. "I've got a room at a place called the Atlantic Avenue Inn, about
five blocks further up."
Tom brightened.
"I think I know it. On Louden, actually, just off Atlantic."
"Right. Let's go
there. We can check the TV And I want to call my wife."
"On the room
phone."
"The room phone,
check. I don't even have a cell phone."
"I have one, but
I left it home. It's broken. Rafe—my cat—knocked it off the counter. I was
meaning to buy a new one this very day, but. . . listen. Mr.
Riddell—"
"Clay."
"Clay, then. Are
you sure the phone in your room will be safe?"
Clay stopped. He
hadn't even considered this idea. But if the landlines weren't okay, what
would be? He was about to say this to Tom when a sudden brawl broke out
at the T station up ahead. There were cries of panic, screams, and more of that
wild babbling—he recognized it for what it was now, the signature scribble of
madness. The little knot of people that had been milling around the gray stone
pillbox and the steps going below-ground broke up. A few of them ran into the
street, two with their arms around each other, snatching looks back over their
shoulders as they went. More—most—ran into the park, all in different
directions, which sort of broke Clay's heart. He felt better somehow about the
two with their arms around each other.
Still at the T
station and on their feet were two men and two women.
Clay was pretty
sure it was they who had emerged from the station and driven off the rest. As
Clay and Tom stood watching from half a block away, these remaining four fell to
fighting with each other. This brawl had the hysterical, killing viciousness he
had already seen, but no discernible pattern. It wasn't three against one, or
two against two, and it certainly wasn't the boys against the girls; in fact,
one of the "girls" was a woman who looked to be in her middle sixties, with a
stocky body and a no-nonsense haircut that made Clay think of several women
teachers he'd known who were nearing retirement.
They fought with
feet and fists and nails and teeth, grunting and shouting and circling the
bodies of maybe half a dozen people who had already been knocked unconscious, or
perhaps killed. One of the men stumbled over an outstretched leg and went to his
knees. The younger of the two women dropped on top of him. The man on his knees
swept something up from the pavement at the head of the stairs—Clay saw with no
surprise whatever that it was a cell phone—and slammed it into the side of the
woman's face. The cell phone shattered, tearing the woman's cheek open and
showering a freshet of blood onto the shoulder of her light jacket, but her
scream was of rage rather than pain. She grabbed the kneeling man's ears like a
pair of jughandles, dropped her own knees into his lap, and shoved him backwards
into the gloom of the T's stairwell. They went out of sight locked together and
thrashing like cats in heat.
"Come on," Tom
murmured, twitching Clay's shirt with an odd delicacy. "Come on. Other side of
the street. Come on."
Clay allowed
himself to be led across Boylston Street. He assumed that either Tom McCourt was
watching where they were going or he was lucky, because they got to the other
side okay. They stopped again in front of Colonial Books (Best of the Old, Best
of the New), watching as the unlikely victor of the T station battle went
striding into the park in the direction of the burning plane, with blood
dripping onto her collar from the ends of her zero-tolerance gray hair. Clay
wasn't a bit surprised that the last one standing had turned out to be the lady
who looked like a librarian or Latin teacher a year or two away from a gold
watch. He had taught with his share of such ladies, and the ones who made it to
that age were, more often than not, next door to indestructible.
He opened his
mouth to say something like this to Tom—in his mind it sounded quite witty—and
what came out was a watery croak. His vision had come over shimmery, too.
Apparently Tom McCourt, the little man in the tweed suit, wasn't the only one
having trouble with his waterworks. Clay swiped an arm across his eyes, tried
again to talk, and managed no more than another of those watery
croaks.
"That's okay,"
Tom said. "Better let it come."
And so, standing
there in front of a shop window filled with old books surrounding a Royal
typewriter hailing from long before the era of cellular communications, Clay
did. He cried for Power Suit Woman, for Pixie Light and Pixie Dark, and he cried
for himself, because Boston was not his home, and home had never seemed so
far.
6
Above the Common Boylston Street narrowed
and became so choked with cars—both those wrecked and those plain abandoned—that
they no longer had to worry about kamikaze limos or rogue Duck Boats. Which was
a relief. From all around them the city banged and crashed like New Year's Eve
in hell. There was plenty of noise close by, as well—car alarms and burglar
alarms, mostly—but the street itself was for the moment eerily deserted. Get
under cover, Officer Ulrich Ashland had said. You've been
lucky once.
You may not be lucky again.
But, two blocks
east of Colonial Books and still a block from Clay's not-quite-fleabag hotel,
they were lucky again. Another lunatic, this one a young man of perhaps
twenty-five with muscles that looked tuned by Nautilus and Cybex, bolted from an
alley just in front of them and went dashing across the street, hurdling the
locked bumpers of two cars, foaming out an unceasing lava-flow of that
nonsense-talk as he went. He held a car aerial in each hand and stabbed them
rapidly back and forth in the air like daggers as he cruised his lethal course.
He was naked except for a pair of what looked like brand-new Nikes with bright
red swooshes. His cock swung from side to side like the pendulum of a
grandfather clock on speed. He hit the far sidewalk and sidewheeled west, back
toward the Common, his butt clenching and unclenching in fantastic
rhythm.
Tom McCourt
clutched Clay's arm, and hard, until this latest lunatic was gone, then slowly
relaxed his grip. "If he'd seen us—" he began.
"Yeah, but he
didn't," Clay said. He felt suddenly, absurdly happy. He knew that the feeling
would pass, but for the moment he was delighted to ride it. He felt like a man
who has successfully drawn to an inside straight with the biggest pot of the
night lying on the table in front of him.
"I pity who he
does see," Tom said.
"I pity who sees
him," Clay said. "Come on."
7
The doors of the Atlantic Avenue Inn were
locked.
Clay was so
surprised that for a moment he could only stand there, trying to turn the knob
and feeling it slip through his fingers, trying to get the idea through his
head: locked. The doors of his hotel, locked against him.
Tom stepped up
beside him, leaned his forehead against the glass to cut the glare, and peered
in. From the north—from Logan, surely—came another of those monster explosions,
and this time Clay only twitched. He didn't think Tom McCourt reacted at all.
Tom was too absorbed in what he was seeing.
"Dead guy on the
floor," he announced at last. "Wearing a uniform, but he really looks too old to
be a bellhop."
"I don't want
anyone to carry my fucking luggage," Clay said. "I just want to go up to my
room."
Tom made an odd
little snorting sound. Clay thought maybe the little guy was starting to cry
again, then realized that sound was smothered laughter.
The double doors
had ATLANTIC AVENUE INN printed on one glass panel and a blatant
lie—BOSTON'S FINEST ADDRESS— printed on the other. Tom slapped the flat
of his hand on the glass of the lefthand panel, between BOSTON'S FINEST
ADDRESS and a row of credit card decals.
Now Clay was
peering in, too. The lobby wasn't very big. On the left was the reception desk.
On the right was a pair of elevators. On the floor was a turkey-red rug. The old guy in the
uniform lay on this, facedown, with one foot up on a couch and a framed Currier
& Ives sailing-ship print on his ass.
Clay's good feelings left in
a rush, and when Tom began to hammer on the glass instead of just slap, he put
his hand over Tom's fist. "Don't bother," he said. "They're not going to let us
in, even if they're alive and sane." He thought about that and nodded.
"Especially if they're sane."
Tom looked at
him wonderingly. "You don't get it, do you?"
"Huh? Get
what?"
"Things have
changed. They can't keep us out." He pushed Clay's hand off his own, but instead
of hammering, he put his forehead against the glass again and shouted. Clay
thought he had a pretty good shouting voice on him for a little guy. "Hey!
Hey, in there!"
A pause. In the
lobby nothing changed. The old bellman went on being dead with a picture on his
ass.
"Hey, if
you're in there, you better open the door! The man I'm with is a paying guest of
the hotel and I'm his guest!
Open up or I'm going to grab a curbstone and break the glass! You hear
me?"
"A
curbstone?." Clay said. He started to laugh. "Did you say curbstone?
Jolly good." He laughed harder. He couldn't help it. Then movement to
his left caught his eye. He looked around and saw a teenage girl standing a
little way farther up the street. She was looking at them out of haggard blue
disaster-victim eyes. She was wearing a white dress, and there was a vast bib of
blood on the front of it. More blood was crusted beneath her nose, on her lips
and chin. Other than the bloody nose she didn't look hurt, and she didn't look
crazy at all, just shocked. Shocked almost to death.
"Are you all
right?" Clay asked. He took a step toward her and she took a corresponding step
back. Under the circumstances, he couldn't blame her. He stopped but held a hand
up to her like a traffic cop: Stay put.
Tom glanced
around briefly, then began to hammer on the door again, this time hard enough to
rattle the glass in its old wooden frame and make his
reflection shiver. "Last chance, then we're coming in!"
Clay turned and
opened his mouth to tell him that masterful shit wasn't going to cut it, not
today, and then a bald head rose slowly from behind the reception desk. It was
like watching a periscope surface. Clay recognized that head even before it got to the face;
it belonged to the clerk who'd checked him in yesterday and stamped a validation
on his parking-lot ticket for the lot a block over, the same clerk who'd given
him directions to the Copley Square Hotel this morning.
For a moment he
still lingered behind the desk, and Clay held up his room key with the green
plastic Atlantic Avenue Inn fob hanging down. Then he also held up his
portfolio, thinking the desk clerk might recognize it.
Maybe he did.
More likely he just decided he had no choice. In either case, he used the
pass-through at the end of the desk and crossed quickly to the door, detouring
around the body. Clay Riddell believed he might be witnessing the first
reluctant scurry he had ever seen in his life. When the desk clerk reached the
other side of the door, he looked from Clay to Tom and then back to Clay again.
Although he did not appear particularly reassured by what he saw, he produced a
ring of keys from one pocket, flicked rapidly through them, found one, and used
it on his side of the door. When Tom reached for the handle, the bald clerk held
his hand up much as Clay had held his up to the bloodstained girl behind them.
The clerk found a second key, used this one in another lock, and opened the
door.
"Come in," he
said. "Hurry." Then he saw the girl, lingering at a little distance and
watching. "Not her."
"Yes, her," Clay
said. "Come on, honey." But she wouldn't, and when Clay took a step toward her,
she whirled and took off running, the skirt of her dress flying out behind
her.
8
"She could die out there," Clay
said.
"Not my problem," the
desk clerk said. "Are you coming in or not, Mr. Riddle?" He had a Boston accent,
not the blue-collar-Southie kind Clay was most familiar with from Maine, where
it seemed that every third person you met was a Massachusetts expat, but the
fussy I-wish-I-were-British one.
"It's Riddell."
He was coming in all right, no way this guy was going to keep him out now that
the door was open, but he lingered a moment longer on the sidewalk, looking
after the girl.
"Go on," Tom
said quietly. "Nothing to be done."
And he was
right. Nothing to be done. That was the exact hell of it. He followed Tom in,
and the desk clerk once more double-locked the doors of the Atlantic Avenue Inn
behind them, as if that were all it would take to keep them from the chaos of
the streets.
9
"That was Franklin," said the desk clerk as
he led the way around the uniformed man lying facedown on the floor.
He looks too
old to be a bellhop, Tom had said, peering in through the window, and Clay
thought he certainly did. He was a small man, with a lot of luxuriant white
hair. Unfortunately for him, the head on which it was probably still growing
(hair and nails were slow in getting the word, or so he had read somewhere) was
cocked at a terrible crooked angle, like the head of a hanged man. "He'd been
with the Inn for thirty-five years, as I'm sure he told every guest he ever
checked in. Most of them twice."
That tight
little accent grated on Clay's frayed nerves. He thought that if it had been a
fart, it would have been the kind that comes out sounding like a party-horn
blown by a kid with asthma.
"A man came out
of the elevator," the desk clerk said, once more using the pass-through to get
behind the desk. Back there was apparently where he felt at home. The overhead
light struck his face and Clay saw he was very pale. "One of the crazy ones.
Franklin had the bad luck to be standing right there in front of the
doors—"
"I don't suppose
it crossed your mind to at least take the damn picture off his ass," Clay said.
He bent down, picked up the Currier & Ives print, and put it on the couch.
At the same time, he brushed the dead bellman's foot off the cushion where it
had come to rest. It fell with a sound Clay knew very well. He had rendered it
in a great many comic books as CLUMP.
"The man from
the elevator only hit him with one punch," the desk clerk said. "It knocked poor
Franklin all the way against the wall. I think it broke his neck. In any case,
that was what dislodged the picture, Franklin striking the wall."
In the desk
clerk's mind, this seemed to justify everything.
"What about the
man who hit him?" Tom asked. "The crazy guy? Where'd he go?"
"Out," the desk
clerk said. "That was when I felt locking the door to be by far the wisest
course. After he went out." He looked at them with a combination of fear and
prurient, gossipy greed that Clay found singularly distasteful. "What's
happening out there? How bad has it gotten?"
"I think you
must have a pretty good idea," Clay said. "Isn't that why you locked the
door?"
"Yes,
but—"
"What are they
saying on TV?" Tom asked.
"Nothing. The
cable's been out—" He glanced at his watch. "For almost half an hour
now."
"What about the
radio?"
The desk clerk gave Tom a prissy
you-must-be-joking look. Clay was starting to think this guy could write
a book—How to Be Disliked on Short Notice. "Radio in this place?
In any downtown hotel? You must be joking."
From outside
came a high-pitched wail of fear. The girl in the bloodstained white dress
appeared at the door again and began pounding on it with the flat of her hand,
looking over her shoulder as she did so. Clay started for her, fast.
"No, he locked
it again, remember?" Tom shouted at him.
Clay hadn't. He
turned to the desk clerk. "Unlock it."
"No," the desk
clerk said, and crossed both arms firmly over his narrow chest to show how
firmly he meant to oppose this course of action. Outside, the girl in the white
dress looked over her shoulder again and pounded harder. Her blood-streaked face
was tight with terror.
Clay pulled the
butcher knife out of his belt. He had almost forgotten it and was sort of
astonished at how quickly, how naturally, it returned to mind. "Open it, you
sonofabitch," he told the desk clerk, "or I'll cut your throat."
10
"No time!" Tom yelled, and grabbed one of
the high-backed, bogus Queen Anne chairs that flanked the lobby sofa. He ran it
at the double doors with the legs up.
The girl saw him
coming and cringed away, raising both of her hands to protect her face. At the
same instant the man who had been chasing her appeared in front of the door. He
was an enormous construction-worker type with a slab of a gut pushing out the
front of his yellow T-shirt and a greasy salt-and-pepper ponytail bouncing up
and down on the back of it.
The chair-legs
hit the panes of glass in the double doors, the two legs on the left shattering
through ATLANTIC AVENUE INN and the two on the right through BOSTON'S
FINEST ADDRESS. The ones on the right punched into the construction-worker
type's meaty, yellow-clad left shoulder just as he grabbed the girl by the neck.
The underside of the chair's seat fetched up against the solid seam where the
two doors met and Tom McCourt went staggering backward, dazed.
The
construction-worker guy was roaring out that speaking-in-tongues gibberish, and
blood had begun to course down the freckled meat of his left biceps. The girl
managed to pull free of him, but her feet tangled together and she went down in
a heap, half on the sidewalk and half in the gutter, crying out in pain and
fear.
Clay was
standing framed in one of the shattered glass door-panels with no memory of
crossing the room and only the vaguest one of raking the chair out of his way.
"Hey dickweed!" he shouted, and was marginally encouraged when the big man's
flood of crazy-talk ceased for a moment and he froze in his tracks. "Yeah, you!"
Clay shouted. "I'm talking to you!" And then, because it was the only thing he
could think of: "I fucked your mama, and she was one dry hump!"
The large maniac
in the yellow shirt cried out something that sounded eerily like what the Power
Suit Woman had cried out just before meeting her end—eerily like
Rast!—and whirled back toward the building that had suddenly grown teeth
and a voice and attacked him. Whatever he saw, it couldn't have been a grim,
sweaty-faced man with a knife in his hand leaning out through a rectangular
panel that had lately held glass, because Clay had to do no attacking at all. The man in
the yellow shirt leaped onto the jutting blade of the butcher knife. The
Swedish steel slid smoothly into the hanging, sunburned wattle beneath his chin
and released a red waterfall. It doused Clay's hand, amazingly hot—almost hot as
a freshly poured cup of coffee, it seemed—and he had to fight off an urge to
pull away. Instead he pushed forward, at last feeling the knife encounter
resistance. It hesitated, but there was no buckle in that baby. It ripped
through gristle, then came out through the nape of the big man's neck. He fell
forward—Clay couldn't hold him back with one arm, no way in hell, the guy had to
go two-sixty, maybe even two-ninety—and for a moment leaned against the door
like a drunk against a lamppost, brown eyes bulging, nicotine-stained tongue
hanging from one corner of his mouth, neck spewing. Then his knees came unhinged
and he went down. Clay held on to the handle of the knife and was amazed at how
easily it came back out. Much easier than pulling it back through the leather
and reinforced particleboard of the portfolio.
With the lunatic
down he could see the girl again, one knee on the sidewalk and the other in the
gutter, screaming through the curtain of hair hanging across her
face.
"Honey," he
said. "Honey, don't." But she went on screaming.
11
Her name was Alice Maxwell. She could tell
them that much. And she could tell them that she and her mother had come into
Boston on the train—from Boxford, she said—to do some shopping, a thing they
often did on Wednesday, which she called her "short day" at the high school she
attended. She said they'd gotten off the train at South Station and grabbed a
cab. She said the cabdriver had been wearing a blue turban. She said the blue
turban was the last thing she could remember until the bald desk clerk had
finally unlocked the shattered double doors of the Atlantic Avenue Inn and let
her in.
Clay thought she
remembered more. He based this on the way she began to tremble when Tom McCourt
asked her if either she or her mother had been carrying a cell phone. She
claimed not to remember, but Clay was sure one or both of them had
been. Everyone did these days, it seemed. He was just the exception that proved
the rule. And there was Tom, who might owe his life to the cat that had knocked
his off the counter.
They conversed
with Alice (the conversation consisted for the most part of Clay asking
questions while the girl sat mutely, looking down at her scraped knees and
shaking her head from time to time) in the hotel lobby. Clay and Tom had moved
Franklin's body behind the reception desk, dismissing the bald clerk's loud and
bizarre protest that "it will just be under my feet there." The clerk, who had
given his name simply as Mr. Ricardi, had since retired to his inner office.
Clay had followed him just long enough to ascertain that Mr. Ricardi had been
telling the truth about the TV being out of commish, then left him there. Sharon
Riddell would have said Mr. Ricardi was brooding in his tent.
The man hadn't
let Clay go without a parting shot, however. "Now we're open to the world," he
said bitterly. "I hope you think you've accomplished something."
"Mr. Ricardi,"
Clay said, as patiently as he could, "I saw a plane crash-land on the other side
of Boston Common not an hour ago. It sounds like more planes—big ones—are doing
the same thing at Logan. Maybe they're even making suicide runs on the
terminals. There are explosions all over downtown. I'd say that this afternoon
all of Boston is open to the world."
As if to
underline this point, a very heavy thump had come from above them. Mr. Ricardi
didn't look up. He only flapped a begone hand in Clay's direction. With
no TV to look at, he sat in his desk chair and looked severely at the
wall.
12
Clay and Tom moved the two bogus Queen Anne
chairs against the door, where their high backs did a pretty good job of filling
the shattered frames that had once held glass. While Clay was sure that locking
the hotel off from the street offered flimsy or outright false security, he
thought that blocking the view from the street might be a good idea, and
Tom had concurred. Once the chairs were in place, they lowered the sun-blind
over the lobby's main window. That dimmed the room considerably and sent faint
prison-bar shadows marching across the turkey-red rug.
With these
things seen to, and Alice Maxwell's radically abridged tale told, Clay finally
went to the telephone behind the desk. He glanced at his watch. It was 4:22
p.m., a perfectly logical time for it to be, except any ordinary sense of time
seemed to have been canceled. It felt like hours since he'd seen the man biting
the dog in the park. It also seemed like no time at all. But there was
time, such as humans measured it, anyway, and in Kent Pond, Sharon would
surely be back by now at the house he still thought of as home. He needed to
talk to her. To make sure she was all right and tell her he was, too, but those
weren't the important things. Making sure Johnny was all right, that was
important, but there was something even more important than that. Vital,
really.
He didn't have a
cell phone, and neither did Sharon, he was almost positive of that. She might
have picked one up since they'd separated in April, he supposed, but they still
lived in the same town, he saw her almost every day, and he thought if she'd
picked one up, he would have known. For one thing, she would have given him the
number, right? Right. But—
But Johnny had
one. Little Johnny-Gee, who wasn't so little anymore, twelve wasn't so little,
and that was what he'd wanted for his last birthday. A red cell phone that
played the theme music from his favorite TV program when it rang. Of course he
was forbidden to turn it on or even take it out of his backpack when he was in
school, but school hours were over now. Also, Clay and Sharon actually
encouraged him to take it, partly because of the separation. There might
be emergencies, or minor inconveniences such as a missed bus. What Clay had to
hang on to was how Sharon had said she'd look into Johnny's room lately and more
often than not see the cell lying forgotten on his desk or the windowsill beside
his bed, off the charger and dead as dogshit.
Still, the thought of John's red cell
phone ticked away in his mind like a bomb.
Clay touched the
landline phone on the hotel desk, then withdrew his hand. Outside, something
else exploded, but this one was distant. It was like hearing an artillery shell
explode when you were well behind the lines.
Don't make
that assumption, he thought.
Don't even assume there are lines.
He looked across
the lobby and saw Tom squatting beside Alice as she sat on the sofa. He was
murmuring to her quietly, touching one of her loafers and looking up into her
face. That was good. He was good. Clay was increasingly glad he'd run
into Tom McCourt . . .or that Tom McCourt had run into him.
The landlines
were probably all right. The question was whether probably was good enough. He
had a wife who was still sort of his responsibility, and when it came to his son
there was no sort-of at all. Even thinking of Johnny was dangerous. Every time
his mind turned to the boy, Clay felt a panic-rat inside his mind, ready to
burst free of the flimsy cage that held it and start gnawing anything it could
get at with its sharp little teeth. If he could make sure Johnny and Sharon were
okay, he could keep the rat in its cage and plan what to do next. But if he did
something stupid, he wouldn't be able to help anyone. In fact, he would make
things worse for the people here. He thought about this a little and then called
the desk clerk's name.
When there was
no answer from the inner office, he called again. When there was still no
answer, he said, "I know you hear me, Mr. Ricardi. If you make me come in there
and get you, it'll annoy me. I might get annoyed enough to consider putting you
out on the street."
"You can't do
that," Mr. Ricardi said in a tone of surly instruction. "You are a guest
of the hotel."
Clay thought of
repeating what Tom had said to him while they were still outside—things have
changed. Something made him keep silent instead.
"What," Mr.
Ricardi said at last. Sounding more surly than ever. From overhead came a louder
thump, as if someone had dropped a heavy piece of furniture. A bureau, maybe.
This time even the girl looked up. Clay thought he heard a muffled shout—or
maybe a howl of pain—but if so, there was no follow-up. What was on the second
floor? Not a restaurant, he remembered being told (by Mr. Ricardi himself, when
Clay checked in) that the hotel didn't have a restaurant, but the Metropolitan
Cafe was right next
door. Meeting rooms, he thought. I'm pretty sure it's meeting rooms
with Indian names.
"What?"
Mr. Ricardi asked again. He sounded grouchier than ever.
"Did you try to
call anyone when all this started happening?"
"Well of
course!” Mr. Ricardi said. He came to the door between the inner office and
the area behind the reception desk, with its pigeonholes, security monitors, and
its bank of computers. There he looked at Clay indignantly. "The fire alarms
went off—I got them stopped, Doris said it was a wastebasket fire on the
third floor—and I called the Fire Department to tell them not to bother. The
line was busy! Busy, can you imagine!"
"You must have
been very upset," Tom said.
Mr. Ricardi
looked mollified for the first time. "I called the police when things outside
started . . . you know . . .to go downhill."
"Yes," Clay
said. To go downhill was one way of putting it, all right. "Did you get
an answer?"
"A man told me
I'd have to clear the line and then hung up on me," Mr. Ricardi said. The
indignation was creeping back into his voice. "When I called again—this was
after the crazy man came out of the elevator and killed Franklin—a woman
answered. She said . . ." Mr. Ricardi's voice had begun to quiver and Clay saw
the first tears running down the narrow defiles that marked the sides of the
man's nose. ". . . said . . ."
"What?" Tom
asked, in that same tone of mild sympathy. "What did she say, Mr.
Ricardi?"
"She said if
Franklin was dead and the man who killed him had run away, then I didn't have a
problem. It was she who advised me to lock myself in. She also told me to call
the hotel's elevators to lobby level and shut them off, which I
did."
Clay and Tom
exchanged a look that carried a wordless thought: Good idea. Clay got a
sudden vivid image of bugs trapped between a closed window and a screen, buzzing
furiously but unable to get out. This picture had something to do with the
thumps they'd heard coming from above them. He wondered briefly how long before
the thumper or thumpers up there would find the stairs.
"Then she
hung up on me. After that, I called my wife in Milton."
"You got through
to her," Clay said, wanting to be clear on this.
"She was very
frightened. She asked me to come home. I told her I had been advised to stay
inside with the doors locked. Advised by the police. I told her to do the same thing. Lock up
and keep a, you know, low profile. She begged me to come home. She said
there had been gunshots on the street, and an explosion a street over. She said
she had seen a naked man running through the Benzycks' yard. The Benzycks live
next door to us."
"Yes," Tom said
mildly. Soothingly, even. Clay said nothing. He was a bit ashamed at how angry
he'd been at Mr. Ricardi, but Tom had been angry, too.
"She said she
believed the naked man might—might, she only said might—have been
carrying the body of a . . .mmm . . . nude child. But possibly it was a doll.
She begged me again to leave the hotel and come home."
Clay had what he
needed. The landlines were safe. Mr. Ricardi was in shock but not crazy. Clay
put his hand on the telephone. Mr. Ricardi laid his hand over Clay's before Clay
could pick up the receiver. Mr. Ricardi's fingers were long and pale and very
cold. Mr. Ricardi wasn't done. Mr. Ricardi was on a roll.
"She called me a
son of a bitch and hung up. I know she was angry with me, and of course I
understand why. But the police told me to lock up and stay put. The police told
me to keep off the streets. The police. The authorities."
Clay nodded.
"The authorities, sure."
"Did you come by
the T?" Mr. Ricardi asked. "I always use the T. It's just two blocks down the
street. It's very convenient."
"It wouldn't be
convenient this afternoon," Tom said. "After what we just saw, you couldn't get
me down there on a bet."
Mr. Ricardi
looked at Clay with mournful eagerness. "You see?"
Clay nodded
again. "You're better off in here," he said. Knowing that he meant to get home
and see to his boy. Sharon too, of course, but mostly his boy. Knowing he would
let nothing stop him unless something absolutely did. It was like a weight in
his mind that cast an actual shadow on his vision. "Much better off." Then he
picked up the phone and punched 9 for an outside line. He wasn't sure he'd get
one, but he did. He dialed 1, then 207, the area code for all of Maine, and then
692, which was the prefix for Kent Pond and the surrounding towns. He got three
of the last four numbers—almost to the house he still thought of as home—before
the distinctive three-tone interrupt. A recorded female voice followed. "We're
sorry. All circuits are busy. Please try your call again later."
On the heels of
this came a dial tone as some automated circuit disconnected him from Maine . .
.if that was where the robot voice had been coming from. Clay let the handset
drop to the level of his shoulder, as if it had grown very heavy. Then he put it
back in the cradle.
13
Tom told him he was crazy to want to
leave.
For one thing,
he pointed out, they were relatively safe here in the Atlantic Avenue Inn,
especially with the elevators locked down and lobby access from the stairwell
blocked off. This they had done by piling boxes and suitcases from the luggage
room in front of the door at the end of the short corridor beyond the elevator
banks. Even if someone of extraordinary strength were to push against that door
from the other side, he'd only be able to shift the pile against the facing
wall, creating a gap of maybe six inches. Not enough to get through.
For another, the
tumult in the city beyond their little safe haven actually seemed to be
increasing. There was a constant racket of conflicting alarms, shouts and
screams and racing engines, and sometimes the panic-tang of smoke, although the
day's brisk breeze seemed to be carrying the worst of that away from them. So
far, Clay thought, but did not say aloud, at least not yet—he didn't want to
frighten the girl any more than she already was. There were explosions that
never seemed to come singly but rather in spasms. One of those was so close that
they all ducked, sure the front window would blow in. It didn't, but after that
they moved to Mr. Ricardi's inner sanctum.
The third reason
Tom gave for thinking Clay was crazy to even think about leaving the
marginal safety of the Inn was that it was now quarter past five. The day would
be ending soon. He argued that trying to leave Boston in the dark would be
madness.
"Just take a
gander out there," he said, gesturing to Mr. Ricardi's little window, which
looked out on Essex Street. Essex was crowded with abandoned cars. There was
also at least one body, that of a young woman in jeans and a Red Sox sweatshirt. She lay
facedown on the sidewalk, both arms outstretched, as if she had died trying to
swim, varitek, her sweatshirt
proclaimed. "Do you think you're going to drive your car? If you do, you better
think again."
"He's right,"
Mr. Ricardi said. He was sitting behind his desk with his arms once more folded
across his narrow chest, a study in gloom. "You're in the Tamworth Street
Parking Garage. I doubt if you'd even succeed in securing your
keys."
Clay, who had
already given his car up as a lost cause, opened his mouth to say he wasn't
planning to drive (at least to start with), when another thump came from
overhead, this one heavy enough to make the ceiling shiver. It was accompanied
by the faint but distinctive shiver-jingle of breaking glass. Alice Maxwell, who
was sitting in the chair across the desk from Mr. Ricardi, looked up nervously
and then seemed to shrink further into herself.
"What's up
there?" Tom asked.
"It's the
Iroquois Room directly overhead," Mr. Ricardi replied. "The largest of our three
meeting rooms, and where we keep all of our supplies—chairs, tables, audiovisual
equipment." He paused. "And, although we have no restaurant, we arrange for
buffets or cocktail parties, if clients request such service. That last thump .
. ."
He didn't
finish. As far as Clay was concerned, he didn't need to. That last thump had
been a trolley stacked high with glassware being upended on the floor of the
Iroquois Room, where numerous other trolleys and tables had already been tipped
over by some madman who was rampaging back and forth up there. Buzzing around on
the second floor like a bug trapped between the window and the screen, something
without the wit to find a way out, something that could only run and break, run
and break.
Alice spoke up
for the first time in nearly half an hour, and without prompting for the first
time since they'd met her. "You said something about someone named
Doris."
"Doris
Gutierrez." Mr. Ricardi was nodding. "The head housekeeper. Excellent employee.
Probably my best. She was on three, the last time I heard from her."
"Did she have—?"
Alice wouldn't say it. Instead she made a gesture that had become almost as
familiar to Clay as the index finger across the lips indicating Shh.
Alice put her right hand to the side of her face with the thumb close to her
ear and the pinkie in front of her mouth.
"No," Mr.
Ricardi said, almost primly. "Employees have to leave them in their lockers
while they're on the job. One violation gets them a reprimand. Two and they can
be fired. I tell them this when they're taken on." He lifted one thin shoulder
in a half-shrug. "It's management's policy, not mine."
"Would she have
gone down to the second floor to investigate those sounds?" Alice
asked.
"Possibly," Mr.
Ricardi said. "I have no way of knowing. I only know that I haven't heard from
her since she reported the wastebasket fire out, and she hasn't answered her
pages. I paged her twice."
Clay didn't want
to say You see, it isn't safe here, either right out loud, so he looked
past Alice at Tom, trying to give him the basic idea with his eyes.
Tom said, "How
many people would you say are still upstairs?"
"I have no way
of knowing."
"If you had to
guess."
"Not many. As
far as the housekeeping staff goes, probably just Doris. The day crew leaves at
three, and the night crew doesn't come on until six." Mr. Ricardi pressed his
lips tightly together. "It's an economy gesture. One cannot say measure
because it doesn't work. As for guests . . ."
He
considered.
"Afternoon is a
slack time for us, very slack. Last night's guests have all checked out, of
course—checkout time at the Atlantic Inn is noon— and tonight's guests wouldn't
begin checking in until four o'clock or so, on an ordinary afternoon. Which this
most definitely is not. Guests staying several days are usually here on
business. As I assume you were, Mr. Riddle."
Clay nodded
without bothering to correct Ricardi on his name.
"At
midafternoon, businesspeople are usually out doing whatever it was that brought
them to Boston. So you see, we have the place almost to ourselves."
As if to
contradict this, there came another thump from above them, more shattering
glass, and a faint feral growl. They all looked up.
"Clay, listen,"
Tom said. "If the guy up there finds the stairs . . . I don't know if these
people are capable of thought, but—"
"Judging by what
we saw on the street," Clay said, "even calling them people might be wrong. I've
got an idea that guy up there is more like a bug trapped between a window and a
screen. A bug trapped like that might get out—if it found a hole—and the guy up
there might find the stairs, but if he does, I think it'll be by
accident."
"And when he
gets down and finds the door to the lobby blocked, he'll use the fire-door to
the alley," Mr. Ricardi said with what was, for him, eagerness. "We'll hear the
alarm—it's rigged to ring when anyone pushes the bar—and we'll know he's gone.
One less nut to worry about."
Somewhere south
of them something big blew up, and they all cringed. Clay supposed he now knew
what living in Beirut during the 1980s had been like.
"I'm trying to
make a point here," he said patiently.
"I don't think
so," Tom said. "You're going anyway, because you're worried about your wife and
son. You're trying to persuade us because you want company."
Clay blew out a
frustrated breath. "Sure I want company, but that's not why I'm trying to talk
you into coming. The smell of smoke's stronger, but when's the last time you
heard a siren?"
None of them
replied.
"Me either,"
Clay said. "I don't think things are going to get better in Boston, not for a
while. They're going to get worse. If it was the cell
phones—"
"She tried to
leave a message for Dad," Alice said. She spoke rapidly, as if wanting to make
sure she got all the words out before the memory flew away. "She just wanted to
make sure he'd pick up the dry cleaning because she needed her yellow wool dress
for her committee meeting and I needed my extra uni for the away game on
Saturday. This was in the cab. And then we
crashed! She choked the man and she bit the man and his turban fell off and
there was blood on the side of his face and we crashed!"
Alice looked
around at their three staring faces, then put her own face in her hands and began to sob. Tom moved
to comfort her, but Mr. Ricardi surprised Clay by coming around his desk and
putting one pipestemmy arm around the girl before Tom could get to her.
"There-there," he said. "I'm sure it was all a misunderstanding, young
lady."
She looked up at
him, her eyes wide and wild. "Misunderstanding?" She indicated the dried
bib of blood on the front of her dress. "Does this look like a
misunderstanding? I used the karate from the self-defense classes I took
in junior high. I used karate on my own mother! I broke her nose, I think . . .
I'm sure . . ." Alice shook her head rapidly, her hair flying.
"And still, if I hadn't been able to reach behind me and get the door open . .
."
"She would have
killed you," Clay said flatly.
"She would have
killed me," Alice agreed in a whisper. "She didn't know who I was. My own
mother." She looked from Clay to Tom. "It was the cell phones," she said in that
same whisper. "It was the cell phones, all right."
14
"So how many of the damn things are there in
Boston?" Clay asked. "What's the market penetration?"
"Given the large
numbers of college students, I'd say it's got to be huge," Mr. Ricardi replied.
He had resumed his seat behind his desk, and now he looked a little more
animated. Comforting the girl might have done it, or perhaps it was being asked
a business-oriented question. "Although it goes much further than affluent young
people, of course. I read an article in Inc. only a month or two ago that
claimed there's now as many cell phones in mainland China as there are people in
America. Can you imagine?"
Clay didn't want
to imagine.
"All right." Tom
was nodding reluctantly. "I see where you're going with this. Someone—some
terrorist outfit—rigs the cell phone signals somehow. If you make a call or take
one, you get some kind of a . . . what? . . . some kind of a subliminal message,
I guess . . . that makes you crazy. Sounds like science fiction, but I suppose
fifteen or twenty years ago, cell phones as they now exist would have seemed
like science fiction to most people."
"I'm pretty sure
it's something like that," Clay said. "You can get enough of it to screw you up
righteously if you even overhear a call." He was thinking of Pixie Dark.
"But the insidious thing is that when people see things going wrong all around
them—"
"Their first
impulse is to reach for their cell phones and try to find out what's causing
it," Tom said.
"Yeah," Clay
said. "I saw people doing it."
Tom looked at
him bleakly. "So did I."
"What all this
has to do with you leaving the safety of the hotel, especially with dark coming
on, I don't know," Mr. Ricardi said.
As if in answer,
there came another explosion. It was followed by half a dozen more, marching off
to the southeast like the diminishing footsteps of a giant. From above them came
another thud, and a faint cry of rage.
"I don't think
the crazy ones will have the brains to leave the city any more than that guy up
there can find his way to the stairs," Clay said.
For a moment he
thought the look on Tom's face was shock, and then he realized it was something
else. Amazement, maybe. And dawning hope. "Oh, Christ," he said, and actually
slapped the side of his face with one hand. "They won't leave. I never
thought of that."
"There might be
something else," Alice said. She was biting her lip and looking down at her
hands, which were working together in a restless knot. She forced herself to
look up at Clay. "It might actually be safer to go after
dark."
"Why's that,
Alice?"
"If they can't
see you—if you can get behind something, if you can hide—they forget about you
almost right away."
"What makes you
think that, honey?" Tom asked.
"Because I hid
from the man who was chasing me," she said in a low voice. "The guy in the
yellow shirt. This was just before I saw you. I hid in an alley. Behind one of
those Dumpster thingies? I was scared, because I thought there might not be any
way back out if he came in after me, but it was all I could think of to do. I
saw him standing at the mouth of the alley, looking around, walking
around and around—walking the worry-circle, my grampa would say—and at first
I thought he was playing with me, you know? Because he had to've seen me
go into the alley, I was only a few feet ahead of him . . . just a few
feet . . . almost close enough to grab . . ." Alice began to tremble. "But once
I was in there, it was like . . . I dunno . . ."
"Out of sight,
out of mind," Tom said. "But if he was that close, why did you stop
running?"
"Because I
couldn't anymore," Alice said. "I just couldn't. My legs were like rubber, and I
felt like I was going to shake myself apart from the inside. But it turned out I
didn't have to run, anyway. He walked the worry-circle a few more times,
muttering that crazy talk, and then just walked off. I could hardly believe it.
I thought he had to be trying to fake me out. . . but at the same time I knew he
was too crazy for anything like that." She glanced briefly at Clay, then back
down at her hands again. "My problem was running into him again. I should have
stuck with you guys the first time. I can be pretty stupid
sometimes."
"You were sca—"
Clay began, and then the biggest explosion yet came from somewhere east of them,
a deafening KER-WHAM! that made them all duck and cover their ears. They
heard the window in the lobby shatter.
"My . . .
God," Mr. Ricardi said. His wide eyes underneath that bald head made him
look to Clay like Little Orphan Annie's mentor, Daddy Warbucks. "That might have
been the new Shell superstation they put in over on Kneeland. The one all the
taxis and the Duck Boats use. It was the right direction."
Clay had no idea
if Ricardi was right, he couldn't smell burning gasoline (at least not yet), but
his visually trained mind's eye could see a triangle of city concrete now
burning like a propane torch in the latening day.
"Can a modern
city burn?" he asked Tom. "One made mostly of concrete and metal and glass?
Could it burn the way Chicago did after Mrs. O'Leary's cow kicked over the
lantern?"
"That
lantern-kicking business was nothing but an urban legend," Alice said. She was
rubbing the back of her neck as if she were getting a bad headache. "Mrs. Myers
said so, in American History."
"Sure it could,"
Tom said. "Look what happened to the World Trade Center, after those airplanes
hit it."
"Airplanes full
of jet fuel," Mr. Ricardi said pointedly.
As if the bald
desk clerk had conjured it, the smell of burning gasoline began to come to them,
wafting through the shattered lobby windows and sliding beneath the door to the
inner office like bad mojo.
"I guess you
were on the nose about that Shell station," Tom remarked.
Mr. Ricardi went
to the door between his office and the lobby. He unlocked it and opened it. What
Clay could see of the lobby beyond already looked deserted and gloomy and
somehow irrelevant. Mr. Ricardi sniffed audibly, then closed the door and locked
it again. "Fainter already," he said.
"Wishful
thinking," Clay said. "Either that or your nose is getting used to the
aroma."
"I think he
might be right," Tom said. "That's a good west wind out there—by which I mean
the air's moving toward the ocean—and if what we just heard was that new station
they put in on the corner of Kneeland and Washington, by the New England Medical
Center—"
"That's the one,
all right," Mr. Ricardi said. His face registered glum satisfaction. "Oh, the
protests! The smart money fixed that, believe you m—"
Tom overrode
him. "—then the hospital will be on fire by now . . . along with anybody left
inside, of course . . ."
"No,"
Alice said, then put a hand over her mouth.
"I think yes.
And the Wang Center's next in line. The breeze may drop by full dark, but if it
doesn't, everything east of the Mass Pike is apt to be so much toasted cheese by
ten p.m."
"We're west
of there," Mr. Ricardi pointed out.
"Then we're safe
enough," Clay said. "At least from that one." He went to Mr. Ricardi's
little window, stood on his toes, and peered out onto Essex Street.
"What do you
see?" Alice asked. "Do you see people?"
"No . . . yes.
One man. Other side of the street."
"Is he one of
the crazy ones?" she asked.
"I can't tell."
But Clay thought he was. It was the way he ran, and the jerky way he kept
looking back over his shoulder. Once, just before he went around the corner and
onto Lincoln Street, the guy almost ran into a fruit display in front of a grocery
store. And although Clay couldn't hear him, he could see the man's lips moving.
"Now he's gone."
"No one else?"
Tom asked.
"Not at the
moment, but there's smoke." Clay paused. "Soot and ash, too. I can't tell how
much. The wind's whipping it around."
"Okay, I'm
convinced," Tom said. "I've always been a slow learner but never a no-learner.
The city's going to burn and nobody's going to stand pat but the crazy
people."
"I think that's
right," Clay said. And he didn't think this was true of just Boston, but for the
time being, Boston was all he could bear to consider. In time he might be able
to widen his view, but not until he knew Johnny was safe. Or maybe the big
picture was always going to be beyond him. He drew small pictures for a living,
after all. But in spite of everything, the selfish fellow who lived like a
limpet on the underside of his mind had time to send up a clear thought. It came
in colors of blue and dark sparkling
gold. Why did it have to happen today, of all days? Just after I finally made
a solid strike?
"Can I come with
you guys, if you go?" Alice asked.
"Sure," Clay
said. He looked at the desk clerk. "You can, too, Mr. Ricardi."
"I shall stay at
my post," Mr. Ricardi said. He spoke loftily, but before they shifted away from
Clay's, his eyes looked sick.
"I don't think you'll get in
Dutch with the management for locking up and leaving under these circumstances,"
Tom said. He spoke in the gentle fashion Clay was so much coming to
like.
"I shall stay at
my post," he said again. "Mr. Donnelly, the day manager, went out to make the
afternoon deposit at the bank and left me in charge. If he comes back, perhaps
then . . ."
"Please, Mr.
Ricardi," Alice said. "Staying here is no good."
But Mr. Ricardi,
who had once more crossed his arms over his thin chest, only shook his
head.
15
They moved one of the Queen Anne chairs
aside, and Mr. Ricardi unlocked the front doors for them. Clay looked out. He
could see no
people moving in either
direction, but it was hard to tell for sure because the air was now full of fine
dark ash. It danced in the breeze like black snow.
"Come on," he
said. They were only going next door to start with, to the Metropolitan
Cafe.
"I'm going to relock the door and put the
chair back in place," Mr. Ricardi said, "but I'll be listening. If you run into
trouble—if there are more of those . . .people . . . hiding in the
Metropolitan, for instance—and you have to retreat, just remember to shout, 'Mr.
Ricardi, Mr. Ricardi, we need you!' That way I'll know it's safe to open the
door. Is that understood?"
"Yes," Clay
said. He squeezed Mr. Ricardi's thin shoulder. The desk clerk flinched, then
stood firm (although he showed no particular sign of pleasure at being so
saluted). "You're all right. I didn't think you were, but I was
wrong."
"I hope I do my
best," the bald man said stiffly. "Just remember—"
"We'll
remember," Tom said. "And we'll be over there maybe ten minutes. If anything
goes wrong over here, you give a shout."
"All right." But
Clay didn't think he would. He didn't know why he thought that, it made no sense
to think a man wouldn't give a shout to save himself if he was in trouble, but
Clay did think it.
Alice said,
"Please change your mind, Mr. Ricardi. It's not safe in Boston, you must
know that by now."
Mr. Ricardi only
looked away. And Clay thought, not without wonder, This is how a
man looks when he's deciding that the risk of death is better than the risk of
change.
"Come on," Clay
said. "Let's make some sandwiches while we've still got electricity to see
by."
"Some bottled
water wouldn't hurt, either," Tom said.
16
The electricity failed just as they were
wrapping the last of their sandwiches in the Metropolitan Cafe's tidy,
white-tiled little kitchen. By then Clay had tried three more times to get
through to Maine: once to his old house, once to Kent Pond Elementary, where
Sharon taught, and once to Joshua Chamberlain Middle School, which Johnny now
attended. In no case did he get further than Maine's 207 area code.
When the lights
in the Metropolitan went out, Alice screamed in what at first seemed to Clay
like total darkness. Then the emergency lights came on. Alice was not much
comforted. She was clinging to Tom with one arm. In the other she was
brandishing the bread-knife she'd used to cut the sandwiches with. Her eyes were
wide and somehow flat.
"Alice, put that
knife down," Clay said, a little more harshly than he'd intended. "Before you
cut one of us with it."
"Or yourself,"
Tom said in that mild and soothing voice of his. His spectacles glinted in the
glare of the emergency lights.
She put it down,
then promptly picked it up again. "I want it," she said. "I want to take it with
me. You have one, Clay. I want one."
"All right," he
said, "but you don't have a belt. We'll make you one from a tablecloth. For now,
just be careful."
Half the
sandwiches were roast beef and cheese, half ham and cheese. Alice had wrapped
them in Saran Wrap. Under the cash register Clay found a stack of sacks with
DOGGY BAG written on one side and people
bag written on the other. He and Tom tumbled the sandwiches into a pair
of these. Into a third bag they put three bottles of water.
The tables had
been made up for a dinner-service that was never going to happen. Two or three
had been tumbled over but most stood perfect, with their glasses and silver
shining in the hard light of the emergency boxes on the walls. Something about
their calm orderliness hurt Clay's heart. The cleanliness of the folded napkins,
and the little electric lamps on each table. Those were now dark, and he had an
idea it might be a long time before the bulbs inside lit up again.
He saw Alice and
Tom gazing about with faces as unhappy as his felt, and a desire to cheer them
up—almost manic in its urgency—came over him. He remembered a trick he used to
do for his son. He wondered again about Johnny's cell phone and the panic-rat
took another nip out of him. Clay hoped with all his heart the damned phone was
lying forgotten under Johnny-Gee's bed among the dust-kitties, with its battery
flat-flat-flat.
"Watch this
carefully," he said, setting his bag of sandwiches aside, "and please note that
at no time do my hands leave my wrists." He grasped the hanging skirt of a
tablecloth.
"This is hardly
the time for parlor tricks," Tom said.
"I want to see,"
Alice said. For the first time since they'd met her, there was a smile on her
face. It was small but it was there.
"We need the
tablecloth," Clay said, "it won't take a second, and besides, the lady wants to
see." He turned to Alice. "But you have to say a magic word. Shazam will
do."
"Shazam!"
she said, and Clay pulled briskly with both hands.
He hadn't done
the trick in two, maybe even three years, and it almost didn't work. And yet at
the same time, his mistake—some small hesitation in the pull, no doubt—actually
added to the charm of the thing. Instead of staying where they were while the
tablecloth magically disappeared from beneath them, all the place-settings on
the table moved about four inches to the right. The glass nearest to where Clay
was standing actually wound up with its circular base half on and half off the
table.
Alice applauded,
now laughing. Clay took a bow with his hands held out.
"Can we go now,
O great Vermicelli?" Tom asked, but even Tom was smiling. Clay could see his
small teeth in the emergency lights.
"Soon's I rig
this," Clay said. "She can carry the knife on one side and a bag of sandwiches
on the other. You can tote the water." He folded the tablecloth over into a
triangle shape, then rolled it quickly into a belt. He slipped a bag of
sandwiches onto this by the bag's carrier handles, then put the tablecloth
around the girl's slim waist, having to take a turn and a half and tie the knot
in back to make the thing secure. He finished by sliding the serrated
bread-knife home on the right side.
"Say, you're
pretty handy," Tom said.
"Handy is
dandy," Clay said, and then something else blew up outside, close enough to
shake the cafe. The glass that had been standing half on and half off the table
lost its balance, tumbled to the floor, and shattered. The three of them looked
at it. Clay thought to tell them he didn't believe in omens, but that would only
make things worse. Besides, he did.
17
Clay had his reasons for wanting to go back
to the Atlantic Avenue Inn before they set off. One was to retrieve his
portfolio, which he'd left sitting in the lobby. Another was to see if they
couldn't find some sort of makeshift scabbard for Alice's knife—he reckoned even
a shaving kit would do, if it was long enough. A third was to give Mr. Ricardi
another chance to join them. He was surprised to find he wanted this even more
than he wanted the forgotten portfolio of drawings. He had taken an odd,
reluctant liking to the man.
When he
confessed this to Tom, Tom surprised him by nodding. "It's the way I feel about
anchovies on pizza," he said. "I tell myself there's something disgusting about
a combination of cheese, tomato sauce, and dead fish . . . but sometimes that
shameful urge comes over me and I can't stand against it."
A blizzard of
black ash and soot was blowing up the street and between the buildings. Car
alarms warbled, burglar alarms brayed, and fire alarms clanged. There seemed to
be no heat in the air, but Clay could hear the crackle of fire to the south and
east of them. The smell of burning was stronger, too. They heard voices
shouting, but these were back toward the Common, where Boylston Street
widened.
When they got
next door to the Atlantic Avenue Inn, Tom helped Clay push one of the Queen Anne
chairs away from one of the broken glass door-panels. The lobby beyond was now a
pool of gloom in which Mr. Ricardi's desk and the sofa were only darker shadows;
if Clay hadn't already been in there, he would have had no idea what those
shadows represented. Above the elevators a single emergency light guttered, the
boxed battery beneath it buzzing like a horsefly.
"Mr. Ricardi?"
Tom called. "Mr. Ricardi, we came back to see if you changed your
mind."
There was no reply. After a moment, Alice
began carefully to knock out the glass teeth that still jutted from the
windowframe.
"Mr.
Ricardi!" Tom called again, and when there was still no answer, he turned to
Clay. "You're going in there, are you?"
"Yes. To get my
portfolio. It's got my drawings in it."
"You don't have
copies?"
"Those are the
originals," Clay said, as if this explained everything. To him it did. And
besides, there was Mr. Ricardi. He'd said, I'll be listening.
"What if Thumper
from upstairs got him?" Tom asked.
"If that had
happened, I think we'd have heard him thumping around down here," Clay said.
"For that matter, he would have come running at the sound of our voices,
babbling like the guy who tried to carve us up back by the Common."
"You don't know
that," Alice said. She was gnawing at her lower lip. "It's way too early for you
to think you know all the rules."
Of course she
was right, but they couldn't stand around out here discussing it, that was no
good, either.
"I'll be
careful," he said, and put a leg over the bottom of the window. It was narrow,
but plenty wide enough for him to climb through. "I'll just poke my head into
his office. If he's not there, I won't go hunting around for him like a chick in
a horror movie. I'll just grab my portfolio and we'll boogie."
"Keep yelling,"
Alice said. "Just say 'Okay, I'm okay,' something like that. The whole
time."
"All right, but
if I stop yelling, just go. Don't come in after me."
"Don't worry,"
she said, unsmiling. "I saw all those movies, too. We've got
Cinemax."
18
"I'm okay," Clay shouted, picking up his
portfolio and then putting it down on the reception desk. Good to go, he
thought. But not quite yet.
He looked over
his shoulder as he went around the desk and saw the one unblocked window
glimmering, seeming to float in the thickening gloom, with two silhouettes cut
into the day's last light. "I'm okay, still okay, just going in to check his
office now, still okay, still o—"
"Clay?" Tom's
voice was alarmed, but for a moment Clay couldn't respond and set Tom's mind at
rest. There was an overhead light fixture in the middle of the inner office's
high ceiling. Mr. Ricardi was hanging from it by what looked like a drape-cord.
There was a white bag pulled down over his head. Clay thought it was
the kind of plastic bag the hotel gave you to put your dirty laundry and dry
cleaning in. "Clay, are you all right?"
"Clay?"
Alice sounded shrill, ready to be hysterical.
"Okay," he heard
himself say. His mouth seemed to be operating itself, with no help from his
brain. "Still right here." He was thinking of how Mr. Ricardi had looked when he
said I shall stay at my post. The words had been lofty, but the
eyes had been scared and somehow humble, the eyes of a small raccoon driven into
a corner of the garage by a large and angry dog. "I'm coming out
now."
He backed away,
as if Mr. Ricardi might slip his homemade drape-cord noose and come after him
the second he turned his back. He was suddenly more than afraid for Sharon and
Johnny; he was homesick for them with a depth of feeling that made him think of
his first day at school, his mother leaving him at the playground gate. The
other parents had walked their kids inside.
But his mother said, You just go in there, Clayton, it's the first room,
you'll be fine, boys should do this part alone. Before he did what she told
him he had watched her going
away, back up Cedar Street. Her blue coat. Now, standing here in the dark, he
was renewing acquaintance with the knowledge that the second part of homesick
was sick for a reason.
Tom and Alice
were fine, but he wanted the people he loved.
Once he was
around the reception desk, he faced the street and crossed the lobby. He got
close enough to the long broken window to see the frightened faces of his new
friends, then remembered he had forgotten his fucking portfolio again and had to
go back. Reaching for it, he felt certain that Mr. Ricardi's hand would steal
out of the gathering darkness behind the desk and close over his. That didn't
happen, but from overhead came another of those thumps. Something still up
there, something still blundering around in the dark. Something that had been
human until three o'clock this afternoon.
This time when
he was halfway to the door, the lobby's single battery-powered emergency light
stuttered briefly, then went out. That's a Fire Code
violation, Clay thought.
I ought to report that.
He handed out
his portfolio. Tom took it.
"Where is he?"
Alice asked. "Wasn't he there?"
"Dead," Clay
said. It had crossed his mind to lie, but he didn't think he was capable. He was
too shocked by what he had seen. How did a man hang himself? He didn't see how
it was even possible. "Suicide."
Alice began to
cry, and it occurred to Clay that she didn't know that if it had been up to Mr.
Ricardi, she'd probably be dead herself now. The thing was, he felt a little
like crying himself. Because Mr. Ricardi had come around. Maybe most people did,
if they got a chance.
From west of
them on the darkening street, back toward the Common, came a scream that seemed
too great to have issued from human lungs. It sounded to Clay almost like the
trumpeting of an elephant. There was no pain in it, and no joy. There was only
madness. Alice cringed against him, and he put an arm around her. The feel of
her body was like the feel of an electrical wire with a strong current passing
through it.
"If we're going
to get out of here, let's do it," Tom said. "If we don't run into too much
trouble, we should be able to get as far north as Maiden, and spend the
night at my place."
"That's a hell
of a good idea," Clay said.
Tom smiled
cautiously. "You really think so?"
"I really do.
Who knows, maybe Officer Ashland's already there."
"Who's Officer
Ashland?" Alice asked.
"A policeman we
met back by the Common," Tom said. "He . . . you know, helped us out." The three
of them were now walking east toward Atlantic Avenue, through the falling ash
and the sound of alarms. "We won't see him, though. Clay's just trying to be
funny."
"Oh," she said.
"I'm glad somebody's trying to be." Lying on the pavement by a litter barrel was
a blue cell phone with a cracked casing. Alice kicked it into the gutter without
breaking stride.
"Good one," Clay
said.
Alice shrugged.
"Five years of soccer," she said, and at that moment the streetlights came on,
like a promise that all was not yet lost.
MALDEN
1
Thousands of people stood on the Mystic
River Bridge and watched as everything between Comm Ave and Boston Harbor took
fire and burned. The wind from the west remained brisk and warm even after the
sun was down and the flames roared like a furnace, blotting out the stars. The
rising moon was full and ultimately hideous. Sometimes the smoke masked it, but
all too often that bulging dragon's eye swam free and peered down, casting a
bleary orange light. Clay thought it a horror-comic moon, but didn't say
so.
No one had much
to say. The people on the bridge only looked at the city they had so lately
left, watching as the flames reached the pricey harborfront condos and began
engulfing them. From across the water came an interwoven tapestry of alarms—fire
alarms and car alarms, mostly, with several whooping sirens added for spice. For
a while an amplified voice had told citizens to GET OFF THE STREETS, and then
another had begun advising them to LEAVE THE CITY ON FOOT BY MAJOR ARTERIES WEST
AND NORTH. These two contradictory pieces of advice had competed with each other
for several minutes, and then GET OFF THE STREETS had ceased. About five minutes
later, LEAVE THE CITY ON FOOT had also quit. Now there was only the hungry roar
of the wind-driven fire, the alarms, and a steady low crumping sound that Clay
thought must be windows imploding in the enormous heat.
He wondered how
many people had been trapped over there. Trapped between the fire and the
water.
"Remember
wondering if a modern city could burn?" Tom McCourt said. In the light of the
fire, his small, intelligent face looked tired and sick. There was a smudge of
ash on one of his cheeks. "Remember that?"
"Shut up, come
on," Alice said. She was clearly distraught, but like Tom, she spoke in a low
voice. It's like we're in a library, Clay thought. And then he thought,
No—a funeral home. "Can't we please go? Because this is kicking my
ass."
"Sure," Clay
said. "You bet. How far to your place, Tom?"
"From here, less
than two miles," he said. "But it's not all behind us, I'm sorry to say." They
had turned north now, and he pointed ahead and to the right. The glow blooming
there could almost have been orange-tinted arc-sodium streetlights on a cloudy
night, except the night was clear and the streetlights were now out. In any
case, streetlights did not give off rising columns of smoke.
Alice moaned,
then covered her mouth as if she expected someone among the silent multitude
watching Boston burn might reprimand her for making too much noise.
"Don't worry,"
Tom said with eerie calm. "We're going to Maiden and that looks like Revere. The
way the wind's blowing, Maiden should still be all right."
Stop right
there, Clay urged him silently, but Tom did not.
"For now," he
added.
2
There were several dozen abandoned cars on
the lower deck of the span, and a fire truck with EAST BOSTON lettered on its
avocado-green side that had been sideswiped by a cement truck (both were
abandoned), but mostly this level of the bridge belonged to the pedestrians.
Except now you probably have to call them refugees, Clay thought, and
then realized there was no them about it. Us. Call us
refugees.
There was still
very little talk. Most people just stood and watched the city burn in silence.
Those who were moving went slowly, looking back frequently over their
shoulders. Then, as they neared the far end of the bridge (he could see Old
Ironsides—at least he thought it was Old Ironsides—riding at anchor
in the Harbor, still safe from the flames), he noticed an odd thing. Many of
them were also looking at Alice. At first he had the paranoid idea that people
must think he and Tom had abducted the girl and were spiriting her away for God
knew what immoral purposes. Then he had to remind himself that these wraiths on
the Mystic Bridge were in shock, even more uprooted from their normal lives than
the Hurricane Katrina refugees had been—those unfortunates had at least had some
warning—and were unlikely to be capable of considering such fine ideas. Most
were too deep in their own heads for moralizing. Then the moon rose a little
higher and came out a little more strongly, and he got it: she was the only
adolescent in sight. Even Clay himself was young compared to most of their
fellow refugees. The majority of people gawking at the torch that had been
Boston or plodding slowly toward Maiden and Danvers were over forty, and many
looked eligible for the Golden Ager discount at Denny's. He saw a few people
with little kids, and a couple of babies in strollers, but that was pretty much
it for the younger set.
A little farther
on, he noticed something else. There were cell phones lying discarded in the
roadway. Every few feet they passed another one, and none were whole. They had
either been run over or stomped down to nothing but wire and splinters of
plastic, like dangerous snakes that had been destroyed before they could bite
again.
3
"What's your name, dear?" asked a plump
woman who came angling across to their side of the highway. This was about five
minutes after they had left the bridge. Tom said another fifteen would bring
them to the Salem Street exit, and from there it was only four blocks to his
house. He said his cat would be awfully glad to see him, and that had brought a
wan smile to Alice's face. Clay thought wan was better than nothing.
Now Alice looked
with reflexive mistrust at the plump woman who had detached herself from the
mostly silent groups and little lines of men and women—hardly more than shadows,
really, some with suitcases, some carrying shopping bags or wearing
backpacks—that had crossed the Mystic and were walking north on Route One, away
from the great fire to the south and all too aware of the new one taking hold in
Revere, off to the northeast.
The plump woman
looked back at her with sweet interest. Her graying hair was done in neat
beauty-shop curls. She wore cat's-eye glasses and what Clay's mother would have
called a "car coat." She carried a shopping bag in one hand and a book in the
other. There seemed to be no harm in her. She certainly wasn't one of the
phone-crazies—they hadn't seen a single one of those since leaving the Atlantic
Avenue Inn with their sacks of grub—but Clay felt himself go on point, just the
same. To be approached as if they were at a get-acquainted tea instead of
fleeing a burning city didn't seem normal. But under these circumstances, just
what was? He was probably losing it, but if so, Tom was, too. He was also
watching the plump, motherly woman with go-away eyes.
"Alice?" Alice
said at last, just when Clay had decided the girl wasn't going to reply at all.
She sounded like a kid trying to answer what she fears may be a trick question
in a class that's really too tough for her. "My name is Alice
Maxwell?"
"Alice," the
plump woman said, and her lips curved in a maternal smile as sweet as her look
of interest. There was no reason that smile should have set Clay on edge more
than he already was, but it did. "That's a lovely name. It means 'blessed of
God.' "
"Actually,
ma'am, it means 'of the royalty' or 'regally born,' " Tom said. "Now could you
excuse us? The girl has just lost her mother today, and—"
"We've all
lost someone today, haven't we, Alice?" the plump woman said without looking
at Tom. She kept pace with Alice, her beauty-shop curls bouncing with every
step. Alice was eyeing her with a mixture of unease and fascination. Around them
others paced and sometimes hurried and often plodded with their heads down,
little more than wraiths in this unaccustomed darkness, and Clay still saw
nobody young except for a few babies, a few toddlers, and Alice. No adolescents
because most adolescents had cell phones, like Pixie Light back at the Mister
Softee truck. Or like his own son, who had a red Nextel with a ring-tone from
The Monster Club and a teacher workamommy who might be with him or might
be just about anyw—
Stop it. Don't
you let that rat out. That rat can do nothing but run, bite, and chase its own
tail.
The plump woman,
meanwhile, kept nodding. Her curls bounced along. "Yes, we've all lost someone,
because this is the time of the great Tribulation. It's all in here, in
Revelation." She held up the book she was carrying, and of course it was a
Bible, and now Clay thought he was getting a better look at the sparkle in the
eyes behind the plump woman cat's-eye glasses. That wasn't kindly interest; that
was lunacy.
"Oh, that's it,
everybody out of the pool," Tom said. In his voice Clay heard a mixture of
disgust (at himself, for letting the plump woman bore in and get close to begin
with, quite likely) and dismay.
The plump woman
took no notice, of course; she had fixed Alice with her stare, and who was there
to pull her away? The police were otherwise occupied, if there were any left.
Here there were only the shocked and shuffling refugees, and they could care
less about one elderly crazy lady with a Bible and a beauty-shop
perm.
"The Vial of
Insanity has been poured into the brains of the wicked, and the City of Sin has
been set afire by the cleansing torch of Yee-ho-vah!" the plump lady
cried. She was wearing red lipstick. Her teeth were too even to be anything but
old-fashioned dentures. "Now you see the unrepentant flee, yea, verily, even as
maggots flee the burst belly of—"
Alice put her
hands over her ears. "Make her stop!" she cried, and still the ghost-shapes of
the city's recent residents filed past, only a few sparing a dull, incurious
glance before looking once more into the darkness where somewhere ahead New
Hampshire lay.
The plump woman
was starting to work up a sweat, Bible raised, eyes blazing, beauty-shop curls
nodding and swaying. "Take your hands down, girl, and hear the Word of God
before you let these men lead you away and fornicate with you in the open
doorway of Hell itself! 'For I saw a star blaze in the sky, and it was called
Wormwood, and those that followed it followed upon Lucifer, and those that
followed upon Lucifer walked downward into the furnace of—' "
Clay hit her. He
pulled the punch at the last second, but it was still a solid clip to the jaw,
and he felt the impact travel all the way up to his shoulder. The plump woman's
glasses rose off her pug nose and then settled back. Behind them, her eyes lost
their glare and rolled up in their sockets. Her knees came unhinged and she
buckled, her Bible tumbling from her clenched fist. Alice, still looking stunned
and horrified, nevertheless dropped her hands from her ears fast enough to catch
the Bible. And Tom McCourt caught the woman under her arms. The punch and the
two subsequent catches were so neatly done they could have been
choreographed.
Clay was
suddenly closer to undone than at any time since things had started going wrong.
Why this should have been worse than the throat-biting teenage girl or the
knife-wielding businessman, worse than finding Mr. Ricardi hanging from a light
fixture with a bag over his head, he didn't know, but it was. He had kicked the
knife-wielding businessman, Tom had, too, but the knife-wielding businessman had
been a different kind of crazy. The old lady with the beauty-shop curls had just
been a. . .
"Jesus," he
said. "She was just a nut, and I coldcocked her." He was starting to
shake.
"She was
terrorizing a young girl who lost her mother today," Tom said, and Clay realized
it wasn't calmness he heard in the small man's voice but an extraordinary
coldness. "You did exactly the right thing. Besides, you can't keep an old iron
horse like this down for long. She's coming around already. Help me get her over
to the side of the road."
4
They had reached the part of Route
One—sometimes called the Miracle Mile, sometimes Sleaze Alley—where
limited-access highway yielded to a jostle of liquor marts, cut-rate clothing
stores, sporting-goods outlets, and eateries with names like Fuddruckers. Here
the six lanes were littered, if not quite choked, with vehicles that had either
been piled up or just abandoned when their operators panicked, tried their cell
phones, and went insane. The refugees wove their various courses silently among
the remains, reminding Clay Riddell more than a little of ants evacuating a hill
that has been demolished by the careless passing boot-stride of some heedless
human.
There was a
green reflectorized sign reading malden
salem st. exit 1/4 MI at
the edge of a low pink building that had been broken into; it was fronted by a
jagged skirting of broken glass, and a battery-powered burglar alarm was even
now in the tired last stages of running down. A glance at the dead sign on the
roof was all Clay needed to tell him what had made the place a target in the
aftermath of the day's disaster: mister
big's giant discount liquor.
He had one of
the plump woman's arms. Tom had the other, and Alice supported the muttering
woman's head as they eased her to a sitting position with her back against one
of the exit sign's legs. Just as they got her down, the plump woman opened her
eyes and looked at them dazedly.
Tom snapped his
fingers in front of her eyes, twice, briskly. She blinked, then turned her eyes
to Clay. "You . . . hit me," she said. Her fingers rose to touch the rapidly
puffing spot on her jaw.
"Yes, I'm sor—"
Clay began.
"He may be, but
I'm not," Tom said. He spoke with that same cold briskness. "You were
terrorizing our ward."
The plump woman
laughed softly, but tears were in her eyes. "Ward! I've heard a lot of
words for it, but never that one. As if I don't know what men like you want with
a tender girl like this, especially in times like these. 'They repented not
their fornications, nor their sodomies, nor their—' "
"Shut up," Tom said, "or I'll hit you
myself. And unlike my friend, who was I think lucky enough not to grow up among
the holy Hannahs and thus does not recognize you for what you are, I won't pull
my punch. Fair warning—one more word." He held his fist before her eyes, and
although Clay had already concluded that Tom was an educated man, civilized, and
probably not much of a puncher under ordinary circumstances, he could not help
feeling dismay at the sight of that small, tight fist, as if he were looking at
an omen of the coming age.
The plump lady
looked and said nothing. One large tear spilled down her rouged
cheek.
"That's enough,
Tom, I'm okay," Alice said.
Tom dropped the
plump lady's shopping bag of possessions into her lap. Clay hadn't even realized
Tom had salvaged it. Then Tom took the Bible from Alice, picked up one of the
plump lady's be-ringed hands, and smacked the Bible into it, spine first. He
started away, then turned back.
"Tom, that's
enough, let's go," Clay said.
Tom ignored him.
He bent toward the woman sitting with her back against the sign's leg. His hands
were on his knees, and to Clay the two of them—the plump, spectacled woman
looking up, the small, spectacled man bending over with his hands on his
knees—looked like figures in some lunatic's parody of the early illustrations
from the Charles Dickens novels.
"Some
advice, sister," Tom said. "The police will no longer protect you as they did
when you and your self-righteous, holy-rolling friends marched on the family
planning centers or the Emily Cathcart Clinic in Waltham—"
"That abortion
mill!" she spat, and then raised her Bible, as if to block a blow.
Tom didn't hit
her, but he was smiling grimly. "I don't know about the Vial of Insanity, but
there's certainly beaucoup crazy making the rounds tonight. May I be
clear? The lions are out of their cages, and you may well find that they'll eat
the mouthy Christians first. Somebody canceled your right of free speech around
three o'clock this afternoon. Just a word to the wise." He looked from Alice to
Clay, and Clay saw that the upper lip beneath the mustache was trembling
slightly. "Shall we go?"
"Yes," Clay
said.
"Wow," Alice
said, once they were walking toward the Salem Street ramp again, Mister Big's
Giant Discount Liquor falling behind them. "You grew up with someone like
that?"
"My mother and both of her
sisters," Tom said. "First N.E. Church of Christ the Redeemer. They took Jesus
as their personal savior, and the church took them as its personal
pigeons."
"Where is your
mother now?" Clay asked.
Tom glanced at
him briefly. "Heaven. Unless they rooked her on that one, too. I'm pretty sure
the bastards did."
Near the stop
sign at the foot of the ramp, two men were fighting over a keg of beer. If
forced to guess, Clay would have said it had probably been liberated from Mister Big's Giant Discount
Liquor. Now it lay forgotten against the guardrails, dented and leaking foam,
while the two men—both brawny and both bleeding—battered each other with their
fists. Alice shrank against him, and Clay put his arm around her, but there was
something almost reassuring about these brawlers. They were angry— enraged—but
not crazy. Not like the people back in the city.
One of them was
bald and wearing a Celtics jacket. He hit the other a looping overhand blow that
mashed his opponent's lips and knocked him flat. When the man in the Celtics
jacket advanced on the downed man, the downed man scrambled away, then got up,
still backing off. He spat blood. "Take it, ya fuck!" he yelled in a thick,
weepy Boston accent. "Hope it chokes ya!"
The bald man in
the Celtics jacket made as if to charge him, and the other went running up the
ramp toward Route One. Celtics Jacket started to bend down for his prize,
registered Clay, Alice, and Tom, and straightened up again. It was three to one,
he had a black eye, and blood was trickling down the side of his face from a
badly torn earlobe, but Clay saw no fear in that face, although he had only the
diminishing light of the Revere fire to go by. He thought his grandfather would
have said the guy's Irish was up, and certainly that went with the big green
shamrock on the back of his jacket.
"The fuck you
lookin at?" he asked.
"Nothing—just
going by you, if that's all right," Tom said mildly. "I live on Salem
Street."
"You can go to
Salem Street or hell, far as I'm concerned," the bald man in the Celtics jacket
said. "Still a free country, isn't it?"
"Tonight?" Clay
said. "Too free."
The bald man
thought it over and then laughed, a humorless double ha-ha. "The fuck happened?
Any-a youse know?"
Alice said, "It
was the cell phones. They made people crazy."
The bald man
picked up the keg. He handled it easily, tipping it so the leak stopped.
"Fucking things," he said. "Never cared to own one. Rollover minutes. The
fuck're those?"
Clay didn't
know. Tom might've—he'd owned a cell phone, so it seemed possible—but Tom said
nothing. Probably didn't want to get into a long discussion with the bald man, and
probably a good idea. Clay thought the bald man had some of the characteristics
of an unexploded grenade.
"City burning?"
the bald man asked. "Is, isn't it?"
"Yes," Clay
said. "I don't think the Celtics will be playing at the Fleet this
year."
"They ain't
shit, anyway," the man said. "Doc Rivers couldn't coach a PAL team." He stood
watching them, the keg on his shoulder, blood running down the side of his face.
Yet now he seemed peaceable enough, almost serene. "Go on," he said. "But I
wouldn't stay this close to the city for long. It's gonna get worse before it
gets better. There's gonna be a lot more fires, for one thing. You think
everybody who hightailed it north remembered to turn off the gas stove? I fuckin
doubt it."
The three of
them started walking, then Alice stopped. She pointed to the keg. "Was that
yours?"
The bald man
looked at her reasonably. "Ain't no was at times like this, sweetie pie. Ain't
no was left. There's just now and maybe-tomorrow. It's mine now, and if there's
any left it'll be mine maybe-tomorrow. Go on now. The fuck out."
"Seeya," Clay
said, and raised one hand.
"Wouldn't want
to be ya," the bald man replied, unsmiling, but he raised his own hand in
return. They had passed the stop sign and were crossing to the far side of what
Clay assumed was Salem Street when the bald man called after them again: "Hey,
handsome!"
Both Clay and
Tom turned to look, then glanced at each other, amused. The bald guy with the
keg was now only a dark shape on the rising ramp; he could have been a caveman
carrying a club.
"Where are the
loonies now?" the bald guy asked. "You're not gonna tell me they're all dead,
are ya? Cause I don't fuckin believe it."
"That's a very
good question," Clay said.
"You're fuckin-A
right it is. Watch out for the little sweetie pie there." And without waiting
for them to reply, the man who'd won the battle of the beer keg turned and
merged with the shadows.
6
"This is it," Tom said no more than ten
minutes later, and the moon emerged from the wrack of cloud and smoke that had
obscured it for the last hour or so as if the little man with the spectacles and
the mustache had just given the Celestial Lighting Director a cue. Its
rays—silver now instead of that awful infected orange—illuminated a house that
was either dark blue, green, or perhaps even gray; without the streetlights to
help, it was hard to tell for sure. What Clay could tell for sure was
that the house was trim and handsome, although maybe not as big as your eye
first insisted. The moonlight aided in that deception, but it was mostly caused
by the way the steps rose from Tom McCourt's well-kept lawn to the only pillared
porch on the street. There was a fieldstone chimney on the left. From above the
porch, a dormer looked down on the street.
"Oh, Tom, it's
beautiful!” Alice said in a too-rapturous voice. To Clay she sounded
exhausted and bordering on hysteria. He himself didn't think it beautiful, but
it certainly looked like the home of a man who owned a cell phone and all the
other twenty-first-century bells and whistles. So did the rest of the houses on
this part of Salem Street, and Clay doubted if many of the residents had had
Tom's fantastic good luck. He looked around nervously. All the houses were
dark—the power was out now—and they might have been deserted, except he seemed
to feel eyes, surveying them.
The eyes of
crazies? Phone-crazies? He thought of Power Suit Woman and Pixie Light; of the
lunatic in the gray pants and the shredded tie; the man in the business suit who
had bitten the ear right off the side of the dog's head. He thought of the naked
man jabbing the car aerials back and forth as he ran. No, surveying was
not in the phone-crazies' repertoire. They just came at you. But if there were
normal people holed up in these houses—some of them, anyway—where were
the phone-crazies?
Clay didn't
know.
"I don't know if
I'd exactly call it beautiful," Tom said, "but it's still standing, and that's
good enough for me. I'd pretty well made up my mind that we'd get here and find
nothing but a smoking hole in the ground." He reached in his pocket and brought
out a slim ring of keys. "Come on in. Be it ever so humble, and all
that."
They started up
the walk and had gone no more than half a dozen steps when Alice cried,
"Wait!"
Clay wheeled
around, feeling both alarm and exhaustion. He thought he was beginning to
understand combat fatigue a little. Even his adrenaline felt tired. But no one
was there—no phone-crazies, no bald man with blood flowing down the side of his
face from a shredded ear, not even a little old lady with the talkin apocalypse
blues. Just Alice, down on one knee at the place where Tom's walk left the
sidewalk.
"What is it,
honey?" Tom asked.
She stood up,
and Clay saw she was holding a very small sneaker. "It's a Baby Nike," she said.
"Do you—"
Tom shook his
head. "I live alone. Except for Rafe, that is. He thinks he's the king, but he's
only the cat."
"Then who left
it?" She looked from Tom to Clay with wondering, tired eyes.
Clay shook his
head. "No telling, Alice. Might as well toss it."
But Clay knew
she would not; it was déjà vu at its disorienting worst. She still held it in
her hand, curled against her waist, as she went to stand behind Tom, who was on
the steps, picking slowly through his keys in the scant light.
Now we hear
the cat, Clay thought. Rafe. And sure enough, there was the cat that
had been Tom McCourt's salvation, waowing a greeting from
inside.
7
Tom bent down and Rafe or Rafer—both short
for Rafael—leaped into his arms, purring loudly and stretching his head up to
sniff Tom's carefully trimmed mustache.
"Yeah, missed
you, too," Tom said. "All is forgiven, believe me." He carried Rafer across the
enclosed porch, stroking the top of his head. Alice followed. Clay came last,
closing the door and turning the knob on the lock before catching up to the
others.
"Follow along
down to the kitchen," Tom said when they were in the house proper. There was a
pleasant smell of furniture polish and, Clay thought, leather, a smell he associated
with men living calm lives that did not necessarily include women. "Second door
on the right. Stay close. The hallway's wide, and there's nothing on the floor,
but there are tables on both sides and it's as black as your hat. As I think you
can see."
"So to speak,"
Clay said.
"Ha-ha."
"Have you got
flashlights?" Clay asked.
"Flashlights and
a Coleman lantern that should be even better, but let's get in the kitchen
first."
They followed him down the hallway, Alice
walking between the two men. Clay could hear her breathing rapidly, trying not
to let the unfamiliar surroundings freak her out, but of course it was hard.
Hell, it was hard for him. Disorienting. It would have been better if there had
been even a little light, but—
His knee bumped
one of the tables Tom had mentioned, and something that sounded all too ready to
break rattled like teeth. Clay steeled himself for the smash, and for Alice's
scream. That she would scream was almost a given. Then whatever it was, a
vase or some knickknack, decided to live a little longer and settled back into
place. Still, it seemed like a very long walk before Tom said, "Here, okay? Hard
right."
The kitchen was
nearly as black as the hall, and Clay had just a moment to think of all the
things he was missing and Tom must be missing more: a digital readout on the
microwave oven, the hum of the fridge, maybe light from a neighboring house
coming in through the window over the kitchen sink and making highlights on the
faucet.
"Here's the
table," Tom said. "Alice, I'm going to take your hand. Here's a chair, okay? I'm
sorry if I sound like we're playing blindman's bluff."
"It's all r—,"
she began, then gave a little scream that made Clay jump. His hand was on the
haft of his knife (now he thought of it as his) before he even realized he'd
reached for it.
"What?" Tom
asked sharply. "What?"
"Nothing," she
said. "Just. . . nothing. The cat. His tail. . . on my leg."
"Oh. I'm
sorry."
"It's all right.
Stupid," she added with self-contempt that made Clay wince in the
dark.
"No," he said.
"Let up on yourself, Alice. It's been a tough day at the office."
"Tough day at
the office!" Alice repeated, and laughed in a way Clay didn't care for. It
reminded him of her voice when she'd called Tom's house beautiful. He thought,
That's going to get away from her, and then what do I do? In the movies the
hysterical girl gets a slap across the chops and it always brings her around,
but in the movies you can see where she is.
He didn't have
to slap her, shake her, or hold her, which was what he probably would have tried
first. She heard what was in her own voice, maybe, got hold of it, and
bulldogged it down: first to a choked gargle, then to a gasp, then to
quiet.
"Sit," Tom said.
"You have to be tired. You too, Clay. I'll get us some light."
Clay felt for a
chair and sat down to a table he could hardly see, although his eyes had to be
fully adjusted to the dark by now. There was a whisper of something against his
pants leg, there and gone. A low miaow. Rafe.
"Hey, guess
what?" he said to the dim shape of the girl as Tom's footsteps receded. "Ole
Rafer just put a jump in me, too." Although he hadn't, not really.
"We have to
forgive him," she said. "Without that cat, Tom would be just as crazy as the
rest of them. And that would be a shame."
"It
would."
"I'm so scared,"
she said. "Do you think it will get better tomorrow, in the daylight? The being
scared part?"
"I don't
know."
"You must be
worried sick about your wife and little boy."
Clay sighed and
rubbed his face. "The hard part is trying to come to grips with the
helplessness. We're separated, you see, and—" He stopped and shook his head. He
wouldn't have gone on if she hadn't reached out and taken his hand. Her fingers
were firm and cool. "We separated in the spring. We still live in the same
little town, what my own mother would have called a grass marriage. My wife
teaches at the elementary school."
He leaned
forward, trying to see her face in the dark.
"You want to
know the hell of it? If this had happened a year ago, Johnny would have been with her. But this
September he made the jump to middle school, which is almost five miles away. I
keep trying to figure if he would have been home when things went nuts. He and
his friends ride the bus. I think he would have been home. And I think he
would have gone right to her."
Or pulled his
cellphone out of his backpack and called her! the panic-rat suggested
merrily . . . then bit. Clay felt himself tightening his fingers down on
Alice's and made himself stop. But he couldn't stop the sweat from springing out
on his face and arms.
"But you don't
know," she said.
"No."
"My daddy runs a
framing and print shop in Newton," she said. "I'm sure he's all right, he's very
self-reliant, but he'll be worried about me. Me and my. My
you-know."
Clay
knew.
"I keep
wondering what he did about supper," she said. "I know that's crazy, but he
can't cook a lick."
Clay thought
about asking if her father had a cell phone and something told him not to.
Instead he asked, "Are you doing all right for now?"
"Yes," she said,
and shrugged. "What's happened to him has happened. I can't change
it."
He thought:
I wish you hadn't said that.
"My kid has a
cell phone, did I tell you that?" To his own ears, his voice sounded as harsh as
a crow's caw.
"You did,
actually. Before we crossed the bridge."
"Sure, that's
right." He was gnawing at his lower lip and made himself stop. "But he didn't
always keep it charged. Probably I told you that, too."
"Yes."
"I just have no
way of knowing." The panic-rat was out of its cage, now. Running and
biting.
Now both of her
hands closed over both of his. He didn't want to give in to her comfort—it felt
hard to let go of his grip on himself and give in to her comfort—but he did it,
thinking she might need to give more than he needed to take. They were holding
on that way, hands linked next to the pewter salt and pepper shakers on Tom
McCourt's little kitchen table, when Tom came back from the cellar
with four flashlights and a Coleman lantern that was still in its
box.
8
The Coleman gave off enough light to make
the flashlights unnecessary. It was harsh and white, but Clay liked its
brilliance, the way it drove away every single shadow save for their own and the
cat's—which went leaping fantastically up the wall like a Halloween decoration
cut from black crepe paper—into hiding.
"I think you
should pull the curtains," Alice said.
Tom was opening
one of the plastic sacks from the Metropolitan Cafe, the ones with DOGGY BAG on
one side and PEOPLE BAG on the other. He stopped and looked at her curiously.
"Why?"
She shrugged and
smiled. Clay thought it the strangest smile he had ever seen on the face of a
teenage girl. She'd cleaned the blood off her nose and chin, but there were dark
weary-circles under her eyes, the Coleman lamp had bleached the rest of her face
to a corpselike pallor, and the smile, showing the tiniest twinkle of teeth
between trembling lips from which all the lipstick had now departed, was
disorienting in its adult artificiality. He thought Alice looked like a movie
actress from the late 1940s playing a socialite on the verge of a nervous
breakdown. She had the tiny sneaker in front of her on the table. She was
spinning it with one finger. Each time she spun it, the laces flipped and
clicked. Clay began to hope she would break soon. The longer she held up, the
worse it would be when she finally let go. She had let some out, but not nearly
enough. So far he'd been the one to do most of the letting-out.
"I don't think
people should see we're in here, that's all," she said. She flicked the sneaker.
What she had called a Baby Nike. It spun. The laces flipped and clicked on Tom's
highly polished table. "I think it might be . . .bad."
Tom looked at
Clay.
"She could be
right," Clay said. "I don't like us being the only lit-up house on the block,
even if the light's at the back."
Tom got up and
closed the curtains over the sink without another word.
There were two
other windows in the kitchen, and he pulled those curtains, too. He started back
to the table, then changed course and closed the door between the kitchen and
the hall. Alice spun the Baby Nike in front of her on the table. In the harsh,
unsparing glow of the Coleman lantern, Clay could see it was pink and purple,
colors only a child could love. Around it went. The laces flew and clicked. Tom
looked at it, frowning, as he sat
down, and Clay thought: Tell her to take it off the table. Tell her she
doesn't know where it's been and you don't want it on your table. That should be
enough to set her off and then we can start getting this part out of the way.
Tell her. I think she wants you to. I think that's why she's doing
it.
But Tom only
took sandwiches out of the bag—roast beef and cheese, ham and cheese—and doled
them out. He got a pitcher of iced tea from the fridge ("Still cold as can be,"
he said), and then set down the remains of a package of raw hamburger for the
cat.
"He deserves
it," he said, almost defensively. "Besides, it would only go over with the
electricity out."
There was a
telephone hanging on the wall. Clay tried it, but it was really just a formality
and this time he didn't even get a dial tone. The thing was as dead as . . .
well, as Power Suit Woman, back there by Boston Common. He sat back down and
worked on his sandwich. He was hungry but didn't feel like eating.
Alice put hers
down after only three bites. "I can't," she said. "Not now. I guess I'm too
tired. I want to go to sleep. And I want to get out of this dress. I guess I
can't wash up—not very well, anyway—but I'd give anything to throw this fucking
dress away. It stinks of sweat and blood." She spun the sneaker. It twirled
beside the crumpled paper with her barely touched sandwich lying on top of it.
"I can smell my mother on it, too. Her perfume."
For a moment no
one said anything. Clay was at a complete loss. He had a momentary picture of
Alice subtracted from her dress, in a white bra and panties, with her staring,
hollowed-out eyes making her look like a paper-doll. His artist's imagination,
always facile and always obliging, added tabs at the shoulders and lower legs of
the image. It was shocking not because it was sexy but because it wasn't. In the
distance—very faint—something exploded with a dim foomp.
Tom broke the
silence, and Clay blessed him for it.
"I'll bet a pair
of my jeans would just about fit you, if you rolled up the bottoms to make
cuffs." He stood up. "You know what, I think you'd even look cute in em, like
Huck Finn in a girls' school production of Big River. Come upstairs. I'm
going to put out some clothes for you to wear in the morning and you can spend
the night in the guest room. I've got plenty of pajamas, a plague of pajamas. Do
you want the Coleman?"
"Just . . . I
guess just a flashlight will be okay. Are you sure?"
"Yes," he said.
He took one flashlight and gave her another. He looked ready to say something
about the small sneaker when she picked it up, then seemed to think better of
it. What he said was, "You can wash, too. There may not be a lot of water, but
the taps will probably draw some even with the power out, and I'm sure we can
spare a basinful." He looked over the top of her head at Clay. "I always keep a
case of bottled drinking water in the cellar, so we're not short
there."
Clay nodded.
"Sleep well, Alice," he said.
"You too," she
said vaguely, and then, more vaguely still: "Nice meeting you."
Tom opened the
door for her. Their flashlights bobbed, and then the door shut again. Clay heard
their footsteps on the stairs, then overhead. He heard running water. He waited
for the chug of air in the pipes, but the flow of water stopped before the air
started. A basinful, Tom had said, and that was what she'd gotten. Clay also had
blood and dirt on him he wanted to wash off—he imagined Tom did, too—but he
guessed there must be a bathroom on this floor, too, and if Tom was as neat
about his personal habits as he was about his person, the water in the toilet
bowl would be clean. And there was the water in the tank as well, of
course.
Rafer jumped up
on Tom's chair and began washing his paws in the white light of the Coleman
lantern. Even with the lantern's steady low hiss, Clay could hear him purring.
As far as Rafe was concerned, life was still cool.
He thought of
Alice twirling the small sneaker and wondered, almost idly, if it was possible
for a fifteen-year-old girl to have a nervous breakdown.
"Don't be
stupid," he told the cat. "Of course it is. Happens all the time. They make
movies of the week about it."
Rafer looked at
him with wise green eyes and went on licking his paw. Tell me more,
those eyes
seemed to say. Vere you beaten as a child? Did you have ze sexual thoughts
about your mother?
I can smell my
mother on it. Her perfume.
Alice as a
paper-doll, with tabs sticking out of her shoulders and legs.
Don't be
zilly, Rafer's green eyes seemed to say. Ze tabs go on ze clothes,
not on ze doll. Vut kind of artist are you?
"The out-of-work
kind," he said. "Just shut up, why don't you?" He closed his eyes, but that was
worse. Now Rafer's green eyes floated disembodied in the dark, like the eyes of
Lewis Carroll's Cheshire cat: We're all mad here, dear Alice. And under
the steady hiss of the Coleman lamp, he could still hear it purring.
9
Tom was gone fifteen minutes. When he came
back, he brushed Rafe out of his chair without ceremony and took a large,
convincing bite from his sandwich. "She's asleep," he said. "Got into a pair of
my pajamas while I waited in the hall, and then we dumped the dress in the trash
together. I think she was out forty seconds after her head hit the pillow.
Throwing the dress away was what sealed the deal, I'm convinced of it." A slight
pause. "It did indeed smell bad."
"While you were
gone," Clay said, "I nominated Rafe president of the United States. He was
elected by acclamation."
"Good," Tom
said. "Wise choice. Who voted?"
"Millions.
Everyone still sane. They sent in thought-ballots." Clay made his eyes very wide
and tapped his temple. "I can read miiiyyynds."
Tom's chewing
stopped, then began again . . . but slowly. "You know," he said, "under the
circumstances, that's not really all that funny."
Clay sighed,
sipped some iced tea, and made himself eat a little more of his sandwich. He
told himself to think of it as body gasoline, if that was what it took to get it
down. "No. Probably not. Sorry."
Tom tipped his
own glass to him before drinking. "It's all right. I appreciate the effort. Say,
where's your portfolio?"
"Left it on the
porch. I wanted both hands free while we negotiated Tom McCourt's Hallway of
Death."
"That's
all right, then. Listen, Clay, I'm sorry as hell about your
family-"
"Don't be sorry
yet," Clay said, a little harshly. "There's nothing to be sorry about
yet."
"—but I'm really
glad I ran into you. That's all I wanted to say."
"Same goes
back," Clay said. "I appreciate the quiet place to spend the night, and I'm sure
Alice does, too."
"As long as
Malden doesn't get loud and burn down around our ears."
Clay nodded,
smiling a little. "As long as. Did you get that creepy little shoe away from
her?"
"No. She took it
to bed with her like . . . I don't know, a teddy bear. She'll be a lot better
tomorrow if she sleeps through tonight."
"Do you think
she will?"
"No," Tom said.
"But if she wakes up scared, I'll spend the night with her. Crawl in with her,
if that's what it takes. You know I'm safe with her, right?"
"Yes." Clay knew
that he would have been safe with her, too, but he understood what Tom was
talking about. "I'm going to head north tomorrow morning as soon as it's light.
It would probably be a good idea if you and Alice came with me."
Tom thought about this briefly,
then asked, "What about her father?"
"She says he's,
quote, 'very self-reliant.' Her biggest stated worry on his behalf was what he
rolled himself for dinner. What I heard under that is that she isn't ready to
know. Of course we'll have to see how she feels about it, but I'd rather keep
her with us, and I don't want to head west into those industrial
towns."
"You don't want
to head west at all."
"No," Clay
admitted.
He thought Tom
might argue the point, but he didn't. "What about tonight? Do you think we
should stand a watch?"
Clay hadn't even
considered this until now. He said, "I don't know how much good it would do. If a crazed mob
comes down Salem Street waving guns and torches, what can we do about
it?"
"Go down
cellar?"
Clay thought it
over. Going down cellar seemed awfully final to him— the Bunker Defense—but it
was always possible the hypothetical crazed mob under discussion would think the
house deserted and go sweeping by. Better than being slaughtered in the kitchen,
he supposed. Maybe after watching Alice get gang-raped.
It won't come
to that, he thought
uneasily. You're getting lost among the hypothetical, that's all. Freaking in
the dark. It won't come to that.
Except Boston was burning to the
ground behind them. Liquor stores were being looted and men were beating each
other bloody over aluminum kegs of beer. It had already come to
that.
Tom, meanwhile,
was watching him, letting him work it through . . . which meant that maybe Tom
already had. Rafe jumped into his lap. Tom put his sandwich down and stroked the
cat's back.
"Tell you what,"
Clay said. "If you've got a couple of comforters I can bundle up in, why don't I
spend the night out there on your porch? It's enclosed, and it's darker than the
street. Which means that I'd likely see anyone coming long before they saw me
watching. Especially if the ones coming were phone-crazies. They didn't impress
me as being into stealth."
"Nope, not the
creep-up-on-you type. What if people came from around in back? That's Lynn
Avenue just a block over."
Clay shrugged,
trying to indicate that they couldn't defense against everything—or even very
much—without saying so right out loud.
"All right," Tom
said, after eating a little more of his sandwich and feeding a scrap of ham to
Rafe. "But you could come get me around three. If Alice hasn't woken up by then,
she might sleep right through."
"Why don't we
just see how it goes," Clay said. "Listen, I think I know the answer to this,
but you don't have a gun, do you?"
"No," Tom said.
"Not even a lonely can of Mace." He looked at his sandwich and then put it down.
When he raised his eyes to Clay's, they were remarkably bleak. He spoke in a low
voice, as people do when discussing secret things. "Do you remember what the cop
said just before he shot that crazy man?"
Clay nodded.
Hey, buddy, how ya doin? I mean, what the haps? He would never forget
it.
"I knew it
wasn't like in the movies," Tom said, "but I never suspected the enormous
power of it, or the suddenness . . . and the sound when the stuff. . .
the stuff from his head . . ."
He leaned
forward suddenly, one small hand curled to his mouth. The movement startled
Rafer, and the cat leaped down. Tom made three low, muscular urking sounds, and
Clay steeled himself for the vomiting that was almost sure to follow. He could
only hope he wouldn't start vomiting himself, but he thought he might. He knew
he was close, only a feather-tickle away. Because he knew what Tom was talking
about. The gunshot, then the wet, ropy splatter on the cement.
There was no
vomiting. Tom got control of himself and looked up, eyes watering. "I'm sorry,"
he said. "Shouldn't have gone there."
"You don't
need to be sorry."
"I think if
we're going to get through whatever's ahead, we'd better find a way to put our
finer sensibilities on hold. I think that people who can't do that . . ." He
stopped, then started again. "I think that people who can't do that. . ." He
stopped a second time. The third time he was able to finish. "I think that
people who can't do that may die."
They stared at
each other in the white glare of the Coleman lamp.
10
"Once we left the city, I didn't see
anyone with a gun," Clay said. "At first I wasn't really looking, and
then I was."
"You know why,
don't you? Except maybe for California, Massachusetts has got the toughest gun
law in the country."
Clay remembered
seeing billboards proclaiming that at the state line a few years ago. Then
they'd been replaced by ones saying that if you got picked up for driving under
the influence, you'd have to spend a night in jail.
Tom said, "If
the cops find a concealed handgun in your car—meaning like in the glove
compartment with your registration and insurance card—they can put you away for
I think seven years. Get stopped with a loaded rifle in your pickup, even in
hunting season, and you could get slapped with a ten-thousand-dollar fine and
two years of community service." He picked up the remains of his sandwich,
inspected it, put it back down again. "You can own a handgun and keep it in your
home if you're not a felon, but a license to carry? Maybe if you've got Father
O'Malley of the Boys' Club to cosign, but maybe not even then."
"No guns might
have saved some lives, coming out of the city."
"I agree with
you completely," Tom said. "Those two guys fighting over the keg of beer? Thank
God neither of them had a .38."
Clay
nodded.
Tom rocked
back in his chair, crossed his arms on his narrow chest, and looked around. His
glasses glinted. The circle of light thrown by the Coleman lantern was brilliant
but small. "Right now, however, I wouldn't mind having a pistol. Even after
seeing the mess they make. And I consider myself a pacifist."
"How long have
you lived here, Tom?"
"Almost twelve
years. Long enough to see Malden go a long way down the road to Shitsville. It's
not there yet, but boy, it's going."
"Okay, so think
about it. Which of your neighbors is apt to have a gun or guns in their
house?"
Tom answered
promptly. "Arnie Nickerson, across the street and three houses up. NRA bumper
sticker on his Camry—along with a couple of yellow ribbon decals and an old
Bush-Cheney sticker—"
"Goes without
saying—"
"And two
NRA stickers on his pickup, which he equips with a camper cap in November
and takes hunting up in your part of the world."
"And we're happy
to have the revenue his out-of-state hunting license provides," Clay said.
"Let's break into his house tomorrow and take his guns."
Tom McCourt
looked at him as though he were mad. "The man isn't as paranoid as some of those
militia types out in Utah—I mean, he does live in Taxachusetts—but he's
got one of those burglar alarm signs on his lawn that basically says DO YOU FEEL
LUCKY, PUNK, and I'm sure you must be familiar with the NRA's stated policy as
to just when their guns will be taken away from them."
"I think it has
something to do with prying their cold dead fingers—"
"That's the
one."
Clay leaned
forward and stated what to him had been obvious from the moment they'd come down
the ramp from Route One: Malden was now just one more fucked-up town in the
Unicel States of America, and that country was now out of service, off the hook,
so sorry, please try your call again later. Salem Street was deserted. He had
felt that as they approached . . . hadn't he?
No. Bullshit.
You felt watched.
Really? And even
if he had, was that the sort of intuition that could be relied upon, acted
upon, after a day like this one? The idea was ridiculous.
"Tom, listen.
One of us'll walk up to this guy Nackleson's house tomorrow, after it's full
daylight—"
"It's Nickerson,
and I don't think that's a very smart idea, especially since Swami McCourt sees
him kneeling inside his living room window with a fully automatic rifle he's
been saving for the end of the world. Which seems to have rolled
around."
"I'll do it,"
Clay said. "And I won't do it if we hear any gunshots from the Nickerson
place tonight or tomorrow morning. I certainly won't do it if I see any
bodies on the guy's lawn, with or without gunshot wounds. I watched all those
old Twilight Zone episodes, too—the ones where civilization turns out to
be nothing more than a thin layer of shellac."
"If that," Tom
said gloomily. "Idi Amin, Pol Pot, the prosecution rests."
"I'll go with my
hands raised. Ring the doorbell. If someone answers, I'll say I just want to
talk. What's the worst that can happen? He tells me to get lost."
"No, the worst
that can happen is he can shoot you dead on his fucking welcome mat and leave me
with a motherless teenage girl," Tom said sharply. "Smart off about old
Twilight Zone episodes all you want, just don't forget those people you
saw today, fighting outside the T station in Boston."
"That was . . .
I don't know what it was, but those people were clinically insane. You
can't doubt that, Tom."
"What about
Bible-Thumping Bertha? And the two men fighting over the keg? Were they
insane?"
No, of course
they hadn't been, but if there was a gun in that house across the street, he
still wanted it. And if there was more than one, he wanted Tom and Alice each to
have one, too.
"I'm thinking
about going north over a hundred miles," Clay said. "We might be able to boost a
car and drive some of it, but we might have to walk the whole way. Do you want
to go with just knives for protection? I'm asking you as one serious man to
another, because some of the people we run into are going to have guns. I
mean, you know that."
"Yes," Tom said.
He ran his hands through his neatly trimmed hair, giving it a comic ruffle. "And
I know that Arnie and Beth are probably not home. They were gadget-nuts as well
as gun-nuts. He was always gabbing on his cell phone when he went by in that big
Dodge Ram Detroit phallus of his."
"See? There you
go."
Tom sighed. "All
right. Depending on how things look in the morning. Okay?"
"Okay." Clay
picked up his sandwich again. He felt a little more like eating now.
"Where did they
go?" Tom asked. "The ones you call the phone-crazies. Where did they
go?"
"I don't
know."
"I'll tell you
what I think," Tom said. "I think they crawled into the houses and the buildings
around sundown and died."
Clay looked at
him doubtfully.
"Look at it
reasonably and you'll see I'm right," Tom said. "This was almost certainly some
sort of terrorist act, would you agree?"
"That seems the
most likely explanation, although I'll be damned if I know how any signal, no
matter how subversive, could have been programmed to do what this one
did."
"Are you a
scientist?"
"You know I'm
not. I'm an artist."
"So when the
government tells you they can guide computerized smart-bombs through bunker
doors in the floor of the desert from aircraft carriers that are maybe two
thousand miles away, all you can do is look at the photos and accept that the
technology exists."
"Would Tom
Clancy lie to me?" Clay asked, unsmiling.
"And if that
technology exists, why not accept this one, at least on a provisional
basis?"
"Okay, spell it
out. Small words, please."
"At about three
o'clock this afternoon, a terrorist organization, maybe even a tinpot
government, generated some sort of signal or pulse. For now we have to assume
that this signal was carried by every cell phone operating in the entire world.
We'll hope that wasn't the case, but for now I think we have to assume
the worst."
"Is it
over?"
"I don't know,"
Tom said. "Do you want to pick up a cell phone and find out?"
"Touchy," Clay
said. "That's how my little boy says touché." And please, God, how he's
still saying it.
"But if this
group could transmit a signal that would send everyone hearing it insane," Tom
said, "isn't it possible that the signal could also contain a directive for
those receiving it to kill themselves five hours later? Or perhaps to simply go
to sleep and stop breathing?"
"I would say
that's impossible."
"I would have
said a madman coming at me with a knife across from the Four Seasons Hotel was
impossible," Tom said. "Or Boston burning flat while the city's entire
population—that part of it lucky enough not to have cell phones, that is—left by
the Mystic and the Zakim."
He leaned
forward, looking at Clay intently. He wants to believe this, Clay
thought.
Don't waste a lot of time trying to talk him out of it, because he really,
really wants to.
"In a way, this
is no different from the bioterrorism the government was so afraid of after
nine-eleven," he said. "By using cell phones, which have become the dominant
form of communication in our daily lives, you simultaneously turn the populace
into your own conscript army—an army that's literally afraid of nothing, because
it's insane—and you break down the infrastructure. Where's the National Guard
tonight?"
"Iraq?" Clay
ventured. "Louisiana?"
It wasn't much
of a joke and Tom didn't smile. "It's nowhere. How do you use a homeland force
that now depends almost entirely on the cellular network to even mobilize?
As for airplanes, the last one I've seen flying was the little one that
crashed on the corner of Charles and Beacon." He paused, then went on, looking
straight across the table into Clay's eyes. "All this they did . . . whoever
they is. They looked at us from wherever it is they live and worship
their gods, and what did they see?"
Clay shook his
head, fascinated by Tom's eyes, shining behind his spectacles. They were almost
the eyes of a visionary.
"They saw we had
built the Tower of Babel all over again . . . and on nothing but electronic
cobwebs. And in a space of seconds, they brushed those cobwebs aside and our
Tower fell. All this they did, and we three are like bugs that happened, by dumb
dim luck alone, to have avoided the fall of a giant's foot. All this they did,
and you think they could not have encoded a signal telling the affected ones to
simply fall asleep and stop breathing five hours later? What's that trick,
compared to the first one? Not much, I'd say."
Clay said, "I'd
say it's time we got some sleep."
For a moment Tom
remained as he was, hunched across the table a little, looking at Clay as if
unable to understand what Clay had said. Then he laughed. "Yeah," he said.
"Yeah, you've got a point. I get wound up. Sorry."
"Not at all,"
Clay said. "I hope you're right about the crazies being dead." He paused, then
said: "I mean . . . unless my boy . . . Johnny-Gee . . ." He couldn't finish.
Partly or maybe mostly because if Johnny had tried to use his phone this
afternoon and had gotten the same call as Pixie Light and Power Suit Woman, Clay
wasn't sure he wanted his son to still be alive.
Tom reached across the table
to him and Clay took the other man's delicate, long-fingered hand in both of
his. He saw this happening as if he were outside his body, and when he spoke, he
didn't seem to be the one speaking, although he could feel his mouth moving and
the tears that had begun to fall from his eyes.
"I'm so scared
for him," his mouth was saying. "I'm scared for both of them, but mostly for my
kid."
"It'll be all
right," Tom said, and Clay knew he meant well, but the words struck terror into
his heart just the same, because it was just one of those things you said when there was
really nothing else. Like You'll get over it or He's in a better
place.
11
Alice's shrieks woke Clay from a confused
but not unpleasant dream of being in the Bingo Tent at the Akron State Fair. In
the dream he was six again—maybe even younger but surely no older—and crouched
beneath the long table where his mother was seated, looking at a forest of
lady-legs and smelling sweet sawdust while the caller intoned, "B-12, players,
B-12! It's the sunshine vitamin!"
There was one
moment when his subconscious mind tried to integrate the girl's cries into the
dream by insisting he was hearing the Saturday noon whistle, but only a moment.
Clay had let himself go to sleep on Tom's porch after an hour of watching
because he was convinced that nothing was going to happen out there, at least
not tonight. But he must have been equally convinced that Alice wouldn't sleep
through, because there was no real confusion once his mind identified her
shrieks for what they were, no groping for where he was or what was going on. At
one moment he was a small boy crouching under a bingo table in Ohio; at the next
he was rolling off the comfortably long couch on Tom McCourt's enclosed front
porch with the comforter still wrapped around his lower legs. And somewhere in
the house, Alice Maxwell, howling in a register almost high enough to burst
crystal, articulated all the horror of the day just past, insisting with one
scream after another that such things surely could not have happened and must be
denied.
Clay tried to
rid his lower legs of the comforter and at first it wouldn't let go. He found
himself hopping toward the inside door and pulling at it in a kind of panic
while he looked out at Salem Street, sure that lights would start going on up
and down the block even though he knew the power was out, sure that
someone—maybe the gun-owning, gadget-loving Mr. Nickerson from up the
street—would come out on his lawn and yell for someone to for chrissake shut
that kid up. Don't make me come down there! Arnie
Nickerson would yell. Don't make me come down there and shoot
her!
Or her screams
would draw the phone-crazies like moths to a bug light. Tom might think they
were dead, but Clay believed it no more than he believed in Santa's workshop at
the North Pole.
But Salem Street—their block of it,
anyway, just west of the town center and below the part of Maiden Tom had called
Granada Highlands— remained dark and silent and without movement. Even the glow
of the fire from Revere seemed to have diminished.
Clay finally rid
himself of the comforter and went inside and stood at the foot of the stairs,
looking up into the blackness. Now he could hear Tom's voice—not the words, but
the tone, low and calm and soothing. The girl's chilling shrieks began to be
broken up by gasps for breath, then by sobs and inarticulate cries that became
words. Clay caught one of them, nightmare. Tom's voice went on and on,
telling lies in a reassuring drone: everything was all right, she would see,
things would look better in the morning. Clay could picture them sitting side by
side on the guestroom bed, each dressed in a pair of pajamas with TM
monograms on the breast pockets. He could have drawn them like that. The idea
made him smile.
When he was
convinced she wasn't going to resume screaming, he went back to the porch, which
was a bit chilly but not uncomfortable once he was wrapped up snugly in the
comforter. He sat on the couch, surveying what he could see of the street. To
the left, east of Tom's house, was a business district. He thought he could see
the traffic light marking the entrance into the town square. The other way—which
was the way they'd come—more houses. All of them still in this deep trench of
night.
"Where are you?"
he murmured. "Some of you headed north or west, and still in your right minds.
But where did the rest of you go?"
No answer from
the street. Hell, maybe Tom was right—the cell phones had sent them a message to
go crazy at three and drop dead at eight. It seemed too good to be true, but he
remembered feeling the same way about recordable CDs.
Silence from the
street in front of him; silence from the house behind him. After a while, Clay
leaned back on the couch and let his eyes close. He thought he might doze, but
doubted he would actually go to sleep again. Eventually, however, he did, and
this time there were no dreams. Once, shortly before first light, a mongrel dog
came up Tom McCourt's front walk, looked in at him as he lay
snoring in his cocoon of comforter, and then moved on. It was in no hurry;
pickings were rich in Malden that morning and would be for some time to
come.
12
"Clay. Wake up."
A hand, shaking
him. Clay opened his eyes and saw Tom, dressed in a pair of blue jeans and a
gray work-shirt, bending over him. The front porch was lit by strong pale light.
Clay glanced at his wristwatch as he swung his feet off the couch and saw it was
twenty past six.
"You need to see
this," Tom said. He looked pale, anxious, and grizzled on both sides of his
mustache. The tail of his shirt was untucked on one side and his hair was still
standing up in back.
Clay looked at
Salem Street, saw a dog with something in its mouth trotting past a couple of
dead cars half a block west, saw nothing else moving. He could smell a faint
smoky funk in the air and supposed it was either Boston or Revere. Maybe both,
but at least the wind had died. He turned his gaze to Tom.
"Not out here,"
Tom said. He kept his voice low. "In the backyard. I saw when I went in the
kitchen to make coffee before I remembered coffee's out, at least for the time
being. Maybe it's nothing, but . . . man, I don't like this."
"Is Alice still
sleeping?" Clay was groping under the comforter for his socks.
"Yes, and that's
good. Never mind your socks and shoes, this ain't dinner at the Ritz. Come
on."
He followed Tom,
who was wearing a pair of comfortable-looking scuffs, down the hall to the
kitchen. A half-finished glass of iced tea was standing on the
counter.
Tom said, "I
can't get started without some caffeine in the morning, you know? So I poured
myself a glass of that stuff—help yourself, by the way, it's still nice and
cold—and I pushed back the curtain over the sink to take a look out at my
garden. No reason, just wanted to touch base with the outside world. And I saw .
. . but look for yourself."
Clay peered out
through the window over the sink. There was a neat little brick patio behind the
house with a gas grill on it. Beyond the patio was Tom's yard, half-grass and
half-garden. At the back was a high board fence with a gate in it. The gate was
open. The bolt holding it closed must have been shot across because it now hung
askew, looking to Clay like a broken wrist. It occurred to him that Tom could
have made coffee on the gas grill, if not for the man sitting in his garden
beside what had to be an ornamental wheelbarrow, eating the soft inside of a
split pumpkin and spitting out the seeds. He was wearing a mechanic's coverall
and a greasy cap with a faded letter B on it. Written in faded red script
on the left breast of his coverall was George. Clay could hear the
soft smooching sounds his face made every time he dove into the
pumpkin.
"Fuck," Clay
said in a low voice. "It's one of them."
"Yes. And where
there's one there'll be more."
"Did he break
the gate to get in?"
"Of course he
did," Tom said. "I didn't see him do it, but it was locked when I left
yesterday, you can depend on that. I don't have the world's best relationship
with Scottoni, the guy who lives on the other side. He has no use for 'fellas
like me,' as he's told me on several occasions." He paused, then went on in a
lower voice. He had been speaking quietly to begin with, and now Clay had to
lean toward him to hear him. "You know what's crazy? I know that guy. He
works at Sonny's Texaco, down in the Center. It's the only gas station in town
that still does repairs. Or did. He replaced a radiator hose for me once. Told
me about how he and his brother made a trip to Yankee Stadium last year, saw
Curt Schilling beat the Big Unit. Seemed like a nice enough guy. Now look at
him! Sitting in my garden eating a raw pumpkin!"
"What's going
on, you guys?" Alice asked from behind them.
Tom turned
around, looking dismayed. "You don't want to see this," he said.
"That won't
work," Clay said. "She's got to see it."
He smiled at
Alice, and it wasn't that hard to smile. There was no monogram on the pocket of
the pajamas Tom had loaned her, but they were blue, just as he had imagined, and
she looked most dreadfully cute in them, with her feet bare and the pants legs
rolled up to her shins and her hair tousled with sleep. In spite of
her nightmares, she looked better rested than Tom. Clay was willing to bet she
looked better rested than he did, too.
"It's not a car
wreck, or anything," he said. "Just a guy eating a pumpkin in Tom's
backyard."
She stood between them, putting her hands
on the lip of the sink and rising up on the balls of her feet to look out. Her
arm brushed Clay's, and he could feel the sleep-warmth still radiating from her
skin. She looked for a long time, then turned to Tom.
"You said they
all killed themselves," she said, and Clay couldn't tell if she was accusing or
mock scolding. She probably doesn't know herself, he thought.
"I didn't say
for sure," Tom replied, sounding lame.
"You sounded
pretty sure to me." She looked out again. At least, Clay thought, she wasn't
freaking out. In fact he thought she looked remarkably composed—if a little
Chaplinesque—in her slightly outsize pajamas. "Uh . . . guys?"
"What?" they
said together.
"Look at the
little wheelbarrow he's sitting next to. Look at the wheel."
Clay had already
seen what she was talking about—the litter of pumpkin-shell, pumpkin-meat, and
pumpkin seeds.
"He smashed the
pumpkin on the wheel to break it open and get to what's inside," Alice said. "I
guess he's one of them—"
"Oh, he's one of
them, all right," Clay said. George the mechanic was sitting in the garden with
his legs apart, allowing Clay to see that since yesterday afternoon he'd
forgotten all his mother had taught him about dropping trou before you did
number one.
"—but he used
that wheel as a tool. That doesn't seem so crazy to me."
"One of them was
using a knife yesterday," Tom said. "And there was another guy jabbing a couple
of car aerials."
"Yes, but . . .
this seems different, somehow."
"More peaceful,
you mean?" Tom glanced back at the intruder in his garden. "I wouldn't want to
go out there and find out."
"No, not that. I
don't mean peaceful. I don't know exactly how to explain it."
Clay thought he
had an idea of what she was talking about. The aggression they had witnessed
yesterday had been a blind, forward-rushing thing. An
anything-that-comes-to-hand thing. Yes, there had been the businessman with the
knife and the muscular young guy jabbing the car aerials in the air as he ran,
but there had also been the man in the park who'd torn off the dog's ear with
his teeth. Pixie Light had also used her teeth. This seemed a lot different, and
not just because it was about eating instead of killing. But like Alice, Clay
couldn't put his finger on just how it was different.
"Oh God, two
more," Alice said.
Through the open
back gate came a woman of about forty in a dirty gray pants suit and an elderly
man dressed in jogging shorts and a T-shirt with gray power printed across the front.
The woman in the pants suit had been wearing a green blouse that now hung in
tatters, revealing the cups of a pale green bra beneath. The elderly man was
limping badly, throwing his elbows out in a kind of buck-and-wing with each step
to keep his balance. His scrawny left leg was caked with dried blood, and that
foot was missing its running shoe. The remains of an athletic sock, grimed with
dirt and blood, flapped from his left ankle. The elderly man's longish white
hair hung around his vacant face in a kind of cowl. The woman in the pants suit
was making a repetitive noise that sounded like "Goom! Goom!" as she
surveyed the yard and the garden. She looked at George the Pumpkin Eater as
though he were of no account at all, then strode past him toward the remaining
cucumbers. Here she knelt, snatched one from its vine, and began to munch. The
old man in the gray power shirt
marched to the edge of the garden and then only stood there awhile like a robot
that has finally run out of juice. He was wearing tiny gold glasses—reading
glasses, Clay thought—that gleamed in the early light. He looked to Clay like
someone who had once been very smart and was now very stupid.
The three people
in the kitchen crowded together, staring out the window, hardly
breathing.
The old man's
gaze settled on George, who threw away a piece of pumpkin-shell, examined the
rest, and then plowed his face back in and resumed his breakfast. Far from
behaving aggressively toward the newcomers, he seemed not to notice them at
all.
The old man
limped forward, bent, and began to tug at a pumpkin the size of a soccer ball.
He was less than three feet from George. Clay, remembering the pitched battle
outside the T station, held his breath and waited.
He felt Alice
grasp his arm. All the sleep-warmth had departed her hand. "What's he going to
do?" she asked in a low voice.
Clay only shook
his head.
The old man
tried to bite the pumpkin and only bumped his nose. It should have been funny
but wasn't. His glasses were knocked askew and he pushed them back into place.
It was a gesture so normal that for a brief moment Clay felt all but positive
that he was the one who was crazy.
"Goom!"
cried the woman in the tattered blouse, and threw away her half-eaten
cucumber. She had spied a few late tomatoes and crawled toward them with her
hair hanging in her face. The seat of her pants was badly soiled.
The old man had
spied the ornamental wheelbarrow. He took his pumpkin to it, then seemed to
register George, sitting there beside it. He looked at him, head cocked. George
gestured with one orange-coated hand at the wheelbarrow, a gesture Clay had seen
a thousand times.
"Be my guest,"
Tom murmured. "I'll be damned."
The old man fell
on his knees in the garden, a movement that obviously caused him considerable
pain. He grimaced, raised his lined face to the brightening sky, and uttered a
chuffing grunt. Then he lifted the pumpkin over the wheel. He studied the line
of descent for several moments, elderly biceps trembling, and brought the
pumpkin down, smashing it open. It fell in two meaty halves. What happened next
happened fast. George dropped his own mostly eaten pumpkin in his lap, rocked
forward, grabbed the old man's head in his big, orange-stained hands, and
twisted it. They heard the crack of the old man's breaking neck even through the
glass. His long white hair flew. His small spectacles disappeared into what Clay
thought were beets. His body spasmed once, then went limp. George dropped it.
Alice began to scream and Tom covered her mouth with his hand. Her eyes, bulging
with terror, peered over the top of it. Outside in the garden, George picked up
a fresh chunk of pumpkin and began calmly to eat.
The woman in the
shredded blouse looked around for a moment, casually, then plucked another
tomato and bit into it. Red juice ran from her chin and trickled down the dirty
line of her throat. She and George sat there in Tom McCourt's backyard garden,
eating vegetables, and for some reason the name of one of his favorite paintings
popped into Clay's mind: The
Peaceable Kingdom.
He didn't
realize he'd spoken aloud until Tom looked at him bleakly and said: "Not
anymore."
13
The three of them were still standing there
at the kitchen window five minutes later when an alarm began to bray at some
distance. It sounded tired and hoarse, as though it would run down
soon.
"Any idea what
that might be?" Clay asked. In the garden, George had abandoned the pumpkins and
dug up a large potato. This had brought him closer to the woman, but he showed
no interest in her. At least not yet.
"My best guess
would be that the generator at the Safeway in the Center just gave up," Tom
said. "There's probably a battery-powered alarm in case that happens, because of
all the perishables. But that's only a guess. For all I know, it's the First
Malden Bank and T—"
"Look!" Alice
said.
The woman
stopped in the act of plucking another tomato, got up, and walked toward the
east side of Tom's house. George got to his feet as she passed, and Clay was
sure he meant to kill her as he had the old man. He winced in anticipation and
saw Tom reaching for Alice, to turn her away. But George only followed the
woman, disappearing around the corner of the house behind her.
Alice turned and
hurried toward the kitchen door.
"Don't let them
see you!" Tom called in a low, urgent voice, and went after her.
"Don't worry,"
she said.
Clay followed,
worrying for all of them.
They reached the
dining room door in time to watch the woman in her filthy pants suit and George
in his even filthier coverall pass beyond the dining room window, their bodies broken
into segments by Venetian blinds which had been dropped but not closed. Neither
of them glanced toward the house, and now George was so close behind the woman
that he could have bitten the nape of her neck. Alice, followed by Tom and Clay,
moved up the hall to Tom's little office. Here the blinds were closed,
but Clay saw the projected shadows of the two outside pass swiftly across them.
Alice went on up the hall, toward where the door to the enclosed porch stood
open. The comforter lay half on and half off the couch, as Clay had left it. The
porch was flooded with brilliant morning sunshine. It seemed to burn on the
boards.
"Alice, be
careful!" Clay said. "Be—"
But she had
stopped. She was just looking. Then Tom was standing beside her, almost exactly
the same height. Seen that way, they could have been brother and sister. Neither
of them took any pains at all to avoid being seen.
"Holy fucking
shit," Tom said. He sounded as if the wind had been knocked out of him. Beside
him, Alice began to cry. It was the sort of out-of-breath weeping a tired child
might make. One who is becoming used to punishment.
Clay caught up.
The woman in the pants suit was cutting across Tom's lawn. George was still
behind her, matching her stride for stride. They were almost in lockstep. That
broke a little bit at the curb when George swung out to her left, becoming her
wingman instead of her back door.
Salem Street was
full of crazy people.
Clay's first
assessment was that there might be a thousand or more. Then the observer part of
him took over—the coldhearted artist's eye— and he realized that was a wild
overestimate, prompted by surprise at seeing anyone at all on what he had
expected would be an empty street, and shock at realizing they were all them.
There was no mistaking the vacant faces, the eyes that seemed to look beyond
everything, the dirty, bloody, disheveled clothing (in several cases no clothing
at all), the occasional cawing cry or jerky gesture. There was the man dressed
only in tighty-whity undershorts and a polo shirt who seemed to be saluting
repeatedly; the heavyset woman whose lower lip was split and hung in two beefy
flaps,
revealing all of her lower
teeth; the tall teenage boy in blue jeans shorts who walked up the center of
Salem Street carrying what looked like a blood-caked tire-iron in one hand; an
Indian or Pakistani gentleman who passed Tom's house wriggling his jaw from side
to side and simultaneously chattering his teeth; a boy—dear God, a boy Johnny's
age—who walked with absolutely no sign of pain although one arm was flapping
below the knob of his dislocated shoulder; a pretty young woman in a short skirt
and a shell top who appeared to be eating from the red stomach of a crow. Some
moaned, some made vocal noises that might once have been words, and all were
moving east. Clay had no idea if they were being drawn by the braying alarm or
the smell of food, but they were all walking in the direction of Malden
Center.
"Christ, it's
zombie heaven," Tom said.
Clay didn't
bother answering. The people out there weren't exactly zombies, but Tom was
pretty close, just the same. If any of them looks over here, sees us
and decides to come after us, we're done. We won't have a hope in hell. Not even
if we barricade ourselves in the cellar. And getting those guns across the
street? You can forget that.
The idea that
his wife and son might be—very likely were—having to deal with creatures
such as these filled him with dread. But this was no comic book and he was no
hero: he was helpless. The three of them might be safe in the house, but as far
as the immediate future was concerned, it didn't look like he and Tom and Alice
were going anywhere.
14
"They're like birds," Alice said. She wiped
the tears from her cheeks with the heels of her hands. "A flock of
birds."
Clay saw what
she meant at once and gave her an impulsive hug. She had put her finger on
something that had first struck him as he'd watched George the mechanic follow
the woman instead of killing her, as he had the old man. The two of them clearly
vacant in the upper story, yet seeming to go out front by some unspoken
agreement.
"I don't get
it," Tom said.
"You must have
missed March of the Penguins," Alice said.
"Actually, I
did," Tom said. "When I want to see someone waddle in a tuxedo, I go to a French
restaurant."
"But haven't you
ever noticed the way birds are, especially in the spring and fall?" Clay asked.
"You must have. They'll all light in the same tree or along the same telephone
wire—"
"Sometimes so
many they make it sag," Alice said. "Then they all fly at once. My dad says they
must have a group leader, but Mr. Sullivan in Earth Science—back in middle
school, this was—told us it was a flock-mind thing, like ants all going out from
a hill or bees from a hive."
"The flock
swoops right or left, all at the same time, and the individual birds never hit
each other," Clay said. "Sometimes the sky's black with them and the noise is
enough to drive you nuts." He paused. "At least out in the country, where I
live." He paused again. "Tom, do you . . . do you recognize any of those
people?"
"A few. That's
Mr. Potowami, from the bakery," he said, pointing to the Indian man who was
wriggling his jaw and chattering his teeth. "That pretty young woman . . . I
believe she works in the bank. And do you remember me mentioning Scottoni, the
man who lives on the other side of the block from me?"
Clay
nodded.
Tom, now very
pale, pointed to a visibly pregnant woman dressed only in a food-stained smock
that came down to her upper thighs. Blond hair hung against her pimply cheeks,
and a stud gleamed in her nose. "That's his daughter-in-law," he said. "Judy.
She has gone out of her way to be kind to me." He added in a dry, matter-of-fact
tone: "This breaks my heart."
From the
direction of the town center there came a loud gunshot. Alice cried out, but
this time Tom didn't have to cover her mouth; she did it herself. None of the
people in the street glanced over, in any case. Nor did the report—Clay thought
it had been a shotgun—seem to disturb them. They just kept walking, no faster
and no slower. Clay waited for another shot. Instead there was a scream, very
brief, there and gone, as if cut off.
The three
standing in the shadows just beyond the porch went on watching, not talking. All
of the people who passed were going east, and although they did not precisely
walk in formation, there was an unmistakable order about them. For Clay it was
best expressed not in his view of the phone-crazies themselves, who often limped
and sometimes shambled, who gibbered and made odd gestures, but in the silent,
ordered passage of their shadows on the pavement. They made him think of World
War II newsreel footage he'd seen, where wave after wave of bombers flew across
the sky. He counted two hundred and fifty before giving up. Men, women,
teenagers. Quite a few children Johnny's age, too. Far more children than old
people, although he saw only a few kids younger than ten. He didn't like to
think of what must have happened to the little guys and gals who'd had no one to
take care of them when the Pulse occurred.
Or the little
guys and gals who'd been in the care of people with cell phones.
As for the
vacant-eyed children he could see, Clay wondered how many now passing before him
had pestered their parents for cell phones with special ring-tones last year, as
Johnny had.
"One mind," Tom
said presently. "Do you really believe that?"
"I sort
of do," Alice said. "Because . . . like . . . what mind do they have on their
own?"
"She's right,"
Clay said.
The migration
(once you'd seen it that way it was hard to think of it as anything else)
thinned but didn't stop, even after half an hour; three men would pass walking
abreast—one in a bowling shirt, one in the remains of a suit, one with his lower
face mostly obliterated in a cake of dried gore—and then two men and a woman
walking in a half-assed conga line, then a middle-aged woman who looked like a
librarian (if you ignored one bare breast wagging in the wind, that was) walking
in tandem with a half-grown, gawky girl who might have been a library aide.
There would be a pause and then a dozen more would come, seeming almost to form
a kind of hollow square, like a fighting unit from the Napoleonic Wars. And in
the distance Clay began to hear warlike sounds—a sporadic rattle of rifle-or
pistol-fire and once (and close, maybe from neighboring Medford or right here in
Maiden) the long, ripping roar of a large-caliber automatic weapon. Also, more
screams. Most were distant, but Clay was pretty sure that was what they
were.
There were still
other sane people around these parts, plenty of them, and some had managed to get their
hands on guns. Those people were very likely having themselves a phoner-shoot.
Others, however, had not been lucky enough to have been indoors when the sun
came up and the crazies came out. He thought of George the mechanic gripping the
old man's head in his orange hands, the twist, the snap, the little reading
glasses flying into the beets where they would stay. And stay. And
stay.
"I think I want
to go into the living room and sit down," Alice said. "I don't want to look at
them anymore. Listen, either. It makes me sick."
"Sure," Clay
said. "Tom, why don't you—?"
"No," Tom said.
"You go. I'll stay here and watch for a while. I think one of us ought to
watch, don't you?"
Clay nodded. He
did.
"Then, in an
hour or so, you can spell me. Turn and turn about."
"Okay.
Done."
As they started
back down the hall, Clay with his arm around Alice's shoulders, Tom said: "One
thing."
They looked back
at him.
"I think we all
ought to try and get as much rest as possible today. If we're still planning on
going north, that is."
Clay looked at
him closely to make sure Tom was still in his right mind. He appeared to be,
but—
"Have you been
seeing what's going on out there?" he asked. "Hearing the shooting? The . . ."
He didn't want to say the screams with Alice there, although God knew it
was a little late to be trying to protect her remaining sensibilities. ". . .
the yelling?"
"Of course," Tom
said. "But the nutters went inside last night, didn't they?"
For a moment
neither Clay nor Alice moved. Then Alice began to pat her hands together in
soft, almost silent applause. And Clay began to smile. The smile felt stiff and
unfamiliar on his face, and the hope that went with it was almost
painful.
"Tom, you might
just be a genius," he said.
Tom did not
return the smile. "Don't count on it," he said. "I never broke a thousand on the
SATs."
15
Clearly feeling better—and that had to be a
good thing, Clay reckoned—Alice went upstairs to poke around in Tom's clothes
for daywear. Clay sat on the couch, thinking about Sharon and Johnny, trying to
decide what they would have done and where they would have gone, always
supposing they'd been fortunate enough to get together. He fell into a doze and
saw them clearly at Kent Pond Elementary, Sharon's school. They were barricaded
in the gym with two or three dozen others, eating sandwiches from the cafeteria
and drinking those little cartons of milk. They—
Alice roused
him, calling from upstairs. He looked at his wristwatch and saw he'd been
sleeping on the couch for almost twenty minutes. He'd drooled on his
chin.
"Alice?" He went
to the foot of the stairs. "Everything okay?" Tom, he saw, was also
looking.
"Yes, but can
you come for a second?"
"Sure." He
looked at Tom, shrugged, then went upstairs.
Alice was in a guest bedroom that looked
like it hadn't seen many guests, although the two pillows suggested that Tom had
spent most of the night here with her, and the rumpled look of the bedclothes
further suggested very bad rest. She had found a pair of khakis that almost fit
and a sweatshirt with canobie lake park
written across the front below the outline of a roller coaster. On the
floor was the sort of large portable sound system that Clay and his friends had
once lusted after the way Johnny-Gee had lusted after that red cell phone. Clay
and his friends had called such systems ghetto blasters or
boomboxes.
"It was in the
closet and the batteries look fresh," she said. "I thought of turning it on and
looking for a radio station, but then I was afraid."
He looked at the
ghetto blaster sitting there on the guest room's nice hardwood floor, and he was
afraid, too. It could have been a loaded gun. But he felt an urge to reach out
and turn the selector-knob, now pointed at CD, to FM. He imagined Alice had felt
the same urge, and that was why she'd called him. The urge to touch a loaded gun
would have been no different.
"My sister gave
me that two birthdays ago," Tom said from the doorway, and they both jumped. "I
loaded it up with batteries last July and took it to the beach. When I was a kid
we all used to go to the beach and listen to our radios, although I never had
one that big."
"Me either,"
Clay said. "But I wanted one."
"I took it up to
Hampton Beach in New Hampshire with a bunch of Van Halen and Madonna CDs, but it
wasn't the same. Not even close. I haven't used it since. I imagine all the
stations are off the air, don't you?"
"I bet some of
them are still on," Alice said. She was biting at her lower lip. Clay thought if
she didn't stop soon, it would begin to bleed. "The ones my friends call the
robo-eighties stations. They have friendly names like BOB and FRANK, but they
all come from some giant radio-computer in Colorado and then get beamed down by
satellite. At least that's what my friends say. And . . ." She licked at the
place she had been biting. It was shiny with blood just under the surface. "And
that's the same way cell phone signals get routed, isn't it? By
satellite."
"I don't know,"
Tom said. "I guess the long-distance ones might . . . and the transatlantic ones
for sure . . . and I suppose the right genius could hack the wrong satellite
signal into all those microwave towers you see . . . the ones that boost the
signals along . . ."
Clay knew the
towers he was talking about, steel skeletons with dishes stuck all over them
like gray suckers. They had popped up everywhere over the last ten
years.
Tom said, "If we
could pick up a local station, we might be able to get news. Some idea
about what to do, where to go—"
"Yes, but what
if it's on the radio, too?" Alice said. "That's what I'm saying. What if
you tune into whatever my"—She licked her lips again, then resumed nibbling.—"my
mother heard? And my dad? Him, too, oh yes, he had a brand-new cell phone, all
the bells and whistles—video, autodial, Internet connection—he loved that
puppy!" She gave a laugh that was both hysterical and rueful, a dizzy
combination. "What if you tune into whatever they heard? My folks and
them out there? Do you want to risk that?"
At first Tom
said nothing. Then he said—cautiously, as if testing the idea—"One of us could risk it. The
other two could leave and wait until—"
"No," Clay
said.
"Please
no," Alice said. She was almost crying again. "I want you both. I
need you both."
They stood around the radio,
looking at it. Clay found himself thinking of science fiction novels he'd read
as a teenager (sometimes at the beach, listening to Nirvana instead of Van Halen
on the radio). In more than a few of them, the world ended. And then the heroes
built it back up again. Not without struggles and setbacks, but yes, they used
the tools and the technology and they built it back up again. He couldn't
remember anywhere the heroes just stood around in a bedroom looking at a
radio.
Sooner or later someone is going to pick up a tool or turn on a radio, he
thought, because someone will have to.
Yes. But not
this morning.
Feeling like a
traitor to something larger than he could understand, he picked up Tom's ghetto
blaster, put it back in the closet, and closed the door.
16
An hour or so later, the orderly migration
to the east began to collapse. Clay was on watch. Alice was in the kitchen,
eating one of the sandwiches they'd brought out of Boston—she said they had to
finish the sandwiches before they ate any of the canned stuff in Tom's
closet-sized pantry, because none of them knew when they'd get fresh meat
again—and Tom was sleeping in the living room, on the couch. Clay could hear him
snoring contentedly away.
He noticed a few
people wandering against the general easterly flow, then sensed a kind of
slackening in the order out there in Salem Street, something so subtle that his
brain registered what his eye saw only as an intuition. At first he dismissed it
as a falsity caused by the few wanderers—even more deranged than the rest—who
were heading west instead of east, and then he looked down at the shadows. The
neat herringbone patterns he had observed earlier had begun to
distort. And soon they weren't patterns at all.
More people were now
heading west, and some of them were gnawing on food that had been liberated from
a grocery store, probably the Safeway Tom had mentioned. Mr. Scottoni's
daughter-in-law, Judy, was carrying a gigantic tub of melting chocolate ice
cream, which had covered the front of her smock and coated her from knees to
nose-stud; her chocolate-lathered face made her look like Mrs. Bones in a
minstrel show. And any vegetarian beliefs Mr. Potowami might once have held were
gone now; he strolled along noshing from a great double handful of raw hamburger
meat. A fat man in a dirty suit had what looked like a partially defrosted leg
of lamb, and when Judy Scottoni tried to take it from him, the fat man hit her a
vicious clip in the center of the forehead with it. She fell as silently as a
poleaxed steer, pregnant belly first, on top of her mostly crushed tub of
Breyers chocolate.
There was a
great deal of milling now, and a good deal of violence to go with it, but no
return to the all-out viciousness of the afternoon before. Not here, in any
case. In Malden Center, the alarm, tired-sounding to begin with, had long since
run down. In the distance, gunfire continued to pop sporadically, but there had
been nothing close since that single shotgun blast from the center of town. Clay
watched to see if any of the crazies would try breaking into any of the houses,
but although they occasionally walked on the lawns, they showed no signs of
graduating from trespass to burglary. What they did mostly was wander around,
occasionally trying to grab one another's food, sometimes fighting or biting one
another. Three or four—the Scottoni woman, for one—lay in the street, either
dead or unconscious. Most of those who had passed Tom's house earlier were still
in the town square, Clay guessed, having a street dance or maybe the First
Annual Malden Raw Meat Festival, and thank God for that. It was strange, though,
how that sense of purpose—that sense of flocking—had seemed to loosen and
fall apart.
After noon, when
he began to feel seriously sleepy, he went into the kitchen and found Alice
dozing at the kitchen table with her head in her arms. The little sneaker, the
one she had called a Baby Nike, was loosely clasped in one hand. When he woke
her, she looked at him groggily and clasped it to the breast of her
sweatshirt, as if afraid he would try to take it away.
He asked if she
could watch from the end of the hallway for a while without falling asleep again
or being seen. She said she could. Clay took her at her word and carried a chair
for her. She paused for a moment at the door to the living room. "Check it out,"
she said.
He looked in
over her shoulder and saw the cat, Rafe, was sleeping on Tom's belly. He grunted
in amusement.
She sat where he
put the chair, far enough inside the door so someone who glanced at the house
wouldn't see her. After a single look she said, "They're not a flock anymore.
What happened?"
"I don't
know."
"What time is
it?"
He glanced at
his watch. "Twenty past twelve."
"What time did
we notice they were flocking?"
"I don't know,
Alice." He was trying to be patient with her but he could hardly keep his eyes
open. "Six-thirty? Seven? I don't know. Does it matter?"
"If we could
chart them, it might matter a lot, don't you think?"
He told her that
he'd think about that when he'd had some sleep. "Couple of hours, then wake me
or Tom," he said. "Sooner, if something goes wrong."
"It couldn't go
much wronger," she said softly. "Go on upstairs. You look really
wasted."
He went upstairs
to the guest bedroom, slipped off his shoes, and lay down. He thought for a
moment about what she'd said: If we could chart them. She might have
something there. Odds against, but maybe—
It was a
pleasant room, very pleasant, full of sun. You lay in a room like this and it
was easy to forget there was a radio in the closet you didn't dare turn on. Not
so easy to forget your wife, estranged but still loved, might be dead and your
son—not just loved but adored—might be crazy. Still, the body had its
imperatives, didn't it? And if there had ever been a room for an afternoon nap,
this was the one. The panic-rat twitched but didn't bite, and Clay was asleep
almost as soon as he closed his eyes.
17
This time Alice was the one who shook him
awake. The little purple sneaker swung back and forth as she did it. She had
tied it around her left wrist, turning it into a rather creepy talisman. The
light in the room had changed. It was going the other way, and diminished. He
had turned on his side and he had to urinate, a reliable sign that he had slept
for some time. He sat up in a hurry and was surprised—almost appalled—to see it
was quarter of six. He had slept for over five hours. But of course last night
hadn't been his first night of broken rest; he'd slept poorly the night before,
as well. Nerves, on account of his presentation to the Dark Horse comics
people.
"Is everything
all right?" he asked, taking her by the wrist. "Why'd you let me sleep so
long?"
"Because you
needed it," she said. "Tom slept until two and I slept until four. We've been
watching together since then. Come down and look. It's pretty
amazing."
"Are they
flocking again?"
She nodded. "But
going the other way this time. And that's not all. Come and see."
He emptied his
bladder and hurried downstairs. Tom and Alice were standing in the doorway to
the porch with their arms around each other's waist. There was no question of
being seen, now; the sky had clouded over and Tom's porch was already thick with
shadows. Only a few people were left on Salem Street, anyway. All of them were
moving west, not quite running but going at a steady clip. A group of four went
past in the street itself, marching over a sprawl of bodies and a litter of
discarded food, which included the leg of lamb, now gnawed down to the bone, a
great many torn-open cellophane bags and cardboard boxes, and a scattering of
discarded fruits and vegetables. Behind them came a group of six, the ones on
the end using the sidewalks. They didn't look at each other but were still so
perfectly together that when they passed Tom's house they seemed for an instant
to be only a single man, and Clay realized even their arms were swinging in
unison. After them came a youth of maybe fourteen, limping along, bawling
inarticulate cow-sounds, and trying to keep up.
"They left the
dead and the totally unconscious ones," Tom said, "but they actually helped a
couple who were stirring."
Clay looked for
the pregnant woman and didn't see her. "Mrs. Scottoni?"
"She was one of
the ones they helped," Tom said.
"So they're
acting like people again."
"Don't get that
idea," Alice said. "One of the men they tried to help couldn't walk, and after
he fell down a couple of times, one of the guys who'd been lifting him got tired
of being a Boy Scout and just—"
"Killed him,"
Tom said. "Not with his hands, either, like the guy in the garden. With his
teeth. Tore out his throat."
"I saw what was
going to happen and looked away," Alice said, "but I heard it. He . . .
squealed."
"Easy," Clay
said. He squeezed her arm gently. "Take it easy."
Now the street
was almost entirely empty. Two more stragglers came along, and although they
moved more or less side by side, both were limping so badly there was no sense
of unison about them.
"Where are they
going?" Clay asked.
"Alice thinks
maybe inside," Tom said, and he sounded excited. "Before it gets dark. She could
be right."
"Where? Where are they
going in? Have you seen any of them going into houses along this
block?"
"No." They said
it together.
"They didn't all
come back," Alice said. "No way did as many come back up Salem Street as
went down this morning. So a lot are still in Malden Center, or beyond. They may
have gravitated toward public buildings, like school gymnasiums . .
."
School
gymnasiums. Clay didn't like the sound of that.
"Did you see
that movie, Dawn of the Dead?" she asked.
"Yes," Clay
said. "You're not going to tell me someone let you in to see it, are
you?"
She looked at
him as if he were nuts. Or old. "One of my friends had the DVD. We watched it at
a sleepover back in eighth grade." Back when the Pony
Express still rode and the plains were dark with buffalo, her tone said.
"In that movie, all the dead
people—well, not all, but a lot—went back to the mall when they woke
up."
Tom McCourt
goggled at her for a second, then burst out laughing. It wasn't a little laugh,
either, but a long series of guffaws, laughter so hard he had to lean against
the wall for support, and Clay thought it wise to shut the door between the hall
and the porch. There was no telling how well the things straggling up the street
might hear; all he could think of at the moment was that the hearing of the
lunatic narrator in Poe's "The Tell-Tale Heart" had been extremely
keen.
"Well they
did," Alice said, putting her hands on her hips. The baby sneaker
flopped. "Straight to the mall." Tom laughed even harder. His knees buckled and
he oozed slowly down to the hall floor, howling and flapping his hands against
his shirt.
"They died . . . ," he
gasped, ". . . and came back . . . to go to the mall. Jesus
Christ, does Jerry F-Falwell. . ." He went off into another gale. Tears
were now running down his cheeks in clear streams. He brought himself under
control enough to finish, "Does Jerry Falwell know heaven's the Newcastle
Mall?"
Clay also began
to laugh. So did Alice, although Clay thought she was a little bit pissed off
that her reference had been greeted not with interest or even mild good humor
but outright howls. Still, when people started laughing, it was hard not to join
in. Even when you were pissed.
They had almost
stopped when Clay said, apropos of nothing, "If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie, I
don't want to go."
That set them
off again, all three. Alice was still laughing when she said, "If they're
flocking, then roosting for the night in gyms and churches and malls, people
could machine-gun them by the hundreds."
Clay stopped
laughing first. Then Tom stopped. He looked at her, wiping moisture out of his
neat little mustache.
Alice nodded.
The laughter had brought high color to her cheeks, and she was still smiling.
She had, at least for the moment, careened past pretty and into genuine beauty.
"By the thousands, maybe, if they're all going to the same place."
"Jesus," Tom
said. He took off his glasses and began to wipe them, too. "You don't fool
around."
"It's survival,"
Alice said matter-of-factly. She looked down at the sneaker tied to her wrist,
then up at the men. She nodded again. "We ought to chart them. Find out if
they 're flocking and when they're flocking, If they're
roosting and where they're roosting. Because if they can be
charted—"
18
Clay had led them out of Boston, but when
the three of them left the house on Salem Street some twenty-four hours later,
fifteen-year-old Alice Maxwell was unquestionably in charge. The more Clay
thought about it, the less it surprised him.
Tom McCourt
didn't lack for what his British cousins called bottle, but he was not and never
would be a natural leader. Clay had some leadership qualities, but that evening
Alice had an advantage beyond her intelligence and desire to survive: she had
suffered her losses and begun to move on. In leaving the house on Salem Street,
both men were dealing with new ones. Clay had begun to suffer a rather
frightening depression that at first he thought was just the result of his
decision—unavoidable, really—to leave his portfolio behind. As the night went
on, however, he realized it was a profound dread of what he might find if and
when he got to Kent Pond.
For Tom, it was simpler. He hated to leave
Rafe.
"Prop the door
open for him," Alice said—the new and harder Alice, who seemed more decisive by
the minute. "He'll almost certainly be okay, Tom. He'll find plenty of forage.
It'll be a long time before the cats starve or the phone-crazies work their way
down the food-chain to cat-meat."
"He'll go
feral," Tom said. He was sitting on the living room couch, looking stylish and
miserable in a belted raincoat and trilby hat. Rafer was on his lap, purring and
looking bored.
"Yeah, that's
what they do," Clay said. "Think of all the dogs—the little ones and the
oversized ones—that are just going to flat die."
"I've had him
for a long time. Since he was a kitten, really." He looked up and Clay saw the
man was on the verge of tears. "Also, I guess I see him as my luck. My mojo. He
saved my life, remember."
"Now we're your
mojo," Clay said. He didn't want to point out that he himself had almost
certainly saved Tom's life once already, but it was true. "Right,
Alice?"
"Yep," she said.
Tom had found a poncho for her, and she wore a knapsack on her back, although
there currently was nothing in it but batteries for the flashlights . . . and,
Clay was quite sure, that creepy little sneaker, which was at least no longer
tied to her wrist. Clay was also carrying batteries in his pack, along with the
Coleman lantern. They had nothing else, at Alice's suggestion. She said there
was no reason for them to carry what they could pick up along the way. "We're
the Three Musketeers, Tom—all for one and one for all. Now let's go over to the
Nickle-bys' house and see if we can get some muskets."
"Nickerson." He
was still stroking the cat.
She was smart
enough—and compassionate enough, maybe that, too—not to say something like
Whatever, but Clay could see she was getting low in the patience
department. He said, "Tom. Time to go."
"Yeah, I
suppose." He started to put the cat aside, then picked it up and kissed it
firmly between the ears. Rafe bore it with no more than a slight narrowing of
the eyes. Tom put it down on the sofa and stood. "Double rations in the kitchen
by the stove, kiddo," he said. "Plus a big bowl of milk, with the rest of the
half 'n' half poured in for good measure. Back door's open. Try to remember
where home is, and maybe . . . hey, maybe I'll see you."
The cat jumped
down and walked out of the room toward the kitchen with its tail up. And, true
to its kind, it never looked back.
Clay's
portfolio, bent and with a horizontal wrinkle running both ways from the
knife-slash in the middle, leaned against the living room wall. He glanced at it
on the way by and resisted an urge to touch it. He thought briefly of the people
inside he'd lived with so long, both in his little studio and in the much wider
(or so he liked to flatter himself) reaches of his imagination: Wizard Flak,
Sleepy Gene, Jumping Jack Flash, Poison Sally. And the Dark Wanderer, of course.
Two days ago he'd thought that maybe they were going to be stars. Now they had a
hole running through them and Tom McCourt's cat for company.
He thought of
Sleepy Gene leaving town on Robbie the Robo-Cayuse, saying S-So l-long
b-boys! Meh-Meh-Mebbe I'll b-be back this w-w-way again!
"So long, boys,"
he said out loud—a little self-conscious but not very. It was the end of the
world, after all. As farewells went, it wasn't much, but it would have to do. . . and as Sleepy
Gene might also have said, It sh-sh-sure beats a p-poke in the eye with a
ruh-ruh-rusty b-brandin'-arn.
Clay followed
Alice and Tom out onto the porch, into the sound of soft autumn
rain.
19
Tom had his trilby, there was a hood on
Alice's poncho, and Tom had found Clay a Red Sox cap that would keep his head
dry for a while, at least, if the light rain didn't get heavier. And if it did .
. . well, forage shouldn't be a problem, as Alice had pointed out. That would
surely include foul-weather gear. From the slight elevation of the porch they
could see roughly two blocks of Salem Street. It was impossible to be sure in
the failing light, but it appeared completely deserted except for a few bodies
and the food-litter the crazies had left behind.
Each of them was
wearing a knife seated in scabbards Clay had made. If Tom was right about the
Nickersons, they would soon be able to do better. Clay hoped so. He might be
able to use the butcher knife from Soul Kitchen again, but he still wasn't sure
he would be able to use it in cold blood.
Alice held a
flashlight in her left hand. She looked to make sure Tom had one, too, and
nodded. "Okay," she said. "You take us to the Nickerson house,
right?"
"Right," Tom
said.
"And if we see
someone on our way there, we stop right away and put our lights on them." She
looked at Tom, then Clay, with some anxiety. They had been over this before.
Clay guessed she probably obsessed the same way before big tests . . . and of
course this was a very big one.
"Right," Tom
said. "We say, 'Our names are Tom, Clay, and Alice. We're normal. What are your
names?' "
Clay said, "If
they have flashlights like us, we can almost assume—"
"We can't
assume anything," she said restlessly, querulously. "My father says
assume makes an ass out of you and me. Get it, u
and—"
"I get it," Clay
said.
Alice brushed at
her eyes, although whether to wipe away rain or tears
Clay wasn't
sure. He wondered, briefly and painfully, if Johnny was somewhere crying for
him, right now. Clay hoped he was. He hoped his son was still capable of tears.
Of memory.
"If they can
answer, if they can say their names, they're fine, and they're probably safe,"
Alice said. "Right?"
"Right," Clay
said.
"Yeah," Tom
agreed, a little absently. He was looking at the street where there were no
people and no bobbing flashlight beams, near or far.
Someplace in the
distance, gunshots popped. They sounded like fireworks. The air stank of burning
and char and had all day. Clay thought they were smelling it more strongly now
because it was wet. He wondered how long before the smell of decaying flesh
turned the fug hanging over greater Boston into a reek. He supposed it depended
on how warm the days ahead turned out to be.
"If we meet
normal people and they ask us what we're doing or where we're going, remember
the story," she said.
"We're looking
for survivors," Tom said.
"That's right.
Because they're our friends and neighbors. Any people we meet will just be
passing through. They'll want to keep moving. Later on we'll probably want to
hook up with other normal people, because there's safety in numbers, but right
now—"
"Right now we'd
like to get to those guns," Clay said. "If there are any guns to get. Come on,
Alice, let's do this."
She looked
worriedly at him. "What's wrong? What am I missing? You can tell me, I know I'm
just a kid."
Patiently—as
patiently as he could with nerves that felt like overtuned guitar-strings—Clay
said, "There's nothing wrong with it, honey. I just want to get rolling. I don't
think we're going to see anyone, anyway. I think it's too soon."
"I hope you're
right," she said. "My hair's a mess and I've chipped a nail."
They looked at
her silently for a moment, then laughed. After that it was better among them,
and stayed better until the end.
20
"No," Alice said. She made a gagging sound.
"No. No, I can't." A louder gagging sound. Then: "I'm going to throw up. I'm
sorry."
She plunged out
of the Coleman's glare and into the gloom of the Nickersons' living room, which
adjoined the kitchen via a wide arch. Clay heard a soft thump as she went to her
knees on the carpet, then more gagging. A pause, a gasp, and then she was
vomiting. He was almost relieved.
"Oh Christ," Tom
said. He pulled in a long, gasping breath and this time spoke in a wavering
exhalation that was nearly a howl. "Oh Chriiiiiist."
"Tom," Clay
said. He saw how the little man was swaying on his feet and understood he was on
the verge of fainting. Why not? These bloody leavings had been his
neighbors.
"Tom!" He
stepped between Tom and the two bodies on the kitchen floor, between Tom and
most of the splattered blood, which looked as black as India ink in the
Coleman's unforgiving white glare. He tapped the side of Tom's face with his
free hand. "Don't pass out!" And when he saw Tom steady on his feet, he
dropped his voice a little. "Go on in the other room and take care of Alice.
I'll take care of the kitchen."
"Why would you
want to go in there?" Tom asked. "That's Beth Nickerson with her brains . . .
her b-brains all over . . ." He swallowed. There was an audible click in his
throat. "Most of her face is gone, but I recognize the blue jumper with the
white snowflakes on it. And that's Heidi on the floor by the center island.
Their daughter. I recognize her, even with . . ." He shook his head, as
if to clear it, then repeated: "Why would you want to?"
"I'm pretty sure
I see what we came for," Clay said. He was astounded by how calm he
sounded.
"In the
kitchen?”
Tom tried to
look past him and Clay moved to block his view. "Trust me. You see to Alice. If
she can, you two start looking around for more guns. Shout if you hit paydirt.
And be careful, Mr. Nickerson may be here, too. I mean, we could assume he was
at work when all this went down, but as Alice's dad says—"
"Assume makes an
ass out of you and me," Tom said. He managed a sickly smile. "Gotcha." He started to turn
away, then turned back. "I don't care where we go, Clay, but I don't want to
stay here any longer than we have to. I didn't exactly love Arnie and Beth
Nickerson, but they were my neighbors. And they treated me a hell of a lot
better than that idiot Scottoni from around the block."
"Understood."
Tom snapped on
his flashlight and went into the Nickerson living room. Clay heard him murmuring
to Alice, comforting her.
Steeling
himself, Clay walked into the kitchen with the Coleman lantern held up, stepping
around the puddles of blood on the hardwood floor. It had dried now, but he
still didn't want to put his shoes in any more of it than he had to.
The girl lying
on her back by the center island had been tall, but both her pigtails and the
angular lines of her body suggested a child two or three years younger than
Alice. Her head was cocked at a strenuous angle, almost a parody of
interrogation, and her dead eyes bulged. Her hair had been broom straw-blond,
but all of it on the left side of her head—the side that had taken the blow
which had killed her—was now the same dark maroon as the stains on the
floor.
Her mother
reclined below the counter to the right of the stove, where the handsome
cherrywood cabinets came together to form a corner. Her hands were ghost-white
with flour and her bloody, bitten legs were indecorously splayed. Once, before
starting work on a limited-run comic called Battle Hell, Clay had
accessed a selection of fatal-gunshot photos on the Web, thinking there might be
something he could use. There was not. Gunshot wounds spoke a terrible blank
language of their own, and here it was again. Beth Nickerson was mostly spray
and gristle from her left eye on up. Her right eye had drifted into the upper
orbit of its socket, as if she had died trying to look into her own head. Her
back hair and a good deal of her brain-matter was caked on the cherrywood
cabinet against which she had leaned in her brief moments of dying. A few flies
were buzzing around her.
Clay began to
gag. He turned his head and covered his mouth. He told himself he had to control
himself. In the other room Alice had stopped vomiting—in fact he could hear her
and Tom talking together as they moved deeper into the house—and he didn't
want to get her going again.
Think of them
as dummies, props in a movie, he told himself, but he knew he could never do
that.
When he looked
back, he looked at the other things on the floor instead. That helped. The gun
he had already seen. The kitchen was spacious and the gun was all the way on the
other side, lying between the fridge and one of the cabinets with the barrel
sticking out. His first impulse on seeing the dead woman and the dead girl had
been to avert his eyes; they'd happened on the gun-barrel purely by
accident.
But maybe I
would have known there had to be a gun.
He even saw
where it had been: a wall-mounted clip between the built-in TV and the
industrial-size can-opener. They were gadget-nuts as well as gun-nuts,
Tom had said, and a wall-mounted pistol in your kitchen just waiting to leap
into your hand . . . why, if that wasn't the best of both worlds, what
was?
"Clay?" That was
Alice. Coming from some distance.
"What?"
There followed
the sound of feet quickly ascending a set of stairs, then Alice called from the
living room. "Tom said you wanted to know if we hit paydirt. We just did. There
must be a dozen guns downstairs in the den. Rifles and pistols both. They're in
a cabinet with an alarm-company sticker on it, so we'll probably get arrested .
. . that's a joke. Are you coming?"
"In a minute,
hon. Don't come out here."
"Don't worry.
Don't you stay there and get grossed out."
He was beyond
grossed out, far beyond. There were two other objects lying on the bloody
hardwood floor of the Nickerson kitchen. One was a rolling pin, which made
sense. There was a pie tin, a mixing bowl, and a cheery yellow canister marked
FLOUR sitting on the center island. The other object on the floor, this one
lying not too distant from one of Heidi Nickerson's hands, was a cell phone only
a teenager could love, blue with big orange daisy decals plastered all over
it.
Clay could
see what had happened, little as he wanted to. Beth Nickerson is making a
pie. Does she know something awful has started to happen in greater Boston, in
America, maybe in the world? Is it on TV? If so, the TV didn't send her a
crazygram, Clay was sure of that.
Her daughter got
one, though. Oh yes. And Heidi attacked her mother. Did Beth Nickerson try to
reason with her daughter before driving her to the floor with a blow from the
rolling pin, or did she just strike? Not in hate, but in pain and fear? In any
case, it wasn't enough. And Beth wasn't wearing pants. She was wearing a jumper,
and her legs were bare.
Clay pulled down
the dead woman's skirt. He did it gently, covering the plain working-at-home
underwear that she had soiled at the end.
Heidi, surely no older
than fourteen and perhaps only twelve, must have been growling in that savage
nonsense-language they seemed to learn all at once after they got a full dose of
Sane-B-Gone from their phones, saying things like rast and eelah
and kazzalah-CAN! The first blow from the rolling pin had knocked her
down but not out, and the mad girl had begun to work on her mother's legs. Not
little nips, either, but deep, searing bites, some that had driven all the way
to the bone. Clay could see not only toothmarks but ghostly tattoos that must
have been left by young Heidi's braces. And so—probably screaming, undoubtedly
in agony, almost certainly not aware of what she was doing—Beth Nickerson had
struck again, this time much harder. Clay could almost hear the muffled crack as
the girl's neck broke. Beloved daughter, dead on the floor of the
state-of-the-art kitchen, with braces on her teeth and her state-of-the-art cell
phone by one outstretched hand.
And had her
mother stopped to consider before popping the gun from its clip between the TV
and the can-opener, where it had been waiting who knew how long for a burglar or
rapist to appear in this clean, well-lighted kitchen? Clay thought not. Clay
thought there would have been no pause, that she would have wanted to catch up
with her daughter's fleeing soul while the explanation for what she had done was
still fresh on her lips.
Clay went to the
gun and picked it up. From a gadget-boy like Arnie Nickerson he would have
expected an automatic—maybe even one with a laser sight—but this was a plain old
Colt .45 revolver. He supposed it made sense. His wife might feel more
comfortable with this kind of gun; no nonsense about making sure it was
loaded if the gun was needed (or wasting time fishing a clip out from behind the
spatulas or spices if it wasn't), then racking the slide to make sure there was
a hot one in the chamber. No, with this old whore you just had to swing the
barrel out, which Clay did with ease. He'd drawn a thousand variations of this
very gun for Dark Wanderer. As he'd expected, only one of the six chambers was
empty. He shook out one of the other loads, knowing just what he would find.
Beth Nickerson's .45 was loaded with highly illegal cop-killer bullets.
Fraggers. No wonder the top of her head was gone. The wonder was that she had
any left at all. He looked down at the remains of the woman leaning in the
corner and began to cry.
"Clay?" That was
Tom, coming up the stairs from the basement. "Man, Arnie had everything!
There's an automatic weapon that would have gotten him a stretch in Walpole,
I bet. . . . Clay? Are you all right?"
"I'm coming,"
Clay said, wiping his eyes. He safetied the revolver and stuck it in his belt.
Then he took off the knife and laid it on Beth Nickerson's counter, still in its
homemade scabbard. It seemed they were trading up. "Give me two more
minutes."
"Yo."
Clay heard Tom
clumping back to Arnie Nickerson's downstairs armory and smiled in spite of the
tears still running down his face. Here was something he would have to remember:
give a nice little gay guy from Malden a roomful of guns to play with, he starts
to say yo just like Sylvester Stallone.
Clay started
going through drawers. In the third one he tried, he found a heavy
red box marked AMERICAN DEFENDER .45 CALIBER AMERICAN DEFENDER 50
ROUNDS. It was under
the dishtowels. He put the box in his pocket and went to join Tom and Alice. He
wanted to get out of here now, and as quickly as possible. The trick would be
getting them to go without trying to take Arnie Nickerson's entire gun
collection along.
Halfway through
the arch he paused and glanced back, holding the Coleman lantern high, looking
at the bodies. Pulling down the skirt of the woman's jumper hadn't helped much.
They were still just corpses, their wounds as naked as Noah when his son had
come upon him in liquor. He could find something to cover them with,
but once he started covering bodies, where would it end? Where? With Sharon?
With his son?
"God forbid," he
whispered, but he doubted that God would simply because he asked. He lowered the
lantern and followed the dancing glow of flashlights downstairs to Tom and
Alice.
21
They both wore belts with large-caliber
handguns in the holsters, and these were automatics. Tom had also slung
an ammunition bandolier over his shoulder. Clay didn't know whether to laugh or
start crying again. Part of him felt like doing both at the same time. Of course
if he did that, they would think he was having hysterics. And of course they
would be right.
The plasma TV
mounted on the wall down here was the big—very big—brother of the one in the
kitchen. Another TV, only slightly smaller, had a multibrand videogame hookup
Clay would, once upon a time, have loved to examine. To fawn over, maybe. As if
to balance it off, a vintage Seeberg jukebox stood in the corner next to the
Nickersons' Ping-Pong table, all its fabulous colors dark and dead. And of
course there were the gun cabinets, two of them, still locked but with their
glass fronts broken.
"There were
locking-bars, but he had a toolbox in his garage," Tom said. "Alice used a
wrench to break them off."
"They were
cookies," Alice said modestly. "This was in the garage behind the toolbox,
wrapped in a piece of blanket. Is it what I think it is?" She picked it up off
the Ping-Pong table, holding it carefully by the wire stock, and carried it over
to Clay.
"Holy shit," he
said. "This is . . ." He squinted at the embossing above the trigger-guard. "I
think it's Russian."
"I'm sure it
is," Tom said. "Do you think it's a Kalashnikov?"
"You got me. Are
there bullets that match it? In boxes that match the printing on the gun, I
mean?"
"Halfa dozen.
Heavy boxes. It's a machine gun, isn't it?"
"You might as
well call it that, I guess." Clay flicked a lever. "I'm pretty sure one of these
positions is single shot and the other is autofire."
"How many rounds
does it fire a minute?" Alice asked.
"I don't know,"
Clay said, "but I think it's rounds per second."
"Whoa."
Her eyes got round. "Can you figure out how to shoot it?"
"Alice—I'm
pretty sure they teach sixteen-year-old farmboys how to shoot these. Yes, I can
figure it out. It might take a box of ammo, but I can figure it out." Please
God don't let it blow up in my hands, he thought.
"Is something
like that legal in Massachusetts?" she asked.
"It is now,
Alice," Tom said, not smiling. "Is it time to go?"
"Yes," she said,
and then—perhaps still not entirely comfortable being the one to make the
decisions—she looked at Clay.
"Yes," he said.
"North."
"Fine with me,"
Alice said.
"Yeah," Tom
said. "North. Let's do it."
GAITEN
ACADEMY
1
When rainy daylight arose the next morning,
Clay, Alice, and Tom were camped in the barn adjacent to an abandoned horse-farm
in North Reading. They watched from the door as the first groups of crazyfolk
began to appear, flocking southwest on Route 62 in the direction of Wilmington.
Their clothes looked uniformly soaked and shabby. Some were without shoes. By
noon they were gone. Around four, as the sun broke through the clouds in long,
spoking rays, they began flocking back in the direction from which they had
come. Many were munching as they walked. Some were helping those who were having
a hard time walking on their own. If there were acts of murder today, Clay, Tom,
and Alice did not see any.
Perhaps half a
dozen of the crazies were lugging large objects that looked familiar to Clay;
Alice had found one in the closet of Tom's guest bedroom. The three of them had
stood around it, afraid to turn it on.
"Clay?" Alice
asked. "Why are some of them carrying boomboxes?"
"I don't know,"
he said.
"I don't like
it," Tom said. "I don't like the flocking behavior, I don't like them helping
each other, and I like seeing them with those big portable sound-systems least
of all."
"There's only a
few with—" Clay began.
"Check her out,
right there," Tom interrupted, pointing to a middle-aged woman who was
staggering up Highway 62 with a radio/CD player the size of a living room
hassock cradled in her arms. She held it against her breasts as though it were a
sleeping toddler. Its power-cord had come out of the little storage compartment
in back and dragged beside her on the road. "And you don't see any of them
carrying lamps or toasters, do you? What if they're programmed to set up
battery-powered radios, turn them on, and start broadcasting that tone, pulse,
subliminal message, whatever-it-is? What if they want to get the ones they
missed the first time?"
They. The
ever-popular paranoid they. Alice had produced her little sneaker from
somewhere and was squeezing it in her hand, but when she spoke, her voice was
calm enough. "I don't think that's it," she said.
"Why not?" Tom
asked.
She shook her
head. "I can't say. Just that it doesn't feel right."
"Woman's
intuition?" He was smiling, but he wasn't sneering.
"Maybe," she
said, "but I think one thing's obvious."
"What's that,
Alice?" Clay asked. He had an idea what she was going to say, and he was
right.
"They're getting
smarter. Not on their own, but because they're thinking together. Probably that
sounds crazy, but I think it's more likely than them collecting a big pile of
battery-powered FM suitcases to blast us all into loony-land."
"Telepathic
group-think," Tom said. He mulled it over. Alice watched him do it. Clay, who
had already decided she was right, looked out the barn door at the last of the
day. He was thinking they needed to stop somewhere and pick up a
road-atlas.
Tom was nodding.
"Hey, why not? After all, that's probably what flocking is: telepathic group-think."
"Do you really
think so or are you just saying that to make me—"
"I really think
so," he said. He reached out and touched her hand, which was now squeezing the
little sneaker rapidly. "I really really do. Give that thing a rest, will
you?"
She gave him a
fleeting, distracted smile. Clay saw it and thought again how beautiful she was,
how really beautiful. And how close to breaking. "That hay looks soft and I'm
tired. I think I'll take a nice long nap."
"Get down with
your bad self," Clay said.
2
Clay dreamed that he and Sharon and
Johnny-Gee were having a picnic behind their little house in Kent Pond. Sharon
had spread her Navajo blanket on the grass. They were having sandwiches and iced
tea. Suddenly the day went dark. Sharon pointed over Clay's shoulder and said,
"Look! Telepaths!" But when he turned that way, he saw nothing but a flock of
crows, one so huge it blotted out the sun. Then a tinkling began. It sounded
like the Mister Softee truck playing the Sesame Street theme song, but he
knew it was a ring-tone, and in his dream he was terrified. He turned back and
Johnny-Gee was gone. When he asked Sharon where he was—already dreading, already
knowing the answer—she said Johnny had gone under the blanket to answer his cell
phone. There was a bump in the blanket. Clay dove under, into the overpowering
smell of sweet hay, shouting for Johnny not to pick up, not to answer, reaching
for him and finding instead only the cold curve of a glass ball: the paperweight
he'd bought in Small Treasures, the one with the haze of dandelion fluff
floating deep down inside like a pocket fog.
Then Tom was
shaking him, telling him it was past nine by his watch, the moon was up, and if
they were going to do some more walking they ought to get at it. Clay had never
been so glad to wake up. On the whole, he preferred dreams of the Bingo
Tent.
Alice was
looking at him oddly.
"What?" Clay
said, checking to make sure their automatic weapon was safetied—that was already
becoming second nature to him.
"You were
talking in your sleep. You were saying, 'Don't answer it, don't answer it.'
"
"Nobody
should have answered it," Clay said. "We all would have been better
off."
"Ah, but who can
resist a ringing phone?" Tom asked. "And there goes your ballgame."
"Thus spake
fuckin Zarathustra," Clay said. Alice laughed until she cried.
3
With the moon racing in and out of the
clouds—like an illustration in a boy's novel of pirates and buried treasure,
Clay thought—they left the horse-farm behind and resumed their walk north. That
night they began to meet others of their own kind again.
Because this
is our time now, Clay thought, shifting the automatic rifle from one hand to
the other. Fully loaded, it was damned heavy. The phone-crazies own
the days; when the stars come out, that's us. We're like vampires. We've been
banished to the night. Up close we know each other because we can still talk; at
a little distance we can be pretty sure of each other by the packs we wear and
the guns more and more of us carry; but at a distance, the one sure sign is the
waving flashlight beam. Three days ago we not only ruled the earth, we had
survivor's guilt about all the other species we'd wiped out on our climb to the
nirvana of round-the-clock cable news and microwave popcorn. Now we're the
Flashlight People.
He looked over
at Tom. "Where do they go?" he asked. "Where do the crazies go after
sundown?"
Tom gave him a
look. "North Pole. All the elves died of mad reindeer disease and these guys are
helping out until the new crop shows up."
"Jesus," Clay
said, "did someone get up on the wrong side of the haystack tonight?"
But Tom still
wouldn't smile. "I'm thinking about my cat," he said. "Wondering if he's all
right. No doubt you think that's quite stupid."
"No," Clay said,
although, having a son and a wife to worry about, he sort of did.
4
They got a road atlas in a card-and-book
shop in the two-stoplight burg of Ballardvale. They were now traveling north,
and very glad they had decided to stay in the more-or-less bucolic V between
Interstates 93 and 95. The other travelers they met—most moving west, away from
1-95—told of horrendous traffic-jams and terrible wrecks. One of the few
pilgrims who was moving east said that a tanker had crashed near the Wakefield
exit of 1-93 and the resulting fire had caused a chain of explosions that had
incinerated nearly a mile of northbound traffic. The stench, he said, was like
"a fish-fry in hell."
They met more
Flashlight People as they trudged through the outskirts of Andover and heard a
rumor so persistent it was now repeated with the assurance of fact: the New
Hampshire border was closed. New Hampshire State Police and special deputies
were shooting first and asking questions afterward. It didn't matter to them
whether you were crazy or sane.
"It's just a new
version of the fucking motto they've had on their fucking license plates since
forever," said a bitter-faced elderly man with whom they walked for a while. He
was wearing a small pack over his expensive topcoat and carrying a long-barreled
flashlight. Poking out of his topcoat pocket was the butt of a handgun. "If
you're in New Hampshire, you can live free. If you want to come to
New Hampshire, you can fucking die."
"That's just . .
. really hard to believe," Alice said.
"Believe what
you want, Missy," said their temporary companion. "I met some people who tried
to go north like you folks, and they turned back south in a hurry when they saw
some people shot out of hand trying to cross into New Hampshire north of
Dunstable."
"When?" Clay
asked.
"Last
night."
Clay thought of
several other questions, but held his tongue instead. At Andover, the
bitter-faced man and most of the other people with whom they had been sharing
their vehicle-clogged (but passable) route turned onto Highway 133, toward
Lowell and points west. Clay, Tom, and Alice were left on Andover's main
street—deserted except for a few flashlight-waving foragers—with a decision to
make.
"Do you believe
it?" Clay asked Alice.
"No," she said,
and looked at Tom.
Tom shook his head. "Me either. I thought
the guy's story had an alligators-in-the-sewers feel to it."
Alice was
nodding. "News doesn't travel that fast anymore. Not without
phones."
"Yep," Tom said.
"Definitely the next-generation urban myth. Still, we are talking about
what a friend of mine likes to call New Hamster.
Which is why I
think we should cross the border at the most out-of-the-way spot we can
find."
"Sounds like a
plan," Alice said, and with that they moved on again, using the sidewalk as long
as they were in town and there was a sidewalk to use.
5
On the outskirts of Andover, a man with a
pair of flashlights rigged in a kind of harness (one light at each temple)
stepped out through the broken display window of the IGA. He waved to them in
companionable fashion, then picked a course toward them between a jumble of
shopping carts, dropping canned goods into what looked like a newsboy's pouch as
he walked. He stopped beside a pickup truck lying on its side, introduced
himself as Mr. Roscoe Handt of Methuen, and asked where they were going. When
Clay told them Maine, Handt shook his head.
"New Hampshire
border's closed. I met two people not half an hour ago who got turned back. He
said they're trying to tell the difference between the phone-crazies and people
like us, but they're not trying too hard."
"Did these two
people actually see this with their own eyes?" Tom asked.
Roscoe Handt
looked at Tom as though he might be crazy. "You got to trust the word of
others, man," he said. "I mean, you can't exactly phone someone up and ask for
verification, can you?" He paused. "They're burning the bodies at Salem and
Nashua, that's what these folks told me. And it smells like a pig-roast. They
told me that, too. I've got a party of five I'm taking west, and we want to make
some miles before sunup. The way west is open."
"That the word
you're hearing, is it?" Clay asked.
Handt looked at
him with mild contempt. "That's the word, all right. And a word to the wise is
sufficient, my ma used to say. If you really mean to go north, make sure you get
to the border in the middle of the night. The crazies don't go out after
dark."
"We know," Tom
said.
The man with the
flashlights affixed to the sides of his head ignored Tom and went on talking to
Clay. He had pegged Clay as the trio's leader. "And they don't carry
flashlights. Wave your flashlights back and forth. Talk. Yell. They don't
do those things, either. I doubt the people at the border will let you through,
but if you're lucky, they won't shoot you, either."
"They're getting
smarter," Alice said. "You know that, don't you, Mr. Handt?"
Handt snorted.
"They're traveling in packs and they're not killing each other anymore. I don't
know if that makes them smarter or not. But they're still killing us, I
know that."
Handt must have
seen doubt on Clay's face, because he smiled. His flashlights turned it into
something unpleasant.
"I saw them
catch a woman out this morning," he said. "With my own eyes, okay?"
Clay nodded.
"Okay."
"I think I know
why she was on the street. This was in Topsfield, about ten miles east of here?
Me and my people, we were in a Motel 6. She was walking that way. Only not
really walking. Hurrying. Almost running. Looking back over her shoulder. I saw
her because I couldn't sleep." He shook his head. "Getting used to sleeping days
is a bitch."
Clay thought of
telling Handt they'd all get used to it, then didn't. He saw Alice was holding
her talisman again. He didn't want Alice hearing this and knew there was no way
to keep her from it. Partly because it was survival information (and unlike the
stuff about the New Hampshire state line, he was almost positive this was solid
information); partly because the world was going to be full of stories like this
for a while. If they listened to enough of them, some might eventually begin to
line up and make patterns.
"Probably just
looking for a better place to stay, you know? No more than that. Saw the Motel 6
and thought, 'Hey, a room with a bed. Right up there by the Exxon station. Only
a block away' But before she got even halfway, a bunch of them came around the
corner. They were walking . . . you know how they walk now?"
Roscoe Handt
walked toward them stiffly, like a tin soldier, with his newsboy's bag swinging. That wasn't how
the phone-crazies walked, but they knew what he was trying to convey and
nodded.
"And she . . ."
He leaned back against the overturned truck and scrubbed briefly at his face
with his hands. "This is what I want you to understand, okay? This is why you
can't get caught out, can't get fooled that they're getting normal because every
now and then one or two of them has lucked into hitting the right controls on a
boombox and started a CD playing—"
"You've seen
that?" Tom asked. "Heard that?"
"Yeah, twice.
Second guy I saw was walking along, swinging the thing from side to side so hard
in his arms that it was skipping like hell, but yeah, it was playing. So they
like music, and sure, they might be retrieving some of their marbles, but that's
exactly why you have to be careful, see?"
"What happened
to the woman?" Alice asked. "The one who got caught out?"
"She tried to
act like one of them," Handt said. "And I thought, standing there at the window
of the room where I was, I thought, 'Yeah, you go, girl, you might have a chance
if you can hang on to that act a little while and then make a break, get inside
somewhere.' Because they don't like to go inside places, have you noticed
that?"
Clay, Tom, and
Alice shook their heads.
The man nodded.
"They will, I've seen em do it, but they don't like to."
"How did they
get on to her?" Alice asked again.
"I don't exactly
know. They smelled her, or something."
"Or maybe
touched her thoughts," Tom said.
"Or couldn't
touch them," Alice said.
"I don't know
about any of that," Handt said, "but I know they tore her apart in the street. I
mean literally tore her to pieces."
"And this
happened when?" Clay asked. He saw Alice was swaying and put an arm around
her.
"Nine this
morning. In Topsfield. So if you see a bunch of them walking up the Yella Brick
Road with a boombox that's playing 'Why Can't We Be Friends' . . ." He surveyed
them grimly by the glow of the flashlights strapped to the sides of his head. "I
wouldn't go running out yelling kemo sake, that's all." He paused. "And I
wouldn't go north, either. Even if they don't shoot you at the border, it's a
waste of time."
But after a
little consultation at the edge of the IGA parking lot, they went north
anyway.
6
They paused near North Andover, standing on
a pedestrian overpass above Route 495. The clouds were thickening again, but the
moon broke through long enough to show them six lanes of silent traffic. Near
the bridge where they stood, in the southbound lanes, an overturned
sixteen-wheeler lay like a dead elephant. Orange pylons had been set up around
it, showing that someone had made at least a token response, and there were two
abandoned police cruisers beyond them, one on its side. The rear half of the
truck had been burned black. There was no sign of bodies, not in the momentary
moonlight. A few people labored westward in the breakdown lane, but it was slow
going even there.
"Kind of makes
it all real, doesn't it?" Tom said.
"No," Alice
said. She sounded indifferent. "To me it looks like a special effect in some big
summer movie. Buy a bucket of popcorn and a Coke and watch the end of the world
in . . .what do they call it? Computer graphic imaging? CGI? Blue screens? Some
fucking thing." She held up the little sneaker by one lace. "This is all I need
to make it real. Something small enough to hold in my hand. Come on, let's
go."
7
There were plenty of abandoned vehicles on
Highway 28, but it was wide-open compared to 495, and by four o'clock they were
nearing Methuen, hometown of Mr. Roscoe Handt, he of the stereo flashlights. And
they believed enough of Handt's story to want to be under cover well before
daylight. They chose a motel at the intersection of 28 and 110. A dozen or so
cars were parked in front of the various units, but to Clay they had an
abandoned feel. And why wouldn't they? The two roads were passable, but only if you were on foot. Clay and Tom
stood at the edge of the parking lot, waving their flashlights over their
heads.
"We're okay!"
Tom called. "Normal folks! Coming in!"
They waited.
There was no response from what the sign identified as the Sweet Valley Inn,
Heated Pool, HBO, Group Rates.
"Come on," Alice
said. "My feet hurt. And it'll be getting light soon, won't it?"
"Look at this,"
Clay said. He picked up a CD from the motel's turn-in and shone the beam of his
flashlight on it. It was Love Songs, by Michael Bolton.
"And you said
they were getting smarter," Tom said.
"Don't be so
quick to judge," Clay said as they started toward the units. "Whoever had it
threw it away, right?"
"More
likely just dropped it," Tom said.
Alice shone her
own light on the CD. "Who is this guy?"
"Honeybunch,"
Tom said, "you don't want to know." He took the CD and tossed it back over his
shoulder.
They forced the
doors on three adjoining units—as gently as possible, so they could at least
shoot the bolts once they were inside—and with beds to sleep in, they slept most
of the day away. They were not disturbed, although that evening Alice said she
thought she had heard music coming from far away. But, she admitted, it might
have been part of a dream she was having.
8
There were maps for sale in the lobby of
the Sweet Valley Inn that would offer more detail than their road atlas. They
were in a glass display cabinet that had been smashed. Clay took one for
Massachusetts and one for New Hampshire, reaching in carefully so as not to cut
his hand, and saw a young man lying on the other side of the reception counter
as he did so. His eyes glared sightlessly. For a moment Clay thought someone had
put an oddly colored corsage in the corpse's mouth. Then he saw the greenish
points poking out through the dead man's cheeks and realized they matched the
broken glass littering the shelves of the display cabinet. The corpse was wearing a nametag that said
my name is hank ask me about weekly
rates. Clay thought briefly of Mr. Ricardi as he looked at
Hank.
Tom and Alice
were waiting for him just inside the lobby door. It was quarter of nine, and
outside it was full dark. "How did you do?" Alice asked.
"These may
help," he said. He gave her the maps, then lifted the Coleman lantern so she and
Tom could study them, compare them against the road atlas, and plot the night's
travel. He was trying to cultivate a sense of fatalism about Johnny and Sharon,
trying to keep the bald truth of his current family situation front and center
in his mind: what had happened in Kent Pond had happened. His son and his wife
were either all right or they weren't. He would either find them or he wouldn't.
His success at this sort of semi-magical thinking came and went.
When it started
slipping, he told himself he was lucky to be alive, and this was certainly true.
What balanced his good luck out was that he'd been in Boston, a hundred miles
south of Kent Pond by even the quickest route (which they were definitely not
taking), when the Pulse happened. And yet he'd fallen in with good people.
There was that. People he could think of as friends. He'd seen plenty of
others—Beer-Keg Guy and Plump Bible-Toting Lady as well as Mr. Roscoe Handt of
Methuen—who weren't as lucky.
If he got to
you, Share, if Johnny got to you, you better be taking care of him. You just
better be.
But suppose he'd
had his phone? Suppose he'd taken the red cell phone to school? Might he not
have been taking it a little more often lately? Because so many of the other
kids took theirs?
Christ.
"Clay? You all
right?" Tom asked.
"Sure.
Why?"
"I don't know.
You looked a little . . . grim."
"Dead guy behind
the counter. He's not pretty."
"Look here,"
Alice said, tracing a thread on the map. It squiggled across the state line and
then appeared to join New Hampshire Route 38 a little east of Pelham. "That
looks pretty good to me," she said. "If we go west on the highway out there for
eight or nine miles"—she pointed at 110, where both the cars and the tar were
gleaming faintly in a misty drizzle—"we should hit it. What do you
think?"
"I think that
sounds good," Tom said.
She looked from
him to Clay. The little sneaker was put away—probably in her backpack—but Clay
could see her wanting to squeeze it. He supposed it was good she wasn't a
smoker, she'd be up to four packs a day. "If they've got the way across
guarded—" she began.
"We'll worry
about that if we have to," Clay said, but he wasn't worrying. One way or
another, he was getting to Maine. If it meant crawling through some puckerbrush,
like an illegal crossing the Canadian border to pick apples in October, he would
do it. If Tom and Alice decided to stay behind, that would be too bad. He'd be
sorry to leave them . . . but he would go. Because he had to know.
The red squiggle
Alice had found on the Sweet Valley maps had a name—Dostie Stream Road—and it
was almost wide-open. It was a four-mile hike to the state line, and they came
upon no more than five or six abandoned vehicles and only a single wreck. They
also passed two houses where they could see lights and hear the roar of
generators. They considered stopping at these, but not for long.
"We'd probably
get into a firefight with some guy defending his hearth and home," Clay said.
"Always assuming there's anyone there. Those generators were probably set to
come on when the county juice failed, and they'll run until they're out of
gas."
"Even if there
are sane people and they let us in, which would hardly be a sane act, what are
we going to do?" Tom said. "Ask to use the phone?"
They discussed
stopping somewhere and trying to liberate a vehicle (liberate was Tom's
word), but in the end decided against that, too. If the state line was being
defended by deputies or vigilantes, driving up to it in a Chevy Tahoe might not
be the smoothest move.
So they walked,
and of course there was nothing at the state line but a billboard (a small one,
as befitted a two-lane blacktop road winding through farm country) reading YOU
ARE NOW ENTERING NEW HAMPSHIRE and bienvenue! There was no sound but the
drip of moisture in the woods on either side of them, and an occasional sigh of
breeze. Maybe the rustle of an animal. They stopped briefly to read
the sign and then walked on, leaving Massachusetts behind.
9
Any sense of being alone ended along with
the Dostie Stream Road, at a signpost reading NH ROUTE 38 and MANCHESTER 19 MI.
There were still only a few travelers on 38, but when they switched to 128—a
wide, wreck-littered road that headed almost due north—half an hour later, that
trickle became part of a steady stream of refugees. They traveled mostly in
little groups of three and four, and with what struck Clay as a rather shabby
lack of interest in anyone other than themselves.
They encountered
a woman of about forty and a man maybe twenty years older pushing shopping
carts, each containing a child. The one in the man's cart was a boy, and too big
for the conveyance, but he had found a way to curl up inside and fall asleep.
While Clay and his party were passing this jackleg family, a wheel came off the
man's shopping cart. It tipped sideways, spilling out the boy, who looked about
seven. Tom caught him by the shoulder and broke the worst of the kid's fall, but
he scraped one knee. And of course he was frightened. Tom picked him up, but the
boy didn't know him and struggled to get away, crying harder than
ever.
"That's okay,
thanks, I've got him," the man said. He took the child and sat down at the side
of the road with him, where he made much of what he called the boo-boo, a term
Clay didn't think he'd heard since he was seven. The man said, "Gregory
kiss it, make it all better." He kissed the child's scrape, and the boy laid his
head against the man's shoulder. He was already going to sleep again. Gregory
smiled at Tom and Clay and nodded. He looked weary almost to death, a man who
might have been a trim and Nautilus-toned sixty last week and now looked like a
seventy-five-year-old Jew trying to get the hell out of Poland while there was
still time.
"We'll be all
right," he said. "You can go now."
Clay opened his
mouth to say, Why shouldn't we all go on together? Why don't we hook up? What
do you think, Greg? It was the sort of thing the heroes of the science fiction novels he'd
read as a teenager were always saying: Why don't we hook up?
"Yeah, go on,
what are you waiting for?" the woman asked before he could say that or anything
else. In her shopping cart a girl of about five still slept. The woman stood
beside the cart protectively, as if she had grabbed some fabulous sale item and
was afraid Clay or one of his friends might try to wrest it from her. "You think
we got something you want?"
"Natalie, stop,"
Gregory said with tired patience.
But Natalie
didn't, and Clay realized what was so dispiriting about this little scene. Not
that he was getting his lunch—his midnight lunch—fed to him by a woman
whose exhaustion and terror had led to paranoia; that was understandable and
forgivable. What made his spirits sink to his shoetops was the way people just
kept on walking, swinging their flashlights, and talking low among themselves in
their own little groups, swapping the occasional suitcase from one hand to the
other. Some yob on a pocket-rocket motorbike wove his way up the road between
the wrecks and over the litter, and people made way for him, muttering
resentfully. Clay thought it would have been the same if the little boy had
fallen out of the shopping cart and broken his neck instead of just scraping his
knee. He thought it would have been the same if that heavyset guy up there
panting along the side of the road with an overloaded duffelbag dropped with a
thunderclap coronary. No one would try to resuscitate him, and of course the
days of 911 were done.
No one even bothered to yell You tell
im, lady! or Hey dude, why don't you tell her to shut up? They just
went on walking.
"—cause all we
got is these kids, a responsibility we didn't ask for when we can hardly
take care of ourselfs, he has a pacemaker, what are we supposed to do
when the baddery runs out, I'd like to know? And now these kids! You want
a kid?" She looked around wildly. "Hey! Anyone want a kid?"
The little girl
began to stir.
"Natalie, you're
disturbing Portia," Gregory said.
The woman named
Natalie began to laugh. "Well tough shitl It's a disturbing-ass world!"
Around them, people continued doing the Refugee Walk. No one paid any attention
and Clay thought, So this is how we act. This is how it
goes when the bottom drops out. When there are no cameras
turning,
no buildings
burning, no Anderson Cooper saying "Now back to the CNN studios in Atlanta."
This is how it goes when Homeland Security's been canceled due to lack of
sanity.
"Let me take the
boy," Clay said. "I'll carry him until you find something better to put him in.
That cart's shot." He looked at Tom. Tom shrugged and nodded.
"Stay away from
us," Natalie said, and all at once there was a gun in her hand. It wasn't a big
one, probably only a .22, but even a .22 would do the job if the bullet went in
the right place.
Clay heard the
sound of guns being drawn on either side of him and knew that Tom and Alice were
now pointing the pistols they'd taken from the Nickerson home at the woman named
Natalie. This was also how it went, it seemed.
"Put it away,
Natalie," he said. "We're going to get moving now."
"You're
double-fuckin right you are," she said, and brushed an errant lock of hair out
of her eye with the heel of her free hand. She didn't seem to be aware that the
young man and younger woman with Clay were holding guns on her. Now people
passing by did look, but their only response was to move past the spot of
confrontation and potential bloodshed a little faster.
"Come on, Clay,"
Alice said quietly. She put her free hand on his wrist. "Before someone gets
shot."
They started
walking again. Alice walked with her hand on Clay's wrist, almost as if he were
her boyfriend. Just a little midnight stroll, Clay thought, although he
had no idea of what time it was and didn't care. His heart was beating hard. Tom
walked with them, only until they were around the next curve he walked backward,
with his gun still out. Clay supposed Tom wanted to be ready to shoot back if
Natalie decided to use her little popgun after all. Because shooting back was
also how it went, now that phone service had been interrupted until further
notice.
10
In the hours before dawn, walking on Route
102 east of Manchester, they began to hear music, very faint.
"Christ," Tom
said, coming to a stop. "That's 'Baby Elephant Walk.' "
"It's what?"
Alice asked. She sounded amused.
"A big-band
instrumental from the age of quarter gas. Les Brown and His Band of Renown,
someone like that. My mother had the record."
Two men pulled
even with them and stopped for a blow. They were elderly, but
both looked fit. Like a couple of recently retired postmen hiking the
Cotswolds,
Clay thought. Wherever
they are. One wore a pack—no pussy day-pack, either, but the
waist-length kind on a frame—and the other had a rucksack hanging from his right
shoulder. Hung over the left was what looked like a .30-.30.
Packsack wiped
sweat from his seamed forehead with a forearm and said, "Your mama might have
had a version by Les Brown, son, but more likely it was Don Costa or Henry
Mancini. Those were the popular ones. That one"—he inclined his head toward the
ghostly strains—"that's Lawrence Welk, as I live and breathe."
"Lawrence Welk,"
Tom breathed, almost in awe.
"Who?"
Alice
asked
"Listen to that
elephant walk," Clay said, and laughed. He was tired and feeling goofy. It
occurred to him that Johnny would love that music.
Packsack gave
him a glance of passing contempt, then looked back at Tom. "That's Lawrence
Welk, all right," he said. "My eyes aren't half-right anymore, but my ears are
fine. My wife and I used to watch his show every fucking Saturday
night."
"Dodge had a
good time, too," Rucksack said. It was his only addition to the conversation,
and Clay hadn't the slightest idea what it meant.
"Lawrence Welk
and his Champagne Band," Tom said. "Think of it."
"Lawrence Welk
and his Champagne Music Makers," Packsack said. "Jesus
Christ."
"Don't forget
the Lennon Sisters and the lovely Alice Lon," Tom said.
In the distance,
the ghostly music changed. "That one's 'Calcutta,' " Packsack said. He sighed.
"Well, we'll be getting along. Nice passing the time of day with
you."
"Night," Clay
said.
"Nope," Packsack
said. "These're our days now. Haven't you noticed? Have a good one, boys. You
too, little ma'am."
"Thank you," the
little ma'am standing between Clay and Tom said faintly.
Packsack started
along again. Rucksack fell sturdily in beside him. Around them, a steady parade
of bobbing flashlight beams led people deeper into New Hampshire. Then Packsack
stopped and looked back for a final word.
"You don't want
to be on the road more than another hour," he said. "Find a house or motel unit
and get inside. You know about the shoes, right?"
"What about the
shoes?" Tom asked.
Packsack looked
at him patiently, the way he'd probably look at anyone who couldn't help being a
fool. Far down the road, "Calcutta"—if that's what it was—had given way to a
polka. It sounded insane in the foggy, drizzly night. And now this old man with
the big pack on his back was talking about shoes.
"When you go
inside a place, you put your shoes out on the stoop," Packsack said. "The crazy
ones won't take them, don't worry about that, and it tells other people the
place is taken and to move along, find another. Saves"—his eyes dropped to the
heavy automatic weapon Clay was carrying—"Saves accidents."
"Have there been
accidents?" Tom asked.
"Oh yes,"
Packsack said, with chilling indifference. "There's always accidents, people
being what they are. But there's plenty of places, so there's no need for you
to have one. Just put out your shoes."
"How do you know
that?" Alice asked.
He gave her a
smile that improved his face out of all measure. But it was hard not to smile at
Alice; she was young, and even at three in the morning, she was pretty. "People
talk; I listen. I talk, sometimes other folks listen. Did you
listen?"
"Yes," Alice
said. "Listening's one of my best things."
"Then pass it
on. Bad enough to have them to contend with." He didn't have to be more
specific. "Too bad to have accidents among ourselves on top of
that."
Clay thought of
Natalie pointing the .22. He said, "You're right. Thank you."
Tom said, "That
one's 'The Beer Barrel Polka,' isn't it?"
"That's right,
son," Packsack said. "Myron Floren on the squeezebox. God rest his soul. You
might want to stop in Gaiten. It's a nice little village two miles or so up the
road."
"Is that where
you're going to stay?" Alice asked.
"Oh, me and
Rolfe might push on a dight farther," he said.
"Why?"
"Because we can,
little ma'am, that's all. You have a good day."
This time they
didn't contradict him, and although the two men had to be pushing seventy, they
were soon out of sight, following the beam of a single flashlight, which
Rucksack—Rolfe—held.
"Lawrence Welk
and his Champagne Music Makers," Tom marveled.
" 'Baby Elephant
Walk,' " Clay said, and laughed.
"Why did Dodge
have a good time, too?" Alice wanted to know.
"Because it
could, I guess," Tom said, and burst out laughing at her perplexed
expression.
11
The music was coming from Gaiten, the nice
little village Packsack had recommended as a place to stop. It was not nearly as
loud as the AC/DC concert Clay had gone to in Boston as a teenager—that had left
his ears ringing for days—but it was loud enough to make him think of summer
band concerts he'd attended in South Berwick with his parents. In fact he had it
in his mind that they would discover the source of the music on the Gaiten town
common—likely some elderly person, not a phone-crazy but disaster-addled, who
had taken it into his head to serenade the ongoing exodus with easy-listening
oldies played through a set of battery-powered loudspeakers.
There was
a Gaiten town common, but it was deserted save for a few people eating
either a late supper or an early breakfast by the glow of flashlights and
Coleman lanterns. The source of the music was a little farther to the north. By
then Lawrence Welk had given way to someone blowing a horn so mellow it was
soporific.
"That's Wynton
Marsalis, isn't it?" Clay asked. He was ready to call it quits for the night and
thought Alice looked done almost to death.
"Him or Kenny
G," Tom said. "You know what Kenny G said when he got off the elevator, don't
you?"
"No," Clay said,
"but I'm sure you'll tell me."
" 'Man! This
place rocks!' "
Clay said,
"That's so funny I think my sense of humor just imploded."
"I don't get
it," Alice said.
"It's not worth
explaining," Tom said. "Listen, guys, we've got to call it a night. I'm about
kilt."
"Me too," Alice
said. "I thought I was in shape from soccer, but I'm really tired."
"Yeah," Clay
agreed. "Baby makes three."
They had already
passed through Gaiten's shopping district, and according to the signs, Main
Street—which was also Route 102—had now become Academy Avenue. This was no
surprise to Clay, because the sign on the outskirts of town had proclaimed
Gaiten home to Historic Gaiten Academy, an institution of which Clay had heard
vague rumors. He thought it was one of those New England prep schools for kids
who can't quite make it into Exeter or Milton. He supposed the three of them
would be back in the land of Burger Kings, muffler-repair shops, and chain
motels soon enough, but this part of New Hampshire 102 was lined with very
nice-looking homes. The problem was, there were shoes—sometimes as many as four
pairs—in front of most of the doors.
The foot-traffic
had thinned considerably as other travelers found shelter for the coming day,
but as they passed Academy Grove Citgo and approached the fieldstone pillars
flanking Gaiten Academy's entrance drive, they began to catch up to a trio just
ahead: two men and a woman, all well into middle age. As these three walked
slowly up the sidewalk, they inspected each house for one without shoes placed
at the front door. The woman was limping badly, and one of the men had his arm
around her waist.
Gaiten Academy
was on the left, and Clay realized this was where the music (currently a
droning, string-laden version of "Fly Me to the Moon") was coming from. He noticed two other
things. One was that the road-litter here—torn bags, half-eaten vegetables,
gnawed bones—was especially heavy, and that most of it turned in at the gravel
Academy drive. The other was that two people were standing there. One was an old
man hunched over a cane. The other was a boy with a battery-powered lantern
parked between his shoes. He looked no more than twelve and was dozing against
one of the pillars. He was wearing what looked like a school uniform: gray
pants, gray sweater, a maroon jacket with a crest on it.
As the trio
ahead of Clay and his friends drew abreast of the Academy drive, the old
man—dressed in a tweed jacket with patches on the elbows—spoke to them in a
piercing, I-will-be-heard-all-the-way-to-the-back-of-the-lecture-hall voice.
"Hi, there! Hi, I say! Won't you come in here? We can offer you shelter, but
more importantly, we have to—"
"We don't have
to anything, mister," the woman said. "I got four burst blisters, two on each
foot, and I can hardly walk."
"But there's
plenty of room—" the old fellow began. The man supporting the woman gave him a
look that must have been unpleasant, because the old fellow stopped. The trio
went past the drive and the pillars and the sign on old-fashioned iron S-hooks
reading GAITEN ACADEMY EST. 1846
"A Young Mind Is A Lamp In The Darkness."
The old fellow
slumped over his cane again, then saw Clay, Tom, and Alice approaching and
straightened up once more. He seemed about to hail them, then apparently decided
his lecture-hall approach wasn't working. He poked his companion in the ribs
with the tip of his cane instead. The boy straightened up with a wild look as
behind them, where brick buildings loomed in the dark along the slope of a mild
hill, "Fly Me to the Moon" gave way to an equally sluggish rendition of
something that might once have been "I Get a Kick out of You."
"Jordan!" he
said. "Your turn! Ask them in!"
The boy named
Jordan started, blinked at the old man, then looked at the new trio of
approaching strangers with gloomy mistrust. Clay thought of the March Hare and
the Dormouse in Alice in Wonderland. Maybe that was wrong—probably it
was—but he was very tired. "Aw, they won't be any different, sir," he
said. "They won't come in. Nobody will. We'll try again tomorrow night.
I'm sleepy."
And Clay knew
that, tired or not, they were going to find out what the old man wanted . . .
unless Tom and Alice absolutely refused, that was. Partly because the old man's
companion reminded him of Johnny, yes, but mostly because the kid had made up
his mind that no one was going to help in this not-very-brave new world—he and
the one he called sir were on their own because that was just how it
went. Only if that were true, pretty soon there wouldn't be anything worth
saving.
"Go on," the old
man encouraged him. He prodded Jordan with the tip of his cane again, but not
hard. Not painfully. "Tell them we can give them shelter, we have plenty of
room, but they ought to see, first. Someone needs to see this. If they also say
no, we will indeed give up for the night."
"All right,
sir."
The old man
smiled, exposing a mouthful of large horse-teeth. "Thank you,
Jordan."
The boy walked
toward them with absolutely no relish, his dusty shoes scuffing, his shirttail
hanging below the hem of his sweater. He held his lantern in one hand, and it
fizzed faintly. There were dark up-all-night circles under his eyes, and his
hair badly needed washing.
"Tom?" Clay
asked.
"We'll see what
he wants," Tom said, "because I can see it's what you want,
but—"
"Sirs? Pardon
me, sirs?"
"One second,"
Tom said to the boy, then turned back to Clay. His face was grave. "But it's
going to start getting light in an hour. Maybe less. So that old guy better be
right about there being a place for us to stay."
"Oh, yes, sir,"
Jordan said. He looked like he didn't want to hope and couldn't help it. "Lots
of places. Hundreds of dorm rooms, not to mention Cheatham Lodge. Tobias Wolff
came last year and stayed there. He gave a lecture on his book, Old
School."
"I read that,"
Alice said, sounding bemused.
"The boys who
didn't have cell phones have all run off. The ones who did have them . .
."
"We know about
them," Alice said.
"I'm a
scholarship boy. I lived in Holloway. I didn't have a cell phone. I had to use the dorm mother's phone
whenever I wanted to call home and the other boys would make fun of
me."
"Looks to me
like you got the last laugh there, Jordan," Tom said.
"Yes, sir," he
said dutifully, but in the light of his fizzing lantern Clay saw no laughter,
only woe and weariness. "Won't you please come and meet the Head?"
And although he
had to be very tired himself, Tom responded with complete politeness, as if they
had been standing on a sunny veranda—at a Parents' Tea, perhaps—instead of on
the trash-littered verge of Academy Avenue at four-fifteen in the morning. "That
would be our pleasure, Jordan," he said.
12
"The devil's intercoms is what I used to
call them," said Charles Ardai, who had been chairman of Gaiten Academy's
English Department for twenty-five years and acting Headmaster of the Academy
entire at the time of the Pulse. Now he stumped with surprising rapidity up the
hill on his cane, keeping to the sidewalk, avoiding the river of swill that
carpeted Academy Drive. Jordan walked watchfully beside him, the other three
behind him. Jordan was worried about the old man losing his balance. Clay was
worried that the man might have a heart attack, trying to talk and climb a
hill—even a relatively mild one like this—at the same time.
"I never really
meant it, of course; it was a joke, a jape, a comic exaggeration, but in truth,
I never liked the things, especially in an academic environment. I might have
moved to keep them out of the school, but naturally I would have been overruled.
Might as well try to legislate against the rising of the tide, eh?" He puffed
rapidly several times. "My brother gave me one for my sixty-fifth birthday. I
ran the thing flat . . ." Puff, pant. "And simply never recharged it. They emit
radiation, are you aware of this? In minuscule amounts, it's true, but still. .
. a source of radiation that close to one's head . . . one's brain . .
."
"Sir, you should
wait until we get to Tonney," Jordan said. He steadied Ardai as the Head's cane
slid on a rotten piece of fruit and he listed momentarily (but at an alarming
angle) to port.
"Probably a good
idea," Clay said.
"Yes," the Head
agreed. "Only . . . I never trusted them, this is my point. I was never that way
with my computer. Took to that like a duck to water."
At the top of
the hill, the campus's main road split in a Y The left fork wound its way to
buildings that were almost surely dorms. The right one went toward lecture
halls, a cluster of administration buildings, and an archway that glimmered
white in the dark. The river of garbage and discarded wrappers flowed beneath
it. Headmaster Ardai led them that way, skirting as much of the litter as he
could, Jordan holding his elbow. The music—now Bette Midler, singing "Wind
Beneath My Wings"—was coming from beyond the arch, and Clay saw dozens of
discarded compact discs among the bones and empty potato chip bags. He was
starting to get a bad feeling about this.
"Uh, sir?
Headmaster? Maybe we should just—"
"We'll be fine,"
the Head replied. "Did you ever play musical chairs as a child? Of course you
did. Well, as long as the music doesn't stop, we have nothing to worry about.
We'll have a quick peek, and then we'll go over to Cheatham Lodge. That's the
Headmaster's residence. Not two hundred yards from Tonney Field. I promise
you."
Clay looked at Tom, who
shrugged. Alice nodded.
Jordan happened
to be looking back at them (rather anxiously), and he caught this collegial
interplay. "You ought to see it," he told them. "The Head's right about that.
Until you see it, you don't know."
"See what,
Jordan?" Alice asked.
But Jordan only
looked at her—big young eyes in the dark. "Wait," he said.
13
"Holy fucking shit," Clay said. In his mind
the words sounded like a full-throated bellow of surprise and horror—with maybe
a soupçon of outrage—but what actually emerged was more of a whipped whimper.
Part of it might have been that this close the music was almost as loud
as that long-ago AC/DC concert (although Debby Boone making her
sweet
schoolgirl way through "You
Light Up My Life" was quite a stretch from "Hell's Bells," even at full volume),
but mostly it was pure shock. He thought that after the Pulse and their
subsequent retreat from Boston he'd be prepared for anything, but he was
wrong.
He didn't think
prep schools like this indulged in anything so plebeian (and so smashmouth) as
football, but soccer had apparently been a big deal. The stands stacking up on
either side of Tonney Field looked as if they could seat as many as a thousand,
and they were decked with bunting that was only now beginning to look bedraggled
by the showery weather of the last few days. There was an elaborate Scoreboard
at the far end of the field with big letters marching along the top. Clay
couldn't read the message in the dark and probably wouldn't have taken it in
even if it had been daylight. There was enough light to see the field itself,
and that was all that mattered.
Every inch of
grass was covered with phone-crazies. They were lying on their backs like
sardines in a can, leg to leg and hip to hip and shoulder to shoulder. Their
faces stared up into the black predawn sky.
"Oh my Lord
Jesus," Tom said. His voice was muffled because one fist was pressed against his
mouth.
"Catch the
girl!" the Head rapped. "She's going to faint!"
"No—I'm all
right," Alice said, but when Clay put his arm around her she slumped against
him, breathing fast. Her eyes were open but they had a fixed, druggy
look.
"They're under
the bleachers, too," Jordan said. He spoke with a studied, almost showy calm
that Clay did not believe for a minute. It was the voice of a boy assuring his
pals that he's not grossed out by the maggots boiling in a dead cat's eyes . . .
just before he leans over and blows his groceries. "Me and the Head think that's
where they put the hurt ones that aren't going to get better."
"The Head and
I, Jordan."
"Sorry,
sir."
Debby Boone
achieved poetic catharsis and ceased. There was a pause and then Lawrence Welk's
Champagne Music Makers once more began to play "Baby Elephant Walk." Dodge
had a good time, too, Clay thought.
"How many of
those boomboxes have they got rigged together?" he asked Headmaster Ardai. "And how did they
do it? They're brainless, for Christ's sake, zombies!" A terrible idea
occurred to him, illogical and persuasive at the same time. "Did you do
it? To keep them quiet, or. . .I don't know . . ."
"He didn't do
it," Alice said. She spoke quietly from her safe place within the circle of
Clay's arm.
"No, and both of
your premises are wrong," the Head told him.
"Both? I
don't—"
"They must be
dedicated music-lovers," Tom mused, "because they don't like to go inside
buildings. But that's where the CDs are, right?"
"Not to mention
the boomboxes," Clay said.
"There's no time
to explain now. Already the sky has begun to lighten, and . . . tell them,
Jordan."
Jordan replied
dutifully, with the air of one who recites a lesson he does not understand, "All
good vampires must be in before cockcrow, sir."
"That's
right—before cockcrow. For now, only look. That's all you need to do. You didn't
know there were places like this, did you?"
"Alice knew,"
Clay said.
They looked. And
because the night had begun to wane, Clay realized that the eyes in all
those faces were open. He was pretty sure they weren't seeing; they were just .
. . open.
Something
bad's going on here, he thought.
The flocking was only the beginning of it.
Looking at the
packed bodies and empty faces (mostly white; this was New England, after all)
was awful, but the blank eyes turned up to the night sky filled him with
unreasoning horror. Somewhere, not too distant, the morning's first bird began
to sing. It wasn't a crow, but the Head still jerked, then tottered. This time
it was Tom who steadied him.
"Come on," the
Head told them. "It's only a short walk to Cheatham Lodge, but we ought to
start. The damp has made me stiffer than ever. Take my elbow,
Jordan."
Alice broke free
of Clay and went to the old man's other side. He gave her a rather forbidding
smile and a shake of his head. "Jordan can take care of me. We take care of each
other now—ay, Jordan?"
"Yes,
sir."
"Jordan?" Tom
asked. They were nearing a large (and rather pretentious) Tudor-style dwelling
that Clay presumed was Cheatham Lodge.
"Sir?"
"The sign over
the Scoreboard—I couldn't read it. What did it say?"
"welcome alumni to homecoming weekend."
Jordan almost smiled, then remembered there would be no Homecoming
Weekend this year— the bunting on the stands had already begun to tatter—and the
brightness left his face. If he hadn't been so tired, he might still have held
his composure, but it was very late, almost dawn, and as they made their way up
the walk to the Headmaster's residence, the last student at Gaiten Academy,
still wearing his colors of maroon and gray, burst into tears.
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"That was incredible, sir," Clay said. He
had fallen into Jordan's mode of address very naturally. So had Tom and Alice.
"Thank you."
"Yes," Alice said. "Thanks. I've never
eaten two burgers in my life—at least not big ones like that."
It was three
o'clock the following afternoon. They were on the back porch of Cheatham Lodge.
Charles Ardai—the Head, as Jordan called him—had grilled the hamburgers on a
small gas grill. He said the meat was perfectly safe because the generator
powering the cafeteria's freezer had run until noon yesterday (and indeed, the
patties he took from the cooler Tom and Jordan had carried in from the pantry
had still been white with frost and as hard as hockey pucks). He said that
grilling the meat would probably be safe until five o'clock, although
prudence dictated an early meal.
"They'd smell
the cooking?" Clay asked.
"Let's just say
that we have no desire to find out," the Head replied. "Have we,
Jordan?"
"No, sir,"
Jordan said, and took a bite of his second burger. He was slowing down, but Clay
thought he'd manage to do his duty. "We want to be inside when they wake up, and
inside when they come back from town. That's where they go, to town. They're
picking it clean, like birds in a field of grain. That's what the Head
says."
"They were
flocking back home earlier when we were in Malden," Alice said. "Not that we
knew where home for them was." She was eyeing a tray with pudding cups on it.
"Can I have one of those?"
"Yes, indeed."
The Head pushed the tray toward her. "And another hamburger, if you'd like. What
we don't eat soon will just spoil."
Alice groaned
and shook her head, but she took a pudding cup. So did Tom.
"They seem to
leave at the same time each morning, but the home-flocking behavior has
been starting later," Ardai said thoughtfully. "Why would that
be?"
"Slimmer
pickings?" Alice asked.
"Perhaps . . ."
He took a final bite of his own hamburger, then covered the remains neatly with
a paper napkin. "There are many flocks, you know. Maybe as many as a dozen
within a fifty-mile radius. We know from people going south that there are
flocks in Sandown, Fremont, and Candia. They forage about almost aimlessly in
the daytime, perhaps for music as well as food, then go back to where they came
from."
"You know this
for sure," Tom said. He finished one pudding cup and reached for
another.
Ardai shook his
head. "Nothing is for sure, Mr. McCourt." His hair, a long white tangle (an
English professor's hair for sure, Clay thought), rippled a bit in the mild
afternoon breeze. The clouds were gone. The back porch gave them a good view of
the campus, and so far it was deserted. Jordan went around the house at regular
intervals to scout the hill sloping down to Academy Avenue and reported all
quiet there, as well. "You've not seen any of the other roosting
places?"
"Nope," Tom
said.
"But we're traveling
in the dark," Clay reminded him, "and now the dark is really
dark."
"Yes," the Head
agreed. He spoke almost dreamily. "As in le moyen âge. Translation,
Jordan?"
"The middle age,
sir."
"Good." He
patted Jordan's shoulder.
"Even big flocks
would be easy to miss," Clay said. "They wouldn't have to be
hiding."
"No, they're not
hiding," Headmaster Ardai agreed, steepling his fingers. "Not yet, at any rate.
They flock . . . they forage . . . and their group mind may break down a bit
while they forage . . . but perhaps less. Every day perhaps
less."
"Manchester
burned to the ground," Jordan said suddenly. "We could see the fire from here,
couldn't we, sir?"
"Yes," the Head
agreed. "It's been very sad and frightening."
"Is it true that
people trying to cross into Massachusetts are being shot at the border?" Jordan
asked. "That's what people are saying. People are saying you have to go to
Vermont, only that way is safe."
"It's a crock,"
Clay said. "We heard the same thing about the New Hampshire border."
Jordan goggled
at him for a moment, then burst out laughing. The sound was clear and beautiful
in the still air. Then, in the distance, a gun went off. And closer, someone
shouted in either rage or horror.
Jordan stopped
laughing.
"Tell us about
that weird state they were in last night," Alice said quietly. "And the music.
Do all the other flocks listen to music at night?"
The Head looked
at Jordan.
"Yes," the boy
said. "It's all soft stuff, no rock, no country—"
"I should guess
nothing classical, either," the Head put in. "Not of a challenging nature, at
any rate."
"It's their
lullabies," Jordan said. "That's what the Head and me think, isn't it,
sir?"
"The Head and
I, Jordan."
"Head and I,
yes, sir."
"But it is
indeed what we think," the Head agreed. "Although I suspect there may be more to
it than that. Yes, quite a bit more."
Clay was
flummoxed. He hardly knew how to go on. He looked at his friends and saw on
their faces what he was feeling—not just puzzlement, but a dreadful reluctance
to be enlightened.
Leaning forward,
Headmaster Ardai said, "May I be frank? I must be frank; it is the habit
of a lifetime. I want you to help us do a terrible thing here. The time to do it
is short, I think, and while one such act alone may come to nothing, one never
knows, does one? One never knows what sort of communication may flow between these .
. . flocks. In any case, I will not stand idly by while these . . . things .
. . steal away not only my school but the very daylight itself. I might have
attempted it already, but I'm old and Jordan is very young. Too young. Whatever
they are now, they were human not long ago. I won't let him be a part of
this."
"I can do my
share, sir!" Jordan said. He spoke as stoutly, Clay thought, as any Muslim
teenager who ever strapped on a suicide belt stuffed with
explosives.
"I salute your
courage, Jordan," the Head told him, "but I think not." He looked at the boy
kindly, but when he returned his gaze to the others, his eyes had hardened
considerably. "You have weapons—good ones—and I have nothing but an old
single-shot .22 rifle that may not even work anymore, although the barrel's
open—I've looked. Even if it does work, the cartridges I have for it may not
fire. But we have a gasoline pump at our little motor-pool, and gasoline might
serve to end their lives."
He must have
seen the horror in their faces, because he nodded. To Clay he no longer looked
like kindly old Mr. Chips; he looked like a Puritan elder in an oil-painting.
One who could have sentenced a man to the stocks without batting an eye. Or a
woman to be burned at the stake as a witch.
He nodded at
Clay in particular. Clay was sure of it. "I know what I'm saying. I know how it
sounds. But it wouldn't be murder, not really; it would be extermination. And I
have no power to make you do anything. But in any case . . . whether you help me
burn them or not, you must pass on a message."
"To who?" Alice
asked faintly.
"To everyone you
meet, Miss Maxwell." He leaned over the remains of their meal, those
hanging-judge eyes sharp and small and burning hot. "You must tell what's
happening to them—to the ones who heard the infernal message on their
devil's intercoms. You must pass this on. Everyone who has had the daylight
robbed away from them must hear, and before it's too late." He passed a hand
over his lower face, and Clay saw the fingers were shaking a little. It would be
easy to dismiss that as a sign of the man's age, but he hadn't seen any tremors
before. "We're afraid it soon will be. Aren't we, Jordan?"
"Yes, sir."
Jordan certainly thought he knew something; he looked terrified.
"What? What's
happening to them?" Clay asked. "It's got something to do with the music and
those wired-together boomboxes, doesn't it?"
The Head sagged,
suddenly looking tired. "They're not wired together," he said. "Don't you
remember me telling you that both of your premises were wrong?"
"Yes, but I
don't understand what you m—"
"There's one
sound-system with a CD in it, about that you're certainly right. A single
compilation disc, Jordan says, which is why the same songs play over and
over."
"Lucky us," Tom
muttered, but Clay barely heard him. He was trying to get the sense of what
Ardai had just said—they're not wired together. How could that be? It
couldn't.
"The
sound-systems—the boomboxes, if you like—are placed all around the field," the
Head went on, "and they're all on. At night you can see their little red power
lamps—"
"Yes," Alice
said. "I did notice some red lights, I just didn't think anything of
it."
"—but there's
nothing in them—no compact discs or cassette tapes— and no wires linking them.
They're just slaves that pick up the master-disc audio and rebroadcast
it."
"If their mouths
are open, the music comes from them, too," Jordan said. "It's just little . . .
not hardly a whisper . . . but you can hear it."
"No," Clay said.
"That's your imagination, kiddo. Gotta be."
"I haven't heard
that myself," Ardai said, "but of course my ears aren't what they were back when
I was a Gene Vincent and the Blue Caps fan. 'Back in the day,' Jordan and his
friends would say."
"You're very
old-school, sir," Jordan said. He spoke with gentle solemnity and
unmistakable affection.
"Yes, Jordan, I
am," the Head agreed. He clapped the boy on the shoulder, then turned his
attention to the others. "If Jordan says he's heard it ... I believe
him."
"It's not
possible," Clay said. "Not without a transmitter."
"They are
transmitting," the Head replied. "It is a skill they seem to have picked up
since the Pulse."
"Wait," Tom
said. He raised one hand like a traffic cop, lowered it, began to speak, raised
it again. From his place of dubious shelter at Headmaster Ardai's side, Jordan
watched him closely. At last Tom said, "Are we talking telepathy
here?"
"I should guess
that's not exactly le mot juste for this particular phenomenon," the Head
answered, "but why stick at technicalities? I would be willing to wager all the
frozen hamburgers remaining in my cooler that the word has been used among you
before today."
"You'd win
double burgers," Clay said.
"Well yeah, but
the flocking thing is different," Tom said.
"Because?" The
Head raised his tangled brows.
"Well, because .
. ." Tom couldn't finish, and Clay knew why. It wasn't different. The
flocking wasn't human behavior and they'd known it from the moment they'd
observed George the mechanic following the woman in the filthy pants suit across
Tom's front lawn to Salem Street. He'd been walking so closely behind her that
he could have bitten her neck . . . but he hadn't. And why? Because for the
phone-crazies, biting was done, flocking had begun.
At least, biting
their own kind was done. Unless—
"Professor
Ardai, at the beginning they killed everyone . . ."
"Yes," the Head
agreed. "We were very lucky to escape, weren't we, Jordan?"
Jordan shuddered
and nodded. "The kids ran everywhere. Even some of the teachers. Killing . . .
biting . . . babbling nonsense stuff. . . I hid in one of the greenhouses for a
while."
"And I in the
attic of this very house," the Head added. "I watched out of the small window up
there as the campus—the campus I love—literally went to hell."
Jordan said,
"Most of the ones who didn't die ran away toward downtown. Now a lot of them are
back. Over there." He nodded his head in the general direction of the soccer
field.
"All of which
leads us to what?" Clay asked.
"I think you
know, Mr. Riddell."
"Clay."
"Clay, fine. I
think what's happening now is more than temporary anarchy. I think it's the
start of a war. It's going to be a short but extremely nasty one."
"Don't you think
you're overstating—"
"I don't. While
I have only my own observations to go on—mine and Jordan's—we've had a very
large flock to observe, and we've seen them going and coming as well as. .
.resting, shall we say. They've stopped killing each other, but they
continue to kill the people we would classify as normal. I call that warlike
behavior."
"You've actually
seen them killing normals?" Tom asked. Beside him, Alice opened her pack,
removed the Baby Nike, and held it in her hand.
The Head looked
at him gravely. "I have. I'm sorry to say that Jordan has, too."
"We couldn't
help," Jordan said. His eyes were leaking. "There were too many. It was a man
and a woman, see? I don't know what they were doing on campus so close to dark,
but they sure couldn't've known about Tonney Field. She was hurt. He was helping
her along. They ran into about twenty of them on their way back from
town. The man tried to carry her." Jordan's voice began to break. "On his own he
might have gotten away, but with her. . . he only made it as far as Horton Hall.
That's a dorm. That's where he fell down and they caught them.
They—"
Jordan abruptly
buried his head against the old man's coat—a charcoal gray number this
afternoon. The Head's big hand stroked the back of Jordan's smooth
neck.
"They seem to know their enemies," the
Head mused. "It may well have been part of the original message, don't you
think?"
"Maybe," Clay
said. It made a nasty sort of sense.
"As to what they
are doing at night as they lie there so still and open-eyed, listening to their
music . . ." The Head sighed, took a handkerchief from one of his coat pockets,
and wiped the boy's eyes with it in matter-of-fact fashion. Clay saw he was both
very frightened and very sure of whatever conclusion he had drawn. "I think
they're rebooting," he said.
15
"You note the red lamps, don't you?" the
Head asked in his carrying
I-will-be-heard-all-the-way-to-the-back-of-the-lecture-hall voice. "I count at
least sixty-thr—"
"Hush up!"
Tom hissed. He did everything but clap a hand over the old man's
mouth.
The Head looked
at him calmly. "Have you forgotten what I said last night about musical chairs,
Tom?"
Tom, Clay,
and Ardai were standing just beyond the turnstiles, with the Tonney Field
archway at their backs. Alice had stayed at Cheatham Lodge with Jordan, by
mutual agreement. The music currently drifting up from the prep-school soccer
field was a jazz-instrumental version of "The Girl from Ipanema." Clay thought
it was probably cutting-edge stuff if you were a phone-crazy.
"No," Tom said.
"As long as the music doesn't stop, we have nothing to worry about. I just don't
want to be the guy who gets his throat torn out by an insomniac exception to the
rule."
"You
won't."
"How can you be
so positive, sir?" Tom asked.
"Because, to
make a small literary pun, we cannot call it sleep. Come."
He started down
the concrete ramp the players once took to reach the field, saw that Tom and
Clay were hanging back, and looked at them patiently. "Little knowledge is
gained without risk," he said, "and at this point, I would say knowledge is
critical, wouldn't you? Come."
They followed
his rapping cane down the ramp toward the field, Clay a little ahead of Tom.
Yes, he could see the red power-lamps of the boomboxes circling the field. Sixty
or seventy looked about right. Good-sized sound-systems spotted at ten- or
fifteen-foot intervals, each one surrounded with bodies. By starlight those
bodies were an eye-boggling sight. They weren't stacked—each had his or her own
space—but not so much as an inch had been wasted. Even the arms had been
interwoven, so that the impression was one of paper dolls carpeting the field,
rank on rank, while that music—Like something you'd hear in a supermarket,
Clay thought—rose in the dark. Something else rose, as well: a sallow smell
of dirt and rotting vegetables, with a
thicker odor of human waste and putrefaction lingering just beneath.
The Head skirted
the goal, which had been pushed aside, overturned, its netting shredded. Here,
where the lake of bodies started, lay a young man of about thirty with jagged
bite-marks running up one arm to the sleeve of his NASCAR T-shirt. The bites
looked infected. In one hand he held a red cap that made Clay think of Alice's
pet sneaker. He stared dully up at the stars as Bette Midler once more began
singing about the wind beneath her wings.
"Hi!" the Head
cried in his rusty, piercing voice. He poked the young man briskly in the middle
with the tip of his cane, pushing in until the young man broke wind. "Hi, I
say!"
"Stop it!" Tom
almost groaned.
The Head gave
him a look of tight-lipped scorn, then worked the tip of his cane into the cap
the young man was holding. He flicked it away. The cap sailed about ten feet and
landed on the face of a middle-aged woman. Clay watched, fascinated, as it slid
partially aside, revealing one rapt and blinkless eye.
The young man reached
up with dreamy slowness and clutched the hand that had been holding the cap into
a fist. Then he subsided.
"He thinks he's
holding it again," Clay whispered, fascinated.
"Perhaps," the
Head replied, without much interest. He poked the tip of his cane against one of
the young man's infected bites. It should have hurt like hell, but the young man
didn't react, only went on staring up at the sky as Bette Midler gave way to
Dean Martin. "I could put my cane right through his throat and he wouldn't try
to stop me. Nor would those around him spring to his defense, although in the
daytime I have no doubt they'd tear me limb from limb."
Tom was
squatting by one of the ghetto blasters. "There are batteries in this," he said.
"I can tell by the weight."
"Yes. In all of
them. They do seem to need batteries." The Head considered, then added something
Clay could have done without. "At least so far."
"We could wade
right in, couldn't we?" Clay said. "We could wipe them out the way hunters
exterminated passenger pigeons back in the 1880s."
The Head nodded.
"Bashed their little brains out as they sat on the ground, didn't they? Not a bad analogy.
But I'd make slow work of it with my cane. You'd make slow work of it even with
your automatic weapon, I'm afraid."
"I don't have enough bullets, in any case.
There must be . . ." Clay ran his eye over the packed bodies again. Looking at
them made his head hurt. "There must be six or seven hundred. And that's not
even counting the ones under the bleachers."
"Sir? Mr.
Ardai?" It was Tom. "When did you . . . how did you first . .
.?"
"How did I
determine the depth of this trance state? Is that what you're asking
me?"
Tom
nodded.
"I came out the
first night to observe. The flock was much smaller then, of course. I was drawn
to them out of simple but overwhelming curiosity. Jordan wasn't with me.
Switching to a nighttime existence has been rather hard for him, I'm
afraid."
"You risked your
life, you know," Clay said.
"I had little
choice," the Head replied. "It was like being hypnotized. I quickly grasped the
fact that they were unconscious even though their eyes were open, and a few
simple experiments with the tip of my cane confirmed the depth of the
state."
Clay thought of
the Head's limp, thought of asking him if he'd considered what would have
happened to him if he'd been wrong and they'd come after him, and held his
tongue. The Head would no doubt reiterate what he'd already said: no knowledge
obtained without risk. Jordan was right—this was one very old-school
dude. Clay certainly wouldn't have wanted to be fourteen and standing on his
disciplinary carpet.
Ardai,
meanwhile, was shaking his head at him. "Six or seven hundred's a very low
estimate, Clay. This is a regulation-size soccer field. That's six thousand
square yards."
"How
many?"
"The way they're
packed together? I should say a thousand at the very least."
"And they're not
really here at all, are they? You're sure of that."
"I am. And what
comes back—a little more each day, Jordan says the same, and he's an acute observer, you may
trust me on that—is not what they were. Which is to say, not human."
"Can we go back
to the Lodge now?" Tom asked. He sounded sick.
"Of course," the
Head agreed.
"Just a second," Clay said. He knelt
beside the young man in the NASCAR T-shirt. He didn't want to do it—he couldn't
help thinking that the hand which had clutched for the red cap would now clutch
at him— but he made himself. Down here at ground level the stink was
worse. He had believed he was getting used to it, but he had been
wrong.
Tom began,
"Clay, what are you—"
"Quiet." Clay
leaned toward the young man's mouth, which was partly open. He hesitated, then
made himself lean closer, until he could see the dim shine of spit on the man's
lower lip. At first he thought it might only be his imagination, but another two
inches—he was now almost close enough to kiss the not-sleeping thing with Ricky
Craven on its chest— took care of that.
It's just
little, Jordan had
said. Not hardly a whisper. . . but you can hear it.
Clay heard it,
the vocal by some trick just a syllable or two ahead of the one coming from the
linked boomboxes: Dean Martin singing "Everybody Loves Somebody
Sometime."
He stood up,
nearly screaming at the pistol-shot sound of his own knees cracking. Tom held up
his lantern, looking at him, stare-eyed. "What? What? You're not going to
say that kid was—"
Clay nodded.
"Come on. Let's go back."
Halfway up the
ramp he grabbed the Head roughly by the shoulder. Ardai turned to face him,
seemingly not disturbed to be handled so.
"You're right,
sir. We have to get rid of them. As many as we can, and as fast as we can. This
may be the only chance we get. Or do you think I'm wrong?"
"No," the Head
replied. "Unfortunately, I don't. As I said, this is war—or so I believe—and
what one does in war is kill one's enemies. Why don't we go back and talk it
over? We could have hot chocolate. I like a tiny splash of bourbon in mine,
barbarian that I am."
At the top of
the ramp, Clay spared one final look back. Tonney Field was dark, but under
strong northern starlight not too dark to make out the carpet of bodies spread from end to
end and side to side. He thought you might not know what you were looking at if
you just happened to stumble on it, but once you did . . . once you did . .
.
His eyes played
him a funny trick and for a moment he almost thought he could see them
breathing—all eight hundred or a thousand of them— as one organism. That
frightened him badly and he turned to catch up to Tom and Headmaster Ardai,
almost running.
16
The Head made hot chocolate in the kitchen
and they drank it in the formal parlor, by the light of two gas lanterns. Clay
thought the old man would suggest they go out to Academy Avenue later on,
trolling for more volunteers in Ardai's Army, but he seemed satisfied with what
he had.
The gasoline-pump at the motor pool, the
Head told them, drew from a four-hundred-gallon overhead tank—all they'd have to
do was pull a plug. And there were thirty-gallon sprayers in the greenhouse. At
least a dozen. They could load up a pickup truck with them, perhaps, and back it
down one of the ramps—
"Wait," Clay
said. "Before we start talking strategy, if you have a theory about all this,
sir, I'd like to hear it."
"Nothing so
formal," the old man said. "But Jordan and I have observation, we have
intuition, and we have a fair amount of experience between the two of
us—"
"I'm a computer
geek," Jordan said over his mug of hot chocolate. Clay found the child's glum
assurance oddly charming. "A total McNerd. Been on em my whole life, just about.
Those things're rebooting, all right. They might as well have software installation, please stand by
blinking on their foreheads."
"I don't
understand you," Tom said.
"I do," Alice
said. "Jordan, you think the Pulse really was a Pulse, don't you?
Everyone who heard it. . . they got their hard drives wiped."
"Well,yeah,"
Jordan said. He was too polite to say Well, duh.
Tom looked at
Alice, perplexed. Only Clay knew Tom wasn't dumb, and he didn't believe Tom was
that slow.
"You had a
computer," Alice said. "I saw it in your little office."
"Yes—"
"And you've
installed software, right?"
"Sure, but—" Tom
stopped, looking at Alice fixedly. She looked back. "Their brains'? You
mean their brains'?"
"What do you
think a brain is?" Jordan said. "A big old hard drive. Organic circuitry. No one
knows how many bytes. Say giga to the power of a googolplex. An infinity of
bytes." He put his hands to his ears, which were small and neatly made. "Right
in between here."
"I don't believe
it," Tom said, but he spoke in a small voice and there was a sick look on his
face. Clay thought he did believe it. Thinking back to the madness that
had convulsed Boston, Clay had to admit the idea was persuasive. It was also
terrible: millions, perhaps even billions, of brains all wiped clean at the same
time, the way you could wipe an old-fashioned computer disc with a powerful
magnet.
He found himself
remembering Pixie Dark, the friend of the girl with the peppermint-colored cell
phone. Who are you? What's happening? Pixie Dark had cried. Who are
you? Who am I? Then she had smacked herself repeatedly in the forehead with
the heel of her hand and had gone running full tilt into a lamppost, not once
but twice, smashing her expensive orthodontic work to jagged pieces.
Who are you?
Who am I?
It hadn't been
her cell phone. She had only been listening in and hadn't gotten a full
dose.
Clay, who thought in images rather than
words a good deal of the time, now got a vivid mental picture of a computer
screen filling up with those words:
WHO ARE YOU WHO AM I WHO ARE YOU WHO AM I WHO ARE YOU who AM I who ARE YOU WHO am I, and finally, at the bottom, as
bleak and inarguable as Pixie
Dark's fate:
SYSTEM
FAILURE.
Pixie Dark as a
partially wiped hard drive? It was horrible, but it felt like the stone
truth.
"I majored in
English, but as a young man I read a great deal of psychology," the Head told
them. "I began with Freud, of course, everyone begins with Freud . . . then Jung
. . . Adler . . . worked my way around the whole ballfield from there. Lurking
behind all theories of how the mind works is a greater theory: Darwin's. In
Freud's vocabulary, the idea of survival as the prime directive is expressed by
the concept of the id. In Jung's, by the rather grander idea of blood
consciousness. Neither man, I think, would argue with the idea that if all
conscious thought, all memory, all ratiocinative ability, were
to be stripped from a human mind in a moment, what would remain would be pure
and terrible."
He paused,
looking around for comment. None of them said anything. The Head nodded as if
satisfied and resumed.
"Although
neither the Freudians nor the Jungians come right out and say it, they strongly
suggest that we may have a core, a single basic carrier wave, or—to use
language with which Jordan is comfortable—a single line of written code which
cannot be stripped."
"The PD," Jordan
said. "The prime directive."
"Yes," the Head
agreed. "At bottom, you see, we are not Homo sapiens at all. Our core is
madness. The prime directive is murder. What Darwin was too polite to say, my
friends, is that we came to rule the earth not because we were the smartest, or
even the meanest, but because we have always been the craziest, most murderous
motherfuckers in the jungle. And that is what the Pulse exposed five days
ago."
17
"I refuse to believe that we were lunatics
and murderers before we were anything else," Tom said. "Christ, man, what about
the Parthenon? What about Michelangelo's David? What about that plaque on
the moon that says, 'We came in peace for all mankind'?"
"That plaque
also has Richard Nixon's name on it," Ardai said drily. "A Quaker, but hardly a
man of peace. Mr. McCourt—Tom—I have no interest in handing down an indictment
of mankind. If I did, I'd point out that for every Michelangelo there's a
Marquis de Sade, for every Gandhi an Eichmann, for every Martin Luther King an
Osama bin Laden. Leave it at this: man has come to dominate the planet thanks to
two essential traits. One is intelligence. The other has been the absolute
willingness to kill anyone and anything that gets in his way."
He leaned
forward, surveying them with his bright eyes.
"Mankind's
intelligence finally trumped mankind's killer instinct, and reason came to rule
over mankind's maddest impulses. That, too, was survival. I believe the final
showdown between the two may have come in October of 1963, over a handful of
missiles in Cuba, but that is a discussion for another day. The fact is, most of
us had sublimated the worst in us until the Pulse came along and stripped away
everything but that red core."
"Someone let the
Tasmanian devil out of its cage," Alice murmured. "Who?"
"That need not
concern us, either," the Head replied. "I suspect they had no idea of what they
were doing . . . or how much they were doing. Based upon what must have
been hurried experiments over a few years— perhaps even months—they may have
thought they would unleash a destructive storm of terrorism. Instead they
unleashed a tsunami of untold violence, and it's mutating. Horrible as the
current days may now seem, we may later view them as a lull between one storm
and the next. These days may also be our only chance to make a
difference."
"What do you
mean, mutating?" Clay asked.
But the Head
didn't answer. Instead he turned to twelve-year-old Jordan. "If you please,
young man."
"Yes. Well."
Jordan paused to think. "Your conscious mind only uses a tiny percentage of your
brain's capacity. You guys know that, right?"
"Yes," Tom said,
a bit indulgently. "So I've read."
Jordan nodded.
"Even when you add in all the autonomic functions they control, plus the
subconscious stuff—dreams, blink-think, the sex drive, all that jazz—our brains
are barely ticking over."
"Holmes, you
astound me," Tom said.
"Don't be a
wiseass, Tom!" Alice said, and Jordan gave her a decidedly starry-eyed
smile.
"I'm not," Tom
said. "The kid is good."
"Indeed he is,"
the Headmaster said drily. "Jordan may have occasional problems with the King's
English, but he did not get his scholarship for excelling at tiddlywinks." He observed the
boy's discomfort and gave Jordan's hair an affectionate scruff with his bony
fingers. "Continue, please."
"Well. . ." Jordan struggled, Clay could
see it, and then seemed to find his rhythm again. "If your brain really was
a hard drive, the can would be almost empty." He saw only Alice understood
this. "Put it this way: the info strip would say something like 2
percent in use, 98 percent
available. No one has any real idea what
that ninety-eight percent is for, but there's plenty of potential there. Stroke
victims, for instance . . . they sometimes access previously dormant areas of
their brains in order to walk and talk again. It's like their brains wire
around the blighted area. The lights go on in a similar area of the
brain, but on the other side."
"You study this
stuff?" Clay asked.
"It's a natural
outgrowth of my interest in computers and cybernetics," Jordan said, shrugging.
"Also, I read a lot of cyberpunk science fiction. William Gibson, Bruce
Sterling, John Shirley—"
"Neal
Stephenson?" Alice asked.
Jordan grinned
radiantly. "Neal Stephenson's a god."
"Back on
message," the Head chided . . . but gently.
Jordan shrugged.
"If you wipe a computer hard drive, it can't regenerate spontaneously . . .
except maybe in a Greg Bear novel." He grinned again, but this time it was quick
and, Clay thought, rather nervous. Part of it was Alice, who clearly knocked the
kid out. "People are different."
"But there's a
huge leap between learning to walk again after a stroke and being able to power
a bunch of boomboxes by telepathy," Tom said. "A quantum leap." He looked around
self-consciously as the word telepathy came out of his mouth, as if
expecting them to laugh. No one did.
"Yeah, but a
stroke victim, even someone who has a bad one, is light-years different from
what happened to people who were on their cells during the Pulse," Jordan
replied. "Me and the Head—the Head and I—think that in addition to
stripping people's brains all the way to that one unerasable line of code, the
Pulse also kicked something on. Something that's probably been sitting inside
all of us for millions of years, buried in that ninety-eight percent of dormant
hard drive."
Clay's hand
stole to the butt of the revolver he had picked up off the floor in Beth
Nickerson's kitchen. "A trigger," he said.
Jordan lit up.
"Yeah, exactly! A mutative trigger. It never could have happened without
this, like, total erasure on a grand scale. Because what's emerging, what's
building up in those people out there . . . only they're no longer people,
what's building up is—"
"It's a single
organism," the Head interrupted. "This is what we believe."
"Yes, but more
than just a flock," Jordan said. "Because what they can do with the CD
players may only be the start, like a little kid learning to put his shoes on.
Think about what they might be able to do in a week. Or a month. Or a
year."
"You could be
wrong," Tom said, but his voice was as dry as a breaking stick.
"He could also
be right," Alice said.
"Oh, I'm sure
he's right," the Head put in. He sipped his spiked hot chocolate. "Of course,
I'm an old man and my time is almost over in any case. I'll abide by any
decision you make." A slight pause. The eyes flicked from Clay to Alice to Tom.
"As long as it's the right one, of course."
Jordan said:
"The flocks will try to come together, you know. If they don't hear each other
already, they will real soon."
"Crap," Tom said
uneasily. "Ghost stories."
"Maybe," Clay
said, "but here's something to think about. Right now the nights are ours. What
if they decide they need less sleep? Or that they're not afraid of the
dark?"
No one said
anything for several moments. A wind was rising outside. Clay sipped his hot
chocolate, which had never been much more than tepid and was now almost cold.
When he looked up again, Alice had put hers aside and was holding her Nike
talisman instead.
"I want to wipe
them out," she said. "The ones on the soccer field, I want to wipe them out. I
don't say kill them because I think Jordan's right, and I don't want to do it
for the human race. I want to do it for my mother and my dad, because he's gone,
too. I know he is, I feel it. I want to do it for my friends Vickie and Tess.
They were good friends, but they had cell phones, they never went anywhere
without them, and I know what they're like now and where they're sleeping:
someplace just like that fucking soccer field." She glanced at the Head,
flushing. "'Scuse me, sir."
The Head waved
her apology away.
"Can we do
that?" she asked him. "Can we wipe them out?"
Charles Ardai,
who had been winding down his career as Gaiten Academy's interim Headmaster when
the world ended, bared his eroded teeth in a grin Clay would have given much to
have captured with pen or brush; there was not a single ounce of pity in it.
"Miss Maxwell, we can try," he said.
18
At four o'clock the next morning, Tom
McCourt sat on a picnic table between the two Gaiten Academy greenhouses, which
had both sustained serious damage since the Pulse. His feet, now wearing the
Reeboks he'd donned back in Malden, were on one of the benches, and his head lay
on his arms, which rested on his knees. The wind blew his hair first one way,
then the other. Alice sat across from him with her chin propped on her hands and
the rays of several flashlights striking angles and shadows across her face. The
harsh light made her look pretty in spite of her obvious weariness; at her age,
all light was still flattering. The Head, sitting next to her, only looked
exhausted. In the closer of the two greenhouses, two Coleman gas-lanterns
floated like uneasy spirits.
The Colemans
converged at the near end of the greenhouse. Clay and Jordan used the door,
although huge holes in the glass paneling had been opened on either side. A
moment later, Clay sat down next to Tom and Jordan resumed his usual spot next
to the Head. The boy smelled of gasoline and fertilizer, even more strongly of
dejection. Clay dropped several sets of keys on the table amid the flashlights.
As far as he was concerned, they could stay there until some archaeologist
discovered them four millennia from now.
"I'm sorry,"
Headmaster Ardai said softly. "It seemed so simple."
"Yeah," Clay
said. It had seemed simple: fill the greenhouse sprayers with gasoline,
load the sprayers into the back of a pickup truck, drive across Tonney Field,
wetting down both sides as they went, toss a match. He thought to tell Ardai
that George W Bush's Iraq adventure had probably looked equally simple—load the
sprayers, toss a match—and didn't. It would have been pointlessly
cruel.
"Tom?" Clay
asked. "You okay?" He had already realized that Tom didn't have great reserves
of stamina.
"Yeah, just
tired." He raised his head and gave Clay a smile. "Not used to the night shift.
What do we do now?"
"Go to bed, I
guess," Clay said. "It'll be dawn in another forty minutes or so." The sky had
already begun to lighten in the east.
"It's not fair,"
Alice said. She brushed angrily at her cheeks. "It's not fair, we tried so
hard!"
They had
tried hard, but nothing had come easily. Every small (and ultimately
meaningless) victory had been the sort of maddening struggle his mother had
called a Bolshie shit-pull. Part of Clay did want to blame the Head . . .
also himself, for not taking Ardai's sprayer idea with a grain of salt. Part of
him now thought that going along with an elderly English teacher's plan to
firebomb a soccer field was a little like taking a knife to a gunfight. Still .
. . yeah, it had seemed like a good idea.
Until, that was,
they discovered the motor pool's gasoline storage tank was inside a locked shed.
They'd spent nearly half an hour in the nearby office, scrounging by
lantern-light through maddeningly unmarked keys on a board behind the
superintendent's desk. It was Jordan who finally found the key that unlocked the
shed door.
Then they
discovered that One would only have to pull a plug was not exactly the
case. There was a cap, not a plug. And like the shed in which the tank resided,
the cap was locked. Back to the office; another scrounge by lantern-light;
finally a key that did indeed seem to fit the cap. It was Alice who pointed out
that since the cap was on the bottom of the tank, assuring gravity-feed in case
of a power outage, they would have a flood on their hands without a hose or a
siphon. They spent an hour looking for a hose that might fit and couldn't find
anything that looked even close. Tom found a small funnel, which sent them all
into moderate hysterics.
And because none
of the truck keys were marked (at least in ways non-motor-pool employees could
understand), locating the right set became another process of trial and error.
This one went faster, at least, because there were only eight trucks parked
behind the garage.
And last, the greenhouses. There they
discovered only eight sprayers, not a dozen, with a capacity of not thirty
gallons each but ten. They might be able to fill them from the gasoline
storage tank, but they would be drenched in the process, and the result would be
a mere eighty gallons of usable, sprayable gas. It was the idea of wiping out a
thousand phone-crazies with eighty gallons of regular that had driven Tom,
Alice, and the Head out to the picnic bench. Clay and Jordan had hung in a while
longer, looking for bigger sprayers, but they had found none.
"We found a few
little leaf-sprayers, though," Clay said. "You know, what they used to call
flit-guns."
"Also," Jordan
said, "the big sprayers in there are all full of weed-killer or plant-food or
something. We'd have to start by dumping them all out, and that would mean
putting on masks just to make sure we didn't gas ourselves or
something."
"Reality bites,"
Alice said morosely. She looked at her baby sneaker for a moment, then tucked it
away in her pocket.
Jordan picked up
the keys they had matched to one of the maintenance pickups. "We could drive
downtown," he said. "There's a Trustworthy Hardware. They must have
sprayers."
Tom shook his
head. "It's over a mile and the main drag's full of wrecks and abandoned
vehicles. We might be able to get around some, but not all. And driving over the
lawns is out of the question. The houses are just too close together. There are
reasons everybody's on foot." They had seen a few people on bicycles, but not
many; even the ones equipped with lights were dangerous if ridden at any
speed.
"Would it be
possible for a light truck to negotiate the side streets?" the Head
asked.
Clay said, "We could explore the
possibility tomorrow night, I suppose. Scout out a path in advance, on foot,
then come back for the truck." He considered. "They'd probably have all sorts of
hose in a hardware store, too."
"You don't sound
exactly jazzed," Alice said.
Clay sighed. "It
doesn't take much to block little streets. We'd end up doing a lot of
donkey-work even if we got luckier than we did tonight. I just don't know. Maybe
it'll look better to me after some rest."
"Of course it
will," the Head agreed, but he sounded hollow. "To all of us."
"What about the
gas station across from the school?" Jordan asked without much hope.
"What gas
station?" Alice asked.
"He's talking
about the Citgo," the Head replied. "Same problem, Jordan—plenty of gasoline in
the tanks under the pumps, but no power. And I doubt if they have much in the
way of containers beyond a few two- or five-gallon gasoline cans. I really
think—" But he didn't say what he really thought. He broke off. "What is it,
Clay?"
Clay was
remembering the trio ahead of them limping past that gas station, one of the men
with an arm around the woman's waist. "Academy Grove Citgo," he said. "That's
the name, isn't it?"
"Yes—"
"But they didn't
just sell gasoline, I think." He didn't just think, he knew. Because of
the two trucks parked on the side. He had seen them and hadn't thought anything
of them. Not then, he hadn't. No reason to.
"I don't know
what you—" the Head began, then stopped. His eyes met Clay's. His eroded teeth
once more made their appearance in that singularly pitiless smile. "Oh," he
said. "Oh. Oh my. Oh my, yes."
Tom was looking
between them with mounting perplexity. So was Alice. Jordan merely
waited.
"Would you mind
telling the rest of us what you two are communing about?" Tom asked.
Clay was ready
to—he already saw clearly how it would work, and it was too good not to
share—when the music from Tonney Field died away. It didn't click off, as it
usually did when they woke up in the morning; it went in a kind of swoop, as if
someone had just kicked the source down an elevator shaft.
"They're up
early," Jordan said in a low voice.
Tom gripped
Clay's forearm. "It's not the same," he said. "And one of those damned ghetto
blasters is still playing . . . I can hear it, very faint."
The wind was
strong, and Clay knew it was blowing from the direction of the soccer field
because of the ripe smells it carried: decaying food, decaying flesh, hundreds
of unwashed bodies. It also carried the ghostly sound of Lawrence Welk and his
Champagne Music Makers playing "Baby Elephant Walk."
Then, from
somewhere to the northwest—maybe ten miles away, maybe thirty, it was hard to
tell how far the wind might have carried it—came a spectral, somehow mothlike
moaning sound. There was silence . . . silence . . . and then the not-waking,
not-sleeping creatures on the Tonney soccer field answered in kind. Their moan
was much louder, a hollow, belling ghost-groan that rose toward the black and
starry sky.
Alice had
covered her mouth. The baby sneaker jutted upward from her hands. Her eyes
bulged on either side of it. Jordan had thrown his arms around the Head's waist
and buried his face against the old man's side.
"Look, Clay!"
Tom said. He got to his feet and tottered toward the grassy aisle between the
two shattered greenhouses, pointing at the sky as he went. "Do you see? My God,
do you see?"
To the
northwest, from where the distant groan had risen, a reddish orange glow had
bloomed on the horizon. It strengthened as he watched, the wind bore that
terrible sound again . . . and once more it was answered with a similar but much
louder groan from Tonney Field.
Alice joined
them, then the Head, walking with his arm around Jordan's shoulders.
"What's over
there?" Clay asked, pointing toward the glow. It had already begun to wane
again.
"It might be
Glen's Falls," the Headmaster said. "Or it might be Littleton."
"Wherever it is,
there's shrimp on the barbie," Tom said. "They're burning. And our bunch knows.
They heard."
"Or felt,"
Alice said. She shuddered, then straightened and bared her teeth. "I hope
they did!"
As if in answer,
there was another groan from Tonney Field: many voices raised as one in a cry of
sympathy and—perhaps—shared agony. The one boombox—it was the master, Clay
assumed, the one with an actual compact disc in it—continued to play. Ten
minutes later, the others joined in once more. The music—it now was "Close to
You," by The Carpenters—swooped up, just as it had previously swooped down. By
then Headmaster Ardai, limping noticeably on his cane, had led them back to
Cheatham Lodge. Not long after that, the music stopped again . . . but
this
time it simply clicked off,
as it had the previous morning. From far away, carried across God alone knew how
many miles by the wind, came the faint pop of a gunshot. Then the world was
eerily and completely silent, waiting for the dark to give place to the
day.
19
As the sun began to spoke its first red
rays through the trees on the eastern horizon, they watched the phone-crazies
once again begin leaving the soccer field in close-order patterns, headed for
downtown Gaiten and the surrounding neighborhoods. They fanned out as they went,
headed downhill toward Academy Avenue as if nothing untoward had happened near
the end of the night. But Clay didn't trust that. He thought they had better do
their business at the Citgo station quickly, today, if they intended to do it at
all. Going out in the daylight might mean shooting some of them, but as
long as they only moved en masse at the beginning and end of the day, he was
willing to take that risk.
They watched
what Alice called "the dawn of the dead" from the dining room. Afterward, Tom
and the Head went into the kitchen. Clay found them sitting at the table in a
bar of sunshine and drinking tepid coffee. Before Clay could begin explaining
what he wanted to do later in the day, Jordan touched his wrist.
"Some of the
crazies are still there," he said. And, in a lower voice: "I went to school with
some of them."
Tom said, "I thought
they'd all be shopping Kmart by now, looking for Blue Light
Specials."
"You better
check it out," Alice said from the doorway. "I'm not sure it's
another—what-would-you-call-it, developmental step forward, but it might be. It
probably is."
"Sure it is,"
Jordan said gloomily.
The
phone-crazies who had stayed behind—Clay thought it was a squad of about a
hundred—were removing the dead from beneath the bleachers. At first they simply
carried them off into the parking lot south of the field and behind a long low
brick building. They came back empty-handed.
"That building's
the indoor track," the Head told them. "It's also where all the sports gear is
stored. There's a steep drop-off on the far side. I imagine they're throwing the
bodies over the edge."
"You bet,"
Jordan said. He sounded sick. "It's all marshy down there. They'll
rot."
"They were
rotting anyway, Jordan," Tom said gently.
"I know," he
said, sounding sicker than ever, "but they'll rot even faster in the sun." A
pause. "Sir?"
"Yes,
Jordan?"
"I saw Noah
Chutsky. From your Drama Reading Club."
The Head patted
the boy's shoulder. He was very pale. "Never mind."
"It's hard not
to," Jordan whispered. "He took my picture once. With his . . . with his
you-know."
Then, a new
wrinkle. Two dozen of the worker-bees peeled off from the main group with no
pause for discussion and headed for the shattered greenhouses, moving in a
V-shape that reminded the watchers of migrating geese. The one Jordan had
identified as Noah Chutsky was among these. The rest of the body-removal squad
watched them go for a moment, then marched back down the ramps, three abreast,
and resumed fishing dead bodies out from under the bleachers.
Twenty
minutes later the greenhouse party returned, now spread out in a single line.
Some were still empty-handed, but most had acquired wheelbarrows or handcarts of
the sort used to transport large bags of lime or fertilizer. Soon the
phone-crazies were using the carts and barrows to dispose of the bodies, and
their work went faster.
"It's a step
forward, all right," Tom said.
"More than one,"
the Head added. "Cleaning house; using tools to do it."
Clay said, "I
don't like this."
Jordan looked up at him, his face
pale and tired and far older than its years. "Join the club," he
said.
20
They slept until one in the afternoon.
Then, after confirming that the body detail had finished its work and gone to
join the rest of the foragers, they went down to the fieldstone pillars
marking the entrance to Gaiten Academy. Alice had scoffed at Clay's idea that he
and Tom should do this on their own. "Never mind that Batman and Robin crap,"
she said.
"Oh my, I always
wanted to be the Boy Wonder," Tom said with a trace of a lisp, but when she gave
him a humorless look, her sneaker (now beginning to look a bit tattered) clasped
in one hand, he wilted. "Sorry."
"You can go
across to the gas station on your own," she said. "That much makes sense. But
the rest of us will stand lookout on the other side."
The Head had
suggested that Jordan should stay behind at the Lodge. Before the boy could
respond—and he looked ready to do so hotly—Alice asked, "How are your eyes,
Jordan?"
He had given her a smile, once more
accompanied by the slightly starry look. "Good. Fine."
"And you've
played video games? The ones where you shoot?"
"Sure, a
ton."
She handed him
her pistol. Clay could see him quiver slightly, like a tapped tuning fork, when
their fingers touched. "If I tell you to point and shoot—or if Headmaster Ardai
tells you—will you do it?"
"Sure."
Alice had looked
at Ardai with a mixture of defiance and apology. "We need every
hand."
The Head had
given in, and now here they were and there was the Academy Grove Citgo, on the
other side of the street and just a little way back toward town. From here the
other, slightly smaller, sign was easy to read: academy lp gas. The single car standing
at the pumps with its driver's door open already had a dusty, long-deserted
look. The gas station's big plate-glass window was broken. Off to the right,
parked in the shade of what had to be one of northern New England's few
surviving elm trees, were two trucks shaped like giant propane bottles. Written
on the side of each were the words Academy LP Gas and Serving Southern
New Hampshire
Since 1982.
There was no
sign of foraging phone-crazies on this part of Academy Avenue, and although most
of the houses Clay could see had shoes on their front stoops, several did not.
The rush of refugees seemed to be drying up. Too early to tell, he
cautioned himself.
"Sir? Clay?
What's that?" Jordan asked. He was pointing to the middle of the Avenue—which of
course was still Route 102, although that was easy to forget on this sunny,
quiet afternoon where the closest sounds were birds and the rustle of the wind
in the leaves. There was something written in bright pink chalk on the asphalt,
but from where they were, Clay couldn't make it out. He shook his
head.
"Are you ready?"
he asked Tom.
"Sure," Tom
said. He was trying to sound casual, but a pulse beat rapidly on the side of his
unshaven throat. "You Batman, me Boy Wonder."
They trotted
across the street, pistols in hand. Clay had left the Russian automatic weapon
with Alice, more or less convinced it would spin her around like a top if she
actually had to use it.
The message
scrawled in pink chalk on the macadam was
KASHWAK=NO-FO
"Does that mean
anything to you?" Tom asked.
Clay shook his
head. It didn't, and right now he didn't care. All he wanted was to get out of
the middle of Academy Avenue, where he felt as exposed as an ant in a bowl of
rice. It occurred to him, suddenly and not for the first time, that he would
sell his soul just to know that his son was okay, and in a place where people
weren't putting guns into the hands of children who were good at video games. It
was strange. He'd think he had his priorities settled, that he was dealing with
his personal deck one card at a time, and then these thoughts would come, each
as fresh and painful as an unsettled grief.
Get out of
here, Johnny. You don't belong here. Not your place, not your
time.
The propane
trucks were empty and locked, but that was all right; today their luck was
running the right way. The keys were hanging on a board in the office, below a
sign reading NO TOWING BETWEEN MIDNITE AND 6 AM NO EXEMPTIONS. A tiny
propane bottle dangled from each keychain. Halfway back to the door, Tom touched
Clay's shoulder.
Two
phone-crazies walked up the middle of the street, side by side but by no means in lockstep. One was eating
Twinkies from a box of them; his face was lathered with cream, crumbs, and
frosting. The other, a woman, was holding a coffee-table-size book out in front
of her. To Clay she looked like a choir-member holding an oversize hymnal. On
the front there appeared to be a photograph of a collie jumping through a tire
swing. The fact that the woman held the book upside down gave Clay some comfort.
The vacant, blasted expressions on their faces—and the fact that they were
wandering on their own, meaning midday was still a non-flocking time—gave him
more. But he didn't like that book. No, he didn't like that book at
all.
They wandered
past the fieldstone pillars, and Clay could see Alice, Jordan, and the Head
peering out, wide-eyed. The two crazies walked over the cryptic message chalked
in the street—KASHWAK=NO-FO—and the woman reached for her companion's
Twinkies. The man held the box away from her. The woman cast her book aside (it
landed rightside up and Clay saw it was 100 Best Loved Dogs of the World)
and reached again. The man slapped her face hard enough to make her filthy
hair fly, the sound very loud in the stillness of the day. All this time they
were walking. The woman made a sound: "Aw!" The man replied (it sounded
to Clay like a reply): "Eeeen!" The woman reached for the box of
Twinkies. Now they were passing the Citgo. The man punched her in the neck this
time, a looping overhand blow, and then dove a hand into his box for another
treat. The woman stopped. Looked at him. And a moment later the man stopped. He
had pulled a bit ahead, so his back was mostly to her.
Clay felt
something in the sunwarmed stillness of the gas station office. No, he
thought, not in the office, in me. Shortness of breath, like after you climb
a flight of stairs too fast.
Except maybe it
was in the office, too, because—Tom stood on his toes and whispered in his ear,
"Do you feel that?" Clay nodded and pointed at the desk. There was no wind, no
discernible draft, but the papers there were fluttering. And in the ashtray, the
ashes had begun to circle lazily, like water going down a bathtub drain. There
were two butts in there—no, three—and the moving ashes seemed to be pushing them
toward the center.
The man turned
toward the woman. He looked back at her. She looked at him. They looked at each
other. Clay could read no expression on either face, but he could feel the hairs
on his arms stirring, and he heard a faint jingling. It was the keys on the
board below the NO TOWING sign. They were stirring, too—chittering
against each other just the tiniest bit.
"Aw!"
said the woman. She held out her hand.
"Eeen!"
said the man. He was wearing the fading remains of a suit. On his feet were
dull black shoes. Six days ago he might have been a middle manager, a salesman,
or an apartment-complex manager. Now the only real estate he cared about was his
box of Twinkies. He held it to his chest, his sticky mouth working.
"Aw!" the
woman insisted. She held out both hands instead of just one, the immemorial
gesture signifying gimme, and the keys were jingling louder. Overhead
there was a bzzzzt as a fluorescent light for which there was no power
flickered and then went out again. The nozzle fell off the middle gas pump and
hit the concrete island with a dead-metal clank.
"Aw," the
man said. His shoulders slumped and all the tension went out of him. The tension
went out of the air. The keys on the board fell silent. The ashes made one
final, slowing circuit of their dented metal reliquary and came to a stop. You
would not have known anything had happened, Clay thought, if not for the fallen
nozzle out there and the little cluster of cigarette butts in the ashtray on the
desk in here.
"Aw," the
woman said. She was still holding out her hands. Her companion advanced to
within reach of them. She took a Twinkie in each and began to eat them,
wrappings and all. Once more Clay was comforted, but only a little. They resumed
their slow shuffle toward town, the woman pausing long enough to spit a
filling-caked piece of cellophane from the side of her mouth. She showed no
interest in 100 Best Loved Dogs of the
World.
"What was
that?" Tom asked in a low and shaken voice when the two of them were
almost out of sight.
"I don't know,
but I didn't like it," Clay said. He had the keys to the propane trucks. He
handed one set to Tom. "Can you drive a standard shift?"
"I learned
on a standard. Can you?"
Clay smiled
patiently. "I'm straight, Tom. Straight guys know how to drive standards without
instruction. It's instinct with us."
"Very funny."
Tom wasn't really listening. He was looking after the departed odd couple, and
that pulse in the side of his throat was going faster than ever. "End of the
world, open season on the queers, why not, right?"
"That's right.
It's gonna be open season on straights, too, if they get that shit under
control. Come on, let's do it."
He started out
the door, but Tom held him back a minute. "Listen. The others may have felt that
over there, or they may not have. If they didn't, maybe we should keep it to
ourselves for the time being. What do you think?"
Clay thought
about how Jordan wouldn't let the Head out of his sight and how Alice always
kept the creepy little sneaker somewhere within reach. He thought about the
circles under their eyes, and then about what they were planning to do tonight.
Armageddon was probably too strong a word for it, but not by much. Whatever they
were now, the phone-crazies had once been human beings, and burning a thousand
of them alive was burden enough. Even thinking about it hurt his
imagination.
"Fine by me," he
said. "Go up the hill in low gear, all right?"
"Lowest one I
can find," Tom said. They were walking to the big bottle-shaped trucks now. "How many gears
do you think a truck like that has?"
"One forward
should be enough," Clay said.
"Based on the
way they're parked, I think you're going to have to start by finding
reverse."
"Fuck it," Clay
said. "What good is the end of the world if you can't drive through a goddam
board fence?"
And that was
what they did.
21
Academy Slope was what Headmaster Ardai and
his one remaining pupil called the long, rolling hill that dropped from the
campus to the main road. The grass was still bright green and only beginning to
be littered with fallen leaves. When afternoon gave way to early evening
and
Academy Slope
was still empty—no sign of returning phone-crazies— Alice began to pace the main
hall of Cheatham Lodge, pausing in each circuit only long enough to look out the
bay window of the living room. It offered a fine view of the Slope, the two main
lecture halls, and Tonney Field. The sneaker was once more tied to her
wrist.
The others were
in the kitchen, sipping Cokes from cans. "They're not coming back," she told
them at the end of one of her circuits. "They got wind of what we were
planning—read our minds or something—and they're not coming."
Two more
circuits of the long downstairs hall, each with a pause to look out the big
living room window, and then she looked in on them again. "Or maybe it's a
general migration, did you guys ever think of that? Maybe they go south in the
winter like the goddam robins."
She was gone
without waiting for a reply. Up the hall and down the hall. Up and down the
hall.
"She's like Ahab
on the prod for Moby," the Head remarked.
"Eminem might
have been a jerk, but he was right about that guy," Tom said
morosely.
"I beg your
pardon, Tom?" the Head asked.
Tom waved it
away.
Jordan glanced
at his watch. "They didn't come back last night until almost half an hour later
than it is right now," he said. "I'll go tell her that, if you
want."
"I don't think
it would do any good," Clay said. "She's got to work through it, that's
all."
"She's pretty
freaked-out, isn't she, sir?"
"Aren't you,
Jordan?"
"Yes," Jordan
said in a small voice. "I'm Freak City."
The next time
Alice came back to the kitchen she said, "Maybe it's best if they don't
come back. I don't know if they're rebooting their brains some new way, but
for sure there's some bad voodoo going on. I felt it from those two this
afternoon. The woman with the book and the man with the Twinkies?" She shook her
head. "Bad voodoo."
She plunged off
on hall patrol again before anyone could reply, the sneaker swinging from her
wrist.
The Head looked
at Jordan. "Did you feel anything, son?"
Jordan
hesitated, then said, "I felt something. The hair on my neck tried to
stand up."
Now the Head
turned his gaze to the men on the other side of the table. "What about you two?
You were far closer."
Alice saved them
from having to answer. She ran into the kitchen, her cheeks flushed, her eyes
wide, the soles of her sneakers squeaking on the tiles. "They're coming," she
said.
22
From the bay window the four of them
watched the phone-crazies come up Academy Slope in converging lines, their long
shadows making a huge pin-wheel shape on the green grass. As they neared what
Jordan and the Head called Tonney Arch, the lines drew together and the pinwheel
seemed to spin in the late golden sunlight even as it contracted and
solidified.
Alice could no
longer stand not holding the sneaker. She had torn it from her wrist and was
squeezing it compulsively. "They'll see what we did and they'll turn around,"
she said, speaking low and rapidly. "They've gotten at least that smart,
if they're picking up books again, they must have."
"We'll see,"
Clay said. He was almost positive the phone-crazies would go onto Tonney
Field, even if what they saw there disquieted their strange group mind; it would
be dark soon and they had nowhere else to go. A fragment of a lullaby his mother
used to sing him floated through his mind:
Little man, you've had a busy day.
"I hope they go
and I hope they stay," she said, lower than ever. "I feel like I'm going to
explode." She gave a wild little laugh. "Only it's them that's supposed
to explode, isn't it? Them." Tom turned to look at her and she said, "I'm
all right. I'm fine, so just close your mouth."
"All I was going
to say is that it'll be what it is," he said.
"New Age crap.
You sound like my father. The Picture Frame King." A tear rolled down one cheek
and she rubbed it impatiently away with the heel of her hand.
"Just calm down,
Alice. Watch."
"I'll try, okay?
I'll try."
"And stop with
the sneaker," Jordan said—irritably, for him. "That squelchy sound is making me
crazy."
She looked down
at the sneaker, as if surprised, then slipped it around her wrist on its loop
again. They watched as the phone-crazies converged at Tonney Arch and passed
beneath it with less pushing and confusion than any crowd attending the
Homecoming Weekend soccer match could ever have equaled—Clay was sure of that.
They watched as the crazies spread out again on the far side, crossing the
concourse and filing down the ramps. They waited to see that steady march slow
and stop, but it never did. The last stragglers—most of them hurt and helping
each other along, but still walking in those close groups—were in long before
the reddening sun had passed below the dormitories on the west side of the
Gaiten Academy campus. They had returned once more, like homing pigeons to their
nests or the swallows to Capistrano. Not five minutes after the evening star
became visible in the darkening sky, Dean Martin began singing "Everybody Loves
Somebody Sometime."
"I was worried
for nothing, wasn't I?" Alice said. "Sometimes I'm a putz. That's what my father
says."
"No," the Head
told her. "All the putzes had cell phones, dear. That's why they're out there
and you're in here, with us."
Tom said: "I
wonder if Rafe's still making out okay."
"I wonder if
Johnny is," Clay said. "Johnny and Sharon."
23
At ten o'clock on that windy autumn night,
under a moon now entering its last quarter, Clay and Tom stood in the band
alcove at the home end of the Tonney soccer field. Directly in front of them was
a waist-high concrete barrier that had been heavily padded on the playing-field
side. On their side were a few rusting music stands and a drift of litter that
was ankle-deep; the wind blew the torn bags and scraps of paper in here, and
here they came to rest. Behind and above them, back at the turnstiles, Alice and
Jordan flanked the Head, a tall figure propped on a slender rod of cane. Debby
Boone's voice rolled across the field in amplified waves of comic majesty. Ordinarily she would be
followed by Lee Ann Womack singing "I Hope You Dance," then back to Lawrence
Welk and his Champagne Music Makers, but perhaps not tonight.
The wind was
freshening. It brought them the smell of rotting bodies from the marsh behind
the indoor-track building and the aroma of dirt and sweat from the living ones
packed together on the field beyond the band alcove. If you can call that
living, Clay thought, and flashed himself a small and bitter inside smile.
Rationalization was a great human sport, maybe the great human sport, but
he would not fool himself tonight: of course they called it living. Whatever
they were or whatever they were becoming, they called it living just as he
did.
"What are you
waiting for?" Tom murmured.
"Nothing," Clay
murmured back. "Just. . . nothing."
From the holster
Alice had found in the Nickerson basement, Clay drew Beth Nickerson's
old-fashioned Colt .45 revolver, now once more fully loaded. Alice had offered
him the automatic rifle—which so far they had not even test-fired—and he had
refused, saying that if the pistol didn't do the job, probably nothing
would.
"I don't know
why the auto wouldn't be better, if it squirts thirty or forty bullets a
second," she said. "You could turn those trucks into
cheese-graters."
He had agreed
that this might be so, but reminded Alice that their object tonight was not
destruction per se but ignition. Then he'd explained the highly illegal nature
of the ammunition Arnie Nickerson had obtained for his wife's .45 fraggers. What
had once been called dumdum bullets.
"Okay, but if it
doesn't work, you can still try Sir Speedy," she'd said. "Unless the guys out
there just, you know . . ." She wouldn't actually use the word attack,
but had made a little walking motion with the fingers of the hand not
holding the sneaker. "In that case, beat feet."
The wind tore a
tattered strip of Homecoming Weekend bunting free of the Scoreboard and sent it
dancing above the packed sleepers. Around the field, seeming to float in the
dark, were the red eyes of the boomboxes, all but one playing without benefit of
CDs. The bunting struck the bumper of one of the propane trucks, flapped there
several seconds, then slipped free and flew off into the night. The trucks were
parked side by side in the middle of the field, rising from
the mass of packed forms like weird metal mesas. The phone-crazies slept beneath
them and so closely around them that some were crammed up against the wheels.
Clay thought again of passenger pigeons, and the way nineteenth-century hunters
had brained them on the ground with clubs. The whole species had been wiped out
by the beginning of the twentieth . . . but of course they'd only been birds,
with little bird-brains, incapable of rebooting.
"Clay?" Tom
asked, low. "Are you sure you want to go through with this?"
"No," Clay said.
Now that he was face-to-face with it, there were too many unanswered questions.
What they would do if it went wrong was only one of them. What they would do if
it went right was another. Because passenger pigeons were incapable of revenge.
Those things out there, on the other hand—
"But I'm going
to."
"Then do it,"
Tom said. "Because, all else aside, 'You Light Up My Life' blows dead rats in
hell."
Clay raised the
.45 and held his right wrist firmly with his left hand. He centered the gunsight
on the tank of the truck on the left. He would fire twice into that one, then
twice into the other one. That would leave one more bullet for each, if
necessary. If that didn't work, he could try the automatic weapon Alice had
taken to calling Sir Speedy.
"Duck if it goes
up," he told Tom.
"Don't worry,"
Tom said. His face was drawn into a grimace, anticipating the report of the gun
and whatever might follow.
Debby Boone was
building to a big finish. It suddenly seemed very important to Clay that he beat
her. If you miss at this range, you're a monkey, he thought, and pulled
the trigger.
There was no
chance for a second shot and no need of one. A bright red flower bloomed in the
center of the tank, and by its light he saw a deep dent in the previously smooth
metal surface. Hell appeared to be inside, and growing. Then the flower was a
river, red turning orange-white.
"Down!"
he shouted, and pushed Tom's shoulder. He fell on top of the smaller man
just as the night became desert noon. There was a huge, whooshing roar followed
by a guttering BANG that Clay felt in every bone of his body. Shrapnel shot overhead.
He thought Tom screamed but he wasn't sure, because there was another of those
whooshing roars and suddenly the air was growing hot, hot, hot.
He seized Tom
partly by the scruff of the neck and partly by the collar of his shirt and began
to drag him backward up the concrete ramp leading to the turnstiles, his eyes
slitted almost completely shut against the enormous glare flowing from the
center of the soccer field. Something enormous landed in the auxiliary stands to
his right. He thought maybe an engine block. He was pretty sure the shattered
bits and twists of metal under his feet had once been Gaiten Academy music
stands.
Tom was
screaming and his glasses were askew, but he was on his feet and he looked
intact. The two of them ran up the ramp like escapees from Gomorrah. Clay could
see their shadows, long and spider-thin in front of them, and realized objects
were falling all around them: arms, legs, a piece of bumper, a woman's head with
the hair blazing. From behind them came a second tremendous BANG—or maybe
it was a third—and this time he was the one who screamed. His feet
tangled and he went sprawling. The whole world was rapidly building heat and the
most incredible light: he felt as if he were standing on God's personal
soundstage.
We didn't
know what we were doing, he thought, looking at a wad of gum, a tromped
Junior Mints box, a blue Pepsi Cola cap. We didn't have a clue
and we're
going to pay with our fucking lives.
"Get up!" That
was Tom, and he thought Tom was screaming, but his voice seemed to be coming
from a mile away. He felt Tom's delicate, long-fingered hands yanking at his
arm. Then Alice was there, too. Alice was yanking on his other arm, and she was
glaring in the light. He could see the sneaker dancing and bobbing from
its string on her wrist. She was spattered with blood, bits of cloth, and
gobbets of smoking flesh.
Clay scrambled
up, then went back to one knee, and Alice hauled him up again by main force.
From behind them, propane roared like a dragon. And here came Jordan, with the
Head tottering along right behind him, his face rosy and every wrinkle running
with sweat.
"No, Jordan, no,
just get him out of the way!" Tom yelled, and Jordan pulled the Head aside for
them, gripping the old man grimly around the waist when he tottered. A burning
torso with a ring in its navel landed at Alice's feet and she booted it off the
ramp. Five years of soccer, Clay remembered her saying. A blazing piece
of shirt landed on the back of her head and Clay swept it aside before it could
set her hair on fire.
At the top of
the ramp, a blazing truck tire with half a sheared-off axle still attached
leaned against the last row of reserved seats. If it had landed blocking their
way, they might have cooked—the Head almost certainly would have. As it was,
they were able to slide past, holding their breath against billows of oily
smoke. A moment later they were lurching through the turnstile, Jordan on one
side of the Head and Clay on the other, the two of them almost carrying the old
man along. Clay had his ear boxed twice by the Head's flailing cane, but thirty
seconds after passing the tire they were standing beneath Tonney Arch, looking
back at the huge column of fire rising above the bleachers and center press box
with identical expressions of stupefied disbelief.
A blazing rag of
Homecoming bunting floated down to the pavement next to the main ticket booth,
trailing a few sparks before coming to rest.
"Did you know
that would happen?" Tom asked. His face was white around the eyes, red across
the forehead and cheeks. Half his mustache appeared to have been singed off.
Clay could hear his voice, but it sounded distant. Everything did. It was as if
his ears had been packed with cotton balls, or the shooter's plugs Beth
Nickerson's husband Arnie had no doubt made her wear when he took her to their
favorite target-range. Where they'd probably shot with their cell phones clipped
to one hip and their pagers to the other.
"Did you
know?" Tom attempted to shake him, got nothing but a piece of his shirt, and
tore it all the way down the front.
"Fuck no, are
you insane?" Clay's voice was beyond hoarse, beyond parched; it sounded
baked. "You think I would have stood there with a pistol if I'd known? If
it hadn't been for that concrete barrier, we would have been cut in two. Or
vaporized."
Incredibly, Tom
began to grin. "I tore your shirt, Batman."
Clay felt like
knocking his head off. Also like hugging and kissing him just because he was
still alive.
"I want to go
back to the Lodge," Jordan said. The fear in his voice was
unmistakable.
"By all means
let us remove to a safe distance," the Head agreed. He was trembling badly, his
eyes fixed on the inferno rising above the Arch and the bleachers. "Thank God
the wind's blowing toward Academy Slope."
"Can you walk,
sir?" Tom asked.
"Thank you, yes.
If Jordan will assist me, I'm sure I can walk as far as the Lodge."
"We got them,"
Alice said. She was wiping splatters of gore almost absently from her face,
leaving smears of blood. Her eyes were like nothing Clay had ever seen except in
a few photographs and some inspired comic art from the 1950s and '60s. He
remembered going to a comics convention once, only a kid himself then, and
listening to Wallace Wood talk about trying to draw something he called Panic
Eye. Now Clay was seeing it in the face of a fifteen-year-old suburban
schoolgirl.
"Alice, come
on," he said. "We have to go back to the Lodge and get our shit together. We
have to get out of here." As soon as the words were out of his mouth, he had to
say them again and hear if they had the ring of truth. The second time they
sounded more than true; they sounded scared.
She might not
have heard. She looked exultant. Stuffed with triumph. Sick with it, like a kid
who has eaten too much Halloween candy on the way home. The pupils of her eyes
were full of fire. "Nothing could live through that."
Tom gripped
Clay's arm. It hurt the way a sunburn hurt. "What's wrong with you?"
"I think we made
a mistake," Clay said.
"Is it like in
the gas station?" Tom asked him. Behind his crooked spectacles, his eyes were
sharp. "When the man and woman were fighting over the damn Tw—"
"No, I just
think we made a mistake," Clay said. Actually, it was stronger than that. He
knew they had made a mistake. "Come on. We have to go
tonight."
"If you say so,
okay," Tom said. "Come on, Alice."
She went with
them a little way down the path toward the Lodge, where they had left a pair of
gas lanterns burning in the big bay window, then turned back for another look. The
press box was on fire now, and the bleachers. The stars over the soccer field
were gone; even the moon was nothing but a ghost dancing a wild jig in the
heat-haze above that fierce gas-jet. "They're dead, they're gone,
they're crispy," she said. "Burn, baby, b—"
That was when
the cry rose, only now it wasn't coming from Glen's Falls or Littleton ten miles
away. It was coming from right behind them. Nor was there anything spectral or
wraithlike about it. It was a cry of agony, the scream of something—a single
entity, and aware, Clay was certain of it—that had awakened from deep
sleep to find it was burning alive.
Alice shrieked
and covered her ears, her eyes bulging in the firelight.
"Take it back!"
Jordan said, grasping the Head's wrist. "Sir, we have to take it
back!"
"Too late,
Jordan," Ardai said.
24
Their knapsacks were a little plumper as
they leaned against the front door of Cheatham Lodge an hour later. There were a
couple of shirts in each one, plus bags of trail-mix, juice-boxes, and packets
of Slim Jims as well as batteries and spare flashlights. Clay had harried Tom
and Alice into sweeping their possessions together as quickly as possible, and
now he was the one who kept darting into the living room to steal looks out the
big window.
The gas-jet over
there was finally starting to burn low, but the bleachers were still blazing and
so was the press box. Tonney Arch itself had caught and glared in the night like
a horseshoe in a smithy. Nothing that had been on that field could still be
alive—Alice had been right about that much, surely—but twice on their return to
the Lodge (the Head shambling like an old drunk in spite of their best efforts
to support him), they had heard those ghostly cries coming down the wind from
other flocks. Clay told himself he didn't hear anger in those cries, it was just
his imagination—his guilty imagination, his murderer's imagination, his mass
murderer's imagination—but he didn't completely believe it.
It had been a
mistake, but what else could they have done? He and Tom had felt their gathering
power just that afternoon, had seen it, and that had been only two of
them, just two. How could they have let that go on? Just let it
grow?
"Damned if you
do, damned if you stand pat," he said under his breath, and turned from the
window. He didn't even know how long he'd been looking at the burning stadium
and resisted the urge to check his watch. It would be easy to give in to the
panic-rat, he was close to it now, and if he gave in, it would travel to the
others quickly. Starting with Alice. Alice had managed to get herself back under
some sort of control, but it was thin.
Thin enough to read a newspaper through, his bingo-playing mother
might have said. Although a
kid herself, Alice had managed to keep herself shiny-side up mostly for the
other kid's sake, so he wouldn't give way entirely.
The other kid.
Jordan.
Clay hurried
back into the front hall, noted there was still no fourth pack by the door, and
saw Tom coming down the stairs. Alone.
"Where's the
kid?" Clay asked. His ears had started to clear a little, but his voice still
sounded too far away, and like a stranger's. He had an idea that was going to
continue for a while. "You were supposed to be helping him put some stuff
together—Ardai said he brought a pack over with him from that dorm of
his—"
"He won't come."
Tom rubbed the side of his face. He looked tired, sad, distracted. With half his
mustache gone, he looked ludicrous as well.
"What?"
"Lower your
voice, Clay. I don't make the news, I just report it."
"Then tell me
what you're talking about, for Christ's sake."
"He won't go
without the Head. He said, 'You can't make me.' And if you're really serious
about going tonight, I believe he's right."
Alice came
tearing out of the kitchen. She had washed up, tied her hair back, and put on a
new shirt—it hung almost to her knees—but her skin glowed with the same burn
Clay felt on his own. He supposed they should count themselves lucky that they
weren't popping blisters.
"Alice," he
began, "I need you to exercise your womanly powers over Jordan. He's
being—"
She steamed past
as if he hadn't spoken, fell on her knees, seized her pack, and tore it open. He
watched, perplexed, as she began to pull out the stuff inside. He looked at Tom
and saw an expression of understanding and sympathy dawning on Tom's
face.
"What?" Clay
asked. "What, for chrissake?" He had felt an all too similar exasperated
annoyance toward Sharon during the last year they'd actually lived together—had
felt it often—and hated himself for having that pop up now, of all times. But
dammit, another complication was the last thing they needed now. He ran
his hands through his hair. "What?"
"Look at her
wrist," Tom said.
Clay looked. The
dirty piece of shoestring was still there, but the sneaker was gone. He felt an
absurd sinking in his stomach. Or maybe it wasn't so absurd. If it mattered to
Alice, he supposed it mattered. So what if it was just a
sneaker?
The spare
T-shirt and sweatshirt she had packed (gaiten boosters' club printed across
the front) went flying. Batteries rolled. Her spare flashlight hit the tile
floor and the lens-cover cracked. That was enough to convince Clay. This wasn't
a Sharon Riddell tantrum because they were out of hazelnut coffee or Chunky
Monkey ice cream; this was unvarnished terror.
He went to
Alice, knelt beside her, and took hold of her wrists. He could feel the seconds
flying by, turning into minutes they should have been using to put this town
behind them, but he could also feel the lightning sprint of her pulse under his
fingers. And he could see her eyes. It wasn't panic in them now but agony, and
he realized she'd put everything in that sneaker: her mother and father, her
friends, Beth Nickerson and her daughter, the Tonney Field inferno,
everything.
"It's not in
here!" she cried. "I thought I must have packed it, but I didn't! I can't
find it anywhere!"
"No, honey, I
know." Clay was still holding her wrists. Now he lifted the one with the
shoelace around it. "Do you see?" He waited until he was sure her eyes had
focused, then he flipped the ends beyond the knot, where there had been a second
knot.
"It's too long
now," she said. "It wasn't that long before."
Clay tried to
remember the last time he'd seen the sneaker. He told himself it was impossible
to remember a thing like that, given all that had been going on, then realized he could.
Very clearly, too. It was when she'd helped Tom pull him up after the second
truck had exploded. It had been dancing from its string then. She had been
covered with blood, scraps of cloth, and little chunks of flesh, but the sneaker
had still been on her wrist. He tried to remember if it was still there when
she'd booted the burning torso off the ramp. He didn't think so. Maybe that was
hindsight, but he didn't think so.
"It came untied,
honey," he said. "It came untied and fell off."
"I lost
it?" Her eyes, unbelieving. The first tears. "Are you
sure?"
"Pretty sure,
yeah."
"It was my
luck," she whispered, the tears spilling over.
"No," Tom said,
and put an arm around her. "We're your luck."
She looked at
him. "How do you know?"
"Because you
found us first," Tom said. "And we're still here."
She hugged them
both and they stood that way for a while, the three of them, with their arms
around each other in the hall with Alice's few possessions scattered around
their feet.
25
The fire spread to a lecture building the
Head identified as Hackery Hall. Then, around four a.m., the wind dropped away
and it spread no farther. When the sun came up, the Gaiten campus stank of
propane, charred wood, and a great many burnt bodies. The bright sky of a
perfect New England morning in October was obscured by a rising column of
gray-black smoke. And Cheatham Lodge was still occupied. In the end it had been
like dominoes: the Head couldn't travel except by car, car travel was
impossible, and Jordan would not go without the Head. Nor was Ardai able to
persuade him. Alice, although resigned to the loss of her talisman, refused to
go without Jordan. Tom would not go without Alice. And Clay was loath to go
without the two of them, although he was horrified to find these newcomers in
his life seemed at least temporarily more important than his own son, and
although he continued to feel certain that they would pay a high price for what
they'd done on Tonney Field if they stayed in Gaiten, let alone at the scene of
the crime.
He thought he
might feel better about that last at daybreak, but he did not.
The five of them
watched and waited at the living room window, but of course nothing came out of
the smoldering wreckage, and there was no sound but the low crackle of fire
eating deep into the Athletic Department offices and locker rooms even as it
finished off the bleachers above-ground. The thousand or so phone-crazies who
had been roosting there were, as Alice had said, crispy. The smell of
them was rich and stick-in-your-throat awful. Clay had vomited once and knew the
others had, as well— even the Head.
We made a
mistake, he thought again.
"You guys should
have gone on," Jordan said. "We would have been all right—we were before,
weren't we, sir?"
Headmaster Ardai
ignored the question. He was studying Clay. "What happened yesterday when you
and Tom were in that service station? I think something happened then to make
you look as you do now."
"Oh? How do I
look, sir?"
"Like an animal
that smells a trap. Did those two in the street see you?"
"It wasn't
exactly that," Clay said. He didn't love being called an animal, but couldn't
deny that was what he was: oxygen and food in, carbon dioxide and shit out, pop
goes the weasel.
The Head had
begun to rub restlessly at the left side of his midsection with one big hand.
Like many of his gestures, Clay thought it had an oddly theatrical quality—not
exactly phony, but meant to be seen at the back of the lecture hall. "Then what
exactly was it?"
And because
protecting the others no longer seemed like an option, Clay told the Head
exactly what they'd seen in the office of the Citgo station— a physical struggle
over a box of stale treats that had suddenly turned into something else. He told
about the fluttering papers, the ashes that had begun circling in the ashtray
like water going down a bathtub drain, the keys jingling on the board, the
nozzle that fell off the gas-pump.
"I saw that,"
Jordan said, and Alice nodded.
Tom mentioned
feeling short of breath, and Clay agreed. They both tried to explain the sense
of something powerful building in the air.
Clay said it was
how things felt before a thunderstorm. Tom said the air just felt fraught,
somehow. Too heavy.
"Then he let her
take a couple of the fucking things and it all went away," Tom said. "The ashes
stopped spinning, the keys stopped jingling, that thundery feeling went out of
the air." He looked to Clay for confirmation. Clay nodded.
Alice said, "Why
didn't you tell us this before?"
"Because it
wouldn't have changed anything," Clay said. "We were going to burn the nest if
we could, regardless."
"Yes," Tom
said.
Jordan said
suddenly, "You think the phone-crazies are turning into psionics, don't
you?"
Tom said, "I
don't know what that word means, Jordan."
"People who can
move things around just by thinking about it, for one thing. Or by accident, if
their emotions get out of control. Only psionic abilities like telekinesis and
levitation—"
"Levitation?"
Alice almost barked.
Jordan paid no
mind. "—are only branches. The trunk of the psionic tree is telepathy, and
that's what you're afraid of, isn't it? The telepathy thing."
Tom's fingers
went to the place above his mouth where half of his mustache was gone and
touched the reddened skin there. "Well, the thought has crossed my mind." He
paused, head cocked. "That might be witty. I'm not sure."
Jordan ignored
this, as well. "Say that they are. Getting to be true telepaths, I mean, and not
just zombies with a flocking instinct. So what? The Gaiten Academy flock is
dead, and they died without a clue of who lit em up, because they died in
whatever passes for sleep with them, so if you're worrying that they
telepathically faxed our names and descriptions to any of their buddies in the
surrounding New England states, you can relax."
"Jordan—" the
Head began, then winced. He was still rubbing his midsection.
"Sir? Are you
all right?"
"Yes. Fetch my
Zantac from the downstairs bathroom, would you? And a bottle of the Poland
Spring water. There's a good lad."
Jordan hurried
away on the errand.
"Not an ulcer,
is it?" Tom asked.
"No," the Head
replied. "It's stress. An old . . . one cannot say friend . . .
acquaintance?"
"Your heart
okay?" Alice asked, speaking in a low voice.
"I suppose," the
Head agreed, and bared his teeth in a smile of disconcerting jollity. "If the
Zantac doesn't work, we may resuppose . . . but so far, the Zantac always has,
and one doesn't care to buy trouble when so much of it is on sale. Ah, Jordan,
thank you."
"Quite welcome,
sir." The boy handed him the glass and the pill with his usual
smile.
"I think you
ought to go with them," Ardai told him after swallowing the Zantac.
"Sir, with all
respect, I'm telling you there's no way they could know, no
way."
The Head looked
a question at Tom and Clay. Tom raised his hands. Clay only shrugged. He could
say what he felt right out loud, could articulate what they surely must know he
felt—we made a mistake, and staying here is compounding it—but saw no
point. Jordan's face was set and stubborn on top, scared to death just beneath.
They were not going to persuade him. And besides, it was day again. Day was
their time.
He rumpled the
boy's hair. "If you say so, Jordan. I'm going to catch some winks."
Jordan looked
almost sublimely relieved. "That sounds like a good idea. I think I will,
too."
"I'm going to
have a cup of Cheatham Lodge's world-famous tepid cocoa before I come up," Tom
said. "And I believe I'll shave off the rest of this mustache. The wailing and
lamentation you hear will be mine."
"Can I watch?"
Alice asked. "I always wanted to watch a grown man wail and lament."
26
Clay and Tom were sharing a small bedroom
on the third floor; Alice had been given the only other. While Clay was taking
off his shoes, there was a perfunctory knock on the door, which the
Head followed without pause. Two bright spots of color burned high up on his
cheekbones. Otherwise his face was deathly pale.
"Are you all
right?" Clay asked, standing. "Is it your heart, after all?"
"I'm glad you
asked me that," the Head replied. "I wasn't entirely sure I planted the seed,
but it seems I did." He glanced back over his shoulder into the hall, then
closed the door with the tip of his cane. "Listen carefully, Mr.
Riddell—Clay—and don't ask questions unless you feel you absolutely must. I am
going to be found dead in my bed late this afternoon or early this evening, and
you will say of course it was my heart after all, that what we did last night
must have brought it on. Do you understand?"
Clay nodded. He
understood, and he bit back the automatic protest. It might have had a place in
the old world, but it had none here. He knew why the Head was proposing what he
was proposing.
"If Jordan even
suspects I may have taken my own life to free him from what he, in his boyishly
admirable way, regards as a sacred obligation, he may take his own. At the very
least he would be plunged into what the elders of my own childhood called a
black fugue. He will grieve for me deeply as it is, but that is permissible. The
thought that I committed suicide to get him out of Gaiten is not. Do you
understand that?"
"Yes," Clay
said. Then: "Sir, wait another day. What you're thinking of. . . it may not be
necessary. Could be we're going to get away with this." He didn't believe it,
and in any case Ardai meant to do what he said; all the truth Clay needed was in
the man's haggard face, tightly pressed lips, and gleaming eyes. Still, he tried
again. "Wait another day. No one may come."
"You heard those
screams," the Head replied. "That was rage. They'll come."
"Maybe,
but—"
The Head raised
his cane to forestall him. "And if they do, and if they can read our minds as
well as each other's, what will they read in yours, if yours is still here to be
read?"
Clay didn't
reply, only watched the Head's face.
"Even if they
can't read minds," the Head continued, "what do you propose? To stay here, day
after day and week after week? Until the snow flies? Until I finally expire of old age?
My own father lived to the age of ninety-seven. Meanwhile, you have a wife and a
child."
"My wife and boy
are either all right or they're not. I've made my peace with that."
This was a lie,
and perhaps Ardai saw it in Clay's face, because he smiled his unsettling smile.
"And do you believe your son has made peace with not knowing if his father is
alive, dead, or insane? After only a week?"
"That's a low blow,"
Clay said. His voice was not quite steady.
"Really? I
didn't know we were fighting. In any case, there's no referee. No one here but
us chickens, as they say." The Head glanced at the closed door, then looked back
at Clay again. "The equation is very simple. You can't stay and I can't go. It's
best that Jordan go with you."
"But to put you
down like a horse with a broken leg—"
"No such thing,"
the Head interrupted. "Horses do not practice euthanasia, but people do." The
door opened, Tom stepped in, and with hardly a pause for breath the Head went
on, "And have you ever considered commercial illustration, Clay? For books, I
mean?"
"My style is too
flamboyant for most of the commercial houses," Clay said. "I have done
jackets for some of the small fantasy presses like Grant and Eulalia. Some of
the Edgar Rice Burroughs Mars books."
"Barsoom!" the
Head cried, and waved his cane vigorously in the air. Then he rubbed his solar
plexus and grimaced. "Damned heartburn! Excuse me, Tom—just came up to have a
natter before lying down a bit myself."
"Not at all,"
Tom said, and watched him go out. When the sound of the Head's cane had gotten a
good distance down the hall, he turned to Clay and said, "Is he okay? He's
very pale."
"I think he's
fine." He pointed at Tom's face. "I thought you were going to shave off the
other half."
"I decided
against it with Alice hanging around," Tom said. "I like her, but about certain
things she can be evil."
"That's just
paranoia."
"Thanks, Clay, I
needed that. It's only been a week and I'm already missing my
analyst."
"Combined with a
persecution complex and delusions of grandeur."
Clay swung his
feet up onto one of the room's two narrow beds, put his hands behind his head,
and looked at the ceiling.
"You wish we
were out of here, don't you?" Tom asked.
"You bet I do."
He spoke in a flat and uninflected monotone.
"It'll be all
right, Clay. Really."
"So you say, but
you have a persecution complex and delusions of grandeur."
"That's true,"
Tom said, "but they're balanced out by poor self-image and ego menstruation at
roughly six-week intervals. And in any case—"
"—too late now,
at least for today," Clay finished.
"That's
right."
There was
actually a kind of peace in that. Tom said something else, but Clay only caught
"Jordan thinks . . ." and then he was asleep.
27
He woke screaming, or so he thought at
first; only a wild look at the other bed, where Tom was still sleeping
peacefully with something—a washcloth, maybe—folded over his eyes convinced Clay
that the scream had been inside his head. A cry of some sort might have escaped
him, but if so it hadn't been enough to wake his roommate.
The room was
nowhere near dark—it was midafternoon—but Tom had pulled the shade before
corking off himself, and it was at least dim. Clay stayed where he was for a
moment, lying on his back, his mouth as dry as wood-shavings, his heartbeat
rapid in his chest and in his ears, where it sounded like running footsteps
muffled in velvet. Otherwise the house was dead still. They might not have made
the switchover from days to nights completely yet, but last night had been
extraordinarily exhausting, and at this moment he heard no one stirring in the
Lodge. Outside a bird called and somewhere quite distant—not in Gaiten, he
thought—a stubborn alarm kept on braying.
Had he ever had
a worse dream? Maybe one. A month or so after Johnny was born, Clay had dreamed
he'd picked the baby up from the crib to change him, and Johnny's chubby little
body had simply fallen apart in his hands like a badly put-together dummy. That
one he could
understand—fear of
fatherhood, fear of fucking up. A fear he still lived with, as Headmaster Ardai
had seen. What was he to make of this one?
Whatever it
meant, he didn't want to lose it, and he knew from experience that you had to
act quickly to keep that from happening.
There was a desk
in the room, and a ballpoint pen tucked into one pocket of the jeans Clay had
left crumpled at the foot of the bed. He took the pen, crossed to the desk in
his bare feet, sat down, and opened the drawer above the kneehole. He found what
he was hoping for, a little pile of blank stationery with the heading GAITEN
ACADEMY and “A Young Mind Is
A Lamp In The Darkness."
on each sheet.
He took one of them and
placed it on the desk. The light was dim, but would serve. He clicked out the
tip of the ballpoint and paused for just a moment, recalling the dream as
clearly as he could.
He, Tom, Alice,
and Jordan had been lined up in the center of a playing field. Not a soccer
field like Tonney—a football field, maybe? There had been some sort of skeletal
construction in the background with a blinking red light on it. He had no idea
what it was, but he knew the field had been full of people looking at them,
people with ruined faces and ripped clothes that he recognized all too well. He
and his friends had been . . . had they been in cages? No, on platforms. And
they were cages, all the same, although there were no bars. Clay didn't
know how that could be, but it was. He was losing the details of the dream
already.
Tom was on one
end of the line. A man had walked to him, a special man, and put a hand over his
head. Clay didn't remember how the man could do that since Tom—like Alice,
Jordan, and Clay himself—had been on a platform, but he had. And he'd said,
"Ecce homo—insanus." And the crowd—thousands of them—had roared
back, "DON'T TOUCH!" in a single voice. The man had gone to Clay and
repeated this. With his hand above Alice's head the man had said, "Ecce
femina—insana." Above Jordan, "Ecce puer—insanus." Each
time the response had been the same: "DON'T TOUCH!"
Neither the
man—the host? the ringmaster?—nor the people in the crowd had opened their
mouths during this ritual. The call-and-response had been purely
telepathic.
Then, letting
his right hand do all the thinking (his hand and the special corner of his brain
that ran it), Clay began to stroke an image onto the paper. The entire dream had
been terrible—the false accusation of it, the caughtness of it—but
nothing in it had been so awful as the man who had gone to each of them, placing
his open palm-down hand over their heads like an auctioneer preparing to sell
livestock at a county fair. Clay felt that if he could catch that man's image on
paper, he could catch the terror.
He had been a
black man with a noble head and an ascetic's face above a lanky, almost scrawny
body. The hair was a tight cap of dark ringlets cut open on one side by an ugly
triangular gouge. The shoulders were slight, the hips nearly nonexistent. Below
the cap of curls Clay quick-sketched the broad and handsome forehead—a scholar's
forehead. Then he marred it with another slash and shaded in the hanging flap of
skin that obscured one eyebrow. The man's left cheek had been torn open,
possibly by a bite, and the lower lip was also torn on that side, making it
droop in a tired sneer. The eyes were a problem. Clay couldn't get them right.
In the dream they had been both full of awareness yet somehow dead. After two
tries he left them and dropped to the pullover before he lost that: the kind the
kids called a hoodie (red, he
printed, with an arrow), with white block letters across the front. It had been
too big for the skinny body and a flap of material lay over the top half of the
letters, but Clay was pretty sure it said harvard. He was starting to print that
when the weeping started, soft and muffled, from somewhere below
him.
28
It was Jordan: Clay knew at once. He took
one look back over his shoulder at Tom as he pulled on his jeans, but Tom hadn't
moved. Out for the count, Clay thought. He opened the door, slipped
through, and closed it behind him.
Alice, wearing a
Gaiten Academy T-shirt as a nightgown, was sitting on the second-floor landing
with the boy cradled in her arms. Jordan's face was pressed against her
shoulder. She looked up at the sound of Clay's bare feet on the stairs and spoke
before Clay said something he might have regretted later: Is it the
Head?
"He had a bad
dream," she said.
Clay said the
first thing that came to him. At that moment it seemed vitally important. "Did
you?"
Her brow
creased. Bare-legged, with her hair pulled back in a ponytail and her face
sunburned as if from a day at the beach, she looked like Jordan's
eleven-year-old sister. "What? No. I heard him crying in the hall. I guess I was
waking up anyway, and—"
"Just a minute,"
Clay said. "Stay right there."
He went back to
his third-floor room and snatched his sketch off the desk. This time Tom's eyes
sprang open. He looked around with a mixture of fright and disorientation, then
fixed on Clay and relaxed. "Back to reality," he said. Then, rubbing a hand over
his face and getting up on one elbow: "Thank God. Jesus. What time is
it?"
"Tom, did you
have a dream? A bad dream?"
Tom nodded. "I
think so, yeah. I heard crying. Was that Jordan?"
"Yes. What did
you dream? Do you remember?"
"Somebody called
us insane," Tom said, and Clay felt his stomach drop. "Which we probably are.
The rest is gone. Why? Did you—"
Clay didn't wait
for any more. He hurried back out and down the stairs again. Jordan looked
around at him with a kind of dazed timidity when Clay sat down. There was no
sign of the computer whiz now; if Alice looked eleven with her ponytail and
sunburn, Jordan had regressed to nine.
"Jordan," Clay
said. "Your dream . . . your nightmare. Do you remember it?"
"It's
going away now," Jordan said. "They had us up on stands. They were looking at us
like we were . . . I don't know, wild animals . . . only they said—"
"That we were
insane."
Jordan's eyes
widened. "Yeah!"
Clay heard
footfalls behind him as Tom came down the stairs. Clay didn't look around. He
showed Jordan his sketch. "Was this the man in charge?"
Jordan didn't
answer. He didn't have to. He winced away from the picture, grabbing for Alice
and turning his face against her chest again.
"What is it?"
Alice asked, bewildered. She reached for the sketch, but Tom took it
first.
"Christ," he
said, and handed it back. "The dream's almost gone, but I remember the torn
cheek."
"And his lip,"
Jordan said, the words muffled against Alice's chest. "The way his lip hangs
down. He was the one showing us to them. To them." He shuddered. Alice
rubbed his back, then crossed her hands over his shoulder blades so she could
hold him more tightly.
Clay put the
picture in front of Alice. "Ring any bells? Man of your dreams?"
She shook her
head and started to say no. Before she could, there was a loud, protracted
rattling and a loose series of thuds from outside Cheatham Lodge's front door.
Alice screamed. Jordan clutched her tighter, as if he would burrow into her, and
cried out. Tom clutched at Clay's shoulder. "Oh man, what the
fuck—"
There was more
rattling thunder outside the door, long and loud. Alice screamed
again.
"Guns!" Clay shouted.
"Guns!"
For a moment
they were all paralyzed there on the sunny landing, and then another of those
long, loud rattles came, a sound like rolling bones. Tom bolted for the third
floor and Clay followed him, skidding once in his stocking feet and grabbing the
banister to regain his balance. Alice pushed Jordan away from her and ran for
her own room, the hem of the shirt fluttering around her legs, leaving Jordan to
huddle against the newel post, staring down the stairs and into the front hall
with huge wet eyes.
29
"Easy," Clay said. "Let's just take this
easy, okay?"
The three of
them stood at the foot of the stairs not two minutes after the first of those
long, loose rattling sounds had come from beyond the front door. Tom had the
unproven Russian assault rifle they had taken to calling Sir Speedy, Alice was
holding a nine-millimeter automatic in each hand, and Clay had Beth Nickerson's
.45, which he had somehow managed to hold on to the previous night (although he
had no memory of tucking it back into his belt, where he later found it). Jordan
still huddled on the landing. Up there he couldn't see the downstairs windows,
and Clay
thought that was probably a
good thing. The afternoon light in Cheatham Lodge was much dimmer than it should
have been, and that was most definitely not a good thing.
It was dimmer
because there were phone-crazies at every window they could see, crowded up to
the glass and peering in at them: dozens, maybe hundreds of those strange blank
faces, most marked by the battles they had been through and the wounds they had
suffered during the last anarchic week. Clay saw missing eyes and teeth, torn
ears, bruises, burns, scorched skin, and hanging wads of blackened flesh. They
were silent. There was a kind of haunted avidity about them, and that feeling
was back in the air, that breathless sense of some enormous, spinning power
barely held in check. Clay kept expecting to see their guns fly out of their
hands and begin to fire on their own.
At us, he
thought.
"Now I know how
the lobsters feel in the tank at Harbor Seafood on Twofer Tuesday," Tom said in
a small, tight voice.
"Just take it
easy," Clay repeated. "Let them make the first move."
But there was
no first move. There was another of those long, rattling thumps—the sound of
something being off-loaded on the front porch was what it sounded like to
Clay—and then the creatures at the windows drew back, as if at some signal only
they could hear. They did this in orderly rows. This wasn't the time of day
during which they ordinarily flocked, but things had changed. That seemed
obvious.
Clay walked to
the bay window in the living room, holding the revolver at his side. Tom and
Alice followed. They watched the phone-crazies (who no longer seemed crazy at
all to Clay, at least not in any way he understood) retreat, walking backward
with eerie, limber ease, each never losing the little envelope of space around
him- or herself. They settled to a stop between Cheatham Lodge and the smoking
remains of the Tonney soccer stadium, like some raggedy-ass army battalion on a
leaf-strewn parade ground. Every not-quite-vacant eye rested upon the
Headmaster's residence.
"Why are their
hands and feet all smudgy?" a timid voice asked. They looked around. It was
Jordan. Clay himself hadn't even noticed the soot and char on the hands of the
silent hundreds out there, but before he could say so, Jordan answered his own question.
"They went to see, didn't they? Sure. They went to see what we did to their
friends. And they're mad. I can feel it. Can you feel it?"
Clay didn't want
to say yes, but of course he could. That heavy, charged feeling in the air, that
sense of turning thunder barely contained in a net of electricity: that was
rage. He thought about Pixie Light battening on Power Suit Woman's neck and the
elderly lady who'd won the Battle of the Boylston Street T Station, the one
who'd gone striding off into Boston Common with blood dripping out of her
cropped iron-gray hair. The young man, naked except for his sneakers, who had
been jabbing a car aerial in each hand as he ran. All that rage—did he think it
had just disappeared when they started to flock? Well, think again.
"I feel it," Tom
said. "Jordan, if they've got psychic powers, why don't they just make us kill
ourselves, or each other?"
"Or make our
heads explode," Alice said. Her voice was trembling. "I saw that in an old movie
once."
"I don't know,"
Jordan said. He looked up at Clay. "Where's the Raggedy Man?"
"Is that what
you call him?" Clay looked down at his sketch, which he was still carrying—the
torn flesh, the torn sleeve of the pullover, the baggy blue jeans. He supposed
that Raggedy Man was not a bad name at all for the fellow in the Harvard
hoodie.
"I call him
trouble, is what I call him," Jordan said in a thin voice. He looked out again
at the newcomers—three hundred at least, maybe four hundred, recently arrived
from God knew which surrounding towns— and then back at Clay. "Have you seen
him?"
"Other than in a
bad dream, no."
Tom shook his
head.
"To me he's just
a picture on a piece of paper," Alice said. "I didn't dream him, and I don't see
anyone in a hoodie out there. What were they doing on the soccer field? Do they
try to identify their dead, do you think?" She looked doubtful at this. "And
isn't it still hot in there? It must be."
"What are they
waiting for?" Tom asked. "If they aren't going to charge us or make us stick
kitchen knives in each other, what are they waiting for?"
Clay suddenly
knew what they were waiting for, and also where Jordan's Raggedy Man was—it was
what Mr. Devane, his high school algebra teacher, would have called an aha!
moment. He turned and headed for the front hall.
"Where are you
going?" Tom asked.
"To see what
they left us," Clay said.
They hurried
after him. Tom caught up first, while Clay's hand was still on the doorknob. "I
don't know if this is a good idea," Tom said.
"Maybe not, but
it's what they're waiting for," Clay said. "And you know what? I think if they
meant to kill us, we'd be dead already."
"He's prob'ly
right," Jordan said in a small, wan voice.
Clay opened the
door. Cheatham Lodge's long front porch, with its comfortable wicker furniture
and its view of Academy Slope rolling down to Academy Avenue, was made for sunny
autumn afternoons like this, but at that moment the ambience was the furthest
thing from Clay's mind. Standing at the foot of the steps was an arrowhead of
phone-crazies: one in front, two behind him, three behind them, then four, five,
and six. Twenty-one in all. The one in front was the Raggedy Man from Clay's
dream, his sketch come to life. The lettering on the front of the tattered red
hoodie did indeed spell out harvard.
The torn left cheek had been pulled up and secured at the side of the
nose with two clumsy white stitches that had torn teardrops in the indifferently
mended dark flesh before holding. There were rips where a third and fourth
stitch had pulled free. Clay thought the stitching might have been done with
fish-line. The sagging lip revealed teeth that looked as if they had been seen
to by a good orthodontist not long ago, when the world had been a milder
place.
In front of the
door, burying the welcome mat and spreading in both directions, was a heap of
black, misshapen objects. It could almost have been some half-mad sculptor's
idea of art. It took Clay only a moment to realize he was looking at the melted
remains of the Tonney Field flock's ghetto blasters.
Then Alice
shrieked. A few of the heat-warped boomboxes had fallen over when Clay opened
the door, and something that had very likely been balanced on top of the pile
had fallen over with them, lodging half in and half out of the pile. She stepped forward
before Clay could stop her, dropping one of the automatic pistols and grabbing
the thing she had seen. It was the sneaker. She cradled it between her
breasts.
Clay looked past
her, at Tom. Tom gazed back at him. They weren't telepathic, but in that moment
they might as well have been. Now what? Tom's eyes asked.
Clay turned his
attention back to the Raggedy Man. He wondered if you could feel your mind being
read and if his was being read right that second. He put his hands out to the
Raggedy Man. The gun was still in one of them, but neither the Raggedy Man nor
anyone in his squad seemed to feel threatened by it. Clay held his palms up:
What do you want?
The Raggedy Man
smiled. There was no humor in the smile. Clay thought he could see anger in the
dark brown eyes, but he thought it was a surface thing. Underneath there was no
spark at all, at least that he could discern. It was almost like watching a doll
smile.
The Raggedy Man
cocked his head and held up a finger—Wait. And from below them on Academy
Avenue, as if on cue, came many screams. Screams of people in mortal agony.
Accompanying them were a few guttural, predatory cries. Not many.
"What are you
doing?" Alice shouted. She stepped forward, squeezing the little sneaker
convulsively in her hand. The cords in her forearm stood out strongly enough to
make shadows like long straight pencil-strokes on her skin.
"What are you doing to the people down there?"
As if, Clay
thought, there could be any doubt.
She raised the
hand that still held a gun. Tom grabbed it and wrestled it away from her before
she could pull the trigger. She turned on him, clawing at him with her free
hand.
"Give it back,
don't you hear that? Don't you hear?"
Clay pulled her
away from Tom. During all of this Jordan watched from the entryway with wide,
terrified eyes and the Raggedy Man stood at the tip of the arrow, smiling from a
face where rage underlay humor and beneath the rage was . . . nothing, as far as
Clay could tell. Nothing at all.
"Safety was on,
anyway," Tom said after a quick glance. "Thank the Lord for small favors." And
to Alice: "Do you want to get us killed?"
"Do you think
they're just going to let us go?" She was crying so hard it had become
difficult to understand her. Snot hung from her nostrils in two clear strings.
From below, on the tree-lined avenue that ran past Gaiten Academy, there were
screams and shrieks. A woman cried No, please don't please don't and then
her words were lost in a terrible howl of pain.
"I don't know
what they're going to do with us," Tom said in a voice that strove for calm,
"but if they meant to kill us, they wouldn't be doing that. Look at him,
Alice—what's going on down there is for our benefit."
There were a few
gunshots as people tried to defend themselves, but not many. Mostly there were
just screams of pain and terrible surprise, all coming from the area directly
adjacent to Gaiten Academy, where the flock had been burned. It surely didn't
last any longer than ten minutes, but sometimes, Clay thought, time really
was relative.
It seemed like
hours.
30
When the screams finally stopped, Alice
stood quietly between Clay and Tom with her head lowered. She had put both
automatics on a table meant for briefcases and hats inside the front door.
Jordan was holding her hand, looking out at the Raggedy Man and his colleagues
standing at the head of the walk. So far the boy hadn't noticed the Head's
absence. Clay knew he would soon, and then the next scene of this terrible day
would commence.
The Raggedy Man
took a step forward and made a little bow with his hands held out to either
side, as if to say, At your service. Then he looked up and held a hand
out toward Academy Slope and the avenue beyond. He looked at the little group
clustered in the open door behind the melted boombox sculpture as he did this.
To Clay the meaning seemed clear: The road is yours.
Go on and take it.
"Maybe," he
said. "In the meantime, let's be clear on one thing. I'm sure you can wipe us
out if you choose to, you've obviously got the numbers, but unless you plan to
hang back at Command HQ, someone else is going to be in charge of things
tomorrow. Because I'll personally make sure you're the first one to
go."
The Raggedy Man
put his hands to his cheeks and widened his eyes: Oh dear! The others
behind him were as expressionless as robots. Clay looked a moment longer, then
gently closed the door.
"I'm sorry,"
Alice said dully. "I just couldn't stand listening to them scream."
"It's okay," Tom
said. "No harm done. And hey, they brought back Mr. Sneaker."
She looked at
it. "Is this how they found out it was us? Did they smell it, the way a
bloodhound smells a scent?"
"No," Jordan
said. He was sitting in a high-backed chair beside the umbrella stand, looking
small and haggard and used-up. "That's just their way of saying they know
you. At least, that's what I think."
"Yeah," Clay
said. "I bet they knew it was us even before they got here. Picked it out of our
dreams the way we picked his face out of our dreams."
"I didn't—"
Alice began.
"Because you
were waking up," Tom said. "You'll be hearing from him in the fullness of time,
I imagine." He paused. "If he has anything else to say, that is. I don't
understand this, Clay. We did it. We did it and they know we did
it, I'm convinced of that."
"Yes," Clay
said.
"Then why kill a
bunch of innocent pilgrims when it would have been just as easy—well, almost
as easy—to break in here and kill us? I mean, I understand the concept of
reprisals, but I don't see the point in this—"
That was when
Jordan slid off his chair and, looking around with an expression of suddenly
blossoming worry, asked: "Where's the Head?"
31
Clay caught up with Jordan, but not until
the boy had made it all the way to the second-floor landing. "Hang on, Jordan,"
he said.
"No," Jordan
said. His face was whiter, shockier, than ever. His hair bushed out around his
head, and Clay supposed it was only because the boy needed a cut, but it looked
as if it were trying to stand on end. "With all the commotion, he should have
been with us! He would have been with us, if he was all right." His lips began
to tremble. "Remember the way he was rubbing himself? What if that wasn't just
his acid reflux stuff?"
"Jordan—"
Jordan paid no
attention, and Clay was willing to bet he'd forgotten all about the Raggedy Man
and his cohorts, at least for the time being. He yanked free of Clay's hand and
went running down the corridor, yelling, "Sir! Sir!" while Heads going
back to the nineteenth century frowned down at him from walls.
Clay glanced
back down the stairs. Alice was going to be no help—she was sitting at the foot
of the staircase with her head bent, staring at that fucking sneaker like it was
the skull of Yorick—but Tom started reluctantly up to the second floor. "How bad
is this going to be?" he asked Clay.
"Well . . .
Jordan thinks the Head would have joined us if he was all right and I tend to
think he's—"
Jordan began to
shriek. It was a drilling soprano sound that went through Clay's head like a
spear. It was actually Tom who got moving first; Clay was rooted at the
staircase end of the corridor for at least three and perhaps as many as seven
seconds, held there by a single thought: That's not how
someone sounds when they've found what looks like a heart attack. The old man
must have botched it somehow. Maybe used the wrong kind of pills.
He was
halfway down the hall when
Tom cried out in shock—"Oh my God Jordan don't look"—almost as if it were one
word.
"Wait!" Alice
called from behind him, but Clay didn't. The door to the Head's little upstairs
suite was open: the study with its books and its now useless hotplate, the
bedroom beyond with the door standing open so the light streamed through. Tom
was standing in front of the desk, holding Jordan's head against his stomach.
The Head was seated behind his desk. His weight had rocked his swivel chair back
on its pivot and he seemed to be staring up at the ceiling with his one
remaining eye. His tangled white hair hung down over the chairback. To Clay he
looked like a concert pianist who had just played the final chord of a difficult
piece.
He heard Alice
give a choked cry of horror, but hardly noticed. Feeling like a passenger inside
his own body, Clay walked to the desk and looked at the sheet of paper that
rested on the blotter. Although it was stained with blood, he could make out the words on
it; the Head's cursive had been fine and clear. Old-school to the end, Jordan
might have said.
aliene
geisteskrank
insano
elnebajos
vansinnig fou
atamagaokashii gek
dolzinnig
hullu
gila
meschuge nebun
dement
Clay spoke
nothing but English and a little high school French, but he knew well enough
what this was, and what it meant. The Raggedy Man wanted them to go, and he knew
somehow that Headmaster Ardai was too old and too arthritic to go with them. So
he had been made to sit at his desk and write the word for insane in
fourteen different languages. And when he was done, he had been made to plunge
the tip of the heavy fountain pen with which he had written into his right eye
and from there into the clever old brain behind it.
"They made him
kill himself, didn't they?" Alice asked in a breaking voice. "Why him and not
us? Why him and not us? What do they want?"
Clay thought of
the gesture the Raggedy Man had made toward Academy Avenue—Academy Avenue, which
was also New Hampshire Route 102. The phone-crazies who were no longer exactly
crazy—or were crazy in some brand-new way—wanted them on the road again. Beyond
that he had no idea, and maybe that was good. Maybe that was all for the best.
Maybe that was a mercy.
FADING
ROSES,
THIS
GARDEN'S OVER
1
There were half a dozen fine linen
tablecloths in a cabinet at the end of the back hallway, and one of these served
as Headmaster Ardai's shroud. Alice volunteered to sew it shut, then collapsed
in tears when either her needlework or her nerve did not prove equal to such
finality. Tom took over, pulling the tablecloth taut, doubling the seam, and
sewing it closed in quick, almost professional overhand strokes. Clay thought it
was like watching a boxer work an invisible light bag with his right
hand.
"Don't make
jokes," Tom said without looking up. "I appreciate what you did upstairs—I never
could have done that—but I can't take a single joke right now, not even of the
inoffensive Will and Grace variety. I'm barely holding myself
together."
All right," Clay
said. Joking was the farthest thing from his mind. As for what he had done
upstairs . . . well, the pen had to be removed from the Head's eye. No way were
they going to leave that in. So Clay had taken care of it, looking away into the
corner of the room as he wrenched it free, trying not to think about what he was
doing or why it was stuck so fucking tight, and mostly he had succeeded in not
thinking, but the pen had made a grinding sound against the bone of the old
man's eyesocket when it finally let go, and there had been a loose, gobbety
plopping sound as something fell from the bent tip of the pen's steel nib onto
the blotter. He thought he would remember those sounds forever, but he had
succeeded in getting the damn thing out, and that was the important
thing.
Outside, nearly
a thousand phone-crazies stood on the lawn between the smoking ruins of the soccer field and
Cheatham Lodge. They stood there most of the afternoon. Then, around five
o'clock, they flocked silently off in the direction of downtown Gaiten. Clay and
Tom carried the Head's shrouded body down the back stairs and put it on the back
porch. The four survivors gathered in the kitchen and ate the meal they had
taken to calling breakfast as the shadows began to draw long
outside.
Jordan ate
surprisingly well. His color was high and his speech was animated. It consisted
of reminiscences of his life at Gaiten Academy, and the influence Headmaster
Ardai had had on the heart and mind of a friendless, introverted computer geek
from Madison, Wisconsin. The brilliant lucidity of the boy's recollections made
Clay increasingly uncomfortable, and when he caught first Alice's eyes and then
Tom's, he saw they felt the same. Jordan's mind was tottering, but it was hard
to know what to do about that; they could hardly send him to a
psychiatrist.
At some point,
after full dark, Tom suggested that Jordan should rest. Jordan said he would,
but not until they had buried the Head. They could put him in the garden behind
the Lodge, he said. He told them the Head had called the little vegetable patch
his "victory garden," although he had never told Jordan why.
"That's the
place," Jordan said, smiling. His cheeks now flamed with color. His eyes, deep
in their bruised sockets, sparkled with what could have been inspiration, good
cheer, madness, or all three. "Not only is the ground soft, it's the place he
always liked the best. . . outside, I mean. So what do you say? They're
gone, they still don't come out at night, that hasn't changed, and we can
use the gas lanterns to dig by. What do you say?"
After
consideration, Tom said, "Are there shovels?"
"You bet, in the
gardening shed. We don't even need to go up to the greenhouses." And Jordan
actually laughed.
"Let's do it,"
Alice said. "Let's bury him and have done with it."
"And you'll rest
afterwards," Clay said, looking at Jordan.
"Sure, sure!"
Jordan cried impatiently. He got up from his chair and began to pace around the
room. "Come on, you guys!" As if he were trying to get up a game of
tag.
So they dug the
grave in the Head's garden behind the Lodge and buried him among the beans and tomatoes.
Tom and Clay lowered the shrouded form into the hole, which was about three feet
deep. The exercise kept them warm, and only when they stopped did they notice
the night had grown cold, almost frosty. The stars were brilliant overhead, but
a heavy ground-mist was rolling up the Slope. Academy Avenue was already
submerged in that rising tide of white; only the steeply slanted roofs of the
biggest old houses down there broke its surface.
"I wish someone
knew some good poetry," Jordan said. His cheeks were redder than ever, but his
eyes had receded into circular caves and he was shivering in spite of the two
sweaters he was wearing. His breath came out in little puffs. "The Head loved
poetry, he thought that stuff was the shit. He was . . ." Jordan's voice, which
had been strangely gay all night, finally broke. "He was so totally
old-school."
Alice folded him
against her. Jordan struggled, then gave in.
"Tell you what,"
Tom said, "let's cover him up nice—cover him against the cold—and then I'll give
him some poetry. Would that be okay?"
"Do you really
know some?"
"I really do," Tom
said.
"You're so
smart, Tom. Thank you." And Jordan smiled at him with weary, horrible
gratitude.
Filling in the
grave was quick, although in the end they had to borrow some earth from the
garden's nether parts to bring it up to dead level. By the time they were
finished, Clay was sweating again and he could smell himself. It had been a long
time between showers.
Alice had tried
to keep Jordan from helping, but he broke free of her and pitched in, using his
bare hands to toss earth into the hole. By the time Clay finished tamping the
ground with the flat of his spade, the boy was glassy-eyed with exhaustion, all
but reeling on his feet like a drunk.
Nevertheless, he
looked at Tom. "Go ahead. You promised." Clay almost
expected him to add, And make it good, señor, or I weel put a boolet in
you, like a homicidal bandido in a Sam
Peckinpah western.
Tom stepped to
one end of the grave—Clay thought it was the top, but in his weariness could no
longer remember. He could not even remember for sure if the Head's first name
had been Charles or Robert. Runners of mist curled around Tom's feet and ankles,
twined among the dead beanstalks. He removed his baseball
cap, and Alice took off hers. Clay reached for his own and remembered he wasn't
wearing one.
"That's right!"
Jordan cried. He was smiling, frantic with understanding. "Hats off! Hats off to
the Head!" He was bareheaded himself, but mimed taking a hat off just the
same—taking it off and flinging it into the air—and Clay once more found himself
fearing for the boy's sanity. "Now the poem! Come on, Tom!"
"All right," Tom
said, "but you have to be quiet. Show respect."
Jordan laid a
finger across his lips to show he understood, and Clay saw by the brokenhearted
eyes above that upraised finger that the boy had not lost his mind yet. His
friend, but not his mind.
Clay waited,
curious to see how Tom would go on. He expected some Frost, maybe a fragment of
Shakespeare (surely the Head would have approved of Shakespeare, even if it had
only been When shall we three meet again), perhaps even a little
extemporaneous Tom McCourt. What he did not expect was what came from Tom's
mouth in low, precisely measured lines.
"Do not withhold
Your mercy from us, O Lord; may Your love and Your truth always protect us. For
troubles without numbers surround us; our sins have overtaken us and we cannot
see. Our sins are more than the hairs of our heads, and our hearts fail within
us. Be pleased, O Lord, to save us; O Lord, come quickly to help
us."
Alice was
holding her sneaker and weeping at the foot of the grave. Her head was bowed.
Her sobs were quick and low.
Tom pressed on,
holding one hand out over the new grave, palm extended, fingers curled in. "May
all who seek to take our lives as this life was taken be put to shame and
confusion; may all who desire our ruin be turned back in disgrace. May those who
say to us, 'Aha, aha!' be appalled at their own shame. Here lies the dead, dust
of the earth—"
"I'm so sorry,
Head!" Jordan cried in a breaking treble voice. "I'm so sorry, it's not right,
sir, I'm so sorry you're dead—" His eyes rolled up and he crumpled to the new
grave. The mist stole its greedy white fingers over him.
Clay picked him
up and felt the pulse in Jordan's neck, strong and regular. "Just fainted. What
is it you're saying, Tom?"
Tom look
flustered, embarrassed. "A rather free adaptation of Psalm Forty. Let's take him
inside—"
"No," Clay said.
"If it's not too long, finish."
"Yes, please,"
Alice said. "Finish. It's lovely. Like salve on a cut."
Tom turned and
faced the grave again. He seemed to gather himself, or perhaps he was only
finding his place. "Here lies the dead, dust of the earth, and here are we the
living, poor and needy; Lord, think of us. You are our help and our deliverer; O
my God, do not delay. Amen."
"Amen," Clay and
Alice said together.
"Let's get the
kid inside," Tom said. "It's fucking freezing out here."
"Did you learn
that from the holy Hannahs at the First N.E. Church of Christ the Redeemer?"
Clay asked.
"Oh, yes," Tom
said. "Many psalms by heart, good for extra desserts. I also learned how to beg
on street corners and leaflet a whole Sears parking lot in just twenty minutes
with A Million Years in Hell and Not One Drink of Water. Let's put this
kid to bed. I'm betting he'll sleep through until at least four tomorrow
afternoon and wake up feeling a hell of a lot better."
"What if that
man with the torn cheek comes and finds we're still here after he told us to
go?" Alice asked.
Clay thought
that was a good question, but not one he needed to spend a lot of time mulling
over. Either the Raggedy Man would give them another day's grace or he wouldn't.
As he took Jordan upstairs to his bed, Clay found he was too tired to care one
way or the other.
2
At around four in the morning, Alice bid
Clay and Tom a foggy goodnight and stumbled off to bed. The two men sat in the
kitchen, drinking iced tea, not talking much. There seemed nothing to say. Then,
just before dawn, another of those great groans, made ghostly by distance, rode
in on the foggy air from the northeast. It wavered like the cry of a theremin in
an old horror movie, and just as it began to fade, a much louder answering cry
came from Gaiten, where the Raggedy Man had taken his new, larger
flock.
Clay and Tom
went out front, pushing aside the barrier of melted boom-boxes to get down the
porch steps. They could see nothing; the whole world was white. They stood there
awhile and went back in.
Neither the
death-cry nor the answer from Gaiten woke Alice and Jordan; they had that much
to be grateful for. Their road atlas, now bent and crumpled at the corners, was
on the kitchen counter. Tom thumbed through it and said, "That might have come
from Hooksett or Suncook. They're both good-sized towns northeast of
here—good-sized for New Hampshire, I mean. I wonder how many they got? And how
they did it."
Clay shook his
head.
"I hope it was a
lot," Tom said with a thin and charmless smile. "I hope it was at least a
thousand, and that they slow-cooked them. I find myself thinking of some
restaurant chain or other that used to advertise 'broasted chicken.' Are we
going tomorrow night?"
"If the Raggedy Man
lets us live through today, I guess we ought to. Don't you think?"
"I don't see any
choice," Tom said, "but I'll tell you something, Clay— I feel like a cow being
driven down a tin chute into the slaughterhouse. I can almost smell the blood of
my little moo-brothers."
Clay had the
same feeling, but the same question recurred: If slaughtering was what they had
on their group mind, why not do it here? They could have done it yesterday
afternoon, instead of leaving melted boom-boxes and Alice's pet sneaker on the
porch.
Tom yawned.
"Turning in. Are you good for another couple of hours?"
"I could be,"
Clay said. In fact, he had never felt less like sleeping. His body was exhausted
but his mind kept turning and turning. It would begin to settle a bit, and then
he'd recall the sound the pen had made coming out of the Head's eyesocket: the
low squall of metal against bone. "Why?"
"Because if they
decide to kill us today, I'd rather go my way than theirs," Tom said. "I've seen
theirs. You agree?"
Clay thought
that if the collective mind which the Raggedy Man represented had really made
the Head stick a fountain pen in his eye, the four remaining residents of
Cheatham Lodge might find that suicide was no longer among their options. That
was no thought to send Tom to bed on, however. So he nodded.
"I'll take all
the guns upstairs. You've got that big old .45, right?"
"The Beth
Nickerson special. Right."
"Good night,
then. And if you see them coming—or feel them coming—give a yell." Tom
paused. "If you have time, that is. And if they let you."
Clay watched Tom
leave the kitchen, thinking Tom had been ahead of him all the time. Thinking how
much he liked Tom. Thinking he'd like to get to know him better. Thinking the
chances of that weren't good. And Johnny and Sharon? They had never seemed so
far away.
3
At eight o'clock that morning, Clay sat on
a bench at one end of the Head's victory garden, telling himself that if he
weren't so tired, he'd get up off his dead ass and make the old fellow some sort
of marker. It wouldn't last long, but the guy deserved it for taking care of his
last pupil, if for nothing else. The thing was, he didn't even know if he could
get up, totter into the house, and wake Tom to stand a watch.
Soon they would
have a chilly, beautiful autumn day—one made for apple-picking, cider-making,
and touch-football games in the backyard. For now the fog was still thick, but
the morning sun shone strongly through it, turning the tiny world in which Clay
sat to a dazzling white. Fine suspended droplets hung in the air, and hundreds
of tiny rainbow wheels circulated in front of his heavy eyes.
Something red
materialized out of this burning whiteness. For a moment the Raggedy Man's
hoodie seemed to float by itself, and then, as it came up the garden toward
Clay, its occupant's dark brown face and hands materialized above and below it.
This morning the hood was up, framing the smiling disfigurement of the face and
those dead-alive eyes.
Broad scholar's
forehead, marred with a slash.
Filthy,
shapeless jeans, torn at the pockets and worn more than a week now.
HARVARD across
the narrow chest.
Beth Nickerson's
.45 was in the side-holster on his belt. Clay didn't even touch it. The Raggedy
Man stopped about ten feet from him. He—it—was standing on the Head's grave, and
Clay believed that was no accident. "What do you want?" he asked the Raggedy
Man, and immediately answered himself: "To. Tell you."
He sat staring at the Raggedy
Man, mute with surprise. He had expected telepathy or nothing. The Raggedy Man
grinned—insofar as he could grin, with that badly split lower lip—and spread his
hands as if to say Shucks, 't'warn't nuthin.
"Say what you
have to say, then," Clay told him, and tried to prepare for having his voice
hijacked a second time. He discovered it was a thing you couldn't prepare for.
It was like being turned into a grinning piece of wood sitting on a
ventriloquist's knee.
"Go. Tonight."
Clay concentrated and said, "Shut up, stop it!"
The Raggedy Man
waited, the picture of patience.
"I think I can
keep you out if I try hard," Clay said. "I'm not sure, but I think I
can."
The Raggedy Man
waited, his face saying Are you done yet?
"Go ahead," Clay
said, and then said, "I could bring. More. I came. Alone."
Clay considered
the idea of the Raggedy Man's will joined to that of an entire flock and
conceded the point.
"Go. Tonight.
North." Clay waited, and when he was sure the Raggedy Man was done with his
voice for the time being, he said, "Where? Why?"
There were no
words this time, but an image suddenly rose before him. It was so clear that he
didn't know if it was in his mind or if the Raggedy Man had somehow conjured it
on the brilliant screen of the mist. It was what they had seen scrawled in the
middle of Academy Avenue in pink chalk:
KASHWAK=NO-FO
"I don't get
it," he said.
But the Raggedy
Man was walking away. Clay saw his red hoodie for a moment, once again seeming
to float unoccupied against the brilliant mist; then that was gone, too. Clay
was left with only the thin consolation of knowing that they had been going north
anyway, and that they had been given another day's grace. Which meant there was
no need to stand a watch. He decided to go to bed and let the others sleep
through, as well.
4
Jordan awoke in his right mind, but his
nervy brilliance had departed. He nibbled at half a rock-hard bagel and listened
dully as Clay recounted his meeting with the Raggedy Man that morning. When Clay
finished, Jordan got their road atlas, consulted the index at the back, and then
opened it to the western Maine page. "There," he said, pointing to a town above
Fryeburg. "This is Kashwak here, to the east, and Little Kashwak to the west,
almost on the Maine-New Hampshire state line. I knew I recognized the name.
Because of the lake." He tapped it. "Almost as big as Sebago."
Alice leaned
closer to read the name on the lake. "Kash . . . Kashwaka-mak, I guess it
is."
"It's in an
unincorporated area called TR-90," Jordan said. He tapped this on the map, also.
"Once you know that, Kashwak Equals No-Fo is sort of a no-brainer, wouldn't you
say?"
"It's a dead
zone, right?" Tom said. "No cell phone towers, no microwave towers."
Jordan gave him
a wan smile. "Well, I imagine there are plenty of people with satellite dishes,
but otherwise . . . bingo."
"I don't get
it," Alice said. "Why would they want to send us to a no-cell zone where
everyone should be more or less all right?"
"Might as well
ask why they let us live in the first place," Tom said.
"Maybe they want
to turn us into living guided missiles and use us to bomb the joint," Jordan
said. "Get rid of us and them. Two birds with one stone."
They considered
this in silence for a moment.
"Let's go and
find out," Alice said, "but I'm not bombing anybody."
Jordan eyed her
bleakly. "You saw what they did to the Head. If it comes right down to it, do
you think you'll have any choice?"
5
There were still shoes on most of the
stoops across from the fieldstone pillars marking the entrance to Gaiten
Academy, but the doors of the nice-looking homes either stood open or had been
torn off their hinges. A few of the dead they saw littered on those lawns as
they once more began their trek north were phone-crazies, but most had been
innocent pilgrims who had happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.
They were the ones with no shoes on their feet, but there was really no need to
look as far as their feet; many of the reprisal victims had literally been torn
limb from limb.
Beyond the
school, where Academy Avenue once more became Route 102, there was carnage on
both sides for half a mile. Alice walked with her eyes resolutely closed,
allowing Tom to lead her as if she were blind. Clay offered to do the same for
Jordan, but he only shook his head and walked stolidly up the centerline, a
skinny kid with a pack on his back and too much hair on his head. After a few
cursory glances at the kill-off, he looked down at his sneakers.
"There are
hundreds," Tom said once. It was eight o'clock and full dark, but they could
still see far more than they wanted to. Lying curled around a stop-sign at the
corner of Academy and Spofford was a girl in red pants and a white sailor
blouse. She looked no more than nine, and she was shoeless. Twenty yards away
stood the open door of the house from which she had probably been dragged,
screaming for mercy. "Hundreds."
"Maybe not that
many," Clay said. "Some of our kind were armed. They shot quite a few of the
bastards. Knifed a few more. I even saw one with an arrow sticking out of
his—"
"We caused
this," Tom said. "Do you think we have a kind anymore?"
This question
was answered while they were eating their cold lunch at a roadside picnic spot
four hours later. By then they were on Route 156, and according to the sign,
this was a Scenic Turnout, offering a view of Historic Flint Hill to the west.
Clay imagined the view was good, if you were eating lunch here at noon rather
than midnight, with gas lanterns at either end of your picnic table to see
by.
They had reached
the dessert course—stale Oreos—when a party of half a dozen came toiling along, all of them
older folks. Three were pushing shopping carts full of supplies and all were
armed. These were the first other travelers they had seen since setting out
again.
"Hey!" Tom
called, giving them a wave. "Got another picnic table over here, if you want to
sit a spell!"
They looked
over. The older of the two women in the party, a grandmotherly type with lots of
white, fluffy hair that shone in the starlight, started to wave. Then she
stopped.
"That's them,"
one of the men said, and Clay did not mistake either the loathing or the fear in
the man's voice. "That's the Gaiten bunch."
One of the other
men said, "Go to hell, buddy." They kept on walking, even moving a little
faster, although the grandmotherly type was limping, and the man beside her had
to help her past a Subaru that had locked bumpers with somebody's abandoned
Saturn.
Alice jumped up,
almost knocking over one of the lanterns. Clay grabbed her arm. "Don't bother,
kiddo."
She ignored him.
"At least we did something?' she shouted after them. "What did you
do? Just what the fuck did you do?"
"Tell you what
we didn't do," one of the men said. The little group was past the scenic turnout
now, and he had to look back over his shoulder to talk to her. He could do this
because the road was free of abandoned vehicles for a couple of hundred yards
here. "We didn't get a bunch of normies killed. There are more of them than us,
in case you didn't notice—"
"Oh bullshit,
you don't know if that's true!" Jordan shouted. Clay realized it was the first
time the kid had spoken since they'd passed the Gaiten town limits.
"Maybe it is and
maybe it isn't," the man said, "but they can do some very weird and powerful
shit. You gotta buy that for a dollar. They say they'll leave us alone if
we leave them alone . . . and you alone. We say fine."
"If you believe
anything they say—or think at you—then you're an idiot," Alice
said.
The man faced
forward, raised his hand in the air, shook it in a combined fuck-off/bye-bye
gesture, and said no more.
The four of them
watched the shopping-cart people out of sight, then gazed at each other across
the picnic table with its intaglios of old initials.
"So now we
know," Tom said. "We're outcasts."
"Maybe not if
the phone people want us to go where the rest of the— what did he call them?—the
rest of the normies are going," Clay said. "Maybe we're something
else."
"What?" Alice
asked.
Clay had an
idea, but he didn't like to put it into words. Not at midnight. "Right now I'm
more interested in Kent Pond," he said. "I want—I need to see if I can
find my wife and son."
"It's not very
likely that they're still there, is it?" Tom asked in his low, kind voice. "I
mean, no matter which way things went for them, normal or phoner, they've
probably moved on."
"If they're all
right, they will have left word," Clay said. "In any case, it's a place to
go."
And until they
got there and that part of it was done, he wouldn't have to consider why the
Raggedy Man would send them to a place of safety if the people there hated and
feared them.
Or how, if the
phone people knew about it, Kashwak No-Fo could be safe at all.
6
They were edging slowly east toward Route
19, a highway that would take them across the state line and into Maine, but
they didn't make it that night. All the roads in this part of New Hampshire
seemed to pass through the small city of Rochester, and Rochester had burned to
the ground. The fire's core was still alive, putting out an almost radioactive
glow. Alice took over, leading them around the worst of the fiery ruins in a
half-circle to the west. Several times they saw KASHWAK=NO-FO scrawled on
the sidewalks; once spray-painted on the side of a U.S. mailbox.
"That's a
bazillion-dollar fine and life in prison at Guantanamo Bay," Tom said with a wan
smile.
Their course
eventually took them through the vast parking lot of the Rochester Mall. Long before they reached
it, they could hear the over-amplified sound of an uninspired New Age jazz trio
playing the sort of stuff Clay thought of as music to shop by. The parking lot
was buried in drifts of moldering trash; the remaining cars stood up to their
hubcaps in litter. They could smell the blown and fleshy reek of dead bodies on
the breeze.
"Flock here
somewhere," Tom commented.
It was in the
cemetery next to the mall. Their course was going to take them south and west of
it, but when they left the mall parking lot, they were close enough to see the
red eyes of the boomboxes through the trees.
"Maybe we ought
to do em up," Alice proposed suddenly as they stepped back onto North Main
Street. "There must be a propane truck that isn't working around here
somewhere."
"Yeah, baby!"
Jordan said. He raised his fists to the sides of his head and shook them,
looking really alive for the first time since leaving Cheatham Lodge. "For the
Head!"
"I think not,"
Tom said.
"Afraid of
trying their patience?" Clay asked. He was surprised to find himself actually
sort of in favor of Alice's crazy idea. That torching another flock was a
crazy idea he had no doubt, but . . .
He thought,
I might do it just became that's the absolute worst version of "Misty"
I've ever heard in my life. Twist my fuckin arm.
"Not that," Tom
said. He seemed to be thinking. "Do you see that street there?" He was pointing
to an avenue that ran between the mall and the cemetery. It was choked with
stalled cars. Almost all of them were pointed away from the mall. Clay found it
all too easy to imagine those cars full of people trying to get home
after the Pulse. People who would want to know what was happening, and if their
families were all right. They would have reached for their car phones, their
cell phones, without a second thought.
"What about it?"
he asked.
"Let us stroll
down there a little way," Tom said. "Very carefully."
"What did you
see, Tom?"
"I'd rather not
say. Maybe nothing. Keep off the sidewalk, stay under the trees. And that was
one hell of a traffic jam. There'll be bodies."
There were
dozens rotting their way back into the great scheme of things between Twombley Street and the
West Side Cemetery. "Misty" had given way to a cough-syrup rendition of "I Left
My Heart in San Francisco" by the time they reached the edge of the trees, and
they could again see the red eyes of the boombox power lamps. Then Clay saw
something else and stopped. "Jesus," he whispered. Tom nodded.
"What?" Jordan
whispered. "What?"
Alice said
nothing, but Clay could tell by the direction she was looking and the defeated
slump of her shoulders that she'd seen what he had. There were men with rifles
standing a perimeter guard around the cemetery. Clay took Jordan's head, turned
it, and saw the boy's shoulders also slump.
"Let's go," the
kid whispered. "The smell's making me sick."
7
In Melrose Corner, about four miles north
of Rochester (they could still see its red glow waxing and waning on the
southern horizon), they came to another picnic area, this one with a little
stone firepit as well as picnic tables. Clay, Tom, and Jordan picked up dry
wood. Alice, who claimed to have been a Girl Scout, proved her skills by making
a neat little fire and then heating three cans of what she called "hobo beans."
As they ate, two little parties of pilgrims passed them by. Both looked; no one
in either group waved or spoke.
When the wolf in
his belly had quieted a little, Clay said, "You saw those guys, Tom? All the way
from the mall parking lot? I'm thinking of changing your name to
Hawkeye."
Tom shook his
head. "It was pure luck. That and the light from Rochester. You know, the
embers?"
Clay nodded.
They all did.
"I happened to
look over at that cemetery at just the right time and the right angle and saw
the shine on a couple of rifle-barrels. I told myself it couldn't be what it
looked like, that it was probably iron fence-palings, or something, but. . ."
Tom sighed, looked at the rest of his beans, then put them aside. "There you
have it."
"They were
phone-crazies, maybe," Jordan said, but he didn't believe it. Clay could hear it
in his voice.
"Phone-crazies
don't do the night shift," Alice said.
"Maybe they need
less sleep now," Jordan said. "Maybe that's part of their new
programming."
Hearing him talk
that way, as if the phone people were organic computers in some kind of upload
cycle, never failed to give Clay a chill.
"They don't do
rifles, either, Jordan," Tom said. "They don't need them."
"So now they've
got a few collaborators taking care of them while they get their beauty rest,"
Alice said. There was brittle contempt on top of her voice, tears just beneath.
"I hope they rot in hell."
Clay said
nothing, but he found himself thinking of the people they had met earlier that
night, the ones with the shopping carts—the fear and loathing in the voice of
the man who had called them the Gaiten bunch. He might as
well have called us the Dillinger gang, Clay thought.
And then he thought, I don't think of them as the phone-crazies
anymore; now I think of them as the phone-people. Why is that? The thought
that followed was even more uncomfortable: When does a collaborator stop
being a collaborator? The answer, it seemed to him, was when the
collaborators became the clear majority. Then the ones who weren't
collaborators became . . .
Well, if you
were a romantic, you called those people "the underground." If you weren't a
romantic, you called them fugitives.
Or maybe just
criminals.
They pushed on
to the village of Hayes Station and stayed the night at a tumbledown motel
called Whispering Pines. It was within sight of a sign reading ROUTE 19, 7 MI
SANFORD THE BERWICKS KENT POND. They didn't leave their shoes outside the
doors of the units they chose.
There no longer
seemed any need of that.
8
He was standing on a platform in the middle
of that damned field again, somehow immobilized, the object of every eye. On the
horizon was the skeletal shape with the blinking red light on top. The place was
bigger than Foxboro. His friends were lined up with him, but now they weren't
alone. Similar platforms ran the length of the open area. On Tom's left stood a
pregnant woman in a Harley-Davidson T-shirt with cutoff sleeves. On Clay's right
was an elderly gent—not in the Head's league, but getting there—with graying
hair pulled back in a ponytail and a frightened frown on his horsey, intelligent
face. Beyond him was a younger man wearing a battered Miami Dolphins
cap.
Clay saw people
that he knew among the thousands and wasn't surprised—wasn't that how things
always went in dreams? One minute you were phone-booth-cramming with your
first-grade teacher; a minute later you were making out with all three members
of Destiny's Child on the observation deck of the Empire State Building.
Destiny's Child
wasn't in this dream, but Clay saw the naked young man who had been jabbing the
car aerials (now dressed in chinos and a clean white T-shirt), and the guy with
the packsack who had called Alice little ma'am, and the limping grandmotherly
type. She pointed to Clay and his friends, who were more or less on the
fifty-yard line, then spoke to the woman next to her . . . who was, Clay
observed without surprise, Mr. Scottoni's pregnant daughter-in-law. That's
the Gaiten bunch, the limping grandmotherly type said, and Mr. Scottoni's
pregnant daughter-in-law lifted her full upper lip in a sneer.
Help me!
called the woman on the platform next to Tom's. It was Mr. Scottoni's
daughter-in-law she was calling to. I want to have my baby the
same as you!
Help me!
You should
have thought of that while there was still time, Mr. Scottoni's
daughter-in-law replied, and
Clay realized, as he had in the other dream, that no one was actually talking.
This was telepathy.
The Raggedy Man
began making his way up the line, putting a hand over the head of each person he
came to. He did this as Tom had over the Head's grave: palm extended, fingers
curled in. Clay could see some sort of ID bracelet flashing on the
Raggedy Man's wrist, maybe one of those medical-alert things, and realized there
was power here—the light-towers were blazing. He saw something else, as well.
The reason the Raggedy Man could reach above their heads even though they were
standing on platforms was because the Raggedy Man wasn't on the ground. He was
walking, but on four feet of thin air.
"Ecce
homo—insanus,"
he said. "Ecce femina—insana." And each time the crowd roared back "DON'T TOUCH!" in
a single voice, both the phone-people and the normies. Because now there was no
difference. In Clay's dream they were the same.
He awoke in the
late afternoon, huddled in a ball and clutching a flat motel pillow. He went
outside and saw Alice and Jordan sitting on the curb between the parking lot and
the units. Alice had her arm around Jordan. His head was on her shoulder and his
arm was around her waist. His hair was sticking up in back. Clay sat down with
them. Beyond them, the highway leading to Route 19 and Maine was deserted except
for a Federal Express truck sitting dead on the white line with its back doors
standing open, and a crashed motorcycle.
Clay sat down
with them. "Did you—"
"Ecce puer,
insanus," Jordan said, without lifting his head from Alice's shoulder.
"That's me."
"And I'm the
femina," Alice said. "Clay, is there some sort of humongous football stadium
in Kashwak? Because if there is, I'm not going near the place."
A door closed
behind them. Footsteps approached. "Me either," Tom said, sitting down with
them. "I have many issues—I'd be the first to admit it—but a death-wish has
never been one of them."
"I'm not
positive, but I don't think there's much more than an elementary school up
there," Clay said. "The high school kids probably get bused to
Tashmore."
"It's a
virtual stadium," Jordan said.
"Huh?" Tom said.
"You mean like in a computer game?"
"I mean like in
a computer." Jordan lifted his head, still staring at the empty road leading to
Sanford, the Berwicks, and Kent Pond. "Never mind that, I don't care about that.
If they won't touch us—the phone-people, the normal people—who will touch us?"
Clay had never seen such adult pain in a child's eyes. "Who will touch
us?"
No one
answered.
"Will the
Raggedy Man touch us?" Jordan asked, his voice rising a little. "Will the
Raggedy Man touch us? Maybe. Because he's watching, I feel him
watching."
"Jordan, you're
getting carried away," Clay said, but the idea had a certain weird interior
logic. If they were being sent this dream—the dream of the platforms—then maybe
he was watching. You didn't mail a letter if you didn't have an
address.
"I don't want to
go to Kashwak," Alice said. "I don't care if it's a no-phone zone or not. I'd
rather go to . . . to Idaho."
"I'm going to
Kent Pond before I go to Kashwak or Idaho or anywhere," Clay said. "I can be
there in two nights' walk. I wish you guys would come, but if you don't want
to—or can't—I'll understand."
"The man needs
closure, let's get him some," Tom said. "After that, we can figure out what
comes next. Unless someone's got another idea."
No one
did.
10
Route 19 was totally clear on both sides
for short stretches, sometimes up to a quarter of a mile, and that encouraged
sprinters. This was the term Jordan coined for the semi-suicidal dragsters who
would go roaring past at high speeds, usually in the middle of the road, always
with their high beams glaring.
Clay and the
others would see the approaching lights and get off the pavement in a hurry,
right off the shoulder and into the weeds if they had spotted wrecks or stalls
up ahead. Jordan took to calling these "sprinter-reefs." The sprinter would blow
past, the people inside frequently whooping (and almost certainly liquored up).
If there was only one stall—a small sprinter-reef—the driver would most likely
elect to weave around it. If the road was completely blocked, he might still try
to go around, but he and his passengers were more apt to simply abandon their
vehicle and resume their eastward course on foot until they found something else
that looked worth sprinting in—which was to say, something fast and temporarily
amusing. Clay imagined their course as a series of jerks . . . but then, most of
the sprinters were jerks, just one more pain in the ass in what had become a
pain-in-the-ass world. That seemed true of Gunner, as well.
He was the
fourth sprinter of their first night on Highway 19, spotting them standing at
the side of the road in the flare of his headlights. Spotting Alice. He
leaned out, dark hair streaming back from his face, and yelled "Suck my rod,
you teenybop bitch!" as he slammed by in a black Cadillac Escalade. His
passengers cheered and waved. Someone shouted "Tell huh!" To Clay it
sounded like absolute ecstasy expressed in a South Boston accent.
"Charming" was
Alice's only comment.
"Some people
have no—" Tom began, but before he could tell them what some people didn't have,
there was a scream of tires from the dark not far ahead, followed by a loud,
hollow bang and the tinkle of glass.
"]esus-fuck,"
Clay said, and began to run. Before he had gotten twenty yards, Alice blew
past him. "Slow down, they might be dangerous!" he shouted.
Alice held up
one of the automatic pistols so Clay could see it and ran on, soon outdistancing
him completely.
Tom caught up
with Clay, already working for breath. Jordan, running beside him, could have
been in a rocking chair.
"What . . . are
we going . . . to do . . . if they're badly hurt?" Tom asked. "Call... an
ambulance?"
"I don't know,"
Clay said, but he was thinking of how Alice had held up one of the automatic
pistols. He knew.
11
They caught up with her around the next
curve of the highway. She was standing behind the Escalade. It was lying on its
side with the airbags deployed. The tale of the accident wasn't hard to read.
The Escalade had come steaming around the blind curve at
maybe sixty miles an hour and had encountered an abandoned milk tanker dead
ahead. The driver, jerk or not, had done well to avoid being totaled. He was
walking around the battered SUV in a dazed circle, pushing his hair away from
his face. Blood gushed from his nose and a cut in his forehead. Clay walked to
the Escalade, sneakers gritting on pebbles of Saf-T-Glas, and looked inside. It
was empty. He shone his light around and saw blood on the steering wheel,
nowhere else. The passengers had been lively enough to exit the wreck, and all
but one had fled the scene, probably out of simple reflex. The one who had stuck
with the driver was a shrimpy little postadolescent with bad acne scars, buck
teeth, and long, dirty red hair. His steady line of jabber reminded Clay of the
little dog who idolized Spike in the Warner Bros, cartoons.
"Ah you all
right, Gunnah?" he asked. Clay presumed this was how you pronounced Gunner
in Southie. "Holy shit, you're bleedin like a mutha. Fuckin-A, I thought we
was dead." Then, to Clay: "Whuttajw lookin at?"
"Shut up," Clay
said—and, under the circumstances, not unkindly. The redhead pointed at Clay,
then turned to his bleeding friend. "This is one of em, Gunnah! This is a
bunch of em!"
"Shut up,
Harold," Gunner said. Not kindly at all. Then he looked at Clay, Tom, Alice, and
Jordan.
"Let me do
something about your forehead," Alice said. She had reholstered her gun and
taken off her pack. Now she was rummaging through it. "I've got Band-Aids and
gauze pads. Also hydrogen peroxide, which will sting, but better a little sting
than an infection, am I right?"
"Considering
what this young man called you on his way by, you're a better Christian than I
was in my prime," Tom said. He had unslung Sir Speedy and was holding it by the
strap as he looked at Gunner and Harold.
Gunner
might have been twenty-five. His long black rock-vocalist hair was now matted
with blood. He looked at the milk tanker, then at the Escalade, then at Alice,
who had a gauze pad in one hand and the bottle of hydrogen peroxide in the
other.
"Tommy and Frito
and that guy who was always pickin his nose, they took off," the redheaded shrimp was
saying. He expanded what chest he had. "But I stuck around, Gunnah! Holy fuck,
buddy, you're bleedin like a pig."
Alice put
hydrogen peroxide on the gauze pad, then took a step toward Gunner. He
immediately took a step back. "Get away from me. You're poison."
"It's them!"
the redhead cried. "From the dreams! What'd I tellya?"
"Keep away from
me," Gunner said. "Fuckin bitch. Alla ya."
Clay felt a sudden urge to shoot
him and wasn't surprised. Gunner looked and acted like a dangerous dog backed
into a corner, teeth bared and ready to bite, and wasn't that what you did to
dangerous dogs when there was no other recourse? Didn't you shoot them? But of
course they did have recourse, and if Alice could play Good Samaritan to
the scumbag who had called her a teenybop bitch, he guessed he could refrain
from executing him. But there was something he wanted to find out before he let
these two charming fellows go their way.
"These dreams,"
he said. "Do you have a . . . I don't know . . . a kind of spirit guide in them?
A guy in a red hoodie, let's say?"
Gunner shrugged.
Tore a piece off his shirt and used it to mop the blood on his face. He was
coming back a little now, seemed a little more aware of what had happened.
"Harvard, yeah. Right, Harold?"
The little
redhead nodded. "Yeah. Harvard. The black guy. But they ain't dreams. If you
don't know, it ain't no fuckin good telling ya. They're fuckin broadcasts.
Broadcasts in our sleep. If you don't get em, it's because you're poison.
Ain't they, Gunnah?"
"You guys fucked
up bigtime," Gunner said in a brooding voice, and mopped his forehead. "Don't
you touch me."
"We're gonna
have our own place," Harold said. "Ain't we, Gunnah? Up Maine, fuckin right.
Everyone who didn't get Pulsed is goin there, and we're gonna be left alone.
Hunt, fish, live off the fuckin land. Harvard says so."
"And you believe
him?" Alice said. She sounded fascinated.
Gunner raised a
finger that shook slightly. "Shut your mouth, bitch."
"I think you
better shut yours," Jordan said. "We've got the guns."
"You better not
even think about shootin us!" Harold said shrilly. "Whatcha think Harvard
would do to you if you shot us, you fuckin punkass shorty?"
"Nothing," Clay
said.
"You don't—"
Gunner began, but before he could get any further, Clay took a step
forward and pistol-whipped him across the jaw with Beth Nickerson's .45. The
sight at the end of the barrel opened a fresh cut along Gunner's jaw, but Clay
hoped that in the end this might prove better medicine than the hydrogen
peroxide the man had refused. In this he proved wrong.
Gunner fell back
against the side of the abandoned milk tanker, looking at Clay with shocked
eyes. Harold took an impulsive step forward. Tom trained Sir Speedy on him and
gave his head a single forbidding shake. Harold shrank back and began to gnaw
the ends of his dirty fingers. Above them his eyes were huge and
wet.
"We're going
now," Clay said. "I'd advise you stay here at least an hour, because you really
don't want to see us again. We're leaving you your lives as a gift. If we see
you again, we'll take them away." He backed toward Tom and the others, still
staring into that glowering, unbelieving bloody face. He felt a little like the
old-time lion-tamer Frank Buck, trying to do it all by pure force of will. "One
more thing. I don't know why the phone-people want all the 'normies' in Kashwak,
but I know what a roundup usually means for the cattle. You might think about
that the next time you're getting one of your nightly podcasts."
"Fuck you,"
Gunner said, but broke his eyelock with Clay and gazed down at his
shoes.
"Come on, Clay,"
Tom said. "Let's go."
"Don't let us
see you again, Gunner," Clay said, but they did.
12
Gunner and Harold must have gotten ahead of
them somehow, maybe by taking a chance and traveling five or ten daylight miles
while Clay, Tom, Alice, and Jordan were sleeping in the State Line Motel, which
was about two hundred yards into Maine. The pair might have laid up in
the
Salmon Falls rest area,
Gunner hiding his new ride among the half a dozen or so cars that had been
abandoned there. It didn't really matter. What mattered was they got ahead of
them, waited for them to go by, and then pounced.
Clay barely
registered the approaching sound of the engine or Jordan's comment—"Here comes a
sprinter." This was his home turf, and as they passed each familiar landmark—the
Freneau Lobster Pound two miles east of the State Line Motel, Shaky's Tastee
Freeze across from it, the statue of General Joshua Chamberlain in the tiny
Turnbull town square—he felt more and more like a man having a vivid dream. He
didn't realize how little he'd expected to ever reach home again until he saw
the big plastic sof-serv cone towering over Shaky's—it looked both prosaic and
as exotic as something from a lunatic's nightmare, hulking its curled tip
against the stars.
"Road's pretty
littered for a sprinter," Alice commented.
They walked to
the side of the road as headlights brightened on the hill behind them. An
overturned pickup truck was lying on the white line. Clay thought there was a
good chance the oncoming vehicle would ram it, but the headlights swerved to the
left only an instant after they cleared the hilltop; the sprinter avoided the
pickup easily, running on the shoulder for a few seconds before regaining the
road. Clay surmised later that Gunner and Harold must have gone over this
stretch, mapping the sprinter-reefs carefully.
They stood
watching, Clay closest to the approaching lights, Alice standing next to him on
his left. On her left were Tom and Jordan. Tom had his arm slung casually around
Jordan's shoulders.
"Boy, he's
really comin," Jordan said. There was no alarm in his voice; it was just a
remark. Clay felt no alarm, either. He had no premonition of what was going to
happen. He had forgotten all about Gunner and Harold.
There was a sports car of some sort,
maybe an MG, parked half on and half off the road fifty feet or so west of where
they were standing. Harold, who was driving the sprinter vehicle, swerved to
avoid it. Just a minor swerve, but perhaps it threw Gunner's aim off. Or perhaps
not. Perhaps Clay had never been his target. Perhaps it was Alice he'd meant to
hit all along.
Tonight they
were in a nondescript Chevrolet sedan. Gunner was kneeling on the backseat, out
the window to his waist, holding a ragged chunk of cinderblock in his hands. He
gave an inarticulate cry that could have come directly from a balloon in one of
the comic books Clay had drawn as a freelance—"Yahhhhbh!"—and threw the
block. It flew a short and lethal course through the dark and struck Alice in
the side of the head. Clay never forgot the sound it made. The flashlight she
had been holding—which would have made her a perfect target, although they had
all been holding them—tumbled from her relaxing hand and sprayed a cone of light
across the macadam, picking out pebbles and a piece of tail-light glass that
glinted like a fake ruby.
Clay fell on his
knees beside her, calling her name, but he couldn't hear himself in the sudden
roar of Sir Speedy, which was finally getting a trial. Muzzle-flashes strobed
the dark, and by their glare he could see blood pouring down the left side of
her face—oh God, what face—in a torrent.
Then the gunfire stopped. Tom was
screaming "The barrel pulled up, I couldn't hold
it down, I think I shot the whole fucking clip into the sky" and
Jordan was screaming "Is
she hurt, did he get her" and Clay thought of how she had offered to put
hydrogen peroxide on Gunner's forehead and then bandage it.
Better a little sting than an infection, am I right? she had said, and
he had to stop the bleeding.
He had to stop it right now. He stripped off the jacket he was wearing,
then the sweater beneath. He would use the sweater, wrap it around her head like
a fucking turban.
Tom's roving
flashlight happened on the cinderblock and stopped. It was matted with gore and
hair. Jordan saw it and began to shriek. Clay, panting and sweating madly in
spite of the chilly evening air, began to wrap the sweater around Alice's head.
It soaked through immediately. His hands felt like they were wearing warm wet
gloves. Now Tom's light found Alice, her head wrapped in a sweater down to the
nose so that she looked like a prisoner of Islamic extremists in an Internet
photo, her cheek (the remains of her cheek) and her neck drowned in
blood, and he also began to scream.
Help me,
Clay wanted to
say. Stop that, both of you, and help me with her. But his voice wouldn't come out and all he
could do was press the sopping sweater against the spongy side of her head,
remembering that she had been bleeding when they had first met her,
thinking she had been okay that time, she had been okay then.
Her hands were
twitching aimlessly, the fingers kicking up little sprays of roadside dirt.
Somebody give her that sneaker of hers, Clay thought, but the sneaker was
in her pack and she was lying on her pack. Lying there with the side of her head
crushed in by someone who'd had a little score to settle. Her feet were
twitching, too, he saw, and he could still feel the blood pouring out of her,
through the sweater and over his hands.
Here we are
at the end of the world, he thought. He looked up in the sky and saw the
evening star.
13
She never really passed out and never fully
regained consciousness. Tom got himself under control and helped carry her up
the slope on their side of the road. Here were trees—what Clay remembered as an
apple orchard. He thought he and Sharon had come here once to pick, back when
Johnny had been small. When it had been good between them and there had been no
arguments about money and ambitions and the future.
"You're not
supposed to move people when they've got bad head-wounds," Jordan fretted,
trailing along behind them and carrying her pack.
"That's nothing
we have to worry about," Clay said. "She can't live, Jordan. Not like she is. I
don't think even a hospital could do much for her." He saw Jordan's face begin
to crumple. There was enough light for that. "I'm sorry."
They laid her on
the grass. Tom tried to give her water from a Poland Spring bottle with a nipple
end, and she actually took some. Jordan gave her the sneaker, the Baby Nike, and
she took that, too, squeezing it, leaving smears of blood on it. Then they
waited for her to die. They waited all that night.
14
She said, "Daddy told me I could have the
rest, so don't blame me." That was around eleven o'clock. She lay with
her head on Tom's pack, which he had stuffed with a motel blanket he'd
taken from the Sweet Valley Inn. That had been on the outskirts of Methuen, in
what now seemed like another life. A better life, actually. The pack was already
soaked with blood. Her one remaining eye stared up at the stars. Her left hand
lay open on the grass beside her. It hadn't moved in over an hour. Her right
hand squeezed the little sneaker relentlessly. Squeeze . . . and relax. Squeeze
. . . and relax.
"Alice," Clay
said. "Are you thirsty? Do you want some more water?"
She did not
answer.
15
Later—quarter of one by Clay's watch—she
asked someone if she could go swimming. Ten minutes later she said, "I don't
want those tampons, those tampons are dirty," and laughed. The sound of her
laughter was natural, shocking, and it roused Jordan, who had been dozing. He
saw how she was and started to cry. He went off by himself to do it. When Tom
tried to sit beside him and comfort him, Jordan screamed for him to go
away.
At quarter past
two, a large party of normies passed by on the road below them, many flashlights
bobbing in the dark. Clay went to the edge of the slope and called down to them.
"You don't have a doctor, do you?" he asked, without much hope.
The flashlights
stopped. There was a murmur of consultation from the dark shapes below, and then
a woman's voice called up to him, a rather beautiful voice. "Leave us alone.
You're off-limits."
Tom joined Clay
at the edge of the bank. " 'And the Levite also passed by on the other side,' "
Tom called down. "That's King James for fuck you, lady."
Behind them,
Alice suddenly spoke in a strong voice. "The men in the car will be taken care
of. Not as a favor to you but as a warning to others. You
understand."
Tom grabbed
Clay's wrist with a cold hand. "Jesus Christ, she sounds like she's
awake."
Clay took Tom's
hand in both of his own and held it. "That's not her. That's the guy in the red
hoodie, using her as a . . . as a loudspeaker."
In the dark
Tom's eyes were huge. "How do you know that?"
"I know," Clay
said.
Below them, the
flashlights were moving away. Soon they were gone and Clay was glad. This was
their business, it was private.
16
At half past three, in the ditch of the
night, Alice said: "Oh, Mummy, too bad! Fading roses, this garden's over." Then
her tone brightened. "Will there be snow? We'll make a fort, we'll make a leaf,
we'll make a bird, we'll make a bird, we'll make a hand, we'll make a blue one,
we'll . . ." She trailed off, looking up at stars that turned on the night like
a clock. The night was cold. They had bundled her up. Every breath she exhaled
came out in white vapor. The bleeding had finally stopped. Jordan sat next to
her, petting her left hand, the one that was already dead and waiting for the
rest of her to catch up.
"Play the slinky
one I like," she said. "The one by Hall and Oates."
17
At twenty to five, she said, "It's the
loveliest dress ever." They were all gathered around her. Clay had said he
thought she was going.
"What color,
Alice?" Clay asked, not expecting an answer—but she did
answer.
"Green."
"Where will you
wear it?"
"The ladies come
to the table," she said. Her hand still squeezed the sneaker, but more slowly
now. The blood on the side of her face had dried to an enamel glaze. "The ladies
come to the table, the ladies come to the table. Mr. Ricardi stays at his post
and the ladies come to the table."
"That's right,
dear," Tom said softly. "Mr. Ricardi stayed at his post, didn't he?"
"The ladies come
to the table." Her remaining eye turned to Clay, and for the second time she
spoke in that other voice. One he had heard coming from his own mouth. Only four
words this time. '"Your son's with us."
"You lie," Clay
whispered. His fists were clenched, and he had to restrain himself from striking
the dying girl. "You bastard, you lie."
"The ladies come
to the table and we all have tea," Alice said.
18
The first line of light had begun to show
in the east. Tom sat beside Clay, and put a tentative hand on his arm. "If they
read minds," he said, "they could have gotten the fact that you have a son and
you're worried to death about him as easily as you'd look something up on
Google. That guy could be using Alice to fuck with you."
"I know that,"
Clay said. He knew something else: what she'd said in Harvard's voice was all
too plausible. "You know what I keep thinking about?"
Tom shook his
head.
"When he was
little, three or four—back when Sharon and I still got along and we called him
Johnny-Gee—he'd come running every time the phone rang. He'd yell 'Fo-fo-me-me?'
It knocked us out. And if it was his nana or his PeePop, we'd say
'Fo-fo-you-you' and hand it to him. I can still remember how big the fucking
thing looked in his little hands . . . and against the side of his face . .
."
"Clay,
stop."
"And now . . .
now . . ." He couldn't go on. And didn't have to.
"Come here, you
guys!" Jordan called. His voice was agonized. "Hurry up!"
They went back
to where Alice lay. She had come up off the ground in a locked convulsion, her
spine a hard, quivering arc. Her remaining eye bulged in its socket; her lips
pulled down at the corners. Then, suddenly, everything relaxed. She spoke a name
that had no meaning for them— Henry—and squeezed the sneaker one final time.
Then the fingers relaxed and it slipped free. There was a sigh and a final white
cloud, very thin, from between her parted lips.
Jordan looked
from Clay to Tom, then back to Clay again. "Is she—"
"Yes," Clay
said.
Jordan burst
into tears. Clay allowed Alice another few seconds to look at the paling stars,
then used the heel of his hand to close her eye.
19
There was a farmhouse not far from the
orchard. They found shovels in one of the sheds and buried her under an apple
tree, with the little sneaker in her hand. It was, they agreed, what she would
have wanted. At Jordan's request, Tom once more recited Psalm Forty, although
this time he had difficulty finishing. They each told one thing they remembered
about Alice. During this part of the impromptu service, a flock of
phone-people—a small one—passed north of them. They were noticed but not
bothered. This did not surprise Clay in the slightest. They were insane, not to
be touched . . . as he was sure Gunner and Harold would learn to their
sorrow.
They slept away
most of the daylight hours in the farmhouse, then moved on to Kent Pond. Clay no
longer really expected to find his son there, but he hadn't given up hope of
finding word of Johnny, or perhaps Sharon. Just to know she was alive might lift
a little of the sorrow he now felt, a feeling so heavy that it seemed to weigh
him down like a cloak lined with lead.
KENT POND
1
His old house—the house where Johnny and
Sharon had lived at the time of the Pulse—was on Livery Lane, two blocks north
of the dead traffic light that marked the center of Kent Pond. It was the sort
of place some real estate ads called a "fixer-upper" and some a "starter home."
Clay and Sharon's joke—before the separation—was that their "starter home" would
probably also be their "retirement home." And when she'd gotten pregnant, they
had talked about naming the baby Olivia if it turned out to be of what Sharon
called "the feminine persuasion." Then, she said, they'd have the only Livvie of
Livery Lane. How they had laughed.
Clay, Tom, and
Jordan—a pallid Jordan, a thoughtfully silent Jordan who now usually responded
to questions only if asked a second or even a third time—arrived at the
intersection of Main and Livery at just past midnight on a windy night during
the second week of October. Clay stared wildly at the stop sign on the corner of
his old street, where he had come as a visitor for the last four months.
NUCLEAR POWER was still stenciled there in spray-paint, as it had been
before he'd left for Boston. STOP . . . NUCLEAR POWER. STOP . . .
NUCLEAR POWER. He couldn't seem to get the sense of it. It wasn't a
question of meaning, that was clear enough, just someone's clever little
political statement (if he looked he'd probably find the same thing on stop
signs all over town, maybe in Springvale and Acton, too), but the sense of how
this could be the same when the whole world had changed—that eluded him. Clay
felt somehow that if he stared at STOP . . . NUCLEAR POWER with enough
desperate intensity, a wormhole would open, some kind of sci-fi
time-tunnel, and he'd dive into the past, and all this would be undone. All this
darkness.
"Clay?" Tom
asked. "Are you all right?"
"This is my
street," Clay said, as if that explained everything, and then, without knowing
he was going to do it, he began to run.
Livery Lane was
a cul-de-sac, all the streets on this side of town dead-ending against the flank
of Kent's Hill, which was really an eroded mountain. Oaks overhung it and the
street was full of dead leaves that crackled under his feet. There were also a
lot of stalled cars, and two that were locked grille to grille in a strenuous
mechanical kiss.
"Where's he
going?" Jordan called behind him. Clay hated the fear he heard in Jordan's
voice, but he couldn't stop.
"He's all
right," Tom said. "Let him go."
Clay wove around
the stalled cars, the beam of his flashlight jigging and stabbing in front of
him. One of the stabs caught Mr. Kretsky's face. Mr. Kretsky always used to have
a Tootsie Pop for Johnny on haircut day when Johnny was Johnny-Gee, just a
little guy who used to yell fo-fo-me-me when the phone rang. Mr. Kretsky
was lying on the sidewalk in front of his house, half-buried in fallen
oak-leaves, and his nose appeared to be gone.
I mustn't
find them dead. This thought drummed in his mind, over and over. Not
after Alice. I mustn't find them dead. And then, hatefully (but in moments
of stress the mind almost always told the truth): And if I have to
find one of
them dead. . . let it be her.
Their house was
the last one on the left (as he always used to remind Sharon, with a suitably
creepy laugh—long after the joke had worn thin, actually), and the driveway
slanted up to the refurbished little shed that was just big enough to park one
car. Clay was already out of breath but he didn't slow. He sprinted up the
driveway, kicking leaves in front of him, feeling the stitch starting to sink in
high up on his right side, tasting copper in the back of his mouth, where his
breathing seemed to rasp. He lifted his flashlight and shined it into the
garage.
Empty. Question
was, was that good or bad?
He turned
around, saw Tom's and Jordan's lights bobbing toward him down below, and shone
his own on his back door. His heart leaped into the back of his throat at what
he saw. He ran up the three steps to the stoop, stumbled, and almost put his hand
through the storm door pulling the note off the glass. It was held by only a
corner of Scotch tape; if they'd come along an hour later, maybe even half an
hour, the restless night wind would have blown it over the hills and far away.
He could kill her for not taking more pains, such carelessness was just so
Sharon, but at least— The note wasn't from his wife.
2
Jordan came up the driveway and stood at
the foot of the steps with his light trained on Clay. Tom came toiling along
behind, breathing hard and making an enormous crackling sound as he scuffed
through the leaves. He stopped beside Jordan and put his own light on the scrap
of unfolded paper in Clay's hand. He raised the beam slowly to Clay's
thunderstruck face. "I forgot about her mother's fucking diabetes," Clay said,
and handed over the note that had been Scotch-taped to the door. Tom and Jordan
read it together.
Daddy,
Something bad hapen as you porbly know, I hope your all right & get
this. Mitch Steinman and George Gendron are with me, people are going crazy
& we think its the cellphones. Dad here is the bad part, we came here
because I was afraid. I was going to break mine if I was wrong but I wasnt
wrong, it was gone. Mom has been taking it because you know nana is sick and she
wanted to keep checking. I gotta go Jesus I'm scrared, someone killed Mr
Kretsky. All kinds of people are dead & nuts like in a horra movie but we
heard people are getting together (NORMAL people) at the Town Hall and thats
where we are going. Maybe mom is there but jesus she had my PHONE. Daddy if you
get here okay PLEASE COME GET ME.
Your Son, John Gavin Riddell
Tom finished,
then spoke in a tone of kindly caution that terrified Clay more thoroughly than
the most dire warning could have done. "You know that any people who gathered at
the Town Hall have probably gone many different ways, don't you? It's been
ten days, and the world has undergone a terrible convulsion."
"I know," Clay
said. His eyes were stinging and he could feel his voice beginning to waver.
"And I know his mother is probably . . ." He shrugged and flung an unsteady hand
at the dark, sloping-away world beyond his leaf-strewn driveway. "But Tom, I
have to go to the Town Hall and see. They may have left word. He may have
left word."
"Yes," Tom said.
"Of course you do. And when we get there, we can decide what comes next." He
spoke in that same tone of awful kindness. Clay almost wished he'd laugh and say
something like Come on, you poor sap—you don't
really think you're going to see him again, do you? Get fucking
real.
Jordan had read
the note a second time, maybe a third and fourth. Even in his current state of
horror and grief, Clay felt like apologizing to Jordan for Johnny's poor
spelling and composition skills—reminding Jordan that his son must have written
under terrible stress, crouched on the stoop, scribbling while his friends stood
watching chaos swirl below.
Now Jordan
lowered the note and said, "What does your son look like?"
Clay almost
asked why, then decided he didn't want to know. At least not yet. "Johnny's
almost a foot shorter than you. Stocky. Dark brown hair."
"Not skinny. Not
blond."
"No, that sounds
like his friend George."
Jordan and Tom
exchanged a look. It was a grave look, but Clay thought there was relief in it,
too.
"What?" he
asked. "What? Tell me."
"The other side
of the street," Tom said. "You didn't see because you were running. There's a
dead boy about three houses down. Skinny, blond, red backpack—"
"That's George
Gendron," Clay said. He knew George's red backpack as well as he knew Johnny's
blue one with the strips of reflecting tape on it. "He and Johnny made a Puritan
village together for their fourth-grade history project. They got an A-plus.
George can't be dead." But he almost certainly was. Clay sat down on the stoop,
which gave its old familiar creak under his weight, and put his face in his
hands.
3
The Town Hall was at the intersection of
Pond and Mill streets, in front of the town common and the body of water that
gave the little village its name. The parking lot was almost empty except for
the spaces reserved for employees, because both streets leading to the big white
Victorian building were jammed with stalled vehicles. People had gotten as close
as they could, then walked the rest of the way. For latecomers like Clay, Tom,
and Jordan, it was a slow slog. Within two blocks of the Town Hall, not even the
lawns were free of cars. Half a dozen houses had burned down. Some were still
smoldering.
Clay had covered
the body of the boy on Livery Lane—it had indeed been Johnny's friend George—but
they could do nothing for the scores of swollen and putrefying dead they
encountered as they made their slow way toward the Kent Pond Town Hall. There
were hundreds, but in the dark Clay saw none that he recognized. That might have
been true even in daylight. The crows had put in a busy week and a half.
His mind kept
going back to George Gendron, who had been lying facedown in a clot of bloody
leaves. In his note, John had said that George and Mitch, his other good friend
this year in the seventh grade, had been with him. So whatever had happened to
George must have happened after Johnny taped that note to the storm door and the
three of them left the Riddell house. And since only George had been in those
bloody leaves, Clay could assume Johnny and Mitch had gotten off Livery Lane
alive.
Of course
assume makes an ass out of you and me,
he thought. The gospel according to Alice Maxwell, may she rest in
peace.
And it was true.
George's killer might have chased them and gotten them somewhere else. On Main
Street, or Dugway Street, maybe neighboring Laurel Way. Stabbed them with a
Swedish butcher knife or a couple of car aerials . . .
They had reached
the edge of the Town Hall parking lot. On their left was a pickup truck that had
tried to reach it overland and wound up mired in a boggy ditch less than five
yards from an acre of civilized (and largely deserted) asphalt. On their right
was a woman with her throat torn out and her features pecked away to
black holes and bloody ribbons by the birds. She was still wearing her Portland
Sea Dogs baseball cap, and her purse was still over her arm.
Killers weren't
interested in money anymore.
Tom put a hand
on his shoulder, startling him. "Stop thinking about what might have
happened."
"How did you
know—"
"It doesn't take
a mind reader. If you find your son—you probably won't, but if you do—I'm sure
he'll tell you the whole story. Otherwise . . . does it matter?"
"No. Of course
not. But Tom . . . I knew George Gendron. The kids used to call him
Connecticut sometimes, because his family moved from there. He ate hot dogs and
hamburgers in our backyard. His dad used to come over and watch the Patriots
with me."
"I know," Tom
said. "I know." And, to Jordan, sharply: "Stop looking at her, Jordan, she's not
going to get up and walk."
Jordan ignored
him and kept staring at the crow-picked corpse in the Sea Dogs hat. "The phoners
started trying to take care of their own as soon as they got back some
base-level programming," he said. "Even if it was only fishing them out from
under the bleachers and throwing them into the marsh, they tried to do
something. But they don't take care of ours. They leave ours to rot where
they fell." He turned to face Clay and Tom. "No matter what they say or what
they promise, we can't trust them," he said fiercely. "We can't,
okay?"
"I'm totally
down with that," Tom said.
Clay nodded. "Me
too."
Tom tipped his
head toward the Town Hall, where a few emergency lights with long-life batteries
still shone, casting a sickly yellow glow on the employees' cars, which now
stood in drifts of leaves. "Let's go in there and see what they left
behind."
"Yes, let's do
it," Clay said. Johnny would be gone, he had no doubt of that, but some small
part of him, some small, childish, never-say-die part, still continued to hope
that he would hear a cry of "Daddy!" and his son would spring into his
arms, a living thing, real weight in the midst of this nightmare.
4
They knew for sure the Town Hall was
deserted when they saw what had been painted across the double doors. In the
fading glow of the battery-powered emergency lights, the large, sloppy strokes
of red paint looked like more dried blood:
KASHWAK=N0-F0
"How far away is
this Kashwak place?" Tom asked.
Clay thought
about it. "I'd say eighty miles, almost due north. You'd take Route 160 most of
the way, but once you get on the TR, I don't know."
Jordan asked,
"What exactly is a TR?"
"TR-90's an
unincorporated township. There are a couple of little villages, some quarries,
and a two-bit Micmac rez up north, but mostly it's just woods, bear, and deer."
Clay tried the door and it opened to his hand. "I'm going to check this place
out. You guys really don't have to come if you don't want to—you can be
excused."
"No, we'll
come," Tom said. "Won't we, Jordan?"
"Sure." Jordan
sighed like a boy confronted with what may be a difficult chore. Then he smiled.
"Hey, electric lights. Who knows when we'll get to see them
again."
5
No Johnny Riddell
came hurtling out of a dark room to throw himself into his father's arms, but
the Town Hall was still redolent of the cooking that had been done on gas grills
and hibachis by the people who'd gathered here following the Pulse. Outside the
big main room, on the long bulletin board where notices of town business and
upcoming events usually hung, perhaps two hundred notes had been posted. Clay,
so tense he was nearly panting, began to study these with the intensity of a
scholar who believes he may have found the lost Gospel of Mary Magdalene. He was
afraid of what he might find and terrified of what he might not. Tom and Jordan
retreated tactfully to the main meeting room, which was still littered with the
remains of the refugees who had apparently spent several nights here, waiting
for a rescue that had never come.
In the posted
notes, Clay saw the survivors had come to believe that they could hope for more
than rescue. They believed that salvation awaited them in Kashwak. Why that
particular townlet, when probably all of TR-90 (certainly the northern and
western quadrants) was dead to cell phone transmission and reception? The notes
on the bulletin board weren't clear on that. Most seemed to assume that any
readers would understand without needing to be told; it was a case of "everybody
knows, everybody goes." And even the clearest of the correspondents had
obviously been struggling to keep terror and elation balanced and under control;
most messages amounted to little more than follow the Yellow Brick Road to
Kashwak and salvation as soon as you can.
Three-quarters
of the way down the board, half-hidden by a note from Iris Nolan, a lady Clay
knew quite well (she volunteered at the tiny town library), he saw a sheet with
his son's familiar, looping scrawl and thought, Oh, dear God, thank you.
Thank you so much. He pulled it off the board, being careful not to tear
it.
This note was
dated: Oct 3. Clay tried to remember where he had been on the night of
October 3 and couldn't quite do it. Had it been the barn in North Reading, or
the Sweet Valley Inn, near Methuen? He thought the barn, but he couldn't be
absolutely certain—it all ran together and if he thought too hard about it, it
began to seem that the man with the flashlights on the sides of his head had
also been the young man jabbing the car aerials, that Mr. Ricardi had killed
himself by gobbling broken glass instead of hanging himself, and it had been
Alice in Tom's garden, eating cucumbers and tomatoes.
"Stop it," he
whispered, and focused on the note. It was better spelled and a little better
composed, but there was no mistaking the agony in it.
Oct 3 Dear Dad,
I hope you are alive & get this. Me & Mitch made it okay but
Hughie Darden got George, I think he killed him. Me & Mitch just outran
faster.
I felt like it was my fault but Mitch, he said how could you know he was
just a Phoner like the others its not your fault.
Daddy there is worse. Mom is one of them, I saw her with one of the
"flocks" today. (That is what they call them, flocks.) She doesnt look as bad as
some but I know if I went out there she wouldnt even no me and would kill me
soon as look at me. IF YOU SEE HER DON'T BE FOOLED, I'M SORRY BUT ITS
TRUE.
We're going to Kashwak (its up north) tomorow or next day, Mitch's mom is
here I could kill him I'm so ennveous. Daddy I know you dont have a cell phone
and everyone knows about Kashwak how it's a safe place. If you get this note
PLEASE COME GET ME.
I love you with all my Heart, Your Son, John Gavin
Riddell
Even after the
news about Sharon, Clay was doing all right until he got to I love you with
all my Heart. Even then he might have been all right if not for that capital
H. He kissed his twelve-year-old son's signature, looked at the bulletin
board through eyes that had become untrustworthy— things doubled, tripled, then
shivered completely apart—and let out a hoarse cry of pain. Tom and Jordan came
running.
"What, Clay?"
Tom said. "What is it?" He saw the sheet of paper—a ruled yellow page from a
legal pad—and slipped it out of Clay's hand. He and Jordan scanned it
quickly.
"I'm going to
Kashwak," Clay said hoarsely.
"Clay, that's
probably not such a hot idea," Jordan said cautiously. "Considering, you know,
what we did at Gaiten Academy."
"I don't care.
I'm going to Kashwak. I'm going to find my son."
6
The refugees who had taken shelter in the
Kent Pond Town Hall had left plenty of supplies behind when they decamped,
presumably en masse, for TR-90 and Kashwak. Clay, Tom, and Jordan made a meal of
canned chicken salad on stale bread, with canned fruit salad for
dessert.
As they were
finishing, Tom leaned over to Jordan and murmured something. The boy nodded. The
two of them got up. "Would you excuse us for a few minutes, Clay? Jordan and I
need to have a little talk."
Clay nodded.
While they were gone, he cracked another fruit salad cup and read Johnny's
letter over for the ninth and tenth times. He was already well on the way to
having it memorized. He could remember Alice's death just as clearly, but that
now seemed to have happened in another life, and to a different version of
Clayton Riddell. An earlier draft, as it were.
He finished his
meal and stowed the letter away just as Tom and Jordan returned from the hall,
where they had held what he supposed lawyers had called a sidebar, back in the
days when there were lawyers. Tom once more had his arm around Jordan's
narrow shoulders. Neither of them looked happy, but both looked
composed.
"Clay," Tom
began, "we've talked it over, and—"
"You don't want
to go with me. Perfectly understandable."
Jordan said, "I
know he's your son and all, but—"
"And you know
he's all I've got left. His mother . . ." Clay laughed, a single humorless bark.
"His mother. Sharon. It's ironic, really. After all the worry I put in
about Johnny getting a blast from that goddam little red rattlesnake. If
I had to pick one, I would have picked her." There, it was out. Like a chunk of
meat that had been caught in his throat and was threatening to block his
windpipe. "And you know how that makes me feel? Like I offered to make a deal
with the devil, and the devil actually came through for me."
Tom ignored
this. When he spoke, he did so carefully, as if he were afraid of setting Clay
off like an unexploded land mine. "They hate us. They started off hating
everyone and progressed to just hating us. Whatever's going on up there in
Kashwak, if it's their idea, it can't be good."
"If they're
rebooting to some higher level, they may get to a live-and-let-live plane," Clay
said. All of this was pointless, surely they both must see that. He had
to go.
"I doubt it,"
Jordan said. "Remember that stuff about the chute leading to the
slaughterhouse?"
"Clay, we're
normies and that's strike one," Tom said. "We torched one of their flocks. That's strike two and
strike three combined. Live and let live won't apply to us."
"Why should it?"
Jordan added. "The Raggedy Man says we're insane."
"And not to be
touched," Clay said. "So I should be fine, right?"
After that there
didn't seem to be any more to say.
7
Tom and Jordan had decided to strike out
due west, across New Hampshire and into Vermont, putting KASHWAK=NO-FO at
their backs— and over the horizon—as soon as possible. Clay said that Route 11,
which made an elbow-bend at Kent Pond, would serve them both as a
starting-point. "It'll take me north to 160," he said, "and you guys can follow
it all the way to Laconia, in the middle of New Hampshire. It's not exactly a
direct route, but what the hell—you don't exactly have a plane to catch, have
you?"
Jordan dug the
heels of his hands into his eyes, rubbed them, then brushed the hair back from
his forehead, a gesture Clay had come to know well—it signaled tiredness and
distraction. He would miss it. He would miss Jordan. And Tom even more.
"I wish Alice
was still here," Jordan said. "She'd talk you out of this."
"She wouldn't,"
Clay said. Still, he wished with all his heart that Alice could have had her
chance. He wished with all his heart that Alice could have had her chance at a
lot of things. Fifteen was no age at which to die.
"Your current
plans remind me of act four in Julius Caesar," Tom said. "In act five,
everyone falls on their swords." They were now making their way around (and
sometimes over) the stalled cars jamming Pond Street. The emergency lights of
the Town Hall were slowly receding behind them. Ahead was the dead traffic light
marking the center of town, swaying in a slight breeze.
"Don't be such a
fucking pessimist," Clay said. He had promised himself not to become annoyed—he
wouldn't part with his friends that way if he could possibly help it—but his
resolve was being tried.
"Sorry I'm too
tired to cheerlead," Tom said. He stopped beside a road-sign reading JCT
RT 112 MI. "And—may I be frank?—too heartsick at losing
you."
"Tom, I'm
sorry."
"If I thought
there was one chance in five that you had a happy ending in store . . . hell,
one in fifty . . . well, never mind." Tom shone his flashlight at
Jordan. "What about you? Any final arguments against this madness?"
Jordan
considered, then shook his head slowly. "The Head told me something once," he
said. "Do you want to hear it?"
Tom made an
ironic little salute with his flashlight. The beam skipped off the marquee of
the Ioka, which had been showing the new Tom Hanks picture, and the pharmacy
next door. "Have at it."
"He said the
mind can calculate, but the spirit yearns, and the heart knows what the heart
knows."
"Amen," Clay
said. He said it very softly.
They walked east
on Market Street, which was also Route 19A, for two miles. After the first mile,
the sidewalks ended and the farms began. At the end of the second there was
another dead stoplight and a sign marking the Route 11 junction. There were
three people sitting bundled up to the neck in sleeping bags at the crossroads.
Clay recognized one of them as soon as he put the beam of his flashlight on him:
an elderly gent with a long, intelligent face and graying hair pulled back in a
ponytail. The Miami Dolphins cap the other man was wearing looked familiar, too.
Then Tom put his beam on the woman next to Mr. Ponytail and said,
"You."
Clay couldn't
tell if she was wearing a Harley-Davidson T-shirt with cutoff sleeves, the
sleeping bag was pulled up too high for that, but he knew there was one in the
little pile of packs lying near the Route 11 sign if she wasn't. Just as he knew
she was pregnant. He had dreamed of these two in the Whispering Pines Motel, two
nights before Alice had been killed. He had dreamed of them in the long field,
under the lights, standing on the platforms.
The man with the
gray hair stood up, letting his sleeping bag slither down his body. There were
rifles with their gear, but he raised his hands to show they were empty. The
woman did the same, and when the sleeping bag dropped to her feet, there was no
doubt about her pregnancy. The guy in the Dolphins cap was tall and about forty.
He also raised his hands.
The three of
them stood that way for a few seconds in the beams of the flashlights, and then
the gray-haired man took a pair of black-rimmed spectacles from the breast
pocket of his wrinkled shirt and put them on. His breath puffed out white in the
chilly night air, rising to the Route 11 sign, where arrows pointed both west
and north.
"Well, well," he
said. "The President of Harvard said you'd probably come this way, and here you
are. Smart fellow, the President of Harvard, although a trifle young for the
job, and in my opinion he could use some plastic surgery before going out to
meet with potential big-ticket donors."
"Who are you?"
Clay asked.
"Get that light
out of my face, young man, and I'll be happy to tell you."
Tom and Jordan
lowered their flashlights. Clay also lowered his, but kept one hand on the butt
of Beth Nickerson's .45.
"I'm Daniel
Hartwick, of Haverhill, Mass," the gray-haired man said. "The young lady is
Denise Link, also of Haverhill. The gentleman on her right is Ray Huizenga, of
Groveland, a neighboring town."
"Meetcha," Ray
Huizenga said. He made a little bow that was funny, charming, and awkward. Clay
let his hand fall off the butt of his gun.
"But our names
don't actually matter anymore," Daniel Hartwick said. "What matters is what we
are, at least as far as the phoners are concerned." He looked at them
gravely. "We are insane. Like you."
8
Denise and Ray rustled a small meal over a
propane cooker ("These canned sausages don't taste too bad if you boil em up
ha'aad," Ray said) while they talked—while Dan talked, mostly. He began by
telling them it was twenty past two in the morning, and at three he intended to
have his "brave little band" back on the road. He said he wanted to make as many
miles as possible before daylight, when the phoners started moving
around.
"Because they do
not come out at night," he said. "We have that much going for us. Later,
when their programming is complete, or nears completion, they may be able
to, but—"
"You agree
that's what's happening?" Jordan asked. For the first time since Alice had died,
he looked engaged. He grasped Dan's arm. "You agree that they're rebooting, like
computers whose hard drives have been—"
"—wiped, yes,
yes," Dan said, as if this were the most elementary thing in the
world.
"Are you—were
you—a scientist of some sort?" Tom asked.
Dan gave him a
smile. "I was the entire sociology department at Haverhill Arts and Technical,"
he said. "If the President of Harvard has a worst nightmare, that would be
me."
Dan Hartwick,
Denise Link, and Ray Huizenga had destroyed not just one flock but two. The
first, in the back lot of a Haverhill auto junkyard, they had stumbled on by
accident, when there had been half a dozen in their group and they were trying
to find a way out of the city. That had been two days after the onset of the
Pulse, when the phone-people had still been the phone-crazies, confused and as
apt to kill each other as any wandering normies they encountered. That first had
been a small flock, only about seventy-five, and they had used
gasoline.
"The second
time, in Nashua, we used dynamite from a construction-site shed," Denise said.
"We'd lost Charlie, Ralph, and Arthur by then. Ralph and Arthur just took off on
their own. Charlie—poor old Charlie had a heart attack. Anyhow, Ray knew how to
rig the dynamite, from when he worked on a road crew."
Ray, hunkered
over his cooker and stirring the beans next to the sausages, raised his free
hand and gave it a flip.
"After that,"
Dan Hartwick said, "we began to see those Kashwak No-Fo signs. Sounded good to
us, didn't it, Denni?"
"Yep," Denise
said. "Olly-olly-in-for-free. We were headed north, same as you, and when we
started seeing those signs, we headed north faster. I was the only one who
didn't absolutely love the idea, because I lost my husband during the Pulse.
Those fucks are the reason my kid's going to grow up not knowing his daddy." She
saw Clay wince and said, "Sorry. We know your boy's gone to
Kashwak."
Clay
gaped.
"Oh yes," Dan
said, taking a plate as Ray began passing them around. "The President of Harvard
knows all, sees all, has dossiers on all. . . or so he'd like us to believe." He gave Jordan a
wink, and Jordan actually grinned.
"Dan talked me
around," Denise said. "Some terrorist group—or maybe just a couple of inspired
nutcases working in a garage—set this thing off, but no one had any idea it
would lead to this. The phoners are just playing out their part in it. They
weren't responsible when they were insane, and they aren't really responsible
now, because—"
"Because they're
in the grip of some group imperative," Tom said. "Like migration."
"It's a group
imperative, but it ain't migration," Ray said, sitting down with his own plate.
"Dan says it's pure survival. I think he's right. Whatever it is, we gotta find
a place to get in out of the rain. You know?"
"The dreams
started coming after we burned the first flock," Dan said. "Powerful dreams.
Ecce homo, insanus—very Harvard. Then, after we bombed the Nashua flock,
the President of Harvard showed up in person with about five hundred of his
closest friends." He ate in quick, neat bites.
"And left a lot
of melted boomboxes on your doorstep," Clay said.
"Some were
melted," Denise said. "Mostly what we got were bits and pieces." She smiled. It
was a thin smile. "That was okay. Their taste in music sucks."
"You call him
the President of Harvard, we call him the Raggedy Man," Tom said. He had set his
plate aside and opened his pack. He rummaged and brought out the drawing Clay
had made on the day the Head had been forced to kill himself. Denise's eyes got
round. She passed the drawing to Ray Huizenga, who whistled.
Dan took it last
and looked up at Tom with new respect. "You drew this?"
Tom pointed to
Clay.
"You're very
talented," Dan said.
"I took a course
once," Clay said. "Draw Fluffy." He turned to Tom, who also kept their maps in
his pack. "How far is it between Gaiten and Nashua?"
"Thirty miles,
tops."
Clay nodded and
turned back to Dan Hartwick. "And did he speak to you? The guy in the red
hoodie?"
Dan looked at
Denise and she looked away. Ray turned back to his little cooker—presumably to
shut it down and pack it up—and Clay understood. "Which one of you did he speak
through?"
"Me," Dan said.
"It was horrible. Have you experienced it?"
"Yeah. You can
stop it from happening, but not if you want to know what's on his mind. Does he
do it to show how strong he is, do you think?"
"Probably," Dan
said, "but I don't think that's all. I don't think they can talk. They can
vocalize, and I'm sure they think—although not as they did, it would be a
terrible mistake to think of them as having human thoughts—but I don't think
they can actually speak words."
"Yet," Jordan
said.
"Yet," Dan
agreed. He glanced at his watch, and that prompted Clay to look at his own. It
was already quarter to three.
"He told us to
go north," Ray said. "He told us Kashwak No-Fo. He said our flock-burnin days
were over because they were settin up guards—"
"Yes, we saw
some in Rochester," Tom said.
"And you've seen
plenty of Kashwak No-Fo signs."
They
nodded.
"Purely as a
sociologist, I began to question those signs," Dan said. "Not how they began—I'm
sure the first No-Fo signs were posted soon after the Pulse, by survivors who'd
decided a place like that, where there was no cell phone coverage, would be the
best place on earth to go. What I questioned was how the idea—and the
graffiti—could spread so quickly in a cata-strophically fragmented society where
all normal forms of communication—other than my mouth to your ear, of course—had
broken down. The answer seemed clear, once one admitted that a new form
of communication, available to only one group, had entered the
picture."
"Telepathy."
Jordan almost whispered the word. "Them. The phoners. They want us
to go north to Kashwak." He turned his frightened eyes to Clay. "It really is
a frigging slaughterhouse chute. Clay, you can't go up there! This is
all the Raggedy Man's idea!"
Before Clay
could respond, Dan Hartwick was speaking again. He did it with a teacher's
natural assumptions: lecturing was his responsibility, interruption his
privilege.
"I'm afraid I
really must hurry this along, sorry. We have something to show you—something the
President of Harvard has demanded we show you, actually—"
"In your dreams,
or in person?" Tom asked.
"Our dreams,"
Denise said quietly. "We've only seen him once in person since we burned the
flock in Nashua, and that was at a distance."
"Checkin up on
us," Ray said. "That's what I think."
Dan waited with
a look of exasperated patience for this exchange to conclude. When it had, he
resumed. "We were willing to comply, since this was on our way—"
"You're going
north, then?" Clay was the one to interrupt this time.
Dan, looking
more exasperated now, flicked another quick glance at his watch. "If you look at
that route-sign closely, you'll see that it offers a choice. We intend to go
west, not north."
"Fuckin right,"
Ray muttered. "I may be stupid, but I'm not crazy."
"What I show you
will be for our purposes rather than theirs," Dan said. "And by the way, talking
about the President of Harvard—or the Raggedy Man, if you prefer—showing up in
person is probably a mistake. Maybe a bad one. He's really no more than a
pseudopod that the group mind, the overflock, puts out front to do business with
ordinary normies and special insane normies like us. I theorize that there are
overflocks all over the world now, and each may have put forward such a
pseudopod. Maybe even more than one. But don't make the mistake of thinking that
when you're talking to your Raggedy Man you're talking to an actual man.
You're talking to the flock."
"Why don't you
show us what he wants us to see?" Clay asked. He had to work to sound calm. His
mind was roaring. The one clear thought in it was that if he could get to his
son before Johnny got to Kashwak—and whatever was going on there—he might still
have a chance to save him. Rationality told him that Johnny must be in Kashwak
already, but another voice (and it wasn't entirely irrational) said something
might have held up Johnny and whatever group he was traveling with. Or they
might have gotten cold feet. It was possible. It was even possible that nothing
more sinister than segregation was going on up there in TR-90, that the phone-people were just creating a rez
for normies. In the end, he supposed it went back to what Jordan had said,
quoting Headmaster Ardai: the mind could calculate, but the spirit
yearned.
"Come this way,"
Dan said. "It's not far." He produced a flashlight and began walking up the
shoulder of Route 11—North with the beam aimed at his feet.
"Pardon me if I
don't go," Denise said. "I've seen. Once was enough."
"I think this
was supposed to please you, in a way," Dan said. "Of course it was also supposed
to underline the point—to my little group as well as yours—that the phoners are
now the ones with the power, and they are to be obeyed." He stopped. "Here we
are; in this particular sleep-o-gram, the President of Harvard made very sure we
all saw the dog, so we couldn't get the wrong house." The flashlight beam nailed
a roadside mailbox with a collie painted on the side. "I'm sorry Jordan has to
see this, but it's probably best that you know what you're dealing with." He
raised his flashlight higher. Ray joined his beam to Dan's. They lit up the
front of a modest one-story wooden house, sitting neatly on a postage stamp of
lawn.
Gunner had been
crucified between the living room window and the front door. He was naked except
for a pair of bloodstained Joe Boxers. Nails big enough to be rail spikes jutted
from his hands, feet, forearms, and knees. Maybe they were rail spikes,
Clay thought. Sitting splay-legged at Gunner's feet was Harold. Like Alice when
they met her, Harold was wearing a bib of blood, but his hadn't come from his
nose. The wedge of glass he'd used to cut his throat after crucifying his
running buddy still twinkled in one hand.
Hung around
Gunner's neck on a loop of string was a piece of cardboard with three words
scrawled on it in dark capital letters: JUSTITIA EST
COMMODATUM.
9
"In case you don't read Latin—" Dan
Hartwick began.
"I remember
enough from high school to read that," Tom said. " 'Justice is served.' This is
for killing Alice. For daring to touch one of the untouchables."
"Right you are,"
Dan said, snapping off his light. Ray did the same. "It also serves as a warning to others. And
they didn't kill them, although they most certainly could
have."
"We know," Clay
said. "They took reprisals in Gaiten after we burned their flock."
"They did the
same in Nashua," Ray said somberly. "I'll remember the screams until my dyin
day. Fuckin horrible. This shit is, too." He gestured toward the dark shape of
the house. "They got the little one to crucify the big one, and the big one to
hold still for it. And when it was done, they got the little one to cut his own
throat."
"It's like with
the Head," Jordan said, and took Clay's hand.
"That's the
power of their minds," Ray said, "and Dan thinks that's part of what's sendin
everybody north to Kashwak—maybe part of what kept us movin north even
when we told ourselves it was only to show you this and persuade you to hook up
with us. You know?"
Clay said, "Did
the Raggedy Man tell you about my son?"
"No, but if he
had I'm sure it would have been that he's with the other normies, and that you
and he will have a happy reunion in Kashwak," Dan said. "You know, just forget
about those dreams of standing on a platform while the President tells the
cheering crowd you're insane, that ending's not for you, it can't be for you.
I'm sure by now you've thought of all the possible happy-ending scenarios, the
chief one being how Kashwak and who knows how many other cell phone dead zones
are the normie equivalent of wildlife refuges, places where folks who didn't get
a blast on the day of the Pulse will be left alone. I think what your young
friend said about the chute leading to the slaughterhouse is far more likely,
but even supposing normies are to be left alone up there, do you think
the phoners will forgive people like us? The flock-killers?"
Clay had no
answer for this.
In the dark, Dan
looked at his watch again. "It's gone three," he said. "Let's walk back. Denise
will have us packed up by now. The time has come when we've either got to part
company or decide to go on together."
But when you
talk about going on together, you're asking me to part company
from my son,
Clay thought. And that he
would never do unless he discovered Johnny-Gee was dead.
Or changed.
10
"How can you hope to get west?" Clay asked
as they walked back to the junction sign. "The nights still may be ours for a
while, but the days belong to them, and you see what they can do."
"I'm almost
positive we can keep them out of our heads when we're awake," Dan said. "It
takes a little work, but it can be done. We'll sleep in shifts, at least for a
while. A lot depends on keeping away from the flocks."
"Which means
getting into western New Hampshire and then into Vermont as fast as we can," Ray
said. "Away from built-up areas." He shone his light on Denise, who was
reclining on the sleeping bags. "We set, darlin?"
"All set," she
said. "I just wish you'd let me carry something."
"You're carryin
your kid," Ray said fondly. "That's enough. And we can leave the sleepin
bags."
Dan said, "There
are places where driving may actually make sense. Ray thinks some of the back
roads could be clear for as much as a dozen miles at a stretch. We've got good
maps." He dropped to one knee and shouldered his pack, looking up at Clay with a
small and bitter half-smile as he did it. "I know the chances aren't good; I'm
not a fool, in case you wondered. But we wiped out two of their flocks, killed
hundreds of them, and I don't want to wind up on one of those
platforms."
"We've got
something else going for us," Tom said. Clay wondered if Tom realized he'd just
put himself in the Hartwick camp. Probably. He was far from stupid. "They want
us alive."
"Right," Dan
said. "We might really make it. This is still early times for them, Clay—they're
still weaving their net, and I'm betting there are plenty of holes in
it."
"Hell, they
haven't even changed their clothes yet," Denise said. Clay admired her. She
looked like she was six months along, maybe more, but she was a tough little
thing. He wished Alice could have met her.
"We could
slip through," Dan said. "Cross into Canada from Vermont or New York, maybe.
Five is better than three, but six would be better than five—three to sleep,
three to stand watch in the days, fight off the bad telepathy. Our own little
flock. So what do you say?"
Clay shook his
head slowly. "I'm going after my son."
"Think it over,
Clay," Tom said. "Please."
"Let him alone,"
Jordan said. "He's made up his mind." He put his arms around Clay and hugged
him. "I hope you find him," he said. "But even if you do, I guess you'll never
find us again."
"Sure I will,"
Clay said. He kissed Jordan on the cheek, then stood back. "I'll hogtie me a
telepath and use him like a compass. Maybe the Raggedy Man himself." He turned
to Tom and held out his hand.
Tom ignored it
and put his arms around Clay. He kissed him first on one cheek, then the other.
"You saved my life," he whispered into Clay's ear. His breath was hot and
ticklish. His cheek rasped against Clay's. "Let me save yours. Come with
us."
"I can't, Tom. I
have to do this."
Tom stood back
and looked at him. "I know," he said. "I know you do." He wiped his eyes.
"Goddam, I suck at goodbyes. I couldn't even say goodbye to my fucking
cat."
11
Clay stood beside the junction sign and
watched their lights dwindle. He kept his eyes fixed on Jordan's, and it was the
last to disappear. For a moment or two it was alone at the top of the first hill
to the west, a single small spark in the black, as if Jordan had paused there to
look back. It seemed to wave. Then it was also gone, and the darkness was
complete. Clay sighed—an unsteady, tearful sound—then shouldered his own pack
and started walking north along the dirt shoulder of Route 11. Around quarter to
four he crossed the North Berwick town line and left Kent Pond
behind.
PHONE-BINGO
1
There was no reason not to resume a more
normal life and start traveling days; Clay knew the phone-people wouldn't hurt
him. He was off-limits and they actually wanted him up there in Kashwak.
The problem was he'd become habituated to a nighttime existence. All I need
is a coffin and a cape to wrap around myself when I lie down in it, he
thought.
When dawn came
up red and cold on the morning after his parting from Tom and Jordan, he was on
the outskirts of Springvale. There was a little house, probably a caretaker's
cottage, next to the Springvale Logging Museum. It looked cozy. Clay forced the
lock on the side door and let himself in. He was delighted to find both a
woodstove and a hand-pump in the kitchen. There was also a shipshape little
pantry, well stocked and untouched by foragers. He celebrated this find with a
large bowl of oatmeal, using powdered milk, adding heaps of sugar, and
sprinkling raisins on top.
In the pantry he
also found concentrated bacon and eggs in foil packets, stored as neatly on
their shelf as paperback books. He cooked one of these and stuffed his pack with
the rest. It was a much better meal than he had expected, and once in the back
bedroom, Clay fell asleep almost immediately.
2
There were long tents on both sides of the
highway.
This wasn't
Route 11 with its farms and towns and open fields, with its pump-equipped
convenience store every fifteen miles or so, but a highway somewhere out in the williwags. Deep woods
crowded all the way up to the roadside ditches. People stood in long lines on
both sides of the white center-stripe.
Left and
right, an amplified voice was calling. Left and right, form two
lines.
It sounded a
little like the amplified voice of the bingo-caller at the Akron State Fair, but
as Clay drew closer, walking up the road's center-stripe, he realized all the
amplification was going on in his head. It was the voice of the Raggedy Man.
Only the Raggedy Man was just a—what had Dan called him?—just a pseudopod. And
what Clay was hearing was the voice of the flock.
Left and
right, two lines, that's correct. That's doing it.
Where am I?
Why doesn't anybody look at me, say "Hey buddy, no cutting in front, wait your
turn"?
Up ahead the two
lines curved off to either side like turnpike exit ramps, one going into the
tent on the left side of the road, one going into the tent on the right. They
were the kind of long tents caterers put up to shade outdoor buffets on hot
afternoons. Clay could see that just before each line reached the tents, the
people were splitting into ten or a dozen shorter lines. Those people looked
like fans waiting to have their tickets ripped so they could go into a concert
venue.
Standing in the middle of the road at the
point where the double line split and curved off to the right and the left,
still wearing his threadbare red hoodie, was the Raggedy Man
himself.
Left and
right, ladies and gentlemen. Mouth not moving. Telepathy that was all jacked
up, amped by the power of the flock. Move right along.
Everyone gets a
chance to call a loved one before you go into the no-fo zone.
That gave Clay a
shock, but it was the shock of the known—like the punchline of a good joke you'd
heard for the first time ten or twenty years ago. "Where is this?" he asked the
Raggedy Man. "What are you doing? What the hell is going on?"
But the Raggedy
Man didn't look at him, and of course Clay knew why. This was where Route 160
entered Kashwak, and he was visiting it in a dream. As for what was going on . .
.
It's
phone-bingo, he thought. It's phone-bingo, and those are the tents where
the game is played.
Let's keep it
moving, ladies and gents, the Raggedy Man sent. We've got two hours until
sunset, and we want to process as many of you as we can before we have to quit
for the night.
Process.
Was this
a dream?
Clay followed
the line curving toward the pavilion-style tent on the left side of the road,
knowing what he was going to see even before he saw it. At the head of each
shorter line stood one of the phone-people, those connoisseurs of Lawrence Welk,
Dean Martin, and Debby Boone. As each person in line reached the front, the
waiting usher—dressed in filthy clothes, often much more horribly disfigured by
the survival-struggles of the last eleven days than the Raggedy Man—would hold
out a cell phone.
As Clay watched,
the man closest to him took the offered phone, punched it three times, then held
it eagerly to his ear. "Hello?" he said. "Hello, Ma? Ma? Are you th—"
Then he fell silent. His eyes emptied and slackness loosened his face. The cell
sagged away from his ear slightly. The facilitator—that was the best word Clay
could think of—took the phone back, gave the man a push to start him forward,
and motioned for the next person in line to step forward.
Left and
right, the Raggedy Man was calling. Keep it moving.
The guy who'd
been trying to call his mom plodded out from beneath the pavilion. Beyond it,
Clay saw, hundreds of other people were milling around. Sometimes someone would
get in someone else's way and there would be a little weak slapping. Nothing
like before, however. Because—
Because the
signal's been modified.
Left and
right, ladies and gentlemen, keep it moving, we've got a lot of you to get
through before dark.
Clay saw Johnny.
He was wearing jeans, his Little League hat, and his favorite Red Sox T-shirt,
the one with Tim Wakefield's name and number on the back. He had just reached
the head of the line two stations down from where Clay was standing.
Clay ran for
him, but at first his path was blocked. "Get out of my way!" he shouted, but of
course the man in his way, who was shuffling nervously from foot to foot as if
he needed to go to the bathroom, couldn't hear him. This was a dream and
besides, Clay was a normie—he had no telepathy.
He darted
between the restless man and the woman behind him. He pushed through the next
line as well, too fixated on reaching Johnny to know if the people he was
pushing had substance or not. He reached Johnny just as a woman—he saw with
mounting horror that it was Mr. Scottoni's daughter-in-law, still pregnant but
now missing an eye— handed the boy a Motorola cell phone.
Just dial
911, she said without moving her mouth. All calls go through
911.
"No, Johnny,
don't!" Clay shouted, and grabbed for the phone as Johnny-Gee began punching
in the number, surely one he'd been taught long ago to call if he was ever in
trouble. "Don't do that!"
Johnny turned to
his left, as if to shield his call from the pregnant facilitator's one dully
staring eye, and Clay missed. He probably couldn't have stopped Johnny in any
case. This was a dream, after all.
Johnny finished
(punching three keys didn't take long), pushed the SEND button, and put the
phone to his ear. "Hello? Dad? Dad, are you there? Can you hear me? If you can
hear me, please come get m—" Turned away as he was, Clay could only see
one of his son's eyes, but one was enough when you were watching the lights go
out. Johnny's shoulders slumped. The phone sagged away from his ear. Mr.
Scottoni's daughter-in-law snatched the phone from him with a dirty hand, then
gave Johnny-Gee an unloving push on the back of the neck to get him moving into
Kashwak, along with all the others who had come here to be safe. She motioned
for the next person in line to come forward and make his call.
Left and
right, form two lines, the Raggedy Man thundered in the middle of Clay's
head, and he woke up screaming his son's name in the caretaker's cottage as
late-afternoon light streamed in the windows.
3
At midnight Clay reached the little town of
North Shapleigh. By then a nasty cold rain that was almost sleet—what Sharon had
called "Slurpee rain"—had begun to fall. He heard oncoming motors and stepped
off the highway (still good old Route 11; no dream highway here) onto the tarmac
of a 7-Eleven store. When the headlights showed, turning the drizzle to silver
lines, it was a pair of sprinters running side by side, actually racing in the
dark. Madness. Clay stood behind a gas pump, not exactly hiding but not going
out of his way to be seen, either. He watched them fly past like a vision of the
gone world, sending up thin sprays of water. One of the racers looked like a
vintage Corvette, although with only a single failing emergency light on the
corner of the store to see by, it was impossible to tell for sure. The racers
shot beneath North Shapleigh's entire traffic-control system (a dead blinker),
were neon cherries in the dark for a moment, then were gone.
Clay thought
again: Madness. And as he swung back onto the shoulder of the road:
You're a fine one to talk about madness.
True. Because
his phone-bingo dream hadn't been a dream, or not entirely a dream. He
was sure of it. The phoners were using their strengthening telepathic abilities
to keep track of as many of the flock-killers as they could. That only made
sense. They might have a problem with groups like Dan Hartwick's, ones that
actually tried to fight them, but he doubted if they were having any trouble
with him. The thing was, the telepathy was also oddly like a phone—it seemed to
work both ways. Which made him . . . what? The ghost in the machine? Something
like that. While they were keeping an eye on him, he was able to keep an eye on
them. At least in his sleep. In his dreams.
Were there
actual tents at the Kashwak border, with normies lining up to get their brains
blasted? Clay thought there were, both in Kashwak and places like Kashwak
all over the country and the world. Business would be slowing down by now, but
the checkpoints—the changing-points— might still be there.
The
phoners used group-speak telepathy to coax the normies into coming. To dream
them into coming. Did that make the phoners smart, calculating? Not unless
you called a spider smart because it could spin a web, or an alligator
calculating because it could lie still and look like a log. Walking north along
Route 11 toward Route 160, the road that would take him to Kashwak, Clay thought
the telepathic signal the phoners sent out like a low siren-call (or a pulse)
must contain at least three separate messages.
Come, and
you'll be safe—your
struggle to survive can cease.
Come, and
you'II be with your own kind, in your own place.
Come, and you
can speak to your loved ones.
Come. Yes.
Bottom line. And once you got close enough, any choice ceased. That telepathy
and the dream of safety just took you over. You lined up. You listened as the
Raggedy Man told you to keep it moving, everyone gets to call a loved one but
we've got a lot of you to process before the sun goes down and we crank up Bette
Midler singing "The Wind Beneath My Wings."
And how could
they continue doing this, even though the lights had failed and the cities had
burned and civilization had slid into a pit of blood? How could they go on
replacing the millions of phoners lost in the original convulsion and in the
destruction of the flocks that had followed? They could continue because the
Pulse wasn't over. Somewhere—in that outlaw lab or nutcase's garage—some gadget
was still running on batteries, some modem was still putting out its squealing,
insane signal. Sending it up to the satellites that flew around the globe or to
the microwave relay towers that cinched it like a steel belt. And where could
you call and be sure your call would still go through, even if the voice
answering was only on a battery-powered answering machine?
911,
apparently.
And that had
almost certainly happened to Johnny-Gee.
He knew
it had. He was already too late.
So why was he
still walking north through the drizzling dark? Up ahead was Newfield, not far,
and there he'd leave Route 11 for Route 160, and he had an idea that not too far
up Route 160 his days of reading road-signs (or anything else) would be done, so
why!
But he knew why,
just as he knew that distant crash and the short, faint blare of horn he heard
ahead of him in the rainy darkness meant that one of the racing sprinters had
come to grief. He was going on because of the note on the storm door, held by
less than a quarter-inch of tape when he'd rescued it; all the rest had pulled
free. He was going on because of the second one he'd found on the Town Hall
bulletin board, half-hidden by Iris Nolan's hopeful note to her sister. His son
had written the same thing both times, in capital letters: PLEASE COME GET
ME.
If he was too
late to get Johnny, he might not be too late to see him and tell him he'd tried. He might be able
to hold on to enough of himself long enough to do that even if they made him use
one of the cell phones.
As for the
platforms, and the thousands of watching people—
"There's no
football stadium in Kashwak," he said.
In his mind,
Jordan whispered: It's a virtual stadium.
Clay pushed it
aside. Pushed it away. He had made his decision. It was madness, of course, but
it was a mad world now, and that put him in perfect sync.
4
At quarter to three that morning, footsore
and damp in spite of the hooded parka he had liberated from the caretaker's
cottage in Springvale, Clay came to the intersection of Routes 11 and 160. There
had been a major pileup at the crossroads, and the Corvette that had gone racing
past him in North Shapleigh was now part of it. The driver hung out the severely
compressed window on the left side, head down and arms dangling, and when Clay
tried to lift the man's face to see if he was still alive, the top half of his
body fell into the road, trailing a meaty coil of guts behind. Clay reeled away
to a telephone pole, planted his suddenly hot forehead against the wood, and
vomited until there was nothing left.
On the other
side of the intersection, where 160 took off into the north country, stood the
Newfield Trading Post. A sign in the window promised CANDIES NATIVE SIRUP INDIAN
CRAFTS "NICK-NACKS." It looked as if it had been trashed as well as looted, but
it was shelter from the rain and away from the casual, unexpected horror he had
just encountered. Clay went in and sat down with his head lowered until he no
longer felt like fainting. There were bodies, he could smell them, but someone
had thrown a tarp over all but two, and at least those two weren't in pieces.
The joint's beer cooler was smashed and empty, the Coke machine only smashed. He
took a ginger ale and drank it in long, slow swallows, pausing to belch. After a
while he began to feel a little better.
He missed his
friends desperately. The unfortunate out there and whomever he'd been racing
were the only sprinters he'd seen all night, and he'd encountered no groups of
walking refugees at all. He'd spent the entire night with only his thoughts for
company. Maybe the weather was keeping the walkers inside, or maybe now they
were traveling days. No reason for them not to, if the phoners had switched from
murder to conversion.
He realized he
hadn't heard any of what Alice had called flockmusic tonight. Maybe all
the flocks were south of here, except for the big one (he assumed it must be a
big one) administering the Kashwak Konversions. Clay didn't much care; even
alone as he was, he would still take his vacation from "I Hope You Dance" and
"The Theme from A Summer Place" as a little gift.
He decided to
walk another hour at most, then find a hole to crawl into. The cold rain was
killing him. He left the Newfield Trading Post, resolutely not looking at the
crashed Corvette or the soaked remains lying beside it.
5
He ended up walking until nearly daylight,
partly because the rain let up but mostly because there wasn't much in the way
of shelter on Route 160, just woods. Then, around four thirty, he passed a
bullet-pocked sign reading ENTERING GURLEYVILLE, AN UNINCORPORATED TOWNSHIP. Ten
minutes or so after that he passed Gurleyville's raison d'être, such as it
was—the Gurleyville Quarry, a huge rock pit with a few sheds, dump trucks, and a
garage at the foot of its gouged granite walls. Clay thought briefly about
spending the night in one of the equipment sheds, decided he could do better,
and pushed on. He had still seen no pilgrims and heard no flockmusic, even at a
distance. He could have been the last person on earth.
He wasn't. Ten
minutes or so after leaving the quarry behind, he topped a hill and saw a little
village below. The first building he came to was the Gurleyville Volunteer Fire
Department (don't forget the
haloween blood drive read
the notice board out front; it seemed that no one north of Springvale could
spell), and two of the phone-people were standing in the parking lot, facing
each other in front of a sad-looking old pumper that might have been new around
the time the Korean War ended.
They turned
slowly toward Clay when he put his flashlight beam on them, but then they turned away to regard
each other again. Both were male, one about twenty-five and the other maybe
twice that. There was no doubt they were phoners. Their clothes were filthy and
almost falling off. Their faces were cut and scraped. The younger man looked as
if he had sustained a serious burn all the way up one arm. The older man's left
eye glittered from deep inside folds of badly swollen and probably infected
flesh. But how they looked wasn't the main thing. The main thing was what Clay
felt in himself: that same weird shortness of breath he and Tom had
experienced in the office of the Gaiten Citgo, where they'd gone to get the keys
to the propane trucks. That sense of some powerful gathering force.
And it was
night. With the heavy cloud cover, dawn was still just a rumor. What were
these guys doing up at night}
Clay snapped off
his flashlight, drew the Nickerson .45, and watched to see if anything would
happen. For several seconds he thought nothing would, that the strange
out-of-breath feeling, that sense of something being on the verge of
happening, was going to be the extent of it. Then he heard a high whining sound,
almost like someone vibrating the blade of a saw between his palms. Clay looked
up and saw the electrical wires passing in front of the fire station were moving
rapidly back and forth, almost too fast to see.
"Go-way !" It was the young man, and he seemed to jerk the
words out with a tremendous effort. Clay jumped. If his finger had been on the
revolver's trigger, he would almost certainly have pulled it. This wasn't Aw
and Eeen, this was actual words. He thought he heard them in his head
as well, but faint, faint. Only a dying echo.
"You!. . .
Go!" the older man replied. He was wearing baggy Bermuda shorts with a huge
brown stain on the seat. It might have been mud or shit. He spoke with equal
effort, but this time Clay heard no echo in his head. Paradoxically, it made him
more sure he'd heard the first one.
They'd forgotten him entirely. Of
that much he was sure.
"Mine!"
said the younger man, once more jerking the word out. And he did jerk
it. His whole body seemed to flail with the effort. Behind him, several small
windows in the fire station's wide garage door shattered outward.
There was a long
pause. Clay watched, fascinated, Johnny completely out of his mind for the first
time since Kent Pond. The older man seemed to be thinking furiously,
struggling furiously, and what Clay thought he was struggling to do was
to express himself as he had before the Pulse had robbed him of
speech.
On top of the
volunteer fire station, which was nothing but a glorified garage, the siren went
off with a brief WHOOP, as if a phantom burst of electricity had surged
through it. And the lights of the ancient pumper— headlights and red
flashers—flicked briefly on, illuminating the two men and briefly scaring up
their shadows.
"Hell!
You say!" the older man managed. He spit the words out like a piece of meat
that had been choking him.
"Mynuck!"
the younger man nearly screamed, and in Clay's mind that same voice
whispered, My truck. It was simple, really. Instead of Twinkies, they
were fighting over the old pumper. Only this was at night—the end of it,
granted, but still full dark—and they were almost talking again. Hell, they
were talking.
But the talking
was done, it seemed. The young man lowered his head, ran at the older man, and
butted him in the chest. The older man went sprawling. The younger man tripped
over his legs and went to his knees. "Hell!" he cried.
"Fuck!"
cried the other. No question about it. You couldn't mistake fuck.
They picked
themselves up again and stood about fifteen feet apart. Clay could feel their
hate. It was in his head; it was pushing at his eyeballs, trying to get
out.
The young man
said, "That'n . . . mynuck!" And in Clay's head the young man's distant
voice whispered, That one is my truck.
The older man
drew in breath. Jerkily raised one scabbed-over arm. And shot the young man the
bird. "Sit. On this!" he said with perfect clarity.
The two of them
lowered their heads and rushed at each other. Their heads met with a thudding
crack that made Clay wince. This time all the windows in the garage blew out.
The siren on the roof gave a long war-cry before winding down. The fluorescent
lights in the station house flashed on, running for perhaps three
seconds on pure crazypower. There was a brief burst of music: Britney Spears
singing "Oops! . . . I Did It Again." Two power-lines snapped with liquid
twanging sounds and fell almost in front of Clay, who stepped back from them in
a hurry. Probably they were dead, they should be dead, but—
The older man
dropped to his knees with blood pouring down both sides of his head. "My
truck!" he said with perfect clarity, then fell on his face.
The younger one
turned to Clay, as if to recruit him as witness to his victory. Blood was
pouring out of his matted, filthy hair, between his eyes, in a double course
around his nose, and over his mouth. His eyes, Clay saw, weren't blank at all.
They were insane. Clay understood—all at once, completely and inarguably—that if
this was where the cycle led, his son was beyond saving.
"Mynuck!"
the young man shrieked. "Mynuck, mynuck!" The pumper's siren gave a
brief, winding growl, as if in agreement. "MYNU—"
Clay shot him,
then reholstered the .45. What the hell, he thought, they can only put
me up on a pedestal once. Still, he was shaking badly, and when he broke
into Gurleyville's only motel on the far side of town, it took him a long time
to go to sleep. Instead of the Raggedy Man, it was his son who visited him in
his dreams, a dirty, blank-eyed child who responded "Go-hell, mynuck"
when Clay called his name.
6
He woke from this dream long before dark,
but sleep was done for him and he decided to start walking again. And once he'd
cleared Gurleyville—what little of Gurleyville there was to clear—he'd drive.
There was no reason not to; Route 160 now seemed almost entirely clear and
probably had been since the nasty pileup where it crossed Route 11. He simply
hadn't noticed it in the dark and the rain.
The Raggedy
Man and his friends cleared the way, he thought.
Of course they did, it's the fucking cattle-chute. For me it probably is the
chute that leads to the slaughterhouse. Because I'm old business. They'd like to
stamp me PAID and stick me in the filing cabinet as soon as possible. Too bad
about Tom and Jordan and the other three. I
wonder if they found enough back roads to take them into central New Hampshire
y—
He topped a rise
and this thought broke off cleanly. Parked in the middle of the road below was a
little yellow schoolbus with MAINE SCHOOL DISTRICT 38 NEWFIELD
printed on the side. Leaning against it was a man and a boy. The man had his
arm around the boy's shoulders in a casual gesture of friendship Clay would have
known anywhere. As he stood there, frozen, not quite believing his eyes, another
man came around the schoolbus's blunt nose. He had long gray hair pulled back in
a ponytail. Following him was a pregnant woman in a T-shirt. It was powder blue
instead of Harley-Davidson black, but it was Denise, all right.
Jordan saw him
and called his name. He pulled free of Tom's arm and started running. Clay ran
to meet him. They met about thirty yards in front of the schoolbus.
"Clay!" Jordan
shouted. He was hysterical with joy. "It's really you!"
"It's me," Clay
agreed. He swung Jordan in the air, then kissed him. Jordan wasn't Johnny, but
Jordan would do, at least for the time being. He hugged him, then set him down
and studied the haggard face, not failing to note the brown circles of weariness
under Jordan's eyes. "How in God's name did you get here?"
Jordan's face
clouded. "We couldn't. . . that is, we only dreamed . . ."
Tom came
strolling up. Once again he ignored Clay's outstretched hand and hugged him
instead. "How you doin, van Gogh?" he asked.
"Okay. Fucking
delighted to see you guys, but I don't understand—"
Tom gave him a
smile. It was both tired and sweet, a white flag of a smile. "What
computer-boy's trying to tell you is that in the end we just didn't have any
choice. Come on down to the little yellow bus. Ray says that if the road stays
clear—and I'm sure it will—we can be in Kashwak by sundown, even traveling at
thirty miles an hour. Ever read The Haunting of Hill
House?"
Clay shook his
head, bewildered. "Saw the movie."
"There's a line
there that resonates in the current situation—'Journeys end in lovers meeting.'
Looks like I might get to meet your kid after all."
They walked down to the schoolbus. Dan
Hartwick offered Clay a tin of Altoids with a hand that was not quite
steady. Like Jordan and Tom, he looked exhausted. Clay, feeling like a man in a
dream, took one. End of the world or not, it was curiously strong.
"Hey, man," Ray
said. He was behind the wheel of the schoolbus, Dolphins cap tipped back, a
cigarette smoldering in one hand. He looked pale and drawn. He was staring out
through the windshield, not at Clay.
"Hey, Ray, what
do you say?" Clay asked.
Ray smiled
briefly. "Say I've heard that one a few times."
"Sure, probably
a few hundred. I'd tell you I'm glad to see you, but under the circumstances,
I'm not sure you'd want to hear it."
Still looking
out the windshield, Ray replied, "There's someone up there you'll definitely
not be glad to see."
Clay looked.
They all did. A quarter of a mile or so north, Route 160 crested another hill.
Standing there and looking at them, his harvard hoodie dirtier than ever but
still bright against the gray afternoon sky, was the Raggedy Man. Maybe fifty
other phoners surrounded him. He saw them looking. He raised his hand and waved
at them twice, side to side, like a man wiping a windshield. Then he turned and
began to walk away, his entourage (his flocklet, Clay thought) falling in
to either side of him in a kind of trailing Y Soon they were out of
sight.
WORM
1
They stopped at a picnic area a little
farther up the road. No one was very hungry, but it was a chance for Clay to ask
his questions. Ray didn't eat at all, just sat on the lip of a stone barbecue
pit downwind and smoked, listening. He added nothing to the conversation. To
Clay he seemed utterly disheartened.
"We think
we're stopping here," Dan said, gesturing to the little picnic area with its
border of firs and autumn-colored deciduous trees, its babbling brook and its
hiking trail with the sign at its head reading IF YOU GO TAKE A MAP! "We
probably are stopping here, because—" He looked at Jordan. "Would you
say we're stopping here, Jordan? You seem to have the clearest
perception."
"Yes," Jordan
said instantly. "This is real."
"Yuh," Ray said,
without looking up. "We're here, all right." He slapped his hand against the
rock of the barbecue pit, and his wedding ring produced a little
tink-tink-tink sound. "This is the real deal. We're together again,
that's all they wanted."
"I don't
understand," Clay said.
"Neither do we,
completely," Dan said.
"They're a lot
more powerful than I ever would have guessed," Tom said. "I understand that
much." He took off his glasses and polished them on his shirt. It was a tired,
distracted gesture. He looked ten years older than the man Clay had met in
Boston. "And they messed with our minds. Hard. We never had a
chance."
"You look
exhausted, all of you," Clay replied.
Denise laughed.
"Yeah? Well, we come by it honestly. We left you and took off on Route 11
westbound. Walked until we saw light starting to come up in the east. Grabbing
wheels didn't seem to make any sense, because the road was a freaking mess.
You'd get maybe a quarter of a mile clear, then—"
"Road-reefs, I
know," Clay said.
"Ray said it
would be better once we got west of the Spaulding Turnpike, but we decided to
spend the day in this place called the Twilight Motel."
"I've heard of
that place," Clay said. "On the edge of the Vaughan Woods. It's rather notorious
in my part of the world."
"Yeah? Okay."
She shrugged. "So we get there, and the kid—Jordan— says, 'I'm gonna make you
the biggest breakfast you ever ate.' And we say dream on, kid—which turned out
to be sort of funny, since that's what it was, in a way—but the power in
the place is on, and he does. He makes this huge freakin breakfast. We
all chip in. It's the Thanksgiving of breakfasts. Am I telling this
right?"
Dan, Tom, and
Jordan all nodded. Sitting on the barbecue pit, Ray just lit another
cigarette.
According to
Denise, they had eaten in the dining room, which Clay found fascinating because
he was positive the Twilight didn't have a dining room; it had been your
basic no-tell motel straddling the Maine-New Hampshire state line. Rumor had it
that the only amenities were cold-water showers and hot-running X-ies on the TVs
in the crackerbox rooms.
The story got
weirder. There had been a jukebox. No Lawrence Welk and Debby Boone, either; it
had been stuffed with hot stuff (including "Hot Stuff," by Donna Summer), and
instead of going directly to bed they had danced—arduously—for two or three
hours. Then, before turning in, they had eaten another vast meal, this time with
Denise donning the chef’s hat. After that, finally, they had
crashed.
"And dreamed of
walking," Dan said. He spoke with a beaten bitterness that was unsettling. This
wasn't the same man Clay had met two nights ago,
the one who'd said I'm almost positive we can keep them out of
our
heads when
we're awake and We
might really make it, this is still early times for them. Now he laughed a little, a sound with no
humor in it at all. "Man, we should have dreamed about it, because we
were. All that day we were walking."
"Not quite all
of it," Tom said. "I had a driving-dream . . ."
"Yeah, you
drove," Jordan said quietly. "Only for an hour or so, but you drove. That was
when we also dreamed we were sleeping in that motel. The Twilight place. I
dreamed of the driving, too. It was like a dream inside of a dream. Only that
one was real."
"You see?" Tom
said, smiling at Clay. He ruffled Jordan's heavy pelt. "On some level, Jordan
knew all along."
"Virtual
reality," Jordan said. "That's all it was. Like being in a video game, almost.
And it wasn't all that good." He looked north, in the direction the Raggedy Man
had disappeared. In the direction of Kashwak. "It'll get better if they get
better."
"Sons of bitches
can't do it at all after dark," Ray said. "They have to go fucking
beddy-bye."
"And at the end
of the day, so did we," Dan said. "That was their purpose. To wear us out so
completely that we couldn't figure out what was going on even when night came
and their control slipped. During the day the President of Harvard was always
close, along with a good-sized flock, sending out that mental force-field of
theirs, creating Jordan's virtual reality."
"Must have
been," Denise said. "Yeah."
All this had
been going on, Clay calculated, while he had been sleeping in the caretaker's
cottage.
"Wearing us out
wasn't all they wanted," Tom said. "Even turning us back north wasn't all they
wanted. They also wanted us all together again."
The five of them
had come to in a tumbledown motel on Route 47— Maine Route 47, not too
far south of Great Works. The sense of dislocation, Tom said, had been enormous.
The sound of flockmusic not too far distant had not helped. They all had a sense
of what must have happened, but it was Jordan who had verbalized it, as it had
been Jordan who'd pointed out the obvious: their escape attempt had failed. Yes,
they could
probably slip out of the
motel where they found themselves and start west again, but how far would they
get this time? They were exhausted. Worse, they were disheartened. It was also
Jordan who pointed out that the phoners might even have arranged for a few
normie spies to track their nighttime movements.
"We ate," Denise
said, "because we were starving as well as tired. Then we went to bed for real
and slept until the next morning."
"I was the first
one up," Tom said. "The Raggedy Man himself was standing in the courtyard. He
made a little bow to me and waved his hand at the road." Clay remembered the
gesture well. The road is yours. Go on and take it. "I could have shot
him, I suppose—I had Sir Speedy—but what good would that have done?"
Clay shook his
head. No good at all.
They had gotten
back on the road, first walking up Route 47. Then, Tom said, they'd felt
themselves mentally nudged onto an unmarked woods road that actually seemed to
meander southeast.
"No visions this
morning?" Clay asked. "No dreams?"
"Nope," Tom
said. "They knew we'd gotten the point. They can read minds, after
all."
"They heard us
yell uncle," Dan said in that same beaten, bitter tone. "Ray, do you happen to
have an extra cigarette? I quit, but maybe I'll take the habit up
again."
Ray tossed him
the pack without a word.
"It's like being
nudged by a hand, only inside your brain," Tom said. "Not at all nice. Intrusive
in a way I can't even begin to describe. And all this time there was the sense
of the Raggedy Man and his flock, moving with us. Sometimes we saw a few of them
through the trees; most times not."
"So they're not
just flocking early and late now," Clay said.
"No, all that's
changing," Dan said. "Jordan's got a theory—interesting, and with some evidence
to back it up. Besides, we constitute a special occasion." He lit his cigarette.
Inhaled. Coughed. "Shit, I knew there was a reason I gave these things up." And
then, with hardly a pause: "They can float, you know. Levitate. Must be a hell
of a handy way to get around with the roads so jammed. Like having a magic
carpet."
A mile or so up
the seemingly pointless woods road, the five of them had discovered a cabin with
a pickup parked in front. Keys in the truck. Ray drove; Tom and Jordan rode in
the truck-bed. None of them were surprised when the woods road eventually bent
north again. Just before it petered out, the navigation-beacon in their heads
sent them onto another, then a third that was little more than a track with
weeds growing up the middle. That one eventually drowned in a boggy patch where
the truck mired, but an hour's slog brought them out on Route 11, just south of
that highway's junction with 160.
"Couple of dead
phoners there," Tom said. "Fresh. Downed power-lines, snapped-off poles. The
crows were having a banquet."
Clay thought of
telling them what he'd seen at the Gurleyville Volunteer Fire Department, then
didn't. If it had any bearing on the present situation, he didn't see it.
Besides, there were plenty who weren't fighting with each other, and these had
kept forcing Tom and the others onward.
That force
hadn't led them to the little yellow bus; Ray had found it as a result of
exploring the Newfield Trading Post while the others were scrounging sodas from
the very same cooler Clay had raided. Ray saw it through a back
window.
They had stopped
only once since then, to build a fire on the granite floor of the Gurleyville
Quarry and eat a hot meal. They had also changed into fresh footwear from the
Newfield Trading Post—their bog-slog had left all of them muddy from the shins
down—and had an hour's rest. They must have driven past Clay at the Gurleyville
Motel right around the time he was waking up, because they were nudged to a stop
shortly after that.
"And here we
are," Tom said. "Case almost closed." He swept an arm at the sky, the land, the
trees. "Someday, son, all of this will be yours."
"That pushing
thing has gone out of my head, at least for the time being," Denise said. "I'm
grateful for that. The first day was the worst, you know? I mean, Jordan had the
clearest idea that something was wrong, but I think all of us knew it wasn't. .
. you know, really right."
"Yeah," Ray
said. He rubbed the back of his neck. "It was like being in a kid's story where
the birds and snakes talk. They say stuff like, 'You're okay, you're fine, never
mind that your legs are so tired, you're deenie-cool.' Deenie-cool, that's what
we used to say when I was growin up in Lynn."
" 'Lynn, Lynn,
city of sin, when you get to heaven, they won't let you in,' " Tom
chanted.
"You grew up
with the Christers, all right," Ray said. "Anyway, the kid knew better, I knew
better, I think we all knew fuckin better. If you had half a brain and
still thought you were gettin away—"
"I believed as
long as I could because I wanted to believe," Dan said, "but in truth? We never
had a chance. Other normies might, but not us, not flock-killers. They mean to
have us, no matter what happens to them."
"What do you
think they've got in mind for us?" Clay asked.
"Oh, death," Tom
said, almost without interest. "At least I'll be able to get some decent
sleep."
Clay's mind
finally caught up with a couple of things and latched on. Earlier in the
conversation, Dan had said their normal behavior was changing and Jordan had a
theory about it. Just now he'd said no matter what happens
to them.
"I saw a pair of
phoners go at each other not far from here," Clay finally told them.
"Did you," Dan
said, without much interest.
"At night,"
he added, and now they all looked at him. "They were fighting over a fire
truck. Like a couple of kids over a toy. I got some of that telepathy from one
of them, but they were both talking."
"Talking?"
Denise asked skeptically. "Like actual words?"
“Actual
words. The clarity was in and out, but they were definitely words. How many
fresh dead have you guys seen? Just those two?"
Dan said, "We've
probably seen a dozen since we woke up to where we really are." He looked at the
others. Tom, Denise, and Jordan nodded. Ray shrugged and lit another cigarette.
"But it's hard to tell about the cause of death. They might be reverting;
that fits Jordan's theory, although the talking doesn't seem to. They might've
just been corpses the flocks haven't gotten around to getting rid of.
Body-disposal isn't a priority with them right now."
"We're their priority, and they'll
be moving us along pretty soon," Tom said. "I don't think we get the . . . you
know, the big stadium treatment until tomorrow, but I'm pretty sure they want us
in Kashwak before dark tonight."
"Jordan, what's
your theory?" Clay asked.
Jordan said, "I
think there was a worm in the original program."
2
"I
don't understand," Clay
said, "but that's par for the course. When it came to computers, I could use
Word, Adobe Illustrator, and MacMail. After that I was pretty much illiterate.
Johnny had to walk me through the solitaire program that came with my Mac."
Talking about that hurt. Remembering Johnny's hand closing over his on the mouse
hurt more.
"But you know
what a computer worm is, right?"
"Something that
gets into your computer and screws up all the programs, right?"
Jordan rolled
his eyes but said, "Close enough. It can burrow in, corrupting your files and
your hard drive as it goes. If it gets into shareware and the stuff you send,
even e-mail attachments—and they do—it can go viral and spread. Sometimes a worm
has babies. The worm itself is a mutant and sometimes the babies mutate further.
Okay?"
"Okay."
"The Pulse was a
computer program sent out by modem—that's the only way it could work. And it's
still being sent out by modem. Only there was a worm in there, and it's
rotting out the program. It's becoming more corrupted every day. GIGO. Do you
know GIGO?"
Clay said, "I
don't even know the way to San Jose."
"Stands for
'garbage in, garbage out.' We think that there are conversion points where the
phoners are changing normies over—"
Clay remembered
his dream. "I'm way ahead of you there."
"But now they're
getting bad programming. Do you see? And it makes sense, because it's the newest
phoners who seem to be going down first. Fighting, freaking out, or actually
dropping dead."
"You don't have
enough data to say that," Clay replied at once. He was thinking of
Johnny.
Jordan's eyes
had been bright. Now they dulled a little. "That's true." Then his chin lifted.
"But it's logical. If the premise is right—if it's a worm, something actively
burrowing deeper and deeper into the original programming—then it's every bit as logical
as the Latin they use. The new phoners are rebooting, but now it's a crazy,
uneven reboot. They get the telepathy, but they can still talk.
They—"
"Jordan, you
can't draw that conclusion on just the two I saw—"
Jordan was
paying no attention. He was really talking to himself now. "They don't flock
like the others, not as completely, because the flocking imperative is
imperfectly installed. Instead they . . . they stay up late and get up
early. They revert to aggression against their own kind. And if it's getting
worse . . . don't you see? The newest phoners would be the first ones to
get messed up!"
"It's like in
War of the Worlds," Tom said dreamily.
"Huh?" Denise
said. "I didn't see that movie. It looked too scary."
"The invaders
were killed by microbes our bodies tolerate easily," Tom said. "Wouldn't
it be poetic justice if the phone-crazies all died of a
computer-virus?"
"I'd settle for
aggression," Dan said. "Let them kill each other in one big battle
royal."
Clay was still
thinking about Johnny. Sharon too, but mostly Johnny. Johnny who'd written
PLEASE COME GET ME in those big capital letters and then signed all three
names, as if that would somehow add weight to his plea.
Ray Huizenga
said, "Isn't going to do us any good unless it happens tonight." He stood up and
stretched. "They'll be pushin us on pretty quick. I'm gonna pause to do me a
little necessary while I've got the time. Don't go without me."
"Not in the bus,
we won't," Tom said as Ray started up the hiking trail. "You've got the keys in
your pocket."
"Hope everything
comes out all right, Ray," Denise said sweetly.
"Nobody loves a
smartass, darlin," Ray said, and disappeared from view.
"What are
they going to do to us?" Clay asked. "Any ideas about that?"
Jordan shrugged.
"It may be like a closed-circuit TV hookup, only with a lot of different areas
of the country participating. Maybe even the whole world. The size of the
stadium makes me think that—"
"And the Latin,
of course," Dan said. "It's a kind of lingua franca."
"Why do they
need one?" Clay asked. "They're telepaths."
"But they still
think mostly in words," Tom said. "At least so far. In any case, they do
mean to execute us, Clay—Jordan thinks so, Dan does, and so do
I."
"So do I,"
Denise said in a small, morose voice, and caressed the curve of her
belly.
Tom said, "Latin
is more than a lingua franca. It's the language of justice, and we've
seen it used by them before."
Gunner and
Harold. Yes. Clay nodded.
"Jordan has
another idea," Tom said. "I think you need to hear it, Clay. Just in case.
Jordan?"
Jordan shook his
head. "I can't."
Tom and Dan
Hartwick looked at each other.
"Well, one
of you tell me," Clay said. "I mean, Jesus!"
So it was Jordan
after all. "Because they're telepaths, they know who our loved ones are," he
said.
Clay searched
for some sinister meaning in this and didn't find it. "So?"
"I have a
brother in Providence," Tom said. "If he's one of them, he'll be my
executioner. If Jordan's right, that is."
"My sister," Dan
Hartwick said.
"My
floor-proctor," Jordan said. He was very pale. "The one with the megapixel Nokia
phone that shows video downloads."
"My husband,"
Denise said, and burst into tears. "Unless he's dead. I pray God he's
dead."
For a moment
Clay still didn't get it. And then he thought: John? My Johnny? He saw
the Raggedy Man holding a hand over his head, heard the Raggedy Man pronouncing
sentence: "Ecce homo—insanus." And saw his son walking toward him,
wearing his Little League cap turned around backwards and his favorite Red Sox
shirt, the one with Tim Wakefield's name and number on it. Johnny, small beneath
the eyes of the millions watching via the miracle of closed-circuit,
flock-boosted telepathy.
Little
Johnny-Gee, smiling. Empty-handed.
Armed with
nothing but the teeth in his head.
3
It was Ray who broke the silence, although
Ray wasn't even there.
"Ah,
Jesus." Coming from a little distance up the hiking trail. "Fuck."
Then: "Yo, Clay!"
"What's up?"
Clay called back.
"You've lived up
here all your life, right?" Ray didn't sound like a happy camper. Clay looked at
the others, who returned only blank stares. Jordan shrugged and flipped his
palms outward, for one heartbreaking moment becoming a near-teenager instead of
just another refugee from the Phone War.
"Well. . .
downstate, but yeah." Clay stood up. "What's the problem?"
"So you know
what poison ivy and poison oak looks like, right?"
Denise started
to break up and clapped both hands over her mouth.
"Yeah," Clay
said. He couldn't help smiling himself, but he knew what it looked like for
sure, had warned Johnny and his backyard buddies off enough of it in his
time.
"Well get up
here and take a look," Ray said, "and come on your own." Then, with hardly a
pause: "Denise, I don't need telepathy to know you're laughin. Put a sock in it,
girl."
Clay left the
picnic area, walking past the sign reading IF YOU GO TAKE A MAP! and then
beside the pretty little brook. Everything in the woods was pretty now, a
spectrum of furnace colors mixed with the sturdy, never-changing green of the
firs, and he supposed (not for the first time, either) that if men and women
owed God a death, there were worse seasons of the year in which to pay
up.
He had expected
to come upon Ray with his pants loosened or actually around his ankles, but Ray
was standing on a carpet of pine needles and his pants were buckled. There were
no bushes at all where he was, not poison ivy or anything else. He was as pale
as Alice had been when she plunged into the Nickersons' living room to vomit,
his skin so white it looked dead. Only his eyes still had life. They burned in
his face.
"C'mere," he
said in a prison-yard whisper. Clay could hardly hear him over the noisy chuckle
of the brook. "Quick. We don't have much time."
"Ray, what the
hell—"
"Just listen.
Dan and your pal Tom, they're too smart. Jordy too. Sometimes thinking gets in
the way. Denise is better, but she's pregnant. Can't trust a pregnant woman. So
you're it, Mr. Artist. I don't like it because you're still holding on to your
kid, but your kid's over. In your heart you know it. Your kid is
toast."
"Everything all
right back there, you guys?" Denise called, and numb as he was, Clay could hear
the smile in her voice.
"Ray, I don't
know what—"
"No, and that's
how it's gonna stay. Just listen. What that fuck in the red hoodie wants
isn't gonna happen, if you don't let it. That's all you need to
know."
Ray reached into
the pocket of his chinos and brought out a cell phone and a scrap of paper. The
phone was gray with grime, as if it had spent most of its life in a working
environment.
"Put it in your
pocket. When the time comes, call the number on that slip. You'll know the time.
I gotta hope you'll know."
Clay took the
phone. It was either take it or drop it. The little slip of paper escaped his
fingers.
"Get that!"
Ray whispered fiercely.
Clay bent and
picked up the scrap of paper. Ten digits were scrawled on it. The first three
were the Maine area code. "Ray, they read minds! If I have
this—"
Ray's mouth
stretched in a terrible parody of a grin. "Yeah!" he whispered. "They peek in
your head and find out you're thinkin about a fuckin cell phone! What else is
anyone thinkin about since October first? Those of us who can still fuckin
think, that is?"
Clay looked at
the dirty, battered cell phone. There were two DYMO-tape strips on the casing.
The top one read MR. FOGARTY. The bottom one read PROP. GURLEYVILLE
QUARRY DO NOT REMOVE.
"Put it in your
fuckin pocket!”
It wasn't the
urgency of the command that made him obey. It was the urgency of those desperate
eyes. Clay began to put the phone and the scrap of paper in his pocket. He was
wearing jeans, which made the pocket a tighter fit than Ray's chinos. He was
looking down to open the pocket wider when Ray reached forward and pulled
Clay's
.45 from its holster. When
Clay looked up, Ray already had the barrel under his chin.
"You'll be doin
your kid a favor, Clay. Believe it. That's no fuckin way to live."
"Ray,
no!"
Ray pulled the
trigger. The soft-nosed American Defender round took off the entire top half of
his head. Crows rose from the trees in a multitude. Clay hadn't even known they
were there, but now they scolded the autumn air with their cries.
For a little
while he drowned them out with his own.
4
They had barely started scraping him a
grave in the soft dark earth under the firs when the phoners reached into their
heads. Clay was feeling that combined power for the first time. It was as Tom
had said, like being nudged in the back by a powerful hand. If, that was, both
the hand and the back were inside your head. No words. Just that
push.
"Let us finish!"
he shouted, and immediately responded to himself in a slightly higher register
that he recognized at once. "No. Go. Now."
"Five minutes!"
he said.
This time the
flock voice used Denise. "Go. Now."
Tom tumbled
Ray's body—the remains of the head wrapped in one of the headrest-covers from
the bus—into the hole and kicked in some dirt. Then he grabbed the sides of his
head, grimacing. "Okay, okay," he said, and immediately answered himself, "Go.
Now."
They walked back
down the hiking path to the picnic area, Jordan leading the way. He was very
pale, but Clay didn't think he was as pale as Ray had been in the last minute of
his life. Not even close. That's no fuckin way to live: his final
words.
Standing at
parade rest across the road, in a line that stretched to both horizon-lines,
maybe half a mile in all, were phoners. There had to be four hundred of them,
but Clay didn't see the Raggedy Man. He supposed the Raggedy Man had gone on to
prepare the way, for in his house there were many mansions.
With a phone
extension in every one, Clay
thought.
As they trooped
toward the minibus, he saw three of the phoners fall out of line. Two of them
began biting and fighting and tearing at each other's clothes, snarling what
could have been words—Clay thought he heard the phrase bitch-cake, but he
supposed it might just have been a coincidental occurrence of syllables. The
third simply turned and began walking away, hiking down the white line toward
Newfield.
"That's right,
fall out, sojer!" Denise yelled hysterically. "All of you fall
out!"
But they didn't,
and before the deserter—if that was what he was— had gotten to the curve where
Route 160 swept out of sight to the south, an elderly but powerfully built
phoner simply shot out his arms, grasped the hiker's head, and twisted it to one
side. The hiker collapsed to the pavement.
"Ray had the
keys," Dan said in a tired voice. Most of his ponytail had come undone, and his
hair spilled over his shoulders. "Somebody will have to go back
and—"
"I got them,"
Clay said. "And I'll drive." He opened the side door of the little bus, feeling
that steady beat-beat-beat, push-push-push in his head. There was blood and dirt
on his hands. He could feel the weight of the cell phone in his pocket and had a
funny thought: maybe Adam and Eve had picked a few apples before being driven
out of Eden. A little something to munch while on the long and dusty road to
seven hundred television channels and backpack bombs in the London subway
system. "Get in, everybody."
Tom gave him a
look. "You don't have to sound so goddam cheerful, van Gogh."
"Why not?" Clay
said, smiling. He wondered if his smile looked like Ray's—that awful end-of-life
rictus. "At least I won't have to listen to your bullshit much longer.
Hop aboard. Next stop, Kashwak-No-Fo."
But before
anyone got on the bus, they were made to throw away their guns.
This didn't come
as a mental command, nor was their motor-control overridden by some superior
force—Clay didn't have to watch as something made his hand reach down and pluck
the .45 from its holster. He didn't think the phoners could do that, at
least not yet; they couldn't even do the ventriloquism thing unless they were
allowed to. Instead he felt something like an itch, a terrible one, just short
of intolerable, inside his head.
"Oh, Mary!"
Denise cried in a low voice, and threw the little .22 she carried in her
belt as far as she could. It landed in the road. Dan threw his own pistol after
it, then added his hunting knife for good measure. The knife flew blade-first
almost to the far side of Route 160, but none of the phoners standing there
flinched.
Jordan dropped
the pistol he was carrying to the ground beside the bus. Then, whining and
twitching, he tore into his pack and tossed away the one Alice had been
carrying. Tom added Sir Speedy.
Clay contributed
the .45 to the other weapons beside the bus. It had been unlucky for two people
since the Pulse, and he wasn't terribly sorry to see it go.
"There," he
said. He spoke to the watching eyes and dirty faces—many of them mutilated—that
were watching from across the road, but it was the Raggedy Man he was
visualizing. "That's all of them. Are you satisfied?" And answered himself at
once. "Why. Did. He do it?"
Clay swallowed.
It wasn't just the phoners who wanted to know; Dan and the others were watching
him, too. Jordan, he saw, was holding on to Tom's belt, as if he feared Clay's
answer the way a toddler might fear a busy street. One full of speeding
trucks.
"He said your
way was no way to live," Clay said. "He took my gun and blew his head off before
I could stop him."
Silence, except
for the cawing of crows. Then Jordan spoke, flat and declamatory. "Our way. Is
the only way."
Dan was next.
Just as flat. Unless they feel rage, they feel nothing, Clay thought.
"Get on. The bus."
They got on the
bus. Clay slid behind the wheel and started the engine. He headed north on Route
160. He had been rolling less than a minute when he became aware of movement on
his left. It was the phoners. They were moving north along the shoulder—above
the shoulder—in a straight line, as if on an invisible conveyor belt running
maybe eight inches over the dirt. Then, up ahead, where the road crested,
they
rose much higher, to perhaps
fifteen feet, making a human arch against the dull, mostly cloudy sky. Watching
the phoners disappear over the top of the hill was like watching people ride the
mild swell of an invisible roller coaster.
Then the
graceful symmetry broke. One of the rising figures fell like a bird shot from a
duck-blind, dropping at least seven feet to the side of the road. It was a man
in the tattered remains of a jogging suit. He spun furiously in the dirt,
kicking with one leg, dragging the other. As the bus rolled past him at a steady
fifteen miles an hour, Clay saw the man's face was drawn down in a grimace of
fury and his mouth was working as he spewed out what was almost surely his dying
declaration.
"So now we
know," Tom said hollowly. He was sitting with Jordan on the bench at the back of
the bus, in front of the luggage area where their packs were stowed. "Primates
give rise to man, man gives rise to phoners, phoners give rise to levitating
telepaths with Tourette's syndrome. Evolution complete."
Jordan said,
"What's Tourette's syndrome?"
Tom said,
"Fucked if I know, son," and incredibly, they were all laughing. Soon they were
roaring—even Jordan, who didn't know what he was laughing at—while the
little yellow bus rolled slowly north with the phoners passing it and then
rising, rising, in a seemingly endless procession.
KASHWAK
1
An hour after leaving the picnic area where
Ray had shot himself with Clay's gun, they passed a sign reading
OCTOBER
5-15
COME ONE, COME
ALL!!!
VISIT
KASHWAKAMAK HALL
AND DON'T
FORGET THE UNIQUE "NORTH END"
*SLOTS
(INCLUDING TEXAS HOLD 'EM)
*"INDIAN
BINGO"
YOU'LL SAY
"WOW!!!"
"Oh my God,"
Clay said. "The Expo. Kashwakamak Hall. Christ. If there was ever a place for a
flock, that's it."
"What's an
expo?" Denise asked.
"Your basic
county fair," Clay said, "only bigger than most of them and quite a lot wilder,
because it's on the TR, which is unincorporated. Also, there's that North End
business. Everyone in Maine knows about the North End at the Northern Counties Expo.
In its own way, it's as notorious as the Twilight Motel."
Tom wanted to
know what the North End was, but before Clay could explain, Denise said,
"There's two more. Mary-and-Jesus, I know they're phoners, but it still makes me
sick."
A man and a
woman lay in the dust at the side of the road. They had died either in an
embrace or a bitter battle, and embracing did not seem to go with the phoner
lifestyle. They had passed half a dozen other bodies on their run north, almost
certainly casualties from the flock that had come down to get them, and had seen
twice that number wandering aimlessly south, sometimes alone, sometimes in
pairs. One of the pairs, clearly confused about where they wanted to go, had
actually tried to hitchhike the bus as it passed.
"Wouldn't it be
nice if they'd all either fall out or drop dead before what they've got planned
for us tomorrow?" Tom said.
"Don't count on
it," Dan said. "For every casualty or deserter we've seen, we've seen twenty or
thirty who are still with the program. And God knows how many are waiting in
this Kashwacky place."
"Don't count it
out, either," Jordan said from his place beside Tom. He spoke a little sharply.
"A bug in the program—a worm—is not a small thing. It can start out as a minor
pain in the ass and then boom, everything's down. I play this game, Star-Mag?
Well, you know—I used to play it—and this sore sport out in California got so
mad about losing all the time that he put a worm in the system and it took down
all the servers in a week. Almost half a million gamers back to computer
cribbage because of that jamhead."
"We don't have a
week, Jordan," Denise said.
"I know," he
said. "And I know they're not all apt to go wheels-up overnight . . . but it's
possible. And I won't stop hoping. I don't want to end up like Ray. He
stopped . . . you know, hoping." A single tear rolled down Jordan's
cheek.
Tom gave him a
hug. "You won't end up like Ray," he said. "You're going to grow up to be like
Bill Gates."
"I don't want to
grow up to be like Bill Gates," Jordan said morosely. "I bet Bill Gates had a
cell phone. In fact I bet he had a dozen." He sat up straight. "One thing I'd give a lot to
know is how so many cell phone transmission towers can still be working when the
fucking power's down."
"FEMA," Dan said
hollowly.
Tom and Jordan
turned to look at him, Tom with a tentative smile on his lips. Even Clay glanced
up into the rearview mirror.
"You think I'm
joking," Dan said. "I wish I was. I read an article about it in a newsmagazine
while I was in my doctor's office, waiting for that disgusting exam where he
puts on a glove and then goes prospecting—"
"Please," Denise
said. "Things are bad enough. You can skip that part. What did the article
say?"
"That after
9/11, FEMA requested and got a sum of money from Congress—I don't remember how
much, but it was in the tens of millions—to equip cell phone transmission towers
nationwide with long-life emergency generators to make sure the nation's ability
to communicate wouldn't go to hell in the event of coordinated terrorist
attacks." Dan paused. "I guess it worked."
"FEMA," Tom
said. "I don't know whether to laugh or cry."
"I'd tell you to
write your congressman, but he's probably insane," Denise said.
"He was insane
well before the Pulse," Tom answered, but he spoke absently. He was rubbing the
back of his neck and looking out the window. "FEMA," he said. "You know, it sort
of makes sense. Fucking FEMA."
Dan said,
"I'd give a lot just to know why they've made such a business of
collaring us and bringing us in."
"And making sure
the rest of us don't follow Ray's example," Denise said. "Don't forget that."
She paused. "Not that I would. Suicide's a sin. They can do whatever they want
to me here, but I'm going to heaven with my baby. I believe that."
"The Latin's the
part that gives me the creeps," Dan said. "Jordan, is it possible that the
phoners could take old stuff—stuff from before the Pulse, I mean—and incorporate
it into their new programming? If it fit their . . . mmmm, I don't know . . .
their long-term goals?"
"I guess,"
Jordan said. "I don't really know, because we don't know what sort of commands
might have been encoded in the Pulse. This isn't like ordinary computer programming in any
case. It's self-generating. Organic. Like learning. I guess it is
learning. 'It satisfies the definition,' the Head would say. Only they're
all learning together, because—"
"Because of the
telepathy," Tom said.
"Right," Jordan
agreed. He looked troubled.
"Why does the
Latin give you the creeps?" Clay asked, looking at Dan in the rearview
mirror.
"Tom said Latin's the language of justice,
and I guess that's true, but this feels much more like vengeance to me." He
leaned forward. Behind his glasses, his eyes were tired and troubled. "Because,
Latin or no Latin, they can't really think. I'm convinced of that. Not
yet, anyway. What they depend on instead of rational thought is a kind of hive
mind born out of pure rage."
"I object, Your
Honor, Freudian speculation!" Tom said, rather merrily.
"Maybe Freud,
maybe Lorenz," Dan said, "but give me the benefit of the doubt either way. Would
it be surprising for such an entity—such a raging entity—to confuse justice and
vengeance?"
"Would it
matter?" Tom asked.
"It might to
us," Dan said. "As someone who once taught a block course on vigilantism in
America, I can tell you that vengeance usually ends up hurting
more."
2
Not long after this conversation, they came
to a place Clay recognized. Which was unsettling, because he had never been in
this part of the state before. Except once, in his dream of the mass
conversions.
Written across
the road in broad strokes of bright green paint was KASHWAK=NO-FO. The van
rolled over the words at a steady thirty miles an hour as the phoners
continued to stream past in their stately, witchy procession on the
left.
That was no
dream, he thought, looking at the drifts of trash caught in the bushes at
the sides of the road, the beer and soda cans in the ditches. Bags that had
contained potato chips, Doritos, and Cheez Doodles crackled under the
tires of the little bus. The normies stood here in a double line, eating
their snacks and drinking their drinks, feeling that funny itch in their heads,
that weird sense of a mental hand pushing on their backs, waiting their turns to
call some loved one who got lost in the Pulse. They stood here and listened to
the Raggedy Man say "Left and right, two lines, that's correct, that's doing it,
let's keep moving, we've got a lot of you to process before
dark."
Up ahead the
trees drew back on either side of the road. What had been some farmer's hard-won
grazeland for cows or sheep had now been flattened and churned down to bare
earth by many passing feet. It was almost as though there had been a rock
concert here. One of the tents was gone—blown away—but the other had caught on
some trees and flapped in the dull early-evening light like a long brown tongue.
"I dreamed of
this place," Jordan said. His voice was tight.
"Did you?" Clay
said. "So did I."
"The normies
followed the Kashwak equals No-Fo signs, and this is what they came to," Jordan
said. "It was like tollbooths, wasn't it, Clay?"
"Kind of," Clay
said. "Kind of like tollbooths, yeah."
"They had big
cardboard boxes full of cell phones," Jordan said. This was a detail Clay didn't
remember from his own dream, but he didn't doubt it. "Heaps and heaps of them.
And every normie got to make a call. What a bunch of lucky ducks."
"When did you
dream this, Jordy?" Denise asked.
"Last night."
Jordan's eyes met Clay's in the rearview mirror. "They knew they weren't going
to be talking to the people they wanted to talk to. Down deep they knew. But
they did it anyway. They took the phones anyway. Took em and listened. Most of
em didn't even put up a fight. Why, Clay?"
"Because they
were tired of fighting, I suppose," Clay said. "Tired of being different. They
wanted to hear 'Baby Elephant Walk' with new ears."
They were past
the beaten-down fields where the tents had been. Ahead, a paved byroad split off
from the highway. It was broader and smoother than the state road. The phoners
were streaming up this byway and disappearing into a slot in the woods. Looming
high above the trees half a mile or so farther on was a steel gantrylike
structure Clay recognized at once from his dreams. He thought it had to be some
sort of
amusement attraction, maybe a
Parachute Drop. There was a billboard at the junction of the highway and the
byroad, showing a laughing family— dad, mom, sonny, and little sis—walking into
a wonderland of rides, games, and agricultural exhibits.
NORTHERN
COUNTIES EXPO
GALA FIREWORKS
SHOW OCTOBER 5TH
VISIT
KASHWAKAMAK HALL
THE "NORTH
END" OPEN "24/7" OCTOBER 5-15
YOU'LL SAY
"WOW!!!"
Standing below
this billboard was the Raggedy Man. He raised one hand and held it out in a
stop gesture.
Oh Jesus,
Clay thought, and pulled the minibus up beside him. The Raggedy Man's eyes,
which Clay hadn't been able to get right in his drawing at Gaiten, looked
simultaneously dazed and full of malevolent interest. Clay told himself it was
impossible for them to appear both ways at the same time, but they did.
Sometimes the dazed dullness was foremost in them; a moment later it seemed to
be that weirdly unpleasant avidity.
He can't want
to get on with us.
But the Raggedy
Man did, it seemed. He lifted his hands to the door with the palms pressed
together, then opened them. The gesture was rather pretty—like a man indicating
this bird has flown—but the hands themselves were black with filth, and
the little finger on the left one had been badly broken in what looked like two
places.
These are the
new people, Clay thought.
Telepaths who don't take baths.
"Don't let him
on," Denise said. Her voice was trembling.
Clay, who could
see that the steady conveyor-movement of phoners to the left of the bus had
stopped, shook his head. "No choice."
They peek in
your head and find out you're thinkin about a fuckin cellphone, Ray had
said—had almost snorted. What else is anyone thinkin about since October
first?
Hope you're
right, Ray, he thought,
because it's still an hour and a half until dark. An hour and a half at
least.
He threw
the lever that opened the door and the Raggedy Man, torn lower lip drooping in
its constant sneer, climbed aboard. He was painfully thin; the filthy red
sweatshirt hung on him like a sack. None of the normies on the bus were
particularly clean—hygiene hadn't been a priority since the first of October—but
the Raggedy Man gave off a ripe and powerful stench that almost made Clay's eyes
water. It was the smell of strong cheese left to sweat it out in a hot
room.
The Raggedy Man
sat down in the seat by the door, the one that faced the driver's seat, and
looked at Clay. For a moment there was nothing but the dusty weight of his eyes
and that strange grinning curiosity.
Then Tom spoke
in a thin, outraged voice Clay had heard him use only once before, when he'd
said That's it, everybody out of the pool to the plump Bible-toting woman
who'd started preaching her End Times sermon to Alice. "What do you want from
us? You have the world, such as it is— what do you want from
us?"
The Raggedy
Man's ruined mouth formed the word even as Jordan said it. Only that one word,
flat and emotionless. "Justice."
"When it comes
to justice," Dan said, "I don't think you have a clue."
The Raggedy Man
replied with a gesture, raising one hand to the feeder-road, palm up and index
finger pointing: Get rolling.
When the bus
started to move, most of the phoners started to move again, as well. A few more
had fallen to fighting, and in the outside mirror Clay saw others walking back
down the expo feeder-road toward the highway.
"You're losing
some of your troops," Clay said.
The Raggedy Man
made no reply on behalf of the flock. His eyes, now dull, now curious, now both,
remained fixed on Clay, who fancied he could almost feel that gaze walking
lightly over his skin. The Raggedy Man's twisted fingers, gray with dirt, lay on
the lap of his grimy blue jeans. Then he grinned. Maybe that was answer enough.
Dan was right, after all. For every phoner who dropped out—who went wheels-up,
in Jordan-speak—there were plenty more. But Clay had no idea how many plenty
more might entail until half an hour later, when the woods opened up on both
sides and they passed beneath the wooden arch reading WELCOME TO THE NORTHERN
COUNTIES EXPO.
3
"Dear God," Dan said.
Denise
articulated Clay's own feelings better; she gave a low scream.
Sitting across
the narrow aisle of the little bus in the first passenger seat, the Raggedy Man
only sat and stared at Clay with the half-vacant malevolence of a stupid child
about to pull the wings off a few flies. Do you like it?
his grin
seemed to say. It's quite something, isn't it? The gang's all here!
Of course a grin like
that could mean that or anything. It could even mean I know
what you have in your pocket.
Beyond the arch
was a midway and a batch of rides, both still being assembled at the time of the
Pulse, from the way things looked. Clay didn't know how many of the carny
pitch-tents had been erected, but some had blown away, like the pavilions at the
checkpoint six or eight miles back, and only half a dozen or so still stood,
their sides seeming to breathe in the evening breeze. The Krazy Kups were
half-built, and so was the funhouse across from it (WE DARE YOU TO ran
across the single piece of façade that had been erected; skeletons danced above
the words). Only the Ferris wheel and the Parachute Drop at the far end of what
would have been the midway looked complete, and with no electric lights to make
them jolly, they looked gruesome to Clay, less like amusement rides than
gigantic implements of torture. Yet one light was blinking, he saw: a
tiny red beacon, surely battery-powered, at the very top of the Parachute
Drop.
Well beyond the
Drop was a white building with red trim, easily a dozen barn-lengths long. Loose
hay had been heaped along the sides. American flags, fluttering in the evening
breeze, had been planted in this cheap rural insulation every ten feet or so.
The building was draped with swags of patriotic bunting and bore the
legend
NORTHERN
COUNTIES EXPO
KASHWAKAMAK
HALL
in bright blue paint.
But none of this
was what had attracted their attention. Between the Parachute Drop and
Kashwakamak Hall were several acres of open ground. Clay guessed it was where
the big crowds gathered for livestock exhibitions, tractor-pulls,
end-of-fair-day concerts, and—of course—the fireworks shows that would both open
and close the Expo. It was ringed with light-standards and loudspeaker-poles.
Now this broad and grassy mall was crammed with phoners. They stood shoulder to
shoulder and hip to hip, their faces turned to watch the arrival of the little
yellow bus.
Any hope Clay
had harbored of seeing Johnny—or Sharon—was gone in a moment. His first thought
was that there had to be five thousand people crowded beneath those dead
light-standards. Then he saw they had spilled into the grassy parking lots
adjoining the main exhibition area as well and revised his estimate upward.
Eight. Eight thousand at least.
The Raggedy Man
sat where some Newfield Elementary School third-grader belonged, grinning at
Clay with his teeth jutting through the split in his lip. Do you like it?
that grin seemed to ask, and again Clay had to remind himself that you could
read anything into a grin like that.
"So who's
playing tonight? Vince Gill? Or did you guys break the bank and get Alan
Jackson?" That was Tom. He was trying to be funny and Clay gave him high marks
for that, but Tom only sounded scared.
The Raggedy Man
was still looking at Clay, and a little vertical crease had appeared in the
middle of his brow, as if something puzzled him.
Clay drove the
minibus slowly up the center of the midway, toward the Parachute Drop and the
silent multitude beyond. There were more bodies here; they reminded Clay of how
you sometimes found heaps of dead bugs on the windowsills after a sudden cold
snap. He concentrated on keeping his hands loose. He didn't want the Raggedy Man
to see his knuckles turn white on the wheel.
And go slow.
Nice and easy does it. He's only looking at you. As for cellphones, what else
has anyone been thinking about since October first?
The Raggedy Man
raised a hand and pointed one twisted, badly used finger at Clay. "No-fo, you,"
Clay said in that other voice. "Insanus."
"Yeah,
no-fo-me-me, no-fo none of us, we're all bozos on this bus," Clay said. "But
you'll fix that, right?"
The Raggedy Man
grinned, as if to say that was right . . . but the little vertical line
was still there. As if something still puzzled him. Maybe something rolling and
tumbling around in Clay Riddell's mind.
Clay looked up
into the rearview mirror as they neared the end of the midway. "Tom, you asked
me what the North End was," he said.
"Forgive me,
Clay, but my interest seems to have waned," Tom said. "Maybe it's the size of
the welcoming committee."
"No, but this is
interesting," Clay said, a little feverishly.
"Okay, what is
it?" Jordan asked. God bless Jordan. Curious to the end.
"The Northern
Counties Expo was never a big deal in the twentieth century," Clay said. "Just
your standard little shitpot aggie fair with arts, crafts, produce, and animals
over there in Kashwakamak Hall. . . which is where they're going to put us, from
the look of things."
He glanced at the Raggedy
Man, but the Raggedy Man neither confirmed nor denied. The Raggedy Man only
grinned. The little vertical line had disappeared from his forehead.
"Clay, look
out," Denise said in a tight, controlled voice.
He looked back
through the windshield and stepped on the brake. An elderly woman with infected
lacerations on both legs came swaying out of the silent crowd. She skirted the
edge of the Parachute Drop, trampled over several prefab pieces of the funhouse
that had been laid out but not erected at the time of the Pulse, then broke into
a shambling run aimed directly at the schoolbus. When she reached it, she began
to hammer slowly on the windshield with filthy, arthritis-twisted hands. What
Clay saw in this woman's face wasn't the avid blankness he'd come to associate
with the phoners but terrified disorientation. And it was familiar. Who are
you? Pixie Dark had asked. Pixie Dark, who hadn't gotten a direct blast of
the Pulse. Who am I?
Nine phoners in
a neat moving square came after the elderly woman, whose frantic face was less than five feet
from Clay's own. Her mouth moved, and he heard four words, both with his ears
and with his mind: "Take me with
you."
We're not
going anywhere you want to go, lady, Clay
thought.
Then the phoners
grabbed her and took her back toward the multitude on the grassy mall. She
struggled to get away, but they were relentless. Clay caught one flash of her
eyes and thought they were the eyes of a woman who was in purgatory only if she
was lucky. More likely it was hell.
Once more the
Raggedy Man held out his hand, palm-up and index finger pointing:
Roll.
The elderly
woman had left a handprint, ghostly but visible, on the windshield. Clay looked
through it and got rolling.
4
"Anyhow," he said, "until 1999, the Expo was
no big deal. If you lived in this part of the world and wanted rides and
games—carny stuff—you had to go down to the Fryeburg Fair." He heard his own
voice running as if on a tape loop. Talk for the sake of talk. It made him think
of the drivers on the Duck Boat tours in Boston, pointing out the various
sights. "Then, just before the turn of the century, the State Bureau of Indian
Affairs did a land-survey. Everybody knew the Expo grounds were right next door
to the Sockabasin Rez; what that land-survey showed was that the north end of
Kashwakamak Hall was actually on reservation land. Technically, it was in Micmac
Indian territory. The people running the Expo were no dummies, and neither were
the ones on the Micmac tribal council. They agreed to clean out the little shops
from the north end of the hall and put in slots. All at once the Northern
Counties Expo was Maine's biggest fall fair."
They had reached
the Parachute Drop. Clay started to jog left and guide the little bus between
the ride and the half-constructed funhouse, but the Raggedy Man patted his hands
on the air, palms-down. Clay stopped. The Raggedy Man stood up and turned to the
door. Clay threw the lever and the Raggedy Man stepped off. Then he turned to
Clay and made a kind of sweeping, bowing gesture.
"What's he doing
now?" Denise asked. She couldn't see from where she was sitting. None of them
could.
"He wants us to
get off," Clay said. He stood up. He could feel the cell phone Ray had given him
lying hard along his upper thigh. If he looked down, he would see its outline
against the blue denim of his jeans. He pulled down the T-shirt he was wearing,
trying to cover it. A cellphone, so what,
everybody's thinking about them.
"Are we going
to?" Jordan asked. He sounded scared.
"Not much
choice," Clay said. "Come on, you guys, let's go to the fair."
5
The Raggedy Man led them toward the silent
multitude. It opened for them, leaving a narrow aisle—not much more than a
throat—from the back of the Parachute Drop to the double doors of Kashwakamak
Hall. Clay and the others passed a parking area filled with trucks (new england amusement corp. was
printed on the sides, along with a roller-coaster logo). Then the crowd
swallowed them.
That walk seemed
endless to Clay. The smell was nearly insupportable, wild and ferocious even
with the freshening breeze to carry the top layer away. He was aware of his legs
moving, he was aware of the Raggedy Man's red hoodie ahead of him, but the
hall's double doors with their swags of red, white, and blue bunting seemed to
get no closer. He smelled dirt and blood, urine and shit. He smelled fermenting
infections, burned flesh, the spoiled eggwhite aroma of oozing pus. He smelled
clothes that were rotting on the bodies they draped. He smelled something else,
as well—some new thing. Calling it madness would have been too easy.
I think it's
the smell of telepathy. And if it is, we're not ready for it. It's too strong
for us. It burns the brain, somehow, the way too much current will burn out the
electrical system in a car or a—
"Help me with
her!" Jordan yelled from behind him. "Help me with her, she's
fainting!"
He turned and
saw that Denise had gone down on all fours. Jordan was on all fours beside her
and had one of her arms over his neck, but she was too heavy for him. Tom and
Dan couldn't get forward enough to help. The corridor cutting through the mass of
phoners was too narrow. Denise raised her head, and for a moment her eyes met
Clay's. The look was one of dazed incomprehension, the eyes those of a slugged
steer. She vomited a thin gruel onto the grass and her head dropped down again.
Her hair fell around her face like a curtain.
"Help me!"
Jordan shouted again. He began to cry.
Clay went back
and started elbowing phoners in order to get on Denise's other side. "Get out of
the way!" he shouted. "Get out of the way, she's pregnant, can't you fools see
she's preg—"
It was the
blouse he recognized first. The high-necked, white silk blouse that he had
always called Sharon's doctor shirt. In some ways he thought it was the sexiest
garment she owned, partly because of that high, prim neck. He liked her bare,
but he liked to touch and squeeze her breasts through that high-necked, white
silk blouse even more. He liked to bring her nipples up until he could see them
poking the cloth.
Now Sharon's
doctor shirt was streaked black with dirt in some places and maroon with dried
blood in others. It was torn under the arm. She doesn’t look as bad as some,
Johnny had written, but she didn't look good; she certainly wasn't the
Sharon Riddell who had gone off to school in her doctor shirt and her dark red
skirt while her estranged husband was in Boston, about to make a deal that would
put an end to their financial worries and make her realize that all her carping
about his "expensive hobby" had been so much fear and bad faith (that, anyway,
had been his semi-resentful dream). Her dark blond hair hung in lank strings.
Her face had been cut in a number of places, and one of her ears looked torn
half-off; where it had been, a clotted hole bored into the side of her head.
Something she had eaten, something dark, clung in curds to the corners of the
mouth he had kissed almost every day for almost fifteen years. She stared at
him, through him, with that idiotic half-grin they sometimes wore.
"Clay help
me!" Jordan almost
sobbed.
Clay snapped
back. Sharon wasn't here, that was the thing to remember. Sharon hadn't been
here for almost two weeks now. Not since trying to make a call on Johnny's
little red cell phone on the day of the Pulse.
"Give me some
room, you bitch," he said, and pushed aside the woman who'd been his wife.
Before she could rebound, he slid into her place.
"This woman's
pregnant, so give me some fucking room." Then he bent, slipped Denise's other
arm over his neck, and got her up.
"Go on ahead,"
Tom said to Jordan. "Let me in, I've got her."
Jordan held up
Denise's arm long enough for Tom to slip it over his own neck. He and Clay
carried her that way the final ninety yards to the doors of Kashwakamak Hall,
where the Raggedy Man stood waiting. By then Denise was muttering that they
could let her go, she could walk, she was all right, but Tom wouldn't. Neither
would Clay. If he let her go, he might look back for Sharon. He didn't want to
do that.
The Raggedy Man
grinned at Clay, and this time that grin seemed to have more focus. It really
was as though the two of them shared a joke. Sharon? he wondered. Is
Sharon the joke?
It seemed not,
because the Raggedy Man made a gesture that would have seemed very familiar to
Clay in the old world but seemed eerily out of place here: right hand to the
right side of his face, right thumb to ear, pinkie finger to mouth. The
phone-mime.
"No-fo-you-you,"
Denise said, and then, in her own voice: "Don't do that, I hate it when
you do that!"
The Raggedy Man
paid her no mind. He went on holding his right hand in the phone-gesture, thumb
to ear and pinkie to mouth, staring at Clay. For one moment Clay was sure he
also glanced down at the pocket where the cell phone was stowed. Then Denise
said it again, that horrible parody of his old routine with Johnny-Gee:
"No-fo-you-you." The Raggedy Man mimed laughing, and his ruined mouth made it
gruesome. From behind him, Clay felt the eyes of the flock like a physical
weight.
Then the double
doors of Kashwakamak Hall opened on their own, and the mingled odors that came
out, although faint—olfactory ghosts of other years—was still an anodyne to the
stink of the flock: spices, jams, hay, and livestock. It wasn't completely dark,
either; the battery-powered emergency lights were dim, but hadn't yet given out
entirely. Clay thought that was pretty amazing, unless they had been saved
especially for their arrival, and he doubted that. The Raggedy Man wasn't
telling. He only smiled and gestured with his hands for them to go
in.
"It'll be a
pleasure, you freak," Tom said. "Denise, are you sure you can walk on your
own?"
"Yes. I've just
got one tiny bit of business first." She drew in breath, then spit in the
Raggedy Man's face. "There. Take that back to Hah-vud with you,
fuckface."
The Raggedy Man
said nothing. He only grinned at Clay. Just two fellows sharing a secret
joke.
6
No one brought them any food, but there
were snack machines galore and Dan found a crowbar in the maintenance closet at
the huge building's south end. The others were standing around and watching him
pry open the candy machine—Of course we're insane, Clay thought, we
eat Baby Ruths for dinner and tomorrow we'll have Pay Days for
breakfast—when the music started. And it wasn't "You Light Up My Life" or
"Baby Elephant Walk" coming out of the big speakers ringing the grassy mall
outside, not this time. It was something slow and stately that Clay had heard
before, although not for years. It filled him with sadness and made gooseflesh
run up the soft insides of his arms.
"Oh my God," Dan
said softly. "I think it's Albinoni."
"No," Tom said.
"That's Pachelbel. It's the Canon in D Major."
"Of course it
is," Dan said, sounding embarrassed.
"It's as if . .
." Denise began, then stopped. She looked down at her shoes.
"What?" Clay
asked. "Go on, say it. You're among friends."
"It's like the
sound of memories," she said. "As if it's all they have."
"Yes," Dan said.
"I suppose—"
"You guys!"
Jordan called. He was looking out one of the small windows. They were quite
high, but by standing on his tiptoes, he could just manage. "Come look at
this!"
They lined up
and looked out at the wide mall. It was almost full dark. The speakers and the
light-standards loomed, black sentinels against the dead sky. Beyond was the
gantry shape of the Parachute Drop with its one lonely blinking light. And
ahead, directly ahead, thousands of phoners had gone to their knees like Muslims
about to pray while Johann Pachelbel filled the air with what could have been a
substitute for memory. And when they lay down they lay as one,
producing a great soft swoop of noise and a fluttering displacement of air that
sent empty bags and flattened soda cups twirling into the air.
"Bedtime for the
whole brain-damaged army," Clay said. "If we're going to do something, it's got
to be tonight."
"Do? What are we
going to do?" Tom asked. "The two doors I tried are both locked. I'm sure that's
true of the others, as well."
Dan held up the crowbar.
"Don't think so," Clay said. "That thing
may work just fine on the vending machines, but remember, this place used to be
a casino." He pointed to the north end of the hall, which was lushly carpeted
and filled with rows of one-armed bandits, their chrome muted in the glow of the
failing emergency lights. "I think you'll find the doors are
crowbar-resistant."
"The windows?"
Dan asked, then took a closer look and answered his own question. "Jordan,
maybe."
"Let's have
something to eat," Clay said. "Then let's just sit down and be quiet for a
little while. There hasn't been enough of that."
"And do what?"
Denise asked.
"Well, you guys
can do what you want," Clay said. "I haven't done any drawing in almost two
weeks, and I've been missing it. I think I'll draw."
"You don't have
any paper," Jordan objected.
Clay smiled.
"When I don't have any paper, I draw in my head."
Jordan looked at
him uncertainly, trying to ascertain whether his leg was being pulled. When he
decided it wasn't, he said, "That can't be as good as drawing on paper, can
it?"
"In some ways
it's better. Instead of erasing, I just rethink."
There was a loud
clank and the door of the candy machine swung open. "Bingo!" Dan cried, and
lifted his crowbar above his head. "Who said college professors were good for
nothing in the real world?"
"Look," Denise
said greedily, ignoring Dan. "A whole rack of Junior Mints!" She dug
in.
"Clay?" Tom
asked.
"Hmmm?"
"I don't suppose
you saw your little boy, did you? Or your wife? Sandra?"
"Sharon," Clay
said. "I didn't see either of them." He looked around Denise's ample hip. "Are
those Butterfingers?"
7
Half an hour later they had eaten their
fill of candy and raided the soda machine. They had tried the other doors and
found them all locked. Dan tried his crowbar and couldn't get purchase even at
the bottom. Tom was of the opinion that, although the doors looked like wood,
they were very likely equipped with steel cores.
"Probably
alarmed, too," Clay said. "Screw around with them too much and the reservation
police will come and take you away."
Now the other
four sat in a little circle on the soft casino carpeting among the slot
machines. Clay sat on the concrete, with his back against the double doors
through which the Raggedy Man had ushered them with that mocking gesture of
his—After you, see you in the morning.
Clay's thoughts
wanted to return to that other mocking gesture—the thumb-and-pinkie
phone-mime—but he wouldn't let them, at least not directly. He knew from long
experience that the best way to go after such things was by the back door. So he
leaned his head against the wood with the steel core hiding inside, and closed
his eyes, and visualized a comic splash-page. Not a page from Dark
Wanderer—Dark Wanderer was kaput and nobody knew it better than
him—but from a new comic. Call it Cell, for want of a better title, a
thrilling end-of-the-world saga of the phoner hordes versus the last few
normies—
Except that
couldn't be right. It looked right if you glanced at it fast, the way the
doors in this place looked like wood but weren't. The ranks of the phoners had
to be seriously depleted—had to be. How many of them had been lost in the
violence immediately following the Pulse? Half? He recalled the fury of that
violence and thought, Maybe more. Maybe sixty or even seventy percent.
Then attrition due to serious wounds, infection, exposure, further fighting,
and just plain stupidity. Plus, of course, the flock-killers; how many had
they taken out? How many big flocks like this one were actually
left?
Clay thought
they might find out tomorrow, if the ones remaining all hooked up for one big
execute-the-insane extravaganza. Much good the knowledge would do
them.
Never mind. Boil
it down. If you wanted backstory on the splash, the situation had to be boiled
down enough to fit on a single narrative panel. It was an unwritten rule. The
phoners' situation could be summed up in two words: bad losses. They looked like
a lot—hell, like a damned multitude—but probably the passenger pigeons
had looked like a lot right up until the end. Because they traveled in
sky-darkening flocks right up to the end. What nobody noticed was that there
were fewer and fewer of those giant flocks. Until, that was, they were all gone.
Extinct. Finite Buh-bye.
Plus,
he thought,
they've got this other problem now, this bad-programming thing. This worm.
What about that? All in all, these guys could have a shorter run than the
dinosaurs, telepathy, levitation, and all.
Okay, enough
backstory. What's your illo? What's your damn picture, the one that's
going to hook them and draw them in? Why, Clay Riddell and Ray Huizenga, that's
what. They're standing in the woods. Ray's got the Beth Nickerson .45 with the
barrel under his chin and Clay's holding . . .
A cell phone, of
course. The one Ray lifted from the Gurleyville Quarry.
CLAY
(terrified): Ray, STOP! This is pointless! Don't you remember? Kashwak's a
CELL DEAD Z—
No good!
KA-POW! in jagged yellow capitals across the foreground of the splash,
and this one really is a splash, because Arnie Nickerson has thoughtfully
provided his wife with the kind of softnosed rounds they sell on the Internet at
the American Paranoia sites, and the top of Ray's head is a red geyser. In the
background—one of those detailed touches for which Clay Riddell might have
become famous in a world where the Pulse never happened—a single terrified crow
is lifting off from a pine branch.
A damn good
splash page, Clay thought. Gory, sure—it would never have passed muster in the
old Comics Code days—but instantly involving. And although Clay had never said
that thing about cell phones not working beyond the conversion point, he
would've if he'd thought of it in time. Only time had run out. Ray had killed
himself so that the Raggedy Man and his phoner friends wouldn't see
that phone in his mind, which was bitterly ironic. The Raggedy Man had known all
about the cell whose existence Ray had died to protect. He knew it was in Clay's
pocket . . . and he didn't care.
Standing at the
double doors to Kashwakamak Hall. The Raggedy Man making that gesture—thumb to
ear, curled fingers next to his torn and stubbly cheek, pinkie in front of his
mouth. Using Denise to say it again, to drive the point home:
No-fo-you-you.
That's right.
Because Kashwak—No-Fo.
Ray had died for
nothing . . . so why didn't that upset him now?
Clay was aware
he was dozing as he often did when he drew inside his head. Coming uncoupled.
And that was all right. Because he felt the way he always did just before
picture and story became welded into one— happy, like people before an
anticipated homecoming. Before journeys end in lovers meeting. He had absolutely
no reason to feel that way, but he did.
Ray Huizenga had
died for a useless cell phone.
Or was it more
than one? Now Clay saw another panel. This one was a flashback panel, you could
tell by the scalloped edges.
CU on RAY'S
hand, holding the grimy cell phone and a slip of paper with a telephone number
scrawled on it. RAY'S thumb obscures everything but the Maine area
code.
RAY (O.S.):
When the time comes, call the number on that slip. You'll know
the time. I gotta hope you'll know.
Can't
call anybody from a cell in Kaskwakamak, Ray, because Kashwak = No-Fo. Just ask
the President of Hah-vud.
And to drive the
point home, here's another flashback panel with those scalloped edges. It's
Route 160. In the foreground is the little yellow bus with MAINE SCHOOL
DISTRICT 38 NEWFIELD printed on the side. In the middle distance, painted
across the road, is KASHWAK= NO-FO. Once again the detail-work is
terrific: empty soda cans lying in the ditch, a discarded T-shirt caught on a
bush, and in the distance, a tent flapping from a tree like a long brown tongue.
Above the minibus are four voice-over balloons. These weren't the things they
actually said (even his dozing mind knew it), but that wasn't the point.
Storymaking wasn't the point, not now.
He thought he
might know the point when he came to it.
DENISE (VO.):
Is this where they—?
TOM (VO.):
Where they did the conversions, correct. Get into line a normie, make
your call, and when you head on up to the Expo flock, you're one of
THEM. What a deal
DAN (VO.):
Why here? Why not on the Expo grounds?
CLAY (VO.):
Don't you remember? Kashwak=No-Fo. They lined em up at the far edge of cell
coverage. Beyond here, nothing. Nada. Zip. Zero bars.
Another panel.
Close-up on the Raggedy Man in all his pestiferous glory. Grinning with his
mutilated mouth and summing everything up with one
gesture. Ray had some bright idea that depended on making a cell phone call.
It was so bright he completely forgot there's no coverage up here. I'd probably
have to go to Quebec to get a bar on that phone he gave me. That's funny, but
what's even funnier? I took it! What a sap!
So whatever Ray
had died for was pointless? Maybe, but here was another picture forming.
Outside, Pachelbel had given way to Fauré, and Fauré had given way to Vivaldi.
Pouring from speakers instead of boom-boxes. Black speakers against a dead sky,
with the half-constructed amusement rides in the background; in the foreground
Kashwakamak Hall with its bunting and cheap hay insulation. And as the final
touch, the little piece of detail-work for which Clay Riddell was already
becoming known—
He opened his
eyes and sat up. The others were still in their circle on the carpet at the
north end. Clay didn't know how long he'd been sitting against the door, but it
had been long enough for his ass to go numb.
You guys,
he tried to say, but at first no sound would come out. His mouth was dry.
His heart was pumping hard. He cleared his throat and tried again. "You guys!"
he said, and they looked around. Something in his voice made Jordan scramble to
his feet, and Tom wasn't far behind.
Clay walked
toward them on legs that didn't feel like his own—they were half-asleep. He took
the cell phone out of his pocket as he walked. The one Ray had died for because
in the heat of the moment he had forgotten the most salient fact about
Kashwakamak: up here at the Northern Counties Expo, these things didn't
work.
8
"If it won't work, what good is it?" Dan
asked. He had been excited by Clay's excitement, but deflated in a hurry when he
saw the object in Clay's hand wasn't a Get Out of Jail Free card but only
another goddam cell phone. A dirty old Motorola with a cracked casing. The
others looked at it with a mixture of fear and curiosity.
"Bear with me,"
Clay said. "Would you do that?"
"We've got all
night," Dan said. He took off his glasses and began to polish them. "Got to spin
it away somehow."
"You stopped at
that Newfield Trading Post for something to eat and drink," Clay said, "and you
found the little yellow schoolbus."
"That seems like
a zillion years ago," Denise said. She stuck out her lower lip and blew hair off
her forehead.
"Ray
found the little bus," Clay said. "Seats about twelve—"
"Sixteen,
actually," Dan said. "It's written on the dashboard. Man, they must have
teensy schools up here."
"Seats sixteen,
with space behind the rear seat for packs, or a little light luggage for field
trips. Then you moved on. And when you got to the Gurleyville Quarry, I bet it
was Ray's idea that you should stop there."
"You know, it
was," Tom said. "He thought we could use a hot meal and a rest. How'd you know
that, Clay?"
"I knew it
because I drew it," Clay said, and this was close to true—he was seeing it as he
spoke. "Dan, you and Denise and Ray wiped out two flocks. The first with
gasoline, but on the second you used dynamite. Ray knew how because he'd used it
working highway jobs."
"Fuck," Tom
breathed. "He got dynamite in that quarry, didn't he? While we were sleeping.
And he could have—we slept like the dead."
"Ray was the one
who woke us up," Denise said.
Clay said, "I
don't know if it was dynamite or some other explosive, but I'm almost positive
he turned that little yellow bus into a rolling bomb while you were
sleeping."
"It's in back,"
Jordan said. "In the luggage compartment."
Clay
nodded.
Jordan's hands
were clenched into fists. "How much, do you think?"
"No way of
knowing until it goes up," Clay said.
"Let me see if
I'm following this," Tom said. Outside, Vivaldi gave way to Mozart—A Little
Night Music. The phoners had definitely evolved past Debby Boone. "He stowed
a bomb in the back of the bus . . . then somehow rigged a cell phone as a
detonator?"
Clay nodded.
"That's what I believe. I think he found two cells in the quarry office. For all
I know, there could have been half a dozen, for crew use—God knows they're cheap
enough nowadays. Anyway, he rigged one to a detonator on the explosives. It's
how the insurgents used to set off roadside bombs in Iraq."
"He did all that
while we were sleeping?" Denise asked. "And didn't tell us?"
Clay said, "He
kept it from you so it wouldn't be in your minds."
"And killed
himself so it wouldn't be in his," Dan said. Then he uttered a burst of bitter
laughter. "Okay, he's a goddam hero! The only thing he forgot is that cell
phones don't work beyond the place where they put up their goddam conversion
tents! I bet they barely worked there!"
"Right," Clay
said. He was smiling. "That's why the Raggedy Man let me keep this phone. He
didn't know what I wanted it for—I'm not sure they exactly think,
anyway—"
"Not like us,
they don't," Jordan said. "And they never will."
"—but he didn't
care, because he knew it wouldn't work. I couldn't even Pulse myself with it,
because Kashwak equals no-fo. No-fo-me-me."
"Then why the
smile?" Denise asked.
"Because I know
something he doesn't," Clay said. "Something they don't." He turned to
Jordan. "Can you drive?"
Jordan looked
startled. "Hey, I'm twelve. I mean, hello?"
"You've never
driven a go-kart? An ATV? A snowmobile?"
"Well, sure . .
. there's a dirt go-kart track at this pitch-n-putt place outside Nashua, and
once or twice . . ."
"That'll work.
We're not talking about very far. Assuming, that is, they left the bus at the
Parachute Drop. And I bet they did. I don't think they know how to drive any
more than they know how to think."
Tom said, "Clay,
have you lost your mind?"
"No," he said.
"They may hold their mass flock-killer executions in that virtual stadium of
theirs tomorrow, but we're not going to be part of it. We're getting out
of here."
9
The little windows were thick, but Dan's
crowbar was a match for the glass. He, Tom, and Clay took turns with it, working
until all the shards were knocked out. Then Denise took the sweater she'd been
wearing and laid it over the bottom of the frame.
"You okay with
this, Jordan?" Tom asked.
Jordan nodded.
He was frightened—there was no color in his lips at all—but seemed composed.
Outside, the phoners' lullaby music had cycled around to Pachelbel's Canon
again—what Denise had called the sound of memories.
"I'm okay,"
Jordan said. "I will be, anyway. I think. Once I get going."
Clay said, "Tom
might be able to squeeze through—"
Behind Jordan's
shoulder, Tom looked at the small window, no more than eighteen inches wide, and
shook his head.
"I'll be okay,"
Jordan said.
"All right. Tell
it to me again."
"Go around and
look in the back of the bus. Make sure there's explosives, but don't touch any
of it. Look for the other cell phone."
"Right. Make
sure it's on. And if it's not on—"
"I know, turn
it on." Jordan gave Clay an I'm-no-dummy look. "Then start the
motor—"
"No, don't get
ahead of yourself—"
"Pull the
driving seat forward so I can reach the pedals, then start the
motor."
"Right."
"Drive between
the Parachute Drop and the funhouse. Go super slow. I'll run over some pieces of
the funhouse and they may break—snap under the tires—but don't let that stop
me."
"Right
on."
"Get as close to
them as I can."
"Yes, that's
right. Then come around back again, to this window. So the hall is between you
and the explosion."
"What we hope
will be an explosion," Dan said.
Clay could have
done without this, but let it pass. He stooped and kissed Jordan on the cheek.
"I love you, you know," he said.
Jordan hugged
him briefly, fiercely. Then Tom. Then Denise.
Dan put out his
hand, then said, "Oh, what the hell," and enfolded Jordan in a bearhug. Clay,
who had never warmed very much to Dan Hartwick, liked him better for
that.
10
Clay made a step with his hands and boosted
Jordan up. "Remember," he said, "it's going to be like a dive, only into hay
instead of water. Hands up and out."
Jordan put his
hands over his head, extending them through the broken window and into the
night. His face underneath his thick fall of hair was paler than ever; the first
red blemishes of adolescence stood out there like tiny burns. He was scared, and
Clay didn't blame him. He was in for a ten-foot drop, and even with the hay, the
landing was apt to be hard. Clay hoped Jordan would remember to keep his hands
out and his head tucked; he'd do none of them any good lying beside Kashwakamak
Hall with a broken neck.
"You want me to
count three, Jordan?" he asked.
"Fuck, no! Just
do it before I pee myself!"
"Then keep your
hands out, go!" Clay cried, and thrust his locked hands upward. Jordan
shot through the window and disappeared. Clay didn't hear him land; the music
was too loud.
The others
crowded up to the window, which was just above their heads. "Jordan?" Tom
called. "Jordan, you there?"
For a moment
there was nothing, and Clay was sure Jordan really had broken his neck. Then he
said shakily, "I'm here. Jeez, that hurts. I croggled my elbow. The left
one. That arm's all weird. Wait a minute . . ."
They waited.
Denise took Clay's hand and squeezed it hard.
"It moves,"
Jordan said. "It's okay, I guess, but maybe I ought to see the school
nurse."
They all laughed
too hard.
Tom had tied the
bus's ignition key to a double line of thread from his shirt, and the thread to
the buckle of his belt. Now Clay laced his fingers together again and Tom
stepped up. "I'm going to lower the key to you, Jordan. Ready?"
"Yeah."
Tom gripped the
edge of the window, looked down, and then lowered his belt. "Okay, you got it,"
he said. "Now listen to me. All we ask is do it if you can. If you can't, no
penalty minutes. Got that?"
"Yes."
"Go on, then.
Scat." He watched a moment, then said, "He's on his way. God help him, he's a
brave kid. Put me down."
11
Jordan had gone out on the side of the
building away from the roosting flock. Clay, Tom, Denise, and Dan crossed the
room to the midway side. The three men tipped the already vandalized snack
machine over on its side and shoved it against the wall. Clay and Dan could
easily see out the high windows by standing on it, Tom by standing on tiptoes.
Clay added a crate so Denise could also see, praying she wouldn't topple off it
and go into labor.
They saw Jordan
cross to the edge of the sleeping multitude, stand there a minute as if
debating, and then move off to his left. Clay thought he continued seeing
movement long after his rational mind told him that Jordan must be gone,
skirting the edge of the massive flock.
"How long will
it take him to get back, do you think?" Tom asked.
Clay shook his
head. He didn't know. It depended on so many variables—the size of the flock was
only one of them.
"What if they
looked in the back of the bus?" Denise asked.
"What if
Jordy looks in the back of the bus and there's nothing there?" Dan asked,
and Clay had to restrain himself from telling the man to keep his negative vibe
to himself.
Time passed,
giving itself up by inches. The little red light on the tip of the Parachute
Drop blinked. Pachelbel once more gave way to Fauré and Fauré to Vivaldi. Clay
found himself remembering the sleeping boy who had come spilling out of the
shopping cart, how the man with him—probably not his father—had sat down with
him at the side of the road and said Gregory kiss it, make it all better.
He remembered the man with the rucksack listening to "Baby Elephant Walk"
and saying Dodge had a good time, too. He remembered how, in the bingo
tents of his childhood, the man with the microphone would invariably exclaim
It's the sunshine vitamin! when he pulled B-12 out of the hopper with the
dancing Ping-Pong balls inside. Even though the sunshine vitamin was
D.
The time now
gave itself up in what seemed quarter-inches, and Clay began losing hope. If
they were going to hear the sound of the bus's engine, they should have heard it
by now.
"It's gone wrong
somehow," Tom said in a low voice.
"Maybe not,"
Clay said. He tried to keep his heart's heaviness out of his voice.
"No, Tommy's
right," Denise said. She was on the verge of tears. "I love him to death, and he
was ballsier than Lord Satan on his first night in hell, but if he was coming,
he'd be on his way by now."
Dan's take was
surprisingly positive. "We don't know what he might have run into. Just take a
deep breath and try to put your imaginations on hold."
Clay tried that
and failed. Now the seconds dripped by. Schubert's "Ave Maria" boomed
through the big concert speakers. He thought, I would sell my
soul for some honest rock and roll—Chuck
Berry doing "Oh, Carol," U2 doing "When Love Comes to Town" . .
.
Outside, nothing
but dark, and stars, and that one tiny red battery-driven light.
"Boost me up
over there," Tom said, hopping down from the snack machine. "I'll squeeze
through that window somehow and see if I can't go get him."
Clay began,
"Tom, if I was wrong about there being explosives in the back of the
bus—"
"Fuck the back
of the bus and fuck the explosives!" Tom said, distraught. "I just want to find
Jor—"
"Hey!" Dan
shouted, and then: "Hey, all right! BABY-NOW!" He slammed one fist
against the wall beside the window.
Clay turned and
saw headlights had bloomed in the dark. A mist had begun to rise from the
blanket of comatose bodies on the acres of mall, and the bus's headlights seemed
to be shining through smoke. They flicked bright, then dim, then bright again,
and Clay could see Jordan with brilliant clarity, sitting in the driver's seat
of the minibus and trying to figure out which controls did which.
Now the
headlights began to creep forward. High beams.
"Yeah, honey,"
Denise breathed. "Do it, my sweetheart." Standing on her crate, she
grabbed Dan's hand on one side and Clay's on the other. "You're beautiful, just
keep on coming."
The headlights
jogged away from them, now illuminating the trees far to the left of the open
space with its carpet of phoners.
"What's he
doing?" Tom almost moaned.
"That's where
the side of the funhouse takes a jog," Clay said. "It's all right." He
hesitated. "I think it's all right." If his foot doesn't slip. If he doesn't
mix up the
brake and the accelerator, run the bus into the side of the damn funhouse, and
stick it there.
They waited, and
the headlights swung back, spearing the side of Kashwakamak Hall on the dead
level. And in the glare of the high beams, Clay saw why it had taken Jordan so
long. Not all of the phoners were down. Dozens of them—the ones with bad
programming, he assumed—were up and moving. They walked aimlessly toward any and
every point of the compass, black silhouettes moving outward in expanding
ripples, struggling to make their way over the bodies of the sleepers,
stumbling, falling, getting up and walking on again while Schubert's "Ave"
filled the night. One of them, a young man with a long red gash running across
the middle of his forehead like a worry line, reached the Hall and felt his way
along the side like a blind man.
"That's far
enough, Jordan," Clay murmured as the headlights neared the speaker-standards on
the far side of the open area. "Park it and get your ass back here."
It seemed that
Jordan heard him. The headlights came to a stop. For a moment the only things
moving out there were the restless shapes of the wakeful phoners and the mist
rising from the warm bodies of the others. Then they heard the bus's engine
rev—even over the music they heard it—and the headlights leaped forward. "No,
Jordan, what are you doing?" Tom screamed.
Denise recoiled and would have
tumbled off her crate if Clay hadn't caught her around the waist.
The bus jounced
into the sleeping flock. Onto the sleeping flock. The headlights began to
pogo up and down, now pointing at them, now lifting briefly upward, now coming
back to dead level again. The bus slewed left, came back on course, then slewed
right. For a moment one of the night-walkers was illuminated in its four glaring
high beams as clearly as something cut from black construction paper. Clay saw
the phoner's arms go up, as if it wanted to signal a successful field goal, and
then it was borne under the bus's charging grille.
Jordan drove the
bus into the middle of them and there it stopped, headlights glaring, grille
dripping. By raising a hand to block the worst of the shine, Clay was able to
see a small dark form—distinguishable from the rest by its agility and
purpose—emerge from the side door of the bus and begin making its way toward
Kashwakamak Hall. Then Jordan fell and Clay thought he was gone. A moment later
Dan rapped, "There he is, there!" and Clay picked him up again, ten yards
closer and considerably to the left of where he'd lost sight of the kid. Jordan
must have crawled for some distance over the sleeping bodies before trying his
feet again.
When Jordan came
back into the hazy cone of radiance thrown by the bus's headlights, tacked to
the end of a forty-foot shadow, they could see him clearly for the first time.
Not his face, because of the backlighting, but the crazy-graceful way he was
running over the bodies of the phoners. The ones who were down were still dead
to the world. The ones who were awake but not close to Jordan paid no attention.
Several of those who were close, however, made grabs at him. Jordan
dodged two of these, but the third, a woman, got him by the tangled mop of his
hair.
"Let him
alone!" Clay roared. He couldn't see her, but he was insanely positive it
was the woman who had once been his wife. "Let him go!"
She didn't, but
Jordan grabbed her wrist, twisted it, went to one knee, and scrambled past. The
woman made another grab, just missed the back of his shirt, and then tottered
off in her own direction.
Many of the
infected phoners, Clay saw, were gathering around the bus. The headlights seemed
to be drawing them.
Clay leaped off
the snack machine (this time it was Dan Hartwick who saved Denise from a tumble)
and grabbed the crowbar. He leaped back up and smashed out the window he'd been
looking through.
"Jordan!"
he bawled. 'Around back! Get around back!"
Jordan looked up
at the sound of Clay's voice and tripped over something—a leg, an arm, maybe a
neck. As he was getting back up, a hand came out of the breathing darkness and
clutched the kid's throat.
"Please God,
no," Tom whispered.
Jordan lunged
forward like a fullback trying for a first down, pistoning with his legs, and
broke the hand's grip. He stumbled onward. Clay could see his staring eyes and
the way his chest was heaving. As he neared the hall, Clay could hear Jordan's
sobbing gasps for air.
Never make it,
he thought.
Never. And he's so close now, so close.
But Jordan did
make it. The two phoners currently staggering along the side of the building
showed no interest in him at all as he lunged past them and around to the far
side. The four of them were off the snack machine at once and racing across the
hall like a relay team, Denise and her belly in the lead.
"Jordan!" she
cried, bouncing up and down on her toe-tips. "Jordan, Jordy, are you there? For
chrissake, kid, tell us you're there!"
"I'm"—he tore a
great gasp of breath out of the air—"here." Another whooping gasp. Clay was
distantly aware of Tom laughing and pounding him on the back. "Never
knew"—Whooo-oooop!—"running over people was so . . . hard."
"What did you
think you were doing?" Clay shouted. It was killing him not to be able to grab
the kid, first to embrace him, then shake him, then kiss him all over his stupid
brave face. Killing him to not even be able to see him. "I said get close
to them, not drive right the fuck into them!"
"I did
it"—Whooo-ooop!—"for the Head." There was defiance as well as zbreathlessness in Jordan's voice now.
"They killed the Head. Them and their Raggedy Man. Them and their stupid
President of Harvard. I wanted to make them pay. I want him to
pay."
"What took you
so long to get going?" Denise asked. "We waited and waited!"
"There are
dozens of them up and around," Jordan said. "Maybe hundreds. Whatever's wrong
with them . . . or right. . .or just changing . . . it's spreading really fast
now. They're walking every which way, like totally lost. I had to keep changing
course. I ended up coming to the bus from halfway down the midway. Then—" He
laughed breathlessly. "It wouldn't start! Do you believe it? I
turned the key and turned the key and got nothing but a click every time. I just
about freaked, but I wouldn't let myself. Because I knew the Head would be
disappointed if I did that."
"Ah, Jordy . .
." Tom breathed.
"You know what
it was? I had to buckle the stupid seatbelt. You don't need em for the
passenger seats, but the bus won't start unless the driver's wearing his.
Anyway, I'm sorry it took me so long, but here I am."
"And may we
assume that the luggage compartment wasn't empty?" Dan asked.
"You can assume
the shit out of that. It's full of what look like red bricks. Stacks and stacks
of them." Jordan was getting his breath back now. "They're under a blanket.
There's a cell phone lying on top of them. Ray attached it to a couple of those
bricks with an elastic strap, like a bungee cord. The phone's on, and it's the
kind with a port, like for a fax or so you can download data to a computer. The
power-cord runs down into the bricks. I didn't see it, but I bet the detonator's
in the middle." He grabbed another deep breath. "And there were bars on the
phone. Three bars."
Clay nodded.
He'd been right. Kashwakamak was supposed to be a cell dead zone once you got
beyond the feeder-road leading to the Northern Counties Expo. The phoners had
plucked that knowledge from the heads of certain normies and had used it. The
Kashwak=No-Fo graffiti had spread like smallpox. But had any of the phoners
actually tried making a cell-call from the Expo fairgrounds? Of course not. Why
would they? When you were telepathic, phones were obsolete. And when you were
one
member of the flock—one part
of the whole—they became doubly obsolete, if such a thing was
possible.
But cell phones
did work within this one small area, and why? Because the carnies were
setting up, that was why—carnies working for an outfit called the New England
Amusement Corporation. And in the twenty-first century, carnies—like
rock-concert roadies, touring stage productions, and movie crews on
location—depended on cell phones, especially in isolated places where landlines
were in short supply. Were there no cell phone towers to relay signals onward
and upward? Fine, they would pirate the necessary software and install one of
their own. Illegal? Of course, but judging by the three bars Jordan was
reporting, it had been workable, and because it was battery-powered, it was
still workable. They had installed it on the Expo's highest
point.
They had
installed it on the tip of the Parachute Drop.
12
Dan recrossed the hall, got up on the snack
machine, and looked out. "They're three deep around the bus," he reported. "Four
deep in front of the headlights. It's like they think there's some big pop star
hiding inside. The ones they're standing on must be getting crushed." He turned
to Clay and nodded at the dirty Motorola cell phone Clay was now holding. "If
you're going to try this, I suggest you try it now, before one of them decides
to get in and try driving the damn bus away."
"I should have turned it off, but I
thought the headlights would go out if I did," Jordan said. "And I wanted them
to see by."
"It's okay,
Jordan," Clay said. "No harm done. I'm going to—" But there was nothing in the
pocket from which he'd taken the cell phone. The scrap of paper with the
telephone number on it was gone.
13
Clay and Tom were looking for it on the
floor—frantically looking for it on the floor—and Dan was dolefully
reporting from atop the snack machine that the first phoner had just stumbled on
board the bus when Denise bellowed, "Stop! SHUT UP!"
They all stopped
what they were doing and looked at her. Clay's heart was fluttering high in his
throat. He couldn't believe his own carelessness. Ray died for that, you
stupid shit! part of him kept shouting at the rest of him. He died for it
and you lost it!
Denise closed
her eyes and put her hands together over her bowed head. Then, very rapidly, she
chanted, "Tony, Tony, come around, something's lost that can't be
found."
"What the
fuck is that?' Dan asked. He sounded astonished.
"A prayer to St.
Anthony," she said calmly. "I learned it in parochial school. It always
works."
"Give me a
break," Tom almost groaned.
She ignored him,
focusing all her attention on Clay. "It's not on the floor, is it?"
"I don't think
so, no."
"Another two
just got on the bus," Dan reported. "And the turn signals are going. So one of
them must be sitting at the—"
"Will you please
shut up, Dan," Denise said. She was still looking at Clay. Still calm. "And if
you lost it on the bus, or outside somewhere, it's lost for good,
right?"
"Yes," he said
heavily.
"So we know it's
not in either of those places."
"Why do we know
that?"
"Because God
wouldn't let it be."
"I think . . .
my head's going to explode," Tom said in a strangely calm voice.
Again she
ignored him. "So which pocket haven't you checked?"
"I checked
every—" Clay began, then stopped. Without taking his eyes from Denise's,
he investigated the small watch-pocket sewn into the larger right front pocket
of his jeans. And the slip of paper was there. He didn't remember putting it
there, but it was there. He pulled it out. Scrawled on it in the dead
man's laborious printing was the number: 207-919-9811.
"Thank St.
Anthony for me," he said.
"If this works,"
she said, "I'll ask St. Anthony to thank God."
"Deni?" Tom
said.
She turned to
him.
"Thank Him for
me, too," he said.
14
The four of them sat together against the
double doors through which they had entered, counting on the steel cores to
protect them. Jordan was crouched down in back of the building, below the broken
window through which he had escaped.
"What are we
going to do if the explosion doesn't blow any holes in the side of this place?"
Tom asked.
"We'll think of
something," Clay said.
"And if Ray's
bomb doesn't go off?" Dan asked.
"Drop back
twenty yards and punt," Denise said. "Go on, Clay. Don't wait for the
theme-music."
He opened the
cell phone, looked at the dark LED readout, and realized he should have checked
for bars on this one before sending Jordan out. He hadn't thought of it. None of
them had thought of it. Stupid. Almost as stupid as forgetting he'd put the
scrap of paper with the number written on it in his watch pocket. He pushed the
power button now. The phone beeped. For a moment there was nothing, and then
three bars appeared, bright and clear. He punched in the number, then settled
his thumb lightly on the button marked call.
"Jordan, you
ready back there?"
"Yes!"
"What about you
guys?" Clay asked.
"Just do it
before I have a heart attack," Tom said.
An image rose in
Clay's mind, nightmarish in its clarity: Johnny-Gee lying almost directly
beneath the place where the explosives-laden bus had come to rest. Lying on his
back with his eyes open and his hands clasped on the chest of his Red Sox
T-shirt, listening to the music while his mind rebuilt itself in some strange
new way.
He swept it
aside.
"Tony, Tony,
come around," he said for no reason whatever, and then pushed the button that
called the cell phone in the back of the minibus.
There was time
for him to count Mississippi ONE and Mississippi TWO before the
entire world outside Kashwakamak Hall seemed to blow up, the roar swallowing
Tomaso Albinoni's "Adagio" in a hungry blast. All the small windows lining the
flock side of the building blew in. Brilliant crimson light shone through the
holes, then the entire south end of the building tore away in a hail of boards,
glass, and swirling hay. The doors they were leaning against seemed to bend
backward. Denise wrapped protective arms around her belly. From outside a
terrible hurt screaming began. For a moment this sound ripped through Clay's
head like the blade of a buzzsaw. Then it was gone. The screaming in his ears
went on. It was the sound of people roasting in hell.
Something landed
on the roof. It was heavy enough to make the whole building shudder. Clay pulled
Denise to her feet. She looked at him wildly, as if no longer sure who he was.
"Come on!" He was shouting but could hardly hear his own voice. It seemed
to be seeping through wads of cotton.
"Come on, let's get out!"
Tom was up. Dan
made it halfway, fell back, tried again, and managed it the second time. He
grabbed Tom's hand. Tom grabbed Denise's. Linked three-across, they shuffled to
the gaping hole at the end of the Hall. There they found Jordan standing next to
a litter of burning hay and staring out at what a single phone call had
done.
15
The giant's foot that had seemed to stamp
the roof of Kashwakamak Hall had been a large chunk of schoolbus. The shingles
were burning. Directly in front of them, beyond the little pile of blazing hay,
were a pair of upside-down seats, also burning. Their steel frames had been
shredded into spaghetti. Clothes floated out of the sky like big snow: shirts,
hats, pants, shorts, an athletic supporter, a blazing bra. Clay saw that the hay
insulation piled along the bottom of the hall was going to be a moat of fire
before very long; they were getting out just in time.
Patches of fire
dotted the mall area where concerts, outdoor dances, and various competitions had been held, but
the chunks of the exploding bus had swept farther than that. Clay saw flames
burning high in trees that had to be at least three hundred yards away. Dead
south of their position, the funhouse had started to burn and he could see
something—he thought it was probably a human torso—blazing halfway up the
strutwork of the Parachute Drop.
The flock itself
had become a raw meatloaf of dead and dying phoners. Their telepathy had broken
down (although little currents of that strange psychic force occasionally tugged
at him, making his hair rise and his flesh crawl), but the survivors could still
scream, and they filled the night with their cries. Clay would have gone ahead
even if he'd been able to imagine how bad it was going to be—even in the first
few seconds he made no effort to mislead himself on that score—but this was
beyond imagining.
The firelight
was just enough to show them more than they wanted to see. The mutilations and
decapitations were bad—the pools of blood, the littered limbs—but the scattered
clothes and shoes with nobody inside them were somehow worse, as if the
explosion had been fierce enough to actually vaporize part of the flock. A man
walked toward them with his hands to his throat in an effort to stem the flow of
blood pouring over and between his fingers—it looked orange in the growing glow
of the Hall's burning roof—while his intestines swung back and forth at the
level of his crotch. More wet loops came sliding out as he walked past them, his
eyes wide and unseeing.
Jordan was saying something. Clay couldn't
hear it over the screams, the wails, and the growing crackle of fire from behind
him, so he leaned closer.
"We had to do
it, it was all we could do," Jordan said. He looked at a headless woman, a
legless man, at something so torn open it had become a flesh canoe filled with
blood. Beyond it, two more bus seats lay on a pair of burning women who had died
in each other's arms. "We had to do it, it was all we could do. We had to do it,
it was all we could do."
"That's right,
honey, put your face against me and walk like that," Clay said, and Jordan
immediately buried his face in Clay's side. Walking that way was uncomfortable,
but it could be done.
They skirted the
edge of the flock's campground, moving toward the back of what would have been a completed
midway and amusement arcade if the Pulse hadn't intervened. As they went,
Kashwakamak Hall burned brighter, casting more light on the mall. Dark
shapes—many naked or almost naked, the clothes blown right off them—staggered
and shambled. Clay had no idea how many. The few that passed close by their
little group showed no interest in them; they either continued on toward the
midway area or plunged into the woods west of the Expo grounds, where Clay was
quite sure they would die of exposure unless they could reestablish some sort of
flock consciousness. He didn't think they could. Partly because of the virus,
but mostly because of Jordan's decision to drive the bus right into the middle
of them and achieve a maximum kill-zone, as they had with the propane
trucks.
If they'd ever
known snuffing one old man could lead to this . . . Clay thought,
and then he thought, But
how could they?
They reached the
dirt lot where the carnies had parked their trucks and campers. Here the ground
was thick with snaking electrical cables, and the spaces between the campers
were filled with the accessories of families who lived on the road: barbecues,
gas grills, lawn chairs, a hammock, a little laundry whirligig with clothes that
had probably been hanging there for almost two weeks.
"Let's find
something with the keys in it and get the hell out of here," Dan said. "They
cleared the feeder road, and if we're careful I bet we can go north on 160 as
far as we want." He pointed. "Up there it's just about all
no-fo."
Clay had spotted
a panel truck with lem's painting and
plumbing on the back. He tried the doors and they opened. The inside was
filled with milk-crates, most crammed with various plumbing supplies, but in one
he found what he wanted: paint in spray-cans. He took four of these after
checking to make sure they were full or almost full.
"What are those
for?" Tom asked.
"Tell you
later," Clay said.
"Let's get out
of here, please," Denise said. "I can't stand this. My pants are soaked
with blood." She began to cry.
They came onto
the midway between the Krazy Kups and a half-constructed kiddie ride called
Charlie the Choo-Choo. "Look," Tom said, pointing.
"Oh . . . my . .
. God," Dan said softly.
Lying draped
across the peak of the train ride's ticket booth was the remains of a charred
and smoking red sweatshirt—the kind sometimes called a hoodie. A large splotch
of blood matted the front around a hole probably made by a chunk of flying
schoolbus. Before the blood took over, covering the rest, Clay could make out
three letters, the Raggedy Man's last laugh: HAR.
16
"There's nobody in the fucking thing, and
judging by the size of the hole, he had open-heart surgery without benefit of
anesthetic," Denise said, "so when you're tired of looking—"
"There's another
little parking lot down at the south end of the midway," Tom said. "Nice-looking
cars in that one. Boss-type cars. We might get lucky."
They did, but
not with a nice-looking car. A small van with tyco water purification experts was
parked behind a number of the nice-looking cars, effectively blocking them in.
The Tyco man had considerately left his keys in the ignition, probably for that
very reason, and Clay drove them away from the fire, the carnage, and the
screams, rolling with slow care down the feeder road to the junction marked by
the billboard showing the sort of happy family that no longer existed (if it
ever had). There Clay stopped and put the gearshift lever in park.
"One of you guys
has to take over now," he said.
"Why, Clay?"
Jordan asked, but Clay knew from the boy's voice that Jordan already
knew.
"Because this is
where I get out," he said.
"No!"
"Yes. I'm going
to look for my boy."
Tom said, "He's
almost certainly dead back there. I'm not meaning to be a hardass, only
realistic."
"I know that,
Tom. I also know there's a chance he's not, and so do you. Jordan said they were
walking every which way, like they were totally lost."
Denise said,
"Clay . . . honey . . . even if he's alive, he could be wandering around in the
woods with half his head blown off. I hate to say that, but you know it's
true."
Clay nodded. "I
also know he could have gotten out earlier, while we were locked up, and started
down the road to Gurleyville. A couple of others made it that far; I saw them.
And I saw others on the way. So did you."
"No arguing with
the artistic mind, is there?" Tom asked sadly.
"No," Clay said,
"but I wonder if you and Jordan would step outside with me for a
minute."
Tom sighed. "Why
not?" he said.
17
Several phoners, looking lost and
bewildered, walked past them as they stood by the side of the little water
purification van. Clay, Tom, and Jordan paid no attention to them, and the
phoners returned the favor. To the northwest the horizon was a brightening
red-orange as Kashwakamak Hall shared its fire with the forest behind
it.
"No big goodbyes
this time," Clay said, affecting not to see the tears in Jordan's eyes. "I'm
expecting to see you again. Here, Tom. Take this." He held out the cell phone
he'd used to set off the blast. Tom took it. "Go north from here. Keep checking
that thing for bars. If you come to road-reefs, abandon what you're driving,
walk until the road's clear, then take another car or truck and drive again.
You'll probably get cell transmission bars around the Rangeley area—that was
boating in the summer, hunting in the fall, skiing in the winter—but beyond
there you should be in the clear, and the days should be safe."
"I bet they're
safe now," Jordan said, wiping his eyes.
Clay nodded.
"You might be right. Anyway, use your judgment. When you get a hundred or so
miles north of Rangeley, find a cabin or a lodge or something, fill it with
supplies, and lay up for the winter. You know what the winter's going to do to
these things, don't you?"
"If the flock
mind falls apart and they don't migrate, almost all of them will die," Tom said.
"Those north of the Mason-Dixon Line, at least."
"I think so,
yeah. I put those cans of spray-paint in the center console. Every twenty miles
or so, spray T-J-D on the road, nice and big. Got it?"
"T-J-D," Jordan
said. "For Tom, Jordan, Dan, and Denise."
"Right. Make sure you
spray it extra big, with an arrow, if you change roads. If you take a dirt road,
spray it on trees, always on the right-hand side of the road. That's where I'll
be looking. Have you got that?"
"Always on the
right," Tom said. "Come with us, Clay. Please."
"No. Don't make
this harder for me than it already is. Every time you have to abandon a vehicle,
leave it in the middle of the road and spray it T-J-D. Okay?"
"Okay," Jordan
said. "You better find us."
"I will. This is
going to be a dangerous world for a while, but not quite as dangerous as it's
been. Jordan, I need to ask you something."
"All
right."
"If I find
Johnny and the worst that's happened to him is a trip through their
conversion-point, what should I do?"
Jordan gaped.
"How would I know? Jesus, Clay! I mean . . .Jesus!"
"You knew they
were rebooting," Clay said.
"I made a
guess!"
Clay knew it had
been a lot more than that. A lot better than that. He also knew Jordan
was exhausted and terrified. He dropped to one knee in front of the boy and took
his hand. "Don't be afraid. It can't be any worse for him than it already is.
God knows it can't."
"Clay, I . . ."
Jordan looked at Tom. "People aren't like computers, Tom! Tell him!"
"But computers
are like people, aren't they?" Tom said. "Because we build what we know. You
knew about the reboot and you knew about the worm. So tell him what you think.
He probably won't find the kid, anyway. If he does . . ." Tom shrugged. "Like he
said. How much worse can it be?"
Jordan thought
about this, biting his lip. He looked terribly tired, and there was blood on his
shirt.
"Are you guys
coming?" Dan called.
"Give us another
minute," Tom said. And then, in a softer tone: "Jordan?"
Jordan was quiet
a moment longer. Then he looked at Clay and said, "You'd need another cell
phone. And you'd need to take him to a place where there's coverage . .
."
SAVE
TO SYSTEM
1
Clay stood in the middle of Route 160, in
what would have been the billboard's shadow on a sunny day, and watched the
taillights until they were out of sight. He couldn't shake the idea that he
would never see Tom and Jordan again (fading roses, his mind whispered),
but he refused to let it grow into a premonition. They had come together twice,
after all, and didn't people say the third time was the charm?
A passing phoner
bumped him. It was a man with blood congealing on one side of his face—the first
injured refugee from the Northern Counties Expo that he'd seen. He would see
more if he didn't stay ahead of them, so he set off along Route 160, heading
south again. He had no real reason to think his kid had gone south, but hoped
that some vestige of Johnny's mind—his old mind—told him home lay in that
direction. And it was a direction Clay knew, at least.
About half a
mile south of the feeder road he encountered another phoner, this one a woman,
who was pacing rapidly back and forth across the highway like a captain on the
foredeck of her ship. She looked around at Clay with such sharp regard that he
raised his hands, ready to grapple with her if she attacked him.
She didn't. "Who
fa-Da?" she asked, and in his mind, quite clearly, he heard: Who fell? Daddy,
who fell?
"I don't
know," he said, easing past her. "I didn't see."
"Where na?" she
asked, pacing more furiously than ever, and in his mind he heard: Where am I now? This
he made no attempt to answer, but in his mind he thought of Pixie Dark asking,
Who are you? Who am 1?
Clay walked
faster, but not quite fast enough. The pacing woman called after him, chilling
him: "Who Pih' Da?"
And in his mind,
he heard this question echo with chilling clarity. Who is Pixie
Dark?
2
There was no gun in the first house he
broke into, but there was a long-barreled flashlight, and he shone it on every
straggling phoner he encountered, always asking the same question, trying
simultaneously to throw it with his mind like a magic-lantern slide on a screen:
Have you seen a boy? He got no answers and heard only fading fragments of
thought in his head. At the second house there was a nice Dodge Ram in the
driveway, but Clay didn't dare take it. If Johnny was on this road, he'd be
walking. If Clay was driving, he might miss his boy even if he was driving slow.
In the pantry he found a Daisy canned ham, which he unzipped with the attached
key and munched as he hit the road again. He was about to throw the balance into
the weeds after he'd eaten his fill when he saw an elderly phoner standing
beside a mailbox, watching him with a sad and hungry eye. Clay held out the ham
and the old man took it. Then, speaking slowly and clearly, trying to picture
Johnny in his mind, Clay said: "Have you seen a boy?"
The old man
chewed ham. Swallowed. Appeared to consider. Said: "Ganna the wishy."
"The wishy,"
Clay said. "Right. Thanks." He walked on.
In the third
house, a mile or so farther south, he found a .30-30 in the basement, along with
three boxes of shells. In the kitchen he found a cell phone sitting in its
charging cradle on the counter. The charger was dead—of course—but when he
pushed the button on the phone, it beeped and powered up immediately. He only
got a single bar, but this didn't surprise him. The phoners' conversion-point
had been at the edge of the grid.
He started for
the door with the loaded rifle in one hand, the flashlight in the other, and the cell phone clipped
to his belt when simple exhaustion overwhelmed him. He staggered sideways, as if
struck by the head of a padded hammer. He wanted to go on, but such sense as his
tired mind was able to muster told him he had to sleep now, and maybe sleep even
made sense. If Johnny was out here, the chances were good he was
sleeping, too.
"Switch over to
the day shift, Clayton," he muttered. "You're not going to find jackshit in the
middle of the night with a flashlight."
It was a small
house—the home of an elderly couple, he thought, judging by the pictures in the
living room and the single bedroom and the rails surrounding the toilet in the
single bathroom. The bed was neatly made. He lay down on it without opening the
covers, only taking off his shoes. And once he was down, the exhaustion seemed
to settle on him like a weight. He could not imagine getting up for anything.
There was a smell in the room, some old woman's sachet, he thought. A
grandmotherly smell. It seemed almost as tired as he felt. Lying here in this
silence, the carnage at the Expo grounds seemed distant and unreal, like an idea
for a comic he would never write. Too gruesome. Stick with Dark Wanderer,
Sharon might have said—his old, sweet Sharon. Stick with your apocalypse
cowboys.
His mind seemed
to rise and float above his body. It returned—lazily, without hurry—to the three
of them standing beside the Tyco Water Purification van, just before Tom and
Jordan had climbed back aboard. Jordan had repeated what he'd said back at
Gaiten, about how human brains were really just big old hard drives, and the
Pulse had wiped them clean. Jordan said the Pulse had acted on human brains like
an EMP
Nothing left
but the core, Jordan had
said. And the core was murder. But because brains are organic hard
drives, they started to build themselves back up again. To reboot. Only there
was a glitch in the signal-code. I don't have proof, but I'm positive that the
flocking behavior, the telepathy, the levitation . . . all that came from the
glitch. The glitch was there from the start, so it became part of the reboot.
Are you following this?
Clay had nodded.
Tom had, too. The boy looking at them, his blood-smeared face tired and
earnest.
But meanwhile,
the Pulse keeps on pulsing, right? Because somewhere there's a computer running on battery power, and it
keeps running that program. The program's rotten, so the glitch in it continues
to mutate. Eventually the signal may quit or the program may get so rotten it'll
shut down. In the meantime, though . . . you might be able to use it. I say
might, you got that?
It all depends on whether or not brains do what seriously protected computers do
when they're hit with an EMP.
Tom had asked
what that was. And Jordan had given him a wan smile.
They save to
system. All data. If that happens with people, and if you could wipe the phoner
program, the old programming might eventually reboot.
"He meant the
human programming," Clay murmured in the dark bedroom, smelling that sweet,
faint aroma of sachet. "The human programming, saved somewhere way down deep.
All of it." He was going now, drifting off. If he was going to dream, he hoped
it would not be of the carnage at the Northern Counties Expo.
His last thought
before sleep took him was that maybe in the long run, the phoners would have
been better. Yes, they had been born in violence and in horror, but birth was
usually difficult, often violent, and sometimes horrible. Once they had begun
flocking and mind-melding, the violence had subsided. So far as he knew, they
hadn't actually made war on the normies, unless one considered forcible
conversion an act of war; the reprisals following the destruction of their
flocks had been gruesome but perfectly understandable. If left alone, they might
eventually have turned out to be better custodians of the earth than the
so-called normies. They certainly wouldn't have been falling all over themselves
to buy gas-guzzling SUVs, not with their levitation skills (or with their rather
primitive consumer appetites, for that matter). Hell, even their taste in music
had been improving at the end.
But what
choice did we have? Clay thought. Survival is like love. Both are
blind.
Sleep took him
then, and he didn't dream of the slaughter at the Expo. He dreamed he was in a
bingo tent, and as the caller announced B-12—It's the sunshine
vitamin!—he felt a tug on the leg of his pants. He looked under the table.
Johnny was there, smiling up at him. And somewhere a phone was
ringing.
3
Not all of the rage had gone out of the
phoner refugees, nor had the wild talents entirely departed, either. Around noon
of the next day, which was cold and raw, with a foretaste of November in the
air, Clay stopped to watch two of them fighting furiously on the shoulder of the
road. They punched, then clawed, then finally grappled together, butting heads
and biting at each other's cheeks and necks. As they did, they began to rise
slowly off the road. Clay watched, mouth hanging open, as they attained a height
of approximately ten feet, still fighting, their feet apart and braced, as if
standing on an invisible floor. Then one of them sank his teeth into the nose of
his opponent, who was wearing a ragged, bloodstained T-shirt with the words
HEAVY FUEL printed across the front. Nose-Biter pushed HEAVY FUEL
backward. HEAVY FUEL staggered, then dropped like a rock down a well.
Blood streamed upward from his ruptured nose as he fell. Nose-Biter looked down,
seemed to realize for the first time that he was a second story's height above
the road, and went down himself. Like Dumbo losing his magic feather,
Clay thought. Nose-Biter wrenched his knee and lay in the dust, lips pulled
back from his bloodstained teeth, snarling at Clay as he passed.
Yet these two
were an exception. Most of the phoners Clay passed (he saw no normies at all
that day or all the following week) seemed lost and bewildered with no flock
mind to support them. Clay thought again and again of something Jordan had said
before getting back in the van and heading into the north woods where there was
no cell phone coverage: If the worm's continuing to mutate, their newest
conversions aren't going to be either phoners or normies, not
really.
Clay thought
that meant like Pixie Dark, only a little further gone. Who are you? Who am
I? He could see these questions in their eyes, and he suspected—no, he
knew—it was these questions they were trying to ask when they spouted
their gibberish.
He continued to
ask Have you seen a boy and to try to send Johnny's picture, but he had
no hope of an answer that made sense now. Most times he got no answer at all. He
stayed the next night in a trailer about five miles north of Gurleyville, and
the next morning at a little past nine he spied a small figure sitting on the curb
outside the Gurleyville Cafe, in the middle of the town's one-block business
district.
It can't be,
he thought, but he began to walk faster, and when he got a little
closer—close enough to be almost sure that the figure was that of a child and
not just a small adult—he began to run. His new pack began to bounce up and down
on his back. His feet found the place where Gurleyville's short length of
sidewalk commenced and began clapping on the concrete.
It was a
boy.
A very skinny
boy with long hair almost down to the shoulders of his Red Sox
T-shirt.
"Johnny!"
Clay shouted. "Johnny, Johnny-Gee!"
The boy turned
toward the sound of the shout, startled. His mouth hung open in a vacant gawp.
There was nothing in his eyes but vague alarm. He looked as if he was thinking
about running, but before he could even begin to put his legs in gear, Clay had
swept him up and was covering his grimy, unresponsive face and slack mouth with
kisses.
"Johnny," Clay
said. "Johnny, I came for you. I did. I came for you. I came for
you."
And at some
point—perhaps only because the man holding him had begun to swing him around in
a circle—the child put his hands around Clay's neck and hung on. He said
something, as well. Clay refused to believe it was empty vocalization, as
meaningless as wind blowing across the mouth of an empty pop-bottle. It was a
word. It might have been tieey, as if the boy was trying to say
tired.
Or it might have
been Dieey, which was the way he had, as a sixteen-month-old, first named
his father.
Clay chose to
hang on to that. To believe the pallid, dirty, malnourished child clinging to
his neck had called him Daddy.
4
It was little enough to hang on to, he
thought a week later. One sound that might have been a word, one word that might
have been Daddy. Now the boy was sleeping on a cot in a bedroom closet,
because
Johnny would settle there and
because Clay was tired of fishing him out from under the bed. The almost
womblike confines of the closet seemed to comfort him. Perhaps it was part of
the conversion he and the others had been through. Some conversion. The phoners
at Kashwak had turned his son into a haunted moron without even a flock for
comfort.
Outside, under a
gray evening sky, snow was spitting down. A cold wind sent it up Springvale's
lightless Main Street in undulating snakes. It seemed too early for snow, but of
course it wasn't, especially this far north. When it came before Thanksgiving
you always griped, and when it came before Halloween you griped double, and then
somebody reminded you that you were living in Maine, not on the isle of
Capri.
He wondered
where Tom, Jordan, Dan, and Denise were tonight. He wondered how Denise would do
when it came time to have her baby. He thought she'd probably do okay—tough as a
boiled owl, that one. He wondered if Tom and Jordan thought about him as often
as he thought about them, and if they missed him as much as he missed
them—Jordan's solemn eyes, Tom's ironic smile. He hadn't seen half enough of
that smile; what they'd been through hadn't been all that funny.
He wondered if
this last week with his broken son had been the loneliest of his life. He
thought the answer to that was yes.
Clay looked down
at the cell phone in his hand. More than anything else, he wondered about that.
Whether to make one more call. There were bars on its little panel when he
powered up, three good bars, but the charge wouldn't last forever, and he knew
it. Nor could he count on the Pulse to continue forever. The batteries sending
the signal up to the corn-satellites (if that was what was happening, and if it
was still happening) might give out. Or the Pulse might mutate into no
more than a simple carrier wave, an idiot hum or the kind of high-pitched shriek
you used to get when you called someone's fax line by mistake.
Snow. Snow on
the twenty-first of October. Was it the twenty-first? He'd lost track of
the days. One thing he knew for sure was that the phoners would be dying out
there, more every night. Johnny would have been one of them, if Clay hadn't
searched and found him.
The question
was, what had he found?
What had he
saved?
Dieey.
Daddy?
Maybe.
Certainly the
kid hadn't said anything even remotely resembling a word since then. He had been
willing to walk with Clay . . . but he'd also been prone to wandering off in his
own direction. When he did that, Clay had to grab him again, the way you grabbed
a tot who tried to take off in a supermarket parking lot. Each time Clay did
this he couldn't help thinking of a windup robot he'd had when he was a kid, and
how it would always find its way into a corner and stand there marching its feet
uselessly up and down until you turned it back toward the middle of the room
again.
Johnny had put
up a brief, panicky fight when Clay had found a car with the key in it, but once
he got the boy buckled and locked in and got the car rolling, Johnny had quieted
again and seemed to become almost hypnotized. He even found the button that
unrolled the window and let the wind blow on his face, closing his eyes and
lifting his head slightly. Clay watched the wind blowing back his son's long,
dirty hair and thought,
God help me, it's like riding with a dog.
When they came
to a road-reef they couldn't get around and Clay helped Johnny from the car, he
discovered his son had wet his pants. He's lost his
toilet training along with his language, he had thought
dismally. Christ on
a crutch. And that turned
out to be true, but the consequences weren't as complicated or dire as Clay
thought they might be. Johnny was no longer toilet-trained, but if you stopped
and led him into a field, he would urinate if he had to. Or if he had to squat,
he'd do that, looking dreamily up at the sky while he emptied his bowels.
Perhaps tracing the courses of the birds that flew there. Perhaps
not.
Not
toilet-trained, but housebroken. Again, Clay was helpless not to think of dogs
he had owned.
Only dogs did
not wake up and scream for fifteen minutes in the middle of each
night.
That first night
they had stayed in a house not far from the Newfield Trading Post, and when the
screaming started, Clay had thought Johnny was dying. And although the boy had
fallen asleep in his arms, he was gone when Clay snapped awake. Johnny was no
longer in the bed but under it. Clay crawled underneath, into a choking cavern
of dust-kitties with the bottom of the box spring only an inch above his head,
and clutched a slender body that was like an iron rail. The boy's shrieks were
bigger than such small lungs could produce, and Clay understood that he was
hearing them amplified in his head. All of Clay's hair, even his pubic hair,
seemed to be standing up straight and stiff.
Johnny had
shrieked for nearly fifteen minutes there under the bed, then ceased as abruptly
as he had begun. His body went limp. Clay had to press his head against Johnny's
side (one of the boy's arms somehow squeezed over his neck in the impossibly
small space) to make sure he was breathing.
He had dragged
Johnny out, limp as a mailsack, and had gotten the dusty, dirty body back onto
the bed. Had lain awake beside him almost an hour before falling soddenly asleep
himself. In the morning, the bed had been his alone again. Johnny had crawled
underneath once more. Like a beaten dog, seeking the smallest shelter it could
find. Quite the opposite of previous phoner behavior, it seemed . . . but of
course, Johnny wasn't like them. Johnny was a new thing, God help
him.
6
Now they were in the cozy caretaker's
cottage next to the Springvale Logging Museum. There was plenty to eat, there
was a woodstove, there was fresh water from the hand-pump. There was even a
chemical toilet (although Johnny wouldn't use it; Johnny used the backyard). All
mod cons, circa 1908.
It had been
quiet time, except for Johnny's nightly screaming fit. There had been time to
think, and now, standing here by the living room window and watching snow skirl
up the street while his son slept in his little closet hidey-hole, there was
time to realize that the time for thinking was done. Nothing was going to change
unless he changed it.
You'd need
another cellphone, Jordan had
said. And you'd need to take him to a place where there's
coverage.
There was
coverage here. Still coverage. He had the bars on the cell phone to prove
it.
How much
worse can it be? Tom had asked. And shrugged. But of course he could
shrug, couldn't he? Johnny wasn't Tom's kid, Tom had his own kid
now.
It all depends
on whether or not brains do what seriously protected computers do when they're
hit with an EMP, Jordan had
said. They save to system.
Save to system.
A phrase of some power.
But you'd have
to wipe the phoner program first to make space for such a highly theoretical
second reboot, and Jordan's idea—to hit Johnny with the Pulse yet again,
like lighting a backfire—seemed so spooky, so off-the-wall dangerous, given
the fact that Clay had no way of knowing what sort of program the Pulse had
mutated into by now . . . assuming (makes an ass out of you and me, yeah,
yeah, yeah) it was still up and running at all. . .
"Save to
system," Clay whispered. Outside the light was almost gone; the skirling snow
looked more ghostly than ever.
The Pulse was
different now, he was sure of that. He remembered the first phoners he'd
come upon who were up at night, the ones at the Gurleyville Volunteer Fire
Department. They had been fighting over the old pumper, but they had been doing
more than that; they had been talking. Not just making phantom vocalizations
that might have been words, talking. It hadn't been much, not brilliant
cocktail-party chatter, but actual talk, just the same. Go away. You go. Hell
you say. And the always popular Mynuck. Those two had been different
from the original phoners—the phoners of the Raggedy Man Era—and Johnny was
different from those two. Why? Because the worm was still munching, the Pulse
program was still mutating? Probably.
The last thing
Jordan had said before kissing him goodbye and heading north was
If you set a new version of the program against the one Johnny
and
the others got
at the checkpoint, they might eat each other up. Because that's what worms do.
They eat.
And then, if the
old programming was there . . . if it was saved to the system . . .
Clay found his
troubled mind turning to Alice—Alice who had lost her mother, Alice who had
found a way to be brave by transferring her fears to a child's sneaker. Four
hours or so out of Gaiten, on Route 156, Tom had asked another group of normies
if they'd like to share their picnic site by the side of the road. That's
them, one of the men had said. That's the Gaiten bunch. Another had
told Tom he could go to hell. And Alice had jumped up. Jumped up and
said—
"She said at
least we did something," Clay said as he looked out into the darkening street.
"Then she asked them, 'Just what the fuck did you do?' "
So there was his
answer, courtesy of a dead girl. Johnny-Gee wasn't getting better. Clay's
choices came down to two: stick with what he had, or try to make a change while
there was still time. If there was.
Clay used a
battery-powered lamp to light his way into the bedroom. The closet door was
ajar, and he could see Johnny's face. In sleep, lying with his cheek on one hand
and his hair tousled across his forehead, he looked almost exactly like the boy
Clay had kissed goodbye before setting out for Boston with his Dark Wanderer
portfolio a thousand years ago. A little thinner; otherwise pretty much the
same. It was only when he was awake that you saw the differences. The slack
mouth and the empty eyes. The slumped shoulders and dangling hands.
Clay opened the
closet door all the way and knelt in front of the cot. Johnny stirred a little
when the light of the lantern struck his face, then settled again. Clay was not
a praying man, and events of the last few weeks had not greatly increased his
faith in God, but he had found his son, there was that, so he sent a
prayer up to whatever might be listening. It was short and
to the point: Tony, Tony, come around, something's lost that can't be
found.
He flipped open
the cell and pushed the power button. It beeped softly. The amber light in the
window came on. Three bars. He hesitated for a moment, but when it came to placing the
call, there was only one sure shot: the one the Raggedy Man and his friends had
taken.
When the three
digits were entered, he reached out and shook Johnny's shoulder. The boy didn't
want to wake up. He groaned and tried to pull away. Then he tried to turn over.
Clay wouldn't let him do either.
"Johnny!
Johnny-Gee! Wake up!" He shook harder and kept on shaking until the boy finally
opened his empty eyes and looked at him with wariness but no human curiosity. It
was the sort of look you got from a badly treated dog, and it broke Clay's heart
every time he saw it.
Last chance,
he thought.
Do you really mean to do this? The odds can't be one in ten.
But what had the
odds been on his finding Johnny in the first place? Of Johnny leaving the
Kashwakamak flock before the explosion, for that matter? One in a thousand? In
ten thousand? Was he going to live with that wary yet incurious look as Johnny
turned thirteen, then fifteen, then twenty-one? While his son slept in the
closet and shat in the backyard?
At least we
did something, Alice Maxwell had said.
He looked in the
window above the keypad. There the numbers 911 stood out as bright and black as
some declared destiny.
Johnny's eyes
were drooping. Clay gave him another brisk shake to keep him from falling asleep
again. He did this with his left hand. With the thumb of his right he pushed the
phone's call button. There was
time to count Mississippi ONE and Mississippi TWO before calling in the phone's little lighted
window changed to connected. When
that happened, Clayton Riddell didn't allow himself time to think.
"Hey,
Johnny-Gee," he said, "Fo-fo-you-you." And pressed the cell against his son's
ear.
December 30, 2004-October 17, 2005 Center Lovell, Maine
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~
Chuck Verrill edited the book and did a
great job. Thanks, Chuck.
Robin Furth did
research on cell phones and provided various theories on what may lie at the
core of the human psyche. Good info is hers; errors in understanding are mine.
Thanks, Robin.
My wife read the
first-draft manuscript and said encouraging things. Thanks, Tabby.
Bostonians and northern New Englanders
will know I took certain geographical liberties. What can I say? It goes with
the territory (to make a small pun).
To the best of
my knowledge, FEMA hasn't appropriated any money to provide backup generators
for cell telephone transmission towers, but I should note that many transmission
towers do have generator backup in case of power outages.
S.K.
Stephen King lives in Maine with his wife,
the novelist Tabitha King. He does not own a cell phone.