Orpheus said:
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<DIV class=quotetitle>? quoting fishy</DIV>
<DIV class=quotetext>it seems he thinks the comp was a failure.
No its not. I swear, some of you have all the sensitivity of a s**thouse seat with splinters. I did not leave because of the admin issue but just once I would like to step down with the same degree of ptroffessionalism that I took the posisition. Every f**king tome I get a green name, some asswipe starts an argument and I lose it before I can return and log in the next time. My green name this time was
primarilly for the competition but since I did an exemplary job while I was an admin, I assumed that since there was a shortness of green names actively here that keeping it was something I was going to have to deal with for a while. I did talk to Duncan and Gwil about recruitments.... I assume that this is partly why we have two new faces that are now green. Losing it right after an argument looked like I lost it due to something I did instead of in reality losing it due to its limited nature which was for the competition. It was just really bad timing and I was depressed about my home situation.
My woes are numerous, and coming here is only adding to them, not reducing them like it should be. The childishness of late is just more than this old man can deal with. Whether you all have the ablity to not take what happens here serious or not is illrelevant, I cannot just let bygones be bygones. I am quite honestly tired of having to explain my thoughts to people half my age and with probably less than a quarter of my lifes accomplishments. THAT doesn't reduce their accomplishments, but that also doesn't elevate them to my level either... Online, everyone may be equal, but we discuss things that transcend online. Especially whenever it takes on personal belief systems.
My problems are mostly real life ordeals. The price of fuel has reduced my income to near poverty levels. I am still living in a motor home because every damned time I find a new place, someone beats me to the owner and buys it out from under me.I absoluetely must have a place of a certain size and location and that severely reduces my options when moving. I am not even able to remain online for more than a few minutes because my new 56k modem hates my computer. It literally locks the system up now. My being on 56k is nearly insurmountable and quite frankly, more trouble than its worth since coming here was my only motivation for being online. This place is litterally no fun to be around anymore.
The fact that I seem to have some sort of spyware thats so bad, that adaware locks up trying to remove it. Spybot cannot even find it so I am forced to remove my modem in the control panel daily and allowing the machine to reinstall the drivers every time. I am now in fact writing this via notepad so that I will have some semi-permenant record of my words in fear of losing them to the nether regions of a reboot. It has literally been so bad, that I have not been online more than 3 times since my past login. If I cannot find some way to fix my spyware situation, I will give up totally untill I can again get broadband.
On the plus side, I am working out a possibility of moving to Phoenix. The job I might get pays substantially more and the hours would be reduced considerably. My job however would remain driving but sadly, not nationwide. I would be restricted to the Arizona area only.
I have also recently rediscovered out-of-doors. Since my connection issues I have been spending much more time outside.
My tan lines are deep.
[edit] Good f**king god notepad sucks. :sad: </div></div>
Hello, just found this thread, first of all congratulations to the new admins, relativley new, i'm just late with congratulating i guess.
I hope morph gets to read this part here:
I understand exactly what your 'problem' is mate, allthough, ofcourse, your real life issues are nothing this 18 year old has ever struggled with, i know that if life is seemingly going down the poop shute, a bunch of adolecents / teenagers on forums argueing with you won't make it any better.
I've let such troubles in my life (not like yours, but still, troublesome troubles i do not wish to further discuss in public forums) judge the people in certain online communities entireley wrong, and i cencereley hope, than when you get that new job / house and your life sparks up again, which i'm pretty sure it will, since your such a determined ol' bugger.
That you will revise all of these arguements and fights you've had online, and look at it from another, maybe more clear perspective.
I know i've had my regrets that i've messed up and acted like a prick on 2 or 3 onlien communities which had cost me adminship and/or gotten me banned for life and i think that if i look back at it, from a now more controlled and regular lifestyle, that i should have acted differently ,or that i would have acted differently, would my life have been normal.
Hope you understand where i'm getting at, basically: Don't give up on the Snarkpit, we love you, we love your posts, we love your precence in this community, you have aides us much and i myself always have great pleasure in reading your posts / comments, and i've learnt alot from them also.
Hope you understand why i posted this and exactly what i mean, i'm finding it quite difficult to explain in English.
Thanks for reading this Orph if you did, and i hope you'll stick with the community and make another 11000 posts in the years to come.
Cheers,
~BioPulse
P.S.
I didn't get to read this complete thread, so take this as a reply to the post i quoted, and othing else, i did have time to read on, but i felt i needed to post this, and pardon my silly grammar and spelling mistakes.
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